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Posted:Feb 6, 2009 12:45 am
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Well today so far has been a very good day over here, but only so far, I still haven’t gone to work yet.
See in the army you have to have a PT test every 6 months, well when we got over here we were told we would have a record sometime in the coming months. Well our SFC decided that we would have a diagnostic PT test every month, what fun.
Well we just had our latest one and it went darn good for me. I have been pushing myself hard since the last one and it has shown in the scores. I got the highest number of pushups since I been in and considering I broke my wrist a year ago not too bad. I got 60 pushups, 74 situps and 15:43 on my run. Best so far but I know I can do over 80 situps, I have done it before, I just got to get back to that. the run time could have been better but we had a stiff headwind for the first mile, that added a lot of resistance to the run, next time though I am aiming for 72 pushups and 15:00 for the run.
If I can do that I will have around a 270 to 280 score, and that will be fricken awesome for me. It might mean getting the waiver to E4, there is maybe 5 for the whole company and 40 people going for the waivers. I need all the kudos I can get, a good PT score is essential.
I am fricken happy though with the pushups, since last month I added 17 pushups, darn good.
Well I hope it is finding you all doing good today and you keep having a good day as well.
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Merry Christmas
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Posted:Dec 24, 2008 1:18 pm
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Well I will be keeping this blog short and sweet as possible.
To everyone out there a merry Christmas to all and hopefully you have many naughty nights ahead of you.
I probably won’t be on for a while, I don’t have net available to me like I did before, so I will be using this time to focus on a few things. Physical training, writing two novels. The first my own fantasy world, and the second something for my and wife. Just basically a short biography of the things I been through and the lessons I learned.
I just got back from R&R and most of it was filled with me traveling to see my uncle before he went into the hospital for life threatening brain surgery just after he suffered a stroke.
I wish you all well in the future, have a Merry Christmas or Happy Holidays and hopefully soon see you all when I return safely to the states.
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Shattered Mirrors
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Posted:Dec 4, 2008 12:06 pm
Last Updated:Dec 4, 2008 8:05 pm
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Being back here in the states has been a fun time, I got just ten days left here before returning to the sandbox. While being back here an interesting thought occurred to me, or I should say kind of crept up on me. I was watching the Tv the other day and there popped on a news story about morals in and teenagers. They did a survey of teenagers and and asking them about cheating, lying, and morals. A lot of them said they lie, they cheat and yet 93% of them said they have morals.
Wow, talk about lying right there. It is ok to lie and cheat and yet they have morals, hmm I wonder what type of morals they have. Definitely not the same as mine.
See if believe it is just plain cowardice to lie, even if it means you protect yourself or achieve something, it is harder to stand up and face the consequences of the truth than it is to lie. Most people can look themselves I n the mirror and not even blink when they lie, cheat, steal or do something wrong. Me not so much, I get a twitch to my left eye when I am doing something wrong, it is part of my soul saying hey, wrong choice, and until I do the right thing my eye keeps twitching. What can I say I am a horrible liar, and to me that is a good thing.
Just a few days ago me and my wife were out shopping for my dad for presents for Christmas and well he likes to read, loves Halo and Serenity the TV show and the books about Dresden. Well I found graphic novels of all three so I picked them up and went to check out. As the guy was scanning them two of the books stuck together and he only scanned one. I though he missed it but I wasn’t sure, after he rang us up I looked at the receipt as we started to walk out, saw the book wasn’t on there, the book was 30$ too not cheap by any stretch of the imagination, and walked back and had him rescan it and pay for it. Then what the cashier said made me a little sad on the state of things.
“wow no one has ever done that before, thank god for good Samaritans.”
I just thought, why it is so rare to do that? it is the right thing to do, the only thing to do, but yet I know I am probably one of the few who would have the integrity to do it, why is that?
Why are people so unwilling to stand up for the truth any more, has it become so easy to lie and look at yourself in the mirror? That does sadden me.
In my MI oath there is a line, “and above all else integrity, for in truth lies victory.”
Before I left I was talking to a few around the command about trying to go to 160th SOAR, well one of the SSG there said inflate your PT score, make yourself look good. I just can’t do that, I really want to get into SOAR, but not at that cost, I would not be able to look myself in the mirror. When I call up the recruiter I will tell him the truth of the matter, I broke my arm just a year ago and tore tendons in my foot and I am still recovering from those injuries, my PT isn’t the best, but it isn’t the worst either. And I keep improving each month as I push myself hard, harder than most right now.
