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Posted:Dec 12, 2011 2:20 pm
Last Updated:Dec 13, 2011 12:09 am
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The pieces lie there on the bed
she is broken...
Her spirit, her soul....her heart
She is broken
All the pieces are there...with nobody to put together
she is broken
She smiles every day...
inside she is broken
She does for others....
but inside she is shattered
Broken butterfly...
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Time slows d o w n
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Posted:Dec 11, 2011 7:36 pm
Last Updated:Dec 12, 2011 3:31 am
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Ever have those days that just seem to fly by? Or how bout the opposite end of the spectrum? The days that each minute seems an hour long?
Today was the latter for me. For those that know me, my weekends are my "alone" time, the time when my mini me is with her dad. Well just so happens that Christmas break began Friday after school let out...so that means I'm without my mini me until Christmas day....
Ok, back to the long day.... Usually on the weekends (usually no plans) I hang out in my pjs or whatever. Well that's how it was this morning. Was sitting on the computer checking my bookface, blogs, and other spots. Well I began to smell smoke....so started checking the apt. Nothing... Any other time the hint of a mouse passing gas in the parking lot will set off the smoke/fire alarms in the building....not today. Well with the smell very strong, I decided to throw some clothes on...as I'm zipping up jeans I hear a banging on the door...yeppers it's a fireman (no, I didn't notice if he was hot!). Ok....it took awhile for my heart to get out of my throat!
Well no matter what I did today...time dragged... I think part of me was watching the time because Sunday afternoon/evening is when mini me usually comes home...
It's too quiet....
****My gripe for the day: getting tired of guys thinking I am just sitting around waiting for them. Its getting old and I'm really not "easy" no matter what my pictures give the impression....
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Date!
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Posted:Dec 10, 2011 10:22 pm
Last Updated:Dec 12, 2011 2:48 pm
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I know I griped the other day about dating. And how it had been too long since I had been on one. Well got to go on one today...and no it wasn't about sex. It was with a great friend. Here's how it started.
Me and the head (that's what i'm gonna call him...he has an awesome shaved head  )haven't hung out in quite awhile. Well the other day he texted and asked if I had plans this weekend. (HELLO...I never have plans!!!)
Here's the conversation:
Head: Ahhh...guess i'll actually have to build up the nerve toask you out to hang out with you then.
Baby: Hmmm, novel idea
Head:  Do you have anything going Saturday night?
Baby: Nope
Head: Way to leave a boy hanging...
Baby: Head, I have no plans Saturday night.
Head: Would ya like some plans?
Well, never heard another word from him.....So today he texted asking if we were still on? Yeah! So told him I was going to go soak then we could hang...no "real" plans made at that point. Well when he picked me up he announced that he had gotten tickets to see Transiberian Orcherstra!!! So since we had like 6 hours before concert...
We took a drive to a local lake...and took a walk. Talked...walked...listened to one another pour out our hearts. Commiserated....It was great. This is what real friendship is all about! Well we both started getting chilled (hello it is Dec.!) so headed back to his vehicle. Then we made our way to a local Route 66 hot spot....Pop's! Got a drink...laughed over the bottle of BOING soda! (dirty minds... ) So by now it is time to get ready for the concert/show. So head back to the city...dinner time!!! SO love this guy...he knows where all the awesome food spots are! So dinner at Mutt's Amazing Hot Dogs! He had the Philly (kosher with sauteed onions, bell peppers & queso) and he ordered me the club dog (bacon wrapped kosher with avocado, tomato, chopped onion, jack cheese, sliced turkey on a poppy seed bun)! OMG it was awesome!
Well then it was time for the concert. It was great! Awesome! Amazing! The time spent with my friend was definitely what I needed. He dropped me off at my door...one last rub of his head..a big hug...and a promise that we would get together soon!
My spirit has been restored this week in the humans in my life! First an awesome time with my great friend last weekend...mini me is talking to me once again...so my bed is warm once more...then got to hang out with friends both Wed. even/Thurs evening...hung out with a great friend Fri night....then today!!! So this has been great!
Love  , Hugs  , and kisses  from me the baby to you!
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Wow, Am I really that cruel?
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Posted:Dec 10, 2011 9:53 pm
Last Updated:May 1, 2024 10:10 am
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Got to hang out with a friend today. It has been quite awhile since we got a chance to see each other although we text on occasion as well as chat
It seems that the last time we actually hung out...I was a bit of a bitch...and used the "why not me" on him. Why am I the girl only used as a quickie? Why not me for a girlfriend? Why? Why? Why?
Well today we got to hang out and chat...catch up...and he mentioned that he was a little worried about my blog...about what I might say.
Am I really that cruel? I don't remember ever calling out someone. Being out right mean. I have never put someone's name on my blog in a negative way...EVER. I don't write about anyone unless I have their permission.
I truly hope that I am not perceived as that cruel of a person. If so please someone tell me so!
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Thoughts overheard....today!
