The More the Merrier Closes
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Posted:Jun 3, 2011 11:19 pm
Last Updated:Nov 22, 2011 11:53 pm
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Thank you to our friends who made the group what it was. But what it was is long gone, as are most of the people. Thankfully we have other ways to connect with our dear friends. My honey and I grew tired of trying to support and motivate/stimulate our group and found ourselves venturing out into other places where we were just visitors instead of host/hostess. We continue to enjoy the lifestyle but are traveling without "The More The Merrier". Anyone looking can find us here or through sls.
Thanks again...it was a great ride.
Esse
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Exotic Erotic Planning
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Posted:May 30, 2010 8:13 am
Last Updated:May 16, 2024 2:7 pm
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We're planning to attend the EEB again this year and I'm looking for costume ideas for my honey and I. He's been many times and has done some great costumes (Big bad wolf & little red / Preacher & nun / Fred & Wilma). Since we have been together I've been in charge of the costumes, and I'd love some help coming up with a great idea. I'm attaching last years photo from the ball. I'm smaller than I have ever been, and recenlty had plastic surgery, so I'm looking for something hot! LOL Any suggestions are appreciated tho.
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Trying to say goodbye
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Posted:Mar 31, 2010 8:55 pm
Last Updated:Nov 22, 2011 11:54 pm
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Everytime I sign on here I see a picture of myself I really like. The trouble is that it isn't a acurate representation anymore. I'm quite a bit lighter than I was in that picture and while it's a good thing I am having a hard time letting go of that image in my mind. I love the curves in that shot and frankly I don't know how I look from that angle anymore. LOL It's been a challenge getting my mind caught up with the physical changes, but I'm getting there. This seems to be one last remnant I can't quite let go of.
I guess Tazzie and I will have to set up a photo shoot and maybe I'll find a picture I like just as well.
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Less is more
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Posted:Mar 15, 2010 8:47 pm
Last Updated:May 3, 2012 5:45 pm
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Oh it's been such a long time since I've been in here. There has been so much going on! My honey had quite a battle with his health and with the medical team that is supposed to be helping him but seem to be more of a hinderance. It was all consuming for quite a while, but I'm trying to grab more time for myself.
While all of that was going on, I was steadily losing weight. Not because I was sick or stressed, but because I was supposed to! I've now lost 80 pounds and feel great. I'm going to lose another 10, but that is where I want to stop. I originally thought I wanted to lose more, but looking in the mirror I'm satisfied with the weight loss. The thing I'm not satisfied with is the effects of that weight loss on my body. I've said for years the only plastic surgery I'd ever want would be a lift to bring the girls back to their former glory. Guess what? I'd like that and a bit more. Now I'm looking at a lift with augmentation (to keep the fullness I had), and I'd also like a tummy tuck (who knew the parts south of the border would sag too?). I've checked out a couple of highly recommended surgeons in my home town, but they are pricey. I know someone who had work done in San Diego at a much more reasonable cost, so I'm going to be checking that one out too. More bang for my buck as it were.
I had a friend ask me if I was going to become one of those plastic people, and my response was "What's wrong with plastic"?
I can see how people get hooked on doing things in our youth obsessed world, but I think I can quit with what I have planned. Fortunately my honey supports my choice knowing it will be a huge boost to my confidence. I feel great having lost weight, but I can tell you that I'm still adjusting to the many changes in my appearance and I've been rather lost, not recognizing my own reflection. It takes a toll on your sense of self. I trust given time and some effort I will be "myself" again soon. If I can't find myself, then I think I'll just make up a new persona and go with that!
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MIA
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Posted:Oct 21, 2009 11:25 pm
Last Updated:Mar 15, 2010 8:21 pm
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I stopped by tonight and checked out my group. It has been horribly slow there (as are all the groups I know), and I can't generate the energy or enthusiasm to do much about it. In fact I missed my own chat night tonight.
In many ways I feel like a shadow of my former self. I keep thinking I'll get revitatlized and be excited by this place again, but it hasn't happened. I love the friends I have here, and don't seem to care about expanding my group anymore or making new friends.
It feels like the Esse that was is slippin away and I don't think I like it.
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It spreads like a disease
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Posted:Aug 5, 2009 5:37 pm
Last Updated:Aug 6, 2009 8:51 pm
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Negativity. Have you ever noticed how contagious it is? It's like a black cloud that spreads and engulfs those around the source, if they let it.
I've been known to get caught up in it myself. Sometimes at work I'll find myself joining in the bitch session, but rarely do I feel better afterwards. It's like everyone starts feeding on the seed of negativity and it just keeps growing. If you're not careful you'll become one of the toxic ones. You know who I mean, those people that always spew forth discontent with everything.
I prefer to try and remain optomistic. I like seeing the glass half full, and I've been known to wear rose colored glasses. I want to believe in the good in people. I don't like to dwell on the bad stuff, I don't want to be angry all the time. It takes too much energy. I like taking a breath when things get to be too much, and thinking about all the things that I do have, rather than what I do not. I believe you get what you put out into the world, so I definately want to send out good energy!
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Romantic nights
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Posted:Aug 2, 2009 10:22 pm
Last Updated:May 16, 2024 2:7 pm
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Spent the weekend in Reno with my honey, his and our friends and their . We we had an event to attend Saturday and Sunday morning, but took the time to go have some fun Saturday evening. The intention was to take the out and let them burn some energy and then take them back to the hotel and have a few hours of adult entertainment. Ha! Best laid plans...we never did get to the adult part of the evening. However after watching the fly through the air on some crazy thrill rides, Tazzies suggested we check out the golf "course" on the lake for later use. To our surprise it was open until 2 a.m., so they got a couple of buckets of balls and off we went. While I sat and relaxed and watched them knocking balls out into the lake, I was entertained by a lovely lightning storm that was truly magnificent. It was a warm night and I was comfortable in my skirt and tank top. It was a pleasant evening and I know my honey had fun spending time with his .