(sighs) yeah I might not get into SOAR because of the low PT scores, but at least at the end of the day I can look myself in the mirror at night. At least I can say I kept my integrity intact and if I do get into SOAR at least I earned it and not lied.
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thanksgiving
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Posted:Nov 29, 2008 9:17 pm
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Well I am finally home, I arrive yesterday after traveling since the 25th on Iraq time. Oh man was that a long trip home and talk about frustrating at points, maybe one day I will elaborate on what fun I had coming home, oyi.
But man is it good to be home, even for just a few weeks. Hugged my wife and almost broke a few of her ribs, same thing with my . Man I am glad to see them again.
Tomorrow we celebrate thanksgiving, yeah I know, late, but they waited for me to be home. I am the cook of the family, I don’t do traditional roles, being a guy normally the wife is the cook, not in my case. It will be a huge has hell meal, and I start having help this year. My oldest will start helping out in the kitchen and learning how I cook, I will pass on my dumpling recipe and gravy as well.
But man do I have a lot of work cut out for me tomorrow. First thing after I get up is get the bird stuffed and put on. I make home made stuffing too, none of that store bought crap. Then after that I start the morning snack meals, first will be cinnamon biscuits and then pigs in a blanket and finally deviled eggs for the small meals until all the food is ready.
After that I get done the sweet potatoe pie, and then start prepping the veggies. First green beans, then carrots and finally the mashed tatters. I make three kinds, one is made with garlic and butter, the next with onions and the final one is sour cream and chives.
I will also be making up fresh buttermilk biscuits, dumplings, and two pies for desert. And all that is just for a family of 5 lol, god I love to cook.
I told my daughters today what I am grateful for, just being home and alive. I am thankful that I live in the country I do, for running water and electricity, clean water and air, internet and cellphones and everything everyone else who has not been in Iraq or Afghanistan takes for granted. I also started to teach them about giving, giving them what few dollars and change we had to give to the salvation army bell ringers. I told them that there are people that have even less then we do and that everyone should always help out no matter how small it is. That we should help others, they are starting to learn some of the lessons I had to learn the hard way.
Well I hope everyone had a great thanksgiving and will have some good holidays to come, when I go back I will have just 9 more months to go before I am home again.
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side effects of siezures
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Posted:Nov 25, 2008 1:32 pm
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Well since I have been told I might be stuck here in Iraq for another few days before we can even get a flight out of here to Kuwait I thought I might as well update the profile a little bit. It should be interesting to see the reactions I get from that one, and as soon as I can I will be changing it to a couples profile as well. Just got to wait for that one till I get home.
With that little update I thought I would also touch on one thing that I had been thinking on for a few days. On my last PT test we held it in the dead of night, 3am just after we got off shift. Well it was pitch black which made running the 2 mile really really fun. (note the horrendous waterfall of sarcasm dripping there)
Well the guys here and I joke a lot about my past with epilepsy, I crack jokes just as bad as they do. Hell you got to laugh about life you know. Well some of them as a joke started to flash flashlights in my eyes, and though I no longer seize it had an interesting effect on me, gave me a little sense of vertigo. Long story short my run sucked that night, kept running off the road lol.
Anyways someone one day asked me about the side effects I have from living with epilepsy so long. Well that got thinking on the past and what effects living with seizures that long has had on me. Well some of the effects have been nerve and muscle damage. I actually find it very hard to shift gears in a car, to keep my right side working with my left is not easy and takes a lot of concentration. The other thing is I have phantom pains, it will suddenly feel like someone is slowly running a knife up my arm, the pain at times has made me almost pass out and other times shed tears fighting it back. I am also all left brain, if I get shot in the right side I am fine.
The one though I didn’t say out loud was what it did to my sex life. The seizures well enhanced orgasms in a very good way. I always have multiple orgasms and even the small ones are intense enough to almost cause me to black out. Needless to say I love this side effect. It has been fun over the years, heck the most times I had an orgasm in one night was 36 times, ah that was a great night. I made sure my wife had just as many, till she told me to stop she couldn’t take any more. Heck I give as good as I receive, it is only fair right?
The one non physical side effect of seizures, or I should say the two is this. I never quit, I have been through hell and back already, I know what it means to suffer, hell I been killed by my seizures. Because of this I never quick, I keep pushing myself. They also made me want to be better then I am now, to be smarter, to be stronger, faster, it has put in me a drive to be the best I can be.
Seizures have not been a bad thing in my life, I am actually very glad I had them.
