I have been doing the inter net dating thing since before my first divorce was final in all honesty. I have been off and on with the inter net thing. And more recently, on.

I found that in the beginning, there were mostly people like myself out there, unhappily married, looking for a quick fix, and primarily looking for sex.

I had acted on a few of these adventures as they came up. I have to say, that the one night stands never lead to any real gratification. Like I said earlier, it was a quick fix that still left me with that empty hole inside. Trying to find something to complete myself using sex for the solution was not what I really needed.

As this continued, the relentless searching, I found that I needed more, I needed feelings. So I recruited men, unaware, into my little world of self destructive behavior. I used men for attention as I tried to fill the void that I felt. I don't believe that most of the men in this game I played really cared, they were looking for the same quick fix as I was.

I have been through a few "relationships" in this process and am now, for the most part, single. I have finally found some sense of peace after finally taking an inventory of myself and my behaviors. I have come to realize the true nature of my intentions. I used men to fill a void that I had to discover existed with a power greater than myself and greater than I could find between someone