Waiting in Vain
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Posted:May 10, 2011 10:27 am
Last Updated:Aug 11, 2014 9:30 pm
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Make every second count
Because I won’t be here tomorrow
I’m not planning on it anyway
If you have something to say
Well, fucking say it
Don’t hide behind falsified walls
That can’t exist for much longer
Than your strength allows
Because you’re the mason
A self proclaimed savant of hands
And I’m not the cement
You must be mistaken
If you think I’ll linger
In your shadow
(Which is fleeting, by the way)
Like some sick puppy
Begging to be stroked
By its master’s hand
I’ll replace you with fantasy
In your absence I’ll be the queen
And servants will bow at my feet
Comforting my every whim
They may not care, really
But they drool at my power
You, well, you, are not here
So fuck you and your crowded life
Continue sitting on your lofty pedestal
And contemplate the edge of the knife
That I’ll plunge into your heart
Because at this point
We’re so far apart
That I can’t even feel you
And when you bleed
And cry my name
For me, it’ll be silent
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Letting off some steam
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Posted:May 10, 2011 10:23 am
Last Updated:Apr 27, 2024 4:35 pm
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You know what?
I fucking hate most people
I really do
With their prissy mindsets
And their holier than thou demeanor
It's so aggravating
That I just want to smack the stupid out of them
With their, “do you know what happened to so & so?" questions
And their smug, “look at me!” attitudes
No, I fucking don’t know!
But I'm sure you won't hesitate to tell me
Just for the hell of it
And to make me feel bad
About who I am
Well, get a life already!
Or better yet
Learn how to smile
Instead of being so stuck on yourself
I bet you don't laugh either
You probably spell it out “HA HA HA”
Come on!
Get the fucking stick out of your ass
Or the dick, whichever it is
But it's something
You can't walk and talk like that
Without it being something
You should cheer the fuck up already and smile
The world doesn't hate you
But I do
Sorry you thought I was so sweet
And kind "I am just not kind to snobs"
I fucking can't stand them
I really don't care if anyone likes me either
I'm me I'll always be me and if no one likes it don't look my way
Keep it moving to someone that will let you belittle them just so you can feel good about yourself,
So I'll end this rant as I do many others with a fuck you and have a nice day,,
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Low as dirt
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Posted:May 10, 2011 10:18 am
Last Updated:May 1, 2014 9:34 pm
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I tried to count my blessings,
But I ran out of middle fingers.
You thought I was a butterfly,
But now you feel my stingers.
My day ends,
Before I get out of bed.
I didn't expect much respect,
But I wanted some i guess.
I don't need your excuses,
For why you're acting dumb.
No one wants you here,
Go back to where you're from.
I don't care about your feelings,
And fuck your point of view.
I never asked for your opinion,
I do what I want to do.
I'm gonna do what makes me happy.
I don't care if you get hurt.
Maybe if you were less blind,
You'd realize you're low as dirt.