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a few questions to ponder
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Posted:Nov 24, 2008 4:21 pm
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Well today was my last day of work over here, when I wake up I start to get things done to go on R&R, and I can’t wait too. Hopefully I will not get bumped or anything like that and that the flights happen pretty fast. I don’t feel like wasting a week down in Kuwait right now.
When I get back I will be hitting some of the food places I miss, seeing some movies, having fun with my wife and and just relaxing a little bit. Maybe talk to some more people on here and finally update my profile a little bit as well.
And many do I need a break, after my grandpa died things went to hell in a hand basket back at home. My sis might be loosing her in the 8th month of pregnancy, I hope all goes well there. My stepson is missing in Canada right now. And my Uncle just had a stroke and is not doing too good, I am tempted to say what next, but I really don’t want to know.
You know they say god only puts on your shoulders what you can carry, I wonder how much more I can take?
When I get back to the states my profile will change a bit to reflect all of the thinking I have been doing the last few weeks. It should be interesting to read once I get that updated.
Also one thing that was said to me weeks ago by one of the Sargeants here that I found interesting. A lot of people ask me about the scar I have on my head, well as I said before it is from my brain surgery. I would tell a lot of people about the stuff I have been through and experienced and one day he said that I should write it all down in a book. Honestly I am not sure if I should or not. People tell me it is an inspirational story, but honestly who cares about stuff like that anymore. I might do it for one simple thing, it would be a way for my to know me should I die at some point in time. At least then they might know me as a father and a man.
Who knows, I am still struggling with the idea of writing it all down.
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fog of night
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Posted:Nov 16, 2008 7:09 am
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Last blog for the day before I go and grab some sleep. I have had about 2 hours I think for the day, and even though I can go till my normal sleep, I want to get just a little extra tonight.
This topic hit my mind just as I popped in my ear buds and fired up my music on the laptop and played one of the jazz songs I listen to.
The other day I was asked why I was always so early to go into work, we have 8 hour shifts for my job and most don�t really want to be out of the CHU early, but I am sitting at the bus stop an hour early. One day a few asked me why, I gave them a bs reason why I am out there, because quite frankly I just don�t think they would understand. I said I just like to be early always, and that is true but it isn�t the reason why I sit out there for an hour.
As corny as this might sound, I do that to listen to my MP3 player with no one bugging me or talking to me, and I also watch the sunset as well.
I love music, when I was in Basic besides my family that was the hardest thing not having, my music. To me a good song is great as any masterpiece of art, and I love art as well, so that should tell you something. The melody, the flow of notes and voices combining into one, nothing can be better for the soul. At times I just listen to the music after doing my job, it helps me put it to the back of my mind, even if just for a few minutes. Every day I see reports of death, this many civilians killed in an IED attack, mortar attack, murder by some group just because they had a store the other group wanted, all I do every day is read about death and pain. It weighs on you just as much as looking at it. I read all this to understand the enemy and try and defeat them, and it burdens you to know these things, to look into the mind of darkness, of pure evil, to try and understand them and predict them to beat them.
So when the music starts to flow all that gets pushed away for even just a few minutes, I let all the melodies, the instruments and soft voices just flow through me and take it away.
The other reason why I am early every day is to watch the sun set, because to me each day is very precious. You know that saying, stop and smell the roses, well that is the reason. I have to admire beauty in everything and every day. From the sunset, to a gorgeous lady, to wild flowers in a field or a flock of birds flying through the air. I take it all in, why, well the simple answer is this, I don�t know when the next time I will get to see it will be. I have been legally dead twice in my life, I do not take a single moment for granted, each sunset is another day I made it through, another moment I get to savor. It also puts in stark contrast the reality of the times we live in, of the evil that pervades the world. When I look upon those golden rays streaming through the air coloring the clouds a radiant pink, purple, gold and copper color it helps me deal with the darkness I see overlaid on the world.
Each day, music and the setting sun help me to move onto the next day, it makes me also think of why I am here right now, to make a better world for my , my wife, my friends and the innocent that bleed so often.
Many I work with don�t know how poetic I really am or my true thoughts, they see me as the guy who marches on despite all that is thrown against him, I keep one foot falling in front of the other for a reason.
Through this fog of night I have glimpsed the dawn.
