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true love
Posted:Dec 3, 2020 12:22 pm
Last Updated:Dec 11, 2020 10:34 am
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wrote this in 2011 ish let's see if it still rings true to , its 3 parts and excuse the grammar it was a rant and i never spell check stuff, fyi i did write this before I came out so the language is centric in some areas but I didnt want to edit it to revise history since there are a few things I have learned since then I would clarify more on:
True love, nice guys, and monogamy are mostly bullshit Part 1
Think about the most fictional love story in your head. Disney fairy tales usually comes to mind along with every romantic comedy from your teenage years till now.
One thing that always bugs me about them all is the fact that one little detail completely ruins the whole thing until a grand gesture or something terrible happens that they have to work together on to bring the lovebirds back together by the end of the film but before I go on I suppose true love should be defined so for the sake of argument.
True love may mean the following to you and I call bullshit on every one:
love at first sight
high school sweethearts still together
a connection that withstands turmoil but remains victorious
kindred spirits or soul mates
happily ever after
Love at first sight - You step on a train and look up just long enough to lock eyes with some beautiful girl getting off and something draws you to get off the train and try any chance to get to know her. This must be true love! It could also be only one of the key pieces needed for you to actually have a relationship. All you have established is you would like to fuck this woman based solely on looks. If you miss your chance you may have to post on Craig’s List under missed connections to see if you pair up in the wanting to fuck just for looks before it is on to step two actually judging for basic likes and dislikes. Once you are done with that there are logistics of distance and the range of things like mutual life plans but no, you're golden with just one look.
Kindred Spirits- You all of a sudden have some profound connection with someone in class or work because you both listen to Death Cab? How fucking sweet to find your soul mate in this whole world of people they ended up being 10 feet from you or were friends of a friend. The problem with this thought process is that you are basically only checking the shit that you like about this person at this point in time. Likes dogs, check! Likes similar music, check! I guess this is what Sade was singing about. Yes, it is awesome to find people like this but some measurement should be done to weigh in the negatives which will soon want you to stick a steak in his back as he snores loudly. I have been stuck in this trap where I thought someone was more special due to the new and freshness of it all only to realize most people are good at hiding shit at the beginning. Have you ever heard of the phrase “He is ok outside of work but working with him is hell”. You can replace working with living or being married to but the fact is that he is a dick all the time and only when trying really hard can he be an actual human being. This stage is where most people lie up the ass so when they say they love hiking to find some reason to hang out they may not.
High School Sweethearts - So once again the universe aligns and pairs the two people that should be together with each other and turns out it only took 3 relationships all of them no more than 3 months long to find the perfect yin to your yang. I take issue with this the most after being through something similar I can tell you right now you are just fucking lying to yourselves and that is the only thing that will keep this going is your need to prove that this lie isn’t one. This one is just dripping with traditionalism and a few religious overtones. I have seen it in practice and it seems to be a unanimous vote that when this sham ends it should be around the late 20’s early 30’s. I was lucky enough to get in a lifetime in my teenage years before pairing up like an idiot when I was bound to change so largely over the course of 18-30 which is normal. This is why you rarely have more than a few friends over the course of your lifetime that remain close because people are always fucking changing. At age 17 you have a better chance of being hit by a meteor than finding someone that will change along the years in the exact same way. See that is what it would take really to be a match made in heaven with a love that would outlast the stars is to be perfectly in tune into current likes and dislikes throughout your adult life. This is where tradition dupes people by giving them default things to expect universally. Get married, Start a family, Work, and enjoy the holidays.
The whole thing takes a turn when you want the love of your life to piss on you or on someone else while you watch. Of course, I am joking and exaggerating but even tastes in music can be rifts if you have to sit through some shit in the car. What if you don’t like tattoos or piercings but now your girl has one on her vag. What about a stupid guy hobby you can’t stand or the biggest one of all which is that people mature at different ages and while you may have liked gold rims, scarface, and oldies back in the day you don’t want to go to clubs anymore
or watch Tyler Perry’s bullshit. It will piss you off if they do and there is the crux of it, dating is an adaptive process that should be done over and over in small timelines so you can find out who you want to be as much as who you want to be with to pair up and claim all doors are now shut is idiotic.
Happily Ever After - Nothing should be measured on a choice of this being the end goal. You end up ruining all the candidates by putting some much pressure on the longevity of it all. What chance does a relationship stand if you can’t enjoy the first day without the prerequisite of it being longer? Why can’t it be we had fun and had a blast for x amount of time until we didn’t then we went our separate ways?
Oscar Wilde couldn’t sum it up any better than this:
“Always! That is a dreadful word. It makes me shudder when I hear it. Women are so fond of using it. They spoil every romance by trying to make it last forever. It is a meaningless word, too. The only difference between a caprice and a life-long passion is that the caprice lasts a little longer.”