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Posted:Dec 10, 2011 9:46 pm
Last Updated:May 3, 2012 5:55 pm
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Ok so several things were overheard today.....some good...some not so good.
"I'm not a piece of meat.... You are looking at me like I am a pork chop!"
"You know you like a man with big meaty hands"
"It is what it is"
"....and somewhere on Christmas eve someone's heart is all alone within a crowd. Because a is not at home." (yeah this one broke my heart a bit since my mini me won't be home on Christmas eve and my heart will be all alone)
Yeah...this was an interesting day!
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Ever feel this way?
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Posted:Dec 10, 2011 7:42 am
Last Updated:Dec 10, 2011 10:11 am
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Ok...I know we say it all the time.... But seriously...do some of these people think before they hit that send button? Do these tactics really work? Seriously...these are idiots!
Now I am jumping off the soapbox! Point made... (gotta start coming up with newer, bigger words...so that I don't use the "ok" word too much cuz I tend to bore people..... )
"That Don't Impress Me Much"
by Shania Twain
I've known a few guys who thought they were pretty smart
But you've got being right down to an art
You think you're a genius-you drive me up the wall
You're a regular original, a know-it-all
Oh-oo-oh, you think you're special
Oh-oo-oh, you think you're something else
Okay, so you're a rocket scientist
That don't impress me much
So you got the brain but have you got the touch
Don't get me wrong, yeah I think you're alright
But that won't keep me warm in the middle of the night
That don't impress me much
I never knew a guy who carried a mirror in his pocket
And a comb up his sleeve-just in case
And all that extra hold gel in your hair oughtta lock it
'Cause Heaven forbid it should fall outta place
Oh-oo-oh, you think you're special
Oh-oo-oh, you think you're something else
Okay, so you're Brad Pitt
That don't impress me much
So you got the looks but have you got the touch
Don't get me wrong, yeah I think you're alright
But that won't keep me warm in the middle of the night
That don't impress me much
You're one of those guys who likes to shine his machine
You make me take off my shoes before you let me get in
I can't believe you kiss your car good night
C'mon baby tell me-you must be jokin', right!
Oh-oo-oh, you think you're special
Oh-oo-oh, you think you're something else
Okay, so you've got a car
That don't impress me much
So you got the moves but have you got the touch
Don't get me wrong, yeah I think you're alright
But that won't keep me warm in the middle of the night
That don't impress me much
You think you're cool but have you got the touch
Don't get me wrong, yeah I think you're alright
But that won't keep me warm on the long, cold, lonely night
That don't impress me much
Okay, so what do you think you're Elvis or something...
Oo-Oh-Oh
That don't impress me much!
Oh-Oh-Oh-Oh-No
Alright! Alright!
You're Tarzan!
Captain Kirk maybe.
John Wayne.
Whatever!
That don't impress me much!
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"Finger Me Out!"
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Posted:Dec 10, 2011 7:24 am
Last Updated:May 1, 2024 10:10 am
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As your fingers slide across my skin....
Your fingers feel so sweet. The heat from you is sending waves throughout my body. You tease...
You start off so innocently... A gentle brush across my thigh. Then as time goes by...a little flick of the fingertip so very close to my heat.
Your hands take the initiive and begin to explore. My nipples stand taunt awaiting your attention. As my shirt is lifted off the cool air hits them and they reach toward your heat. I can feel the dampness beginning between my legs.
As we slide off my panties...and I slide onto the bed....my body excites at the thought of your touch.
Your fingers tease...playfully with my nipples....then moving on to carress downward...
Slowly you spread my legs and gently begin to play. Sliding a finger up and down my swollen clit. Up and down....making sure you catch the very tip that is swelling to your touch. Then down...down...down into the wetness you have created. Your finger makes a slow entrance...
My hips begin to move in sync with you. As your finger slides in and out in cadence with my hips your mouth lowers to allow your tongue to taste...and tease.
My body aches...for a touch...a taste...
Can somebody Finger Me Out? Because right now I am totally confused.....
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Finally Friday...
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Posted:Dec 9, 2011 3:38 am
Last Updated:Dec 10, 2011 7:08 am
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So it's finally Friday. Go to work today...then weekend....go to work on Monday...then off until Jan.
Sorry haven't been on to blog...too much on my mind and really trying to stay positive for the most part.
I did have a friend hit me up on messenger yesterday...and he somehow knew I was down. So he listened. While I poured out my troubles. And when I said thanks....he said "for what? I listened, that's what friends do."
So, now I have to just figure out the issues at hand, break them down into smaller parts and work them out the best I can. If all of a sudden it is 120 degrees outside and it is also frozen tundra...yeah you know baby had to hit rock bottom...cuz hell will have frozen over! Which means baby (me) will have had to do something she really doesn't want to do...
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HaHa, you silly girls!
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Posted:Dec 6, 2011 6:28 pm
Last Updated:Dec 7, 2011 2:52 pm
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I can't get over some of the silly girls out there nowadays! I mean I sit back and laugh at some of the stories I hear. The things these women fall for!
I mean guys (for the most part) don't fall for this schtick! But the ladies...WOW!
I mean seriously...a guy starts talking to you. Then once you get to "know" each other...you exchange your email, messenger etc. And they start feeding you all these foolish ideas. And the sad thing is you fall for it!
"well i really want you to know you deserve the best." "yes that is what i want from you. i wanna own that heart completely. i wanna make it all mine and am never gonna hurt you." "i want you to know i miss you so much honey and you always on my mind"
Or how bout this load of crap: "I miss you, my darling, I can almost feel you beside me as I write this letter, and I can smell the scent of wildflowers that always reminds me of you. But at this moment, these things no longer give me pleasure. and I feel sometimes as if the greatest part of who I am is slowly slipping away. I am trying to hold on, though. At night when I am alone, I call for you, and whenever my ache seems to be the greatest, you still seem to find a way to return to me.
Last night, in my dreams, I saw you on the pier. The wind was blowing through your hair, and your eyes held the fading sunlight. I was speechless as I watched you leaning against the rail. You are beautiful, I thought as I saw you, a vision that I could never find in anyone else. I slowly began to walk toward you, and when you finally turned to me, I noticed that others had been watching you as well. "Do you know her?" they asked me in jealous whispers, and as you smiled at me I simply answered with the truth, "Better than I know myself."
I stop when I reach you and I take you in my arms. I long for this moment more than any other. It is what I live for, and when you return my embrace, I give myself over to this moment, at peace once again. I raise my hand and gently touch your cheek and you tilt your head and close your eyes. My hands are hard and your skin is soft, and I wonder for a moment if you'll pull back, but of course, you don't. I know that this is the moment I have been waiting for, and I pray that the moment never ends."
I mean seriously? Do women really believe this stuff? Wow! Silly girls...
****Oh yeah...did I forget to mention that I actually ALMOST fell for this crap? Yeah...these are actual messages and an email I received. And at the time...I was really down in the dumps...but, a friend pulled me back and then I started getting curious...
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Dating....101
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Posted:Dec 6, 2011 5:43 pm
Last Updated:Dec 9, 2011 3:33 am
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Dating 101....Sounds like a good title. I think so, at least. But of course do you know what this blog is about?
Dating seems to be a lost art. I mean in today's times at least. Or maybe it is just me. But I think not! Please inform me if I am mistaken.
You see the way I see things, dating doesn't really exist anymore. I've done the "vanilla" dating sites off/on for the last 3 years. Yes, I did it while I was still "legally" married. But I guess that just makes me a slut! Of course, some of my friends also know the reasons behind the separation & subsequent divorce.
Anyway...vanilla sites, here, blind dates...etc, etc...ETC! And nada, nothing, zilch! Don't get me wrong...I get guys all the time that want to "meet". But I am one of those silly girls that likes to get to know someone before we hop into the sack, bed, backseat...etc!
I mean I really want to get to know you. Talk...laugh...talk... And it seems like more and more, guys want to talk, meet...screw. And that's not what i'm about. Now don't get me wrong...sex is good. But I don't want "sex"...I want more. I want to be able to talk to you BEFORE we hop into bed...and after. I want the little things.
I mean honestly...I can't remember the last time I was actually taken out for a date. SERIOUSLY! And don't get me wrong, a date doesn't have to cost money. Nothing beats just going for a walk. Sitting at a park, lake, etc just people watching... I don't need to be seduced over a candlelight dinner with glasses of wine. I can be seduced over a pb & j in the park if it's done the right way by the right guy.
So who is the right guy? I don't know. Someone that makes me laugh. Smile, think....just be! I don't need the material stuff. Just the little things....hold my hand, tell me a joke, listen to me, hold me when I am down....
I want to have someone date me. And yes I have done the long distance dating. And we made it work too. So, where does that leave me? Good question....
Dating 101....what the hell am I doing wrong? The guys like my pictures, they like my sense of humor...and the ones i've been with haven't complained about the time canoodling either!
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Cold sheets
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Posted:Dec 5, 2011 8:55 pm
Last Updated:Dec 6, 2011 3:56 am
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My bed is cold.
Nobody to hold..
My pillow is lonely.
Where have you gone?
My bed is cold,
I turn and reach for you.
My heart is lonely...
I cry out in the night.
My tears are falling
The pillow is wet...
I will find you soon,
If only in my dreams...
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Another blog...
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Posted:Dec 5, 2011 8:16 pm
Last Updated:Dec 5, 2011 8:38 pm
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Ok...so I actually have several blogs running through my head. But, just don't have the time to sit down for a bit and put them down... That and trying to work them out in my head.
So be patient my most favorite followers! I love you more than you know! Like I said they are there...just got alot on my mind. But I will give you a little clip into the baby's head & heart.
1.Haha, I laughed at you! (yeah, my buddies knows what that one is about!)
2.Date night....what's that?
3.Hell if I know what you're talking about!
4.Somebody to love....
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