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a week in the sand
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Posted:Nov 16, 2008 4:36 am
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Well lets see where things stand right now. When we first got here PT was on our own, well a lot of people failed their PT test the first time. Well they still had PT on your own, and the second test we took a lot of people failed it as well. Heck I failed my run, but that wasn�t through my own fault, others jokingly flashes flash lights in my eyes, and being former epileptic that wasn�t a good thing to do. Right after that during the test I got a bad cause of vertigo and kept running off the road and almost passing out during the 2 mile run, it was not fun. I failed my run by 6 seconds, talk about me being pissed. But everything else I improved on, got more situps than before, same with pushups.
After that they made us go to mandatory PT, well it sucked readjusting the schedule to working out right before shift, but it is ok for now. I still have to do PT on my own to see improvement, but the runs are good. I even cut a minute off my last run time, and that is just with 5 runs under me since the last PT test, not bad at all.
Today I went to church, from time to time I need it, and today was one of those days. Did a little prayer and that helped with all I am dealing with back at home. But after that I had to PT, I really didn�t feel like it, right now I have had 2 hours of sleep since yesterday. Doing the Pt with that little sleep was not at all easy.
I am just looking forwards to being at home and dealing with all the stressors that have been bugging me for an entire year now. Plus spend some time with the girls, take them bowling, skating and fishing, and spend some time with my great wife. She wants me to teach her to shoot my 9mil when I go back home, that way if someone breaks in she can at least defend herself. When I get back home after this deployment I will be buying her a hand gun and then a .45 for myself as well. For Christmas this year she asked me what I wanted and I sent her the link back, a nice rifle. Remington model 700 SPS in .308 Winchester. The scope I will be buying for it will be a mildot scope with 1/4moa. Not all that much either. With that I will start taking up hunting and then teaching the girls to hunt as well. Probably once I get good at hunting I will pick up bow hunting and teach them that as well. They need to learn about the cycle of life. The grass grows, the deer eat the grass, a predator eats the deer and the remains grass grows from it. Plus it will teach them heavily about gun safety and how to protect themselves.
I am just looking forwards to fish with my dad as well and getting some smoked mullet to bring back with me.
Other then that, not too much is happening. On my shift we are gaining another body, maybe. If that is the case there is barely enough work for me, what will the other three be doing? Eh on the bright side I start online courses tomorrow so I guess I will have a lot of time for that, a lot of time lol.
Who knows I might even be able to start writing my novel again and might even doing an autobiography as well. A lot of the people in my unit are telling me to do it, they say I have an inspirational story. I don�t k now about that, but eh might do it just so my can have something to read about me should something happen. It is a morbid way to look at it, but practical as well.
So overall not a bad week here, laughed a little, got sad with some news that I can�t mention here, had fun PTing and playing games online and talking to friends. Hope everything is finding you all ok, if not feel free to rant and rave in here to vent and get it out.
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crap happens
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Posted:Nov 12, 2008 4:07 am
Last Updated:Nov 17, 2008 5:23 am
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Well things have been interesting since the last blog entry, a lot has happened, most of which I can’t even begin to talk about. Such is my life now, can’t even discuss it with my wife, that is the hardest thing about my job now, not being fully honest with her or my family. But that is the life I choose. It is just a part of this job now, when people talk about politics, other countries, the wars in Iraq and Afghanistan I just have to bite my lip and walk away because of the stuff I know and they don't. If people only really knew what was happening in the world, it would change thier veiws on alot.
Well as I said it was interesting, by interesting I mean I am bloody fricken pissed off right now. I was supposed to go home in a few days, as I said in another post a lot has happened back home but I turned down emergency leave because I was going to leave on the 16th. Well I went down just to recheck on some details, where I have to be and when on Saturday and I got told, “oh no you aren’t leaving till the end of the month.”
Whiskey tango foxtrot…….
No one knew my date changed, the people handling the leave didn’t tell anyone in my command, not the MstSgt who put me on the 16th, not the Chief warrant officer, not my SFC or SSG, no one knew. And everyone was just as pissed as I was, they are trying to get me back home, but eh, looks like the end of the month for me. It just would have been better to be going home in a few days because my wife is having a hard time with her first missing in Canada right now, and the fact I haven’t been home in a year already, man I am ready for those two weeks.
Bloody hell I am still pissed. I could just see if I wasn’t proactive and didn’t go down and ask I would have arrived at the flightline all ready to go to be told I am not on the flight, yeah that would have went over well……
Well I am hoping things are going good for everyone else, Veterans day came and went, it is odd even though I am a vet now it just doesn’t feel like it. I don’t feel any different ya know. I guess it is one of the things I got to get used to now. To me I am doing what I love and it just seems odd to be thanked every day for it, I am nothing special.