True love, nice guys, and monogamy are mostly bullshit Part 2
Love is a word I would use to describe my relationship. I genuinely love hanging around this person and I would really miss this if I ever had to part ways but to say it could stand the tests of hell would be ridiculous. If I decided to have an affair it wouldn’t last. If I decided to be a continuous dick all the time I would be dropped like a bad habit. If I chose to take up heroin I think the strain may be a bit too much to put up with. Deeply ingrained in every relationship is a “what have you done for me lately?” clause and I wouldn’t have it any other way. I will always have to try and I will always have to follow the direct agreement me and my girl shook on when we started. This will be different for each relationship as it should cause not one relationship is the same.
One example I would give is that one day I pull your unconscious body from a burning building if next month you walk in on me with your mom and the love of your life knocking generational boots you would be just to the shit out of . That is the way it goes. Yes, you can learn to put petty differences aside in a relationship when the rest of the reasons you wanted them are still there.
What it comes down to is this idea of undying true love is possibly the weakest thing in the world(Princess Bride excluded). Here is my list of what true love can’t conquer:
death
adultery
a white lie
a big lie
long distance
fame

jealousy/trust
different work shifts
time
class
drugs
weight gain
co-workers
aging
self-worth
family
health, mental or physical
Most of these on that list are relationship-enders for valid reasons some are superficial bullshit or selfish. I am not stating that dropping your wife in the middle of her cancer treatment is not the shittiest thing you can do but even then stress brings out the worst in us. If I were to be paralyzed tomorrow via some accident I wouldn’t expect it to be that much fun to be around me even if I took a positive outlook. Fitness can retard the aging process but even after all the effort you may not age graciously and this may come to a head with the other person but I don’t think it is fair to just drop someone because they get crows feet even after they bath in the blood of the innocent. There are some just deal breakers though:
Adultery
No happy couple really cheats if there is any value on the stakes or their needs being fulfilled. If all it takes is for me to get hit in the dick and be stuck in a cast for 2 weeks before someone else’s is needed we don’t really have much to discuss besides who is taking what. It isn’t a moment of weakness as much as an opportunity.
If all it takes for you to fuck up is a bad day then you aren’t that happy. This seems to be the biggest reason why people end it when it is more like stage 3 of a cold. It came to this because the other person didn’t end it when they should have.
Jealousy
What better segue in this subject. It is a really simple point, Jealousy is a self-fulfilling prophecy and a waste of time. It is a warning sign of an egotistical person or the distrust in a relationship doomed. Its distrust is most likely due to someone letting the other reasons go which is just a prolonging of a failed relationship. You aren’t a fool for believing that someone will come to you end it before they cheat and if it happens you don’t get a reward for finding out so don’t bother wasting your time.
Fame
Most people here will brag about their dedication to monogamy, I have been monogamous in my current relationship but I also don’t look like Brad Pitt or work on Wall Street. Just because you fight off a few mild advances at work doesn’t make you a patron saint. The un-fuckable need not chime in here because there is little risk and even then if someone comes along and shows a slight interest I bet you would. You can avoid single situations by not going out places but that is simply the fact that the is chained up not that it is loyal. If you are a classically handsome total package star with up the ass the amount of shit you have to beat off will be unbearably harder than some overweight secretary having to fight the urge to make out with the security guard from your work at the latest happy hour.
Weight gain
It isn’t about the fact that you gain weight as much as stop giving a shit about looking nice for your partner and the fact that you basically worked to win someone over then stopped working once you got them is deceiving all in itself. I have seen couples marry than one person blow up immediately which makes me want to ask the question of how quick it happens. This is where some valid excuse may come to your mind but before you start thinking logically maybe you can explain to me why the weight gets dropped so fact when they eventually become single again? To me, this is deceptive but also one of the many reasons why commitment should never have the label forever on it.
Long Distance
What is a relationship if you aren’t present for it? I am not talking about someone taking a week-long trip for work but over 6 months of not being together the relationship may stretch thin. Does being a biological parent make you a one or is it the field trips and piggyback rides? What is a relationship defined by if not time spent with the highest level of friendship? What was the distance that caused the distance if not the fact of the most apparent example of two people choosing different paths?
drugs
Who wouldn’t want to split if your partner gets addicted to crack but what about prescribed bullshit? Today we have a cure for everything and all it takes is a pill. Even the biggest health nut will take a pill to “feel” right and it the most successful excuse ever invented was the “chemical imbalance” excuse. So somewhere is a pill that will make you forget your uncle played with your balls when you were young. I won’t get too deep on it but even the most regular lightweight anti-depressant can make life a living hell for your partner when those mood swings eventually happen.