One wish though, can we have a repeat of the storm with my honey and I cuddled up some place private and make a "romantic evening" of it?
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Pain in the Brain
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Posted:Jul 30, 2009 10:28 pm
Last Updated:Jul 14, 2015 9:01 pm
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Do you know what it's like when you're trying to avoid thinking about something, and people keep bringing it up?
I am dealing with that now though not very well. There is something I am desperately avoiding. I don't know how to deal with it. I can't deal with it. I have no control of it, so I choose to avoid it. It's there, it's in my head, I'm aware of it, but I'm trying very hard to keep it stuffed away.
Why? Because it hurts like hell, and as I said I have no control over it. I can't change it, bend it to my will, or force it to do what I want. But it keeps getting brought up, and each time it tears a little piece of me apart. Ugh.
Okay...going back to being an ostrich.
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Pain in the Brain
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Posted:Jul 30, 2009 10:27 pm
Last Updated:May 16, 2024 2:7 pm
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Do you know what it's like when you're trying to avoid thinking about something, and people keep bringing it up?
I am dealing with that now though not very well. There is something I am desperately avoiding. I don't know how to deal with it. I can't deal with it. I have no control of it, so I choose to avoid it. It's there, it's in my head, I'm aware of it, but I'm trying very hard to keep it stuffed away.
Why? Because it hurts like hell, and as I said I have no control over it. I can't change it, bend it to my will, or force it to do what I want. But it keeps getting brought up, and each time it tears a little piece of me apart. Ugh.
Okay...going back to being an ostrich.
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Singing
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Posted:Jul 22, 2009 8:43 pm
Last Updated:May 16, 2024 2:7 pm
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Oh what the hell she says
I just can't win for losing
And she lays back down
Man there's so many times
I don't know what I知 doin'
Like I don't know now
By the light of the moon
She rubs her eyes
Says it's funny how the night
Can make you blind
I can just imagine
And I don't know what I知 supposed to do
But if she feels bad then I do too
So I let her be
And she says oooh
I can't take no more
Her tears like diamonds on the floor
And her diamonds bring me down
Cuz I can't help her now
She痴 down in it
She tried her best and now she can't win it's
Hard to see them on the ground
Her diamonds falling down
She sits down and stares into the distance
And it takes all night
And I know I could break her concentration
But it don't feel right
By the light of the moon
She rubs her eyes
Sits down on the bed and starts to cry
And there's something less about her
And I don't know what I知 supposed to do
So I sit down and I cry too
And don't let her see
And she says oooh
I can't take no more
Her tears like diamonds on the floor
And her diamonds bring me down
Cuz I can't help her now
She痴 down in it
She tried her best and now she can't win it's
Hard to see them on the ground
Her diamonds falling down
She shuts out the night
Tries to close her eyes
If she can find daylight
She値l be all right
She値l be all right
Just not tonight
And she says oooh
I can't take no more
Her tears like diamonds on the floor
And her diamonds bring me down
Cuz I can't help her now
She痴 down in it
She tried her best and now she can't win it's
Hard to see them on the ground
Her diamonds falling down
(Her Diamonds - Rob Thomas)
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A night out
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Posted:Jun 27, 2009 11:54 pm
Last Updated:Jul 14, 2015 9:02 pm
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My honey and I went out Friday night joining our friends at our monthy meet n greet.
It was a rather quiet night with a small group of good people. I wore something I hadn't been able to wear for a while, and that always puts a smile on my face. I recieved many compliments from our friends, which made me feel great. But I was really touched when my dear friend called me this morning to tell me how fantastic I looked, that it was something different about me radiating from inside that made me look so good. 
How sweet of her to take the time to call me and tell me that, and to know she is sincere just makes a girl feel wonderful.
But the best things about last night were sitting snuggled up to my honey, with his arm around me keeping me warm. And the lovely compliment he paid me. He notices everything, but doesn't often say anything one way or another, which is fine. It makes it all the more special when he does say something, and last night was one of those times. Of course the very best thing was the time we spent together once we got back home. Which is why I have this grin on my face today 
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Open mouth insert...
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Posted:Jun 25, 2009 11:25 pm
Last Updated:Jun 27, 2009 12:08 am
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So after just saying how fantastic I have been doing, apparently I overdid it and got some food stuck in my new little pouch. The pain was almost unbearable, and lasted somewhere around 7 hours. Just as Taz was about to haul me into the ER it finally eased up. Thank God! Yikes, I have not had pain like that since I had gallstones which required a shot of Demerol to dull the pain.
Luckily today is better and I've learned a leasson in paying attention while I'm eating because even one bite can cause the overload I described above.
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The me inside
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Posted:Jun 23, 2009 9:15 pm
Last Updated:Jun 28, 2009 4:17 pm
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I am so fortunate. My surgery went well, and recovery has been nothing short of amazing. I feel fantastic! However someone pointed out to me the other day that I've already lost my ass. What??? Oh crap that can't be! But I tried on a swimsuit and found out she was right. Dammit! This sounds ridiculous, but I love my ass. I didn't always, but I finally let all those comments sink into my head and I realized I had a nice ass. Or at least I used too. Now I've got to really work to tone it (and everything else) back up. Can you say squats and lunges? UGH!
I also know what the combination of weight loss and exercise do to my libido, and frankly I get a bit nervous that I'll go a little crazy. It's quite intoxicating to feel sexy strong and powerful, which is exactly what exercise/weight loss due for me.
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