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Looking ahead....
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Posted:Nov 5, 2008 4:04 pm
Last Updated:Nov 6, 2008 3:30 pm
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I am glad history has been made today, but I worry what the future will hold. My view of the presidency is at times not a lot changes, taxes are either raised or lowered, they try to fix the bugs in programs but it never works, things are almost the same as when they left, but this time I am not sure of it. I worry that a lot will change, and not for the better.
See I come at this from a selfish self serving point of view, I wonder how President Obama will treat not only the war in Iraq and Afghanistan but also the military and the general war on terror. He has made statements about not cutting the funding, but with past democratic presidents, well those words are hollow to me. During Carter the military was so under funded it wasn�t even funny, the same thing with Clinton. There was a reason a lot of the helicopters crashed during the 90�s same thing with the planes. Many mechanics would ground a bird and take parts off it to replace parts of other still flying aircraft because they couldn�t afford brand new parts. The same thing with body armor, weapons and supplies.
Right now we have gear that can save my ass from being killed, the body armor we have was only developed and out in place during Bush, as much as people hated his guts he did a lot for the military. The vehicles we have not to defeat ieds work, and damn good. Trust me I get the reports of ied strikes daily, and many days they don�t even have a scratch on them inside the vehicles. Will we still be able to afford it in the future? I don�t know, and I fear that day, because IEDs are going to be part of warfare for the next 1,000 years, they work too well. Don�t make more of them or better because they cost too much, oyi.
How much is a solder�s life worth to politicians?
The same thing goes for some of the training we get. Right now we get something called CLS training. Stand for combat life saver, it is basic medic stuff, but before we didn�t have it, and it can make the difference between a guy coming home to his or not. We know how to treat some severe trauma, from gun shots to severed limbs, can do IVs and the like. This didn�t exist even 5 or 6 years ago as it does now.
Ospreys, a great bird probably be cut. (rubs temples) don�t even get me started on the pull out from Iraq, as it is, I am dreading the next few months here. We will either have a spike of attacks each month until the swearing in, or just after it, all to put pressure on Obama to pull us out causing a victory for all the terrorists here, and trust me let that happen, please.
We pull out suddenly from here it will be a blood bath, it will then instill confidence in the enemy as well. They will move from here to other places, mostly Afghanistan, a lot more civilians killed, a hell of a lot more. They will also likely move into Pakistan and start an insurgency there and try to get the government into the hands of people that think just like they do. From there the Southeast Asia will also be targeted by abu sayaf and the tamil tigers, remember Bali? They will also move into Europe where they are already entrenched, France is not going to have a good time of it, same with Denmark and Sweden. England, well hopefully their intelligence places are better at rooting out terrorist in country than our own is.
That is a very bleak look at it, but that is what will happen should we pull out too soon. And that is a very lite assessment of the situation too. So many don�t understand terrorism, it is my job to, and when I look at everything that is happening in the world, I fear for my future. Venezeula is doing some really bad stuff, add onto that Iran and how many of the US they have killed in Iraq, Syria, Hamas, those in Pakistan and Southeast Asia, the home grown ones here in the US, in Britain, France and the rest of Europe. (laughs bitterly) we are so fricked it isn�t even funny, and the sad thing is, we were starting to finally turn the tide, man I will be way too busy in the coming years, and I was so hoping to be bored in the future, just sitting there making coffee and doing power point.
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random thoughts
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Posted:Nov 2, 2008 5:33 pm
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Well lets see for today, I guess just a quick little update. Soon I will be heading back home for a few weeks. I can’t wait, heck been a year since I been home already, and another after just these two weeks. Be interesting to see home again, didn’t think I would miss that place as much as I have. Not the family so much as the town, but I will get to enjoy a little of it soon enough.
Right now though I am looking ahead at what I want to do and what I am facing as far as challenges go. In AIt I really screwed up my ankle, and I mean big time, every run the day after I am just in pain, non stop. I basically messed up the ligaments in the foot and ankle, ran on it rather then taking it easy, my stupidity there. But right now I face a PT test soon, which means a lot of running for prep, ug not looking forwards to it. But if I want to be the best got to put up with the pain.
Eh I guess just like Basic when I broke my wrist. struggled through that and did my final set of pushups for the test on it. Hurt but I passed.
Guess I will just be using that determination on it as well.
Eh as they say nothing in life worth getting is easy, that is true here. If all goes well be an E4 in just 6 months, and then onto Sgt.
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patience, its a virtue.