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The piece of mind
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Posted:May 10, 2011 10:16 am
Last Updated:Jun 17, 2014 5:47 am
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don't judge me
when i speak a piece of mind
silence is not golden
when i need a way to unwind
I put the pen to the paper
i say it how it is
but you take me to offense
you think i'm taking the piss
i have multiple personalities
there's always a different way to climb
so many emotions
you just need to catch me at the right time
sometimes i want to kill
sometimes i want to cry
sometimes i want to destroy
sometimes i want to die
its not just my emotions
you should worry about my actions
the words you just heard
have no reactions
sometimes i could get even
sometimes i could give up
sometimes i could give
sometimes i never give a fuck
deep inside were all somebody
it doesn't matter who you want to be
we don't have to be labeled
its something you couldn't see
I'm the only witness
to the nature of my crime
so i climbed inside your emotions
but you still couldn't see inside my mind
but listen to who's talking
because I'm not the only one
you think your innocent and young
but look at what you have done
you judge a book by its cover
and you read it how you want
you read between selected lines
and pick a suitable font
if i offended your point of view
would you be so childish and weak
or could you just just except me
and could you turn the other cheek
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Unfaithful Angel
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Posted:Apr 17, 2011 6:27 pm
Last Updated:Apr 21, 2011 9:06 am
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Unfaithful Angel
Your cheating ass deserves to fall
Straight down to earth
Your wings burned off
Singe your sainthood
With mud and scrapes
No more souls will you ever …
Perverted halo
Scorched and burnt
Flaunt virginity
When you yourself are unclean
Tainted unholy souless cavity
Abortion works in your favor
Slaves deserve to be treated better
Than you treat me
Unfaithful Angel…
Spinning in a downward spiral
Lucifer laughs and smiles
Wicked and depraved
He claps his hands together in praise
Better pray to your maker…
Or your ways be damned…
Forgiveness for your actions forbidden
You’ve tasted fruit rotten
Sow your seeds upon dead fields
Your sinful path won’t be forgiven
Those cruel intentions can’t stay hidden forever…
Abominations prevent your savior
From working miracles in your favor
You deserve all you get
Unfaithful Angel…
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Hiding
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Posted:Apr 17, 2011 4:03 pm
Last Updated:Apr 27, 2024 4:35 pm
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Hiding
you don't know
what is hidden
behind this smile
but
maybe
if you look close enough
you'll find my pain
hidden deep
inside my heart
all of it locked
in a safe
unreachable by
anyone
but
maybe
if you search
deep into my soul
you might find
the key
the key
hidden behind
fake smiles
silent crying
and broken pieces
broken pieces
of my heart
all of this
covering up the pain
of what you did to me
it wouldn't matter
you can't unlock my pain
the lock has rusted shut
it can't be fixed
but that's how you wanted it
Am I right?
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Behind closed eyes
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Posted:Apr 17, 2011 4:00 pm
Last Updated:Apr 27, 2024 4:35 pm
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Behind Closed Eyes
I close my eyes and all I see
Is the memory of you walking away from me
I open my eyes and all I feel
Is the pain you inflicted, my hurt revealed
I miss the light in your eyes
And the joy in your smile
I miss the love in your touch
The comfort of your hugs
You left me here bleeding
A sin life keeps repeating
It's like a game fate plays
Build me up hIgh and toss me in the waves
Flailing in waters way over my head
My eyes reflecting whats been left unsaid
Lungs filling with my salty tears
I'm letting go, after all these years
You see my lifeless body on the ground
You grab the note without a sound
Late at night you read it aloud
Grief envelopes you like a cloud
'To my beloved, I have to say
It's all your fault I've gone away
You tore me up and left me to die
Now tonight I'll watch YOU cry
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Coward To Your Own Misery
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Posted:Mar 26, 2011 9:40 pm
Last Updated:Apr 18, 2011 5:44 am
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Your A Coward To Your Own Misery
You know this cant go on.
Your control is running out and getting old.
You know you get under my skin and yet,
you continue.
You push and pull.
You take and break.
Your tears and guilt trips are working less.
your threats mean nothing to me anymore.
Your about to cut my final thread of sugar coating my words of hurt.
Once you do I'm NOT responsible for my further actions.
You feed off of pity and I've given you more than enough.
you thrive off my suffering no more.
I'll stand up to you for once and you'll cower at my feet.
I can't help but think that's where you belong.
After all you've put me through.
Your problems are not caused by my hand...not yet.
One day you'll get what you've given and you'll beg me for mercy.
It will be too late. Your a coward to your own misery,
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Madness within
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Posted:Mar 26, 2011 9:26 pm
Last Updated:Mar 28, 2011 6:17 am
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I feel it welling up inside
Consuming my soul
Burying me under a catastrophic tide
There's nowhere i can go
There's nowhere i can hide
From this constant degradation stripping away my pride.
Failed attempts morph me into a pathetic twisted wreck
I try to walk away but still its breathing down my neck
Horrors in my mind collect
Condensation forming beads of sweat
Drip drip dripping to protect
My body from burning while fear infects
Every orifice of my mind and intellect
confounding me till i don't know what to expect
I'm digging my own grave searching for some respect
But find nothing... not a speck
Now I'm six feet under
Buried in a dream
My heart is torn asunder
All i wanna do is scream
Ah but wait..