Family
Just because you find this person you can connect with doesn’t mean that all of it will be fine when it comes to family. How many times have you seen a family member take advantage of someone your dating? This may bug the shit out of you and cause a rift. How many times have you dated someone with a family that is just pure shit? I have literally been shot at by an in-law while they were attempting to jump me and that was the coolest in-law family I have had to deal with. Either way, we all have to deal with shit in life anyway but don’t think dating Belle wouldn’t get annoying when you try and convince her to put crazy old Maurice in a home.
Mental/Physical abuse
What relationship couldn’t withstand a bitch slap or two? Maybe you are drawn to it cause the wiring is all jacked up but good luck staying alive. Once it gets physical you need to run as the only thing that will happen will be an escalation to the end. I have seen people be selective on who they abuse which in a weird way it shows they know that this person will take it and that person won’t. This speaks volumes on their overall respect for you specifically but even more of a warning is the fact their basic problem solving doesn’t involve words when it comes to a head. What bugs me the most about people caught in these types of relationships they won’t leave because they don’t like living with their mom or they don’t want to lose their possessions which is full on retard and equal to continuing to live in a home you now know is haunted. For me, I can’t be around this type a person because I don’t like being threatened and I fight back when I am. It would be really hard to turn the other cheek when slapped for whatever so I avoid this like the plague.
On the mental side when it comes to women I see a disturbing and annoying trend that seems to start on the women side and before I get lit up give me answer this question.Why do most women stop hanging around their support of friends when they get in a relationship?
I have seen tons of women living through the side of friends and my girlfriend has a hell of a time hanging out with her friends when her friends couple up. I don’t think it is a good idea to lose all your alternate support as I have some much as a . I have my friends, family, and girlfriend and I bitch to one about the other all the damned time. When I have a big argument I can rely on my friends to get me through. With most women, they cut off all ties almost immediately leaving them trapped if the guy is a dick in the worst case or in the best case no one to vent to until she blows up on her partner. Keep your friends and get hobbies and don’t bend on any of the bitching he may do when it comes to your wants.
Monogamy and marriage
Both have shady beginnings in agriculture and equal to the linking of the wife being the property for the sake of securing birthrights but on the rare occasion I see the merit in them if one person desires it enough but it isn’t for most people like tradition assumes. Most traditional things, in general, are one-size-fits-all setups which I can only reiterate that you are not the same as your parents and every relationship is not the same. Most people have a set of rules and if you are honest they should be easy to follow unless you try to lump in traditional versions of shit which most likely do not apply to you and yours.
The Reality
What you really have is a small agreement that states I will hang around as long as we have fun. There are plenty of people just like me better for my current girlfriend and if she wanted to she may be able to find that one perfect match but as long as I keep her happy and she does the same we won’t be actively looking. Over the course of my life in another relationship, I found at least 5 people more of a match than the one I was in because I had changed so much. I can say right now I have the best I have yet to come across in a match with my current squeeze but if she changes it may not be the case for me or her later. Some people trap themselves with marriage or large investments that make it very hard to leave so they stay in these unhappy relationships due to laziness or the lack of options. I don’t want to muddy the waters and I want to make sure that investing in me as a partner is strictly because they like me.
They now have a tv version of the movie called “Catfish” and in it a bi-sexual woman finds out the man she has been talking to is an overweight female who is in the beginning process of becoming a man via hormone shots with plans to remove all that is female in the future. In the end, the couple is still together. Now if this is true it is actually the greatest love story ever told. Most likely people are just too nice to be good “guys” and I would like to point out a few subjects on the matter.
You have to be a dick to be a nice guy
The worst thing you can do is be too worried about hurting someone’s feelings. People are constantly changing and when you come across that fork in the road you really should part ways. No deal-breakers have to take place, you just are a different person now and your desires and plans do not coincide with that of the other person. When this happens you may have to be a dick and break up. The alternative is to stay living that lie and ruin 5 more years of this person's life where the decent with continue to show and eat away what you guys were to each other. You will slowly become a person you hate and compromise all the rules you would prefer everyone else to apply to. Be the dick and stop wasting some nice persons good years.
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determinism in your life span and where choice actually can take place in it
Posted:Jul 17, 2020 3:37 pm
Last Updated:Feb 8, 2021 10:00 am
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When you are born you have few choices like being able to cry, move your appendages, shit your pants. You had no choice of parents, location, religion or non religion of the household,etc. When you get a little older you are still a prisoner to what comes your way whether it be information, cultural and social rules, and what is true is all fed to you. No parent teaches you to arrive at a truth through a tool set of logic they just tell you fire is hot, dont stick your hand in the fan, this is how you wipe your own ass.

At some point you are left at the mercy of how good your parents are and how much they know is true of the real world. If you were born to they will tell you only bad girls sit this way, people that don't look like you are evil, and a mountain of other bad information. If you grow up in a bigoted area, all your friends will most likely be too, you will coast through life thinking what they said was true because everyone you know believes it, god hates fags , now pass the mashed potatoes.

Through no choice of your own, you will run into information that may counter it but you don't have the tools yet to process what is real or fact so you just don't believe the counterargument. Throughout your childhood, you will then realize that your parents and your culture don't have all the answers and are full of shit if you run into enough people with opposing views, read a book that contradicted what you were told, seen a movie that changed your mind. Again, you had no power or choice in the matter. It could have been a google search you typed wrong that led you to a rabbit hole but it got to you. We have mentors and people that also do the same, they are actively trying to change your mind but you had no choice in what they said and sometimes no choice in hearing it.

Even then you keep your beliefs to yourself because the society you live in all think the same way out loud and it is only till you have to move away, again, not your choice as much and growing up. Maybe this is going to a college where you are hit with a bat across the head that gay people don't eat and Mexicans aren't all r*pists but actually are like yourself in many ways.

This starts a process but it isn't quite there yet because you may or may not been giving the tools to find out all the bullshit, you just know your parents and friends are full of shit on one subject or another. Most people hold onto all the other lies they have been told as long as they don't seem to hurt anyone. You have yet to find a set of rules to decipher bullshit and information when it passes so you latch on to some new form of bullshit. Maybe you think you are a witch or that Hinduism had it all figured out. Maybe it's a reactionary thing where you found out the government lied once so now you believe any person that tells you it even if their argument is that the earth is flat, pedo interdimensional reptilians are playing puppet master with the people in power.

The point being you are still bouncing around the universe with no real choice, you think what you think because you were taught this and then found out this and that has led you to where you are at. Even if you think it was a choice you are still a prisoner to what information gets to you based on past experiences, trauma, culture, social circles, etc.

Now we have to talk about moral luck. This means if you were born to progressive parents or in a melting pot of a city you may have more right answers than some villager that was taught that killing virgins makes the crops come in but through no choice of yours. You were lucky enough to be given the answers and evidence through a location you didn't choose, a school you didn't choose, etc, but at least most of the answers are right. You could never show your work (like math on paper) or morally justify why you are right without parroting what you were told but you were lucky enough to get most of the answers right. This doesn't make you smarter than some poor growing up in rural Kentucky but we all kind of think it does a bit.

Another lie we tell ourselves when we achieve success in a life we were not expected to have any in, we think one of two things. I am the most specialist superhuman smart that defied the odds because I am a superhero! The second is that anyone can do it, they are just lazy or have no will like I do. This is called Survivor Bias. The reality is a medley of people, luck, environment, mentors, books, or variations in the same household, gave you an edge you needed to not be the 99% that are born poor and will die poor and you are the 1% that got out of it. It could be a rule to life told to you a crazy aunt, a small exposure to hope from a passer- that said you could be a doctor when they passed through you village when you were ten and started your aspiration. The point is something was given to you, that you didn't earn, or have a choice still but not all the tools are present even here.

To this point, your life is still predictive with the right of data sets and a supercomputer we would know why you chose to go to this school or that school and if we rewound time back five minutes you would definitely make the same choice because nothing in the environment has changed for the outcome to be any different.

Now, most people right now would hate everything I am saying because the message is you have no real choices, you didn't accomplish anything without the influence and interactions of others you more or less had no control over but fear not! I am about to explain the silver lining.

I have to talk about predeterminism/determinism but I won't do it here only to say I don't disagree with the idea that everything to this point can be mathematically equated to something that happened before but it does not predict the future and this thinking is like a mind exercise that does dick all for humanity if we assume we will always choose left even if we are trying to fight the predictive outcome. I have 8 pages on the breakdown of that but ill move on. We can become meta agents, we are not mammals and have evolved a consciousness and appendages to influence many things but still need tools to change outcomes but this is a good thing. We can take any problem of the world and know that the reason it is has an answer and historical data to show why it is so and then we can use that information to fix and not wait for a god or the turning of Saturn to fix it.

One of the most important tools is a philosophy on life. Even though many of us don't study it, we practice philosophy daily. It is the golden rule from the bible. It is the rule of non-contradiction, it is Kant's categorical imperatives. I was living my life these rules without any knowledge that some guy in the 00s had already created an answer to what I was trying to write down for my because I had success with it in my life.

This information, I was given over the course of my life unwittingly and not through a conscious decision allowed me to no longer be as predictive. I was born in a bad neighborhood, was in the justice system, and most likely was destined to end up like every one of my friends. With a bit of luck and a lot of involuntary information, I was able to dodge that life a millimeter.

So what are all the tools that are needed to get you to become an unpredictable individual agent? I have no idea all of them but I know a few. You have to seek the counter-argument to anything you are told or believe. You have to process everything through a non-contradiction filter. Like taking new evidence and processing it for hypocrisy and inconsistencies, then weighing them both. You have to have a moral rule similar to the law of universalizability to also process stuff through. Definition below:

Act only according to that maxim which you can at the same time will that it should become a universal law. When someone acts, it is according to a rule, or maxim.

Basically the golden rule without the need of a deity and a book full of contradictions. Basically, if you can punch someone for a belief then you have enacted a law to the universe that anyone can do the same. This and other deontological ways of thinking are what is needed to fairly and justly have discussions and arrive at the most logical conclusion. Pretty much anything Kant has written should be ingested immediately and you should live your life this way as much as possible in my opinion.

You cannot be disingenuous or lie. If you lie then the whole world can lie and spread disinformation even if you think it is for the better good of the world. This is short-sighted consequential-ism and if everyone practiced it we would be at the short end of the stick eventually. Here are two examples for my argument:

a question from a friend:

A trolley is going down a path that will run over your , if you hit the switch it will change rails and 4 people you don't know but your will be fine. Do you do it?

answer:

No, because the next day my would wake up in a world where anyone can justify doing the same and that is a dangerous world.

a mind exercise:

The president crash lands on an island with 50 people, if he lies and tells them is on the way to calm them from anarchy they will hang on and live without pulling a lord of the flies.

If he tells them the truth there is a big possibility that half of them will the other half so he chooses to lie for the greater good