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Posted:Oct 30, 2008 4:46 am
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Since I got the start blog out of the way, this one brings me to an interesting topic, specially considering what is going on here as of late.
Over here in Iraq, internet is an elusive beast, at times the MWR stuff doesn’t work, other times because of storms the networks are down. So when we came over here a few of us talked about getting net ourselves, just buying a satellite and doing it ourselves. Well we got the dish and started setting up the network, ie laying cables, getting routers in people CHU’s, and getting people set up.
Well we do this on our free time, meaning when we aren’t doing our job and trying to get sleep.
So this brings us to the topic, patience. You would think people in the Army would have it, after all the tagline for the army is hurry up and wait. You think they would understand that it is three people trying to do all of this. I am handling the finance, keeping track of who pays what. The other two are responsible for network and connection. The money is interesting to say the least. We either do eagle cash cards, like debit but with smart chips. That takes a full ten days to hit paypal, or we use paypal. Now when people pay cash like I said it takes ten days, nothing something I can control it is just a matter of time.
So when we are off shift trying to sleep what happens. “Knock,knock,knock…” well more like SLAM,SLAM,SLAM which causes all three of us in the CHU to nearly fall out of the beds with weapons ready pointed at the door. Not good…then they go, so uh when is the net up.
Grrr…yeah sometimes we wonder why we do this, but it is nice to sit here in the privacy of our room, talk to friends and family, and do what we want.
And hell I won’t lie, it is nice having access to porn 24/7 as well, god knows I need it from time to time. Hell as I said before been about three years now, that is a loooong as hell time without, but I can wait to find the right friends for that, hell I got patience. (laughs) I like to see all these guys try and go three years without it and see how patient and calm they are. Right now with all the people being rude and I am surprised I haven’t lost my patience and snapped back at them. As my wife says, at times I have the patience of a saint, I just wish I didn’t.
But if only these people would have patience for a few days and then everything will be up and running smoothly. And us poor privates will be resting easier and getting sleep too.
I guess that is why they say it is a virtue huh?
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a start
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Posted:Oct 28, 2008 1:19 pm
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Let’s see, where to start this blog off. Throughout the months as I am over here in Iraq I will keep posting on just thoughts and whatever might hit me at the time. Probably just use it as a place to vent and relax a little bit after a hard day at work.
But I guess a little about me for starters. I am 30, I enlisted really late in life. The reason for this, well I was epileptic, I was actually born dead and somehow started to breath and have a heartbeat. Well soon after that I developed seizures. I suffered through them for the next 24 years of my life. Well during the time I struggled, my seizures were uncontrolled even with medication. In time I met a great woman who accepted me having seizures, believe me I lost a lot of friends and girls I cared about when they found out I had it. We got married, had a together, and well eventually they found a mass in my brian and gave me three options. To cut a long story short I had brain surgery and got cured of the seizures.
Well I enlisted five years later, had to wait that long before I could enlist. Going through boot at 30 was not at all easy. During one of the trainings I broke my wrist which made it even more difficult to get through, but I did. I had them cut the cast off early so I could pass a PT test, did all my pushups on a broken wrist.
Soon after that I went to AIT, graduated from that and got shipped to FT.Hood. now I am in Iraq just a month after graduating from AIT. During all this time I haven’t seen my family but two weeks during Basic, we got block leave for Christmas.
All my experiences so far have been fun and interesting. I love it so far, but time will tell how long that will last.
Recently though, things have been tough. Back at home my grandpa passed away after suffering for 2 years, then my sis went into the hospital as well as my uncle. And my wife’s first is missing in Canada right now, a run away. To say I am a weee little bit stressed is an understatement. Soon I will be going home on leave, in 3 weeks or so. Man do I need the break right now.
As I said in this one post on a group, something about me and my wife. I am on here as a single account but listed as married, not because I am cheating on my wife, far from it. She has all my passwords and accounts, from this to emails. Heck this is actually her idea to come on here. So a long time before I met her she was a victim of , and for the longest time she refused to tell me how it affected her thinking I would leave her. She told me years into our marriage that every time we had sex it brought back those bad memories.
I told her right then and there that we would never be having sex again, in truth been three years at this point now. She told me she didn’t want to put me through no sex for the rest of my life. Months of talking and this is what she wanted. Basically she is fine with friends with benefits type of arrangement. If people want to meet her or talk to her over the phone or webcam that is fine.
So that is a bit about me and my wife and what is all that is happening right now. A lot but I guess it is a good starter post and more to come.
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