Maybe everything isn't what it seems
You see i have this habit of taking everything to the extreme
When it seems all hope is lost
when i just feel like dying
I can look up towards the sky and know that there's a silver lining
One can search the whole wide world in the hopes of finding
Something they had all along
Their heart just needs reminding
In the midst of the rain
The pain
And the stressing
Things that may seem bad at first can still end up a blessing
So whenever i feel my head start to spin
And this emptiness is never gonna end...
Ill still come out on top
And ill find a way to stop
The madness that's within
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The Writer
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Posted:Mar 26, 2011 9:19 pm
Last Updated:Apr 27, 2024 4:35 pm
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The Writer
An artist paints
A singer sings but what does a writer do?
Could a writer be condemned for writing?
If a cab driver tries to drive an airplane
Then he or she may disappear and never
be seen again because he or she tried to operate outside their domain.
What if a mute tries to speak with his or her tongue?
Mare mutter would be the sound.
Those to be condemned are they that try to do what they cannot
Like a Latin dancer doing "limbo" at samba dance festival.
But what else can a writer do but write
If a writer stops writing then he or she is no longer a writer
then their identity would be taken away and folks would hear no more
and his or her hobby lost forever and their joy ripped away
But the writer will not stop!
Because if he or she does then he or she will cease to exist!
A singer sings, a dancer dances and a writer writes...
The writer refuses to be condemned to death
by critics who dwell in an oblivion of bewilderment
drowning in assumptions instead of asking questions
and now they condemn to death the writer
who will not put down the pen
because if he or she does that then he or she will
cease to exist
and be forgotten forever
like a dead peasant without heirs or property.
That is not what the writer wants…
So the writer would write… so even after death he or she would
be remembered for what he or she really is, was and forever shall be
a writer..
so the writer will write...
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Our reflection
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Posted:Mar 22, 2011 12:57 am
Last Updated:Mar 22, 2011 10:47 am
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I peered into the looking glass
to see me
I had a double take
because in that reflection
was we.
I was weak
and now I am strong
a confident woman
is all you say you wanted
all along.
This broken woman
Is now a force
so now you must look
upon yourself
do you see remorse?
Behind you
is a trail of wronged love
no longer for you
to claim glory
masked face, hand gloved
You take from us
and pretend to be selfless
"it's for our own good"
you repeat and repeat
but still you are selfish.
You will relive each day
for it is you that has not grown
as you push us up
it is your own life
that you refuse to own.
Stop the cycle
stop the fear
because what you wanted
all along
has always been here
Move to the next
and pretend it is what you need
only in your feeble mind
there is a tree..a plant
a seed.
I only wish for you
is to see a love so true
one that never leaves
stays with you
like me, if you only knew
So go to her
leave me be
but when it all falls apart
and all before has left
the only light for you....will still be me
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Adversity
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Posted:Mar 22, 2011 12:38 am
Last Updated:Mar 22, 2011 7:17 am
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Lost in a cloud of dust,
There's no one left to trust,
My soul burning on fire,
He turned out to be nothing but a liar,
I should've seen right through his words,
I shouldn't have let him in to make me hurt,
I ignored all the signs,
I saw but turned a blind eye,
How stupid was i,
How naive,
To think someone like him could change,
I let the tears roll of my back,
Another lesson learned,
Another crack,
I look in the mirror and tell myself,
I'm too good for this,
He needs help,
I push the thought of guilt and worthlessness from my head,
I may be broken but i'm not dead.
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Sin and Bloom
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Posted:Mar 22, 2011 12:30 am
Last Updated:Apr 27, 2024 4:35 pm
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Words
They burn like fire
I see the liar
in you
speaking into the mirror
the fear
is truth.
Stories
A perfect con
I am beyond
the moon
screaming to the wind
I sin
and bloom.
Sparks
but you're not there
to know this stare
Collapse
inside his mouth
moments
I grasp.
I know myself
but you don't know me
I touch myself
but you can't touch me
I change myself
but you can't change me
The realization is beyond us.
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