OK here's a little about me/us. I haven't had sex with anyone but my husband in 36 years, we were married about a year after I graduated from high school. In high school I had sex with only three other boys. Lately we have only had sex a couple of times a month. A few weeks ago my husband brought home a couple of porn movies to try and spice up our lives. I was amazed how big the guys were in them, my husband is only about 4 or 5 inches and nowhere near as thick as the guys in the movies. In one of them we watched there was a black man with a pretty blonde girl, he was so big and she seemed to really enjoy it. I got really wet and horny and my husband could not satisfy me. All I could do after that was think how nice it would be to get fucked like she did. I've watched that movie over and over without my husband and always ended up playing with myself, I squirted for the first time ever, didn't even know I could do that. That movie made me so horny. Now I have been trying to convince him to let me have sex with a black man but he isn't sure about it. He thinks if I tried it that I would not want him anymore, I still love him but I really want to try sex with black man like the girl in the movie. I hope I can convince him and fulfill my new fantasy. I joined this site without him knowing it. I don't really want to cheat on him but watching that movie and looking on here makes me wonder what I have been missing. Any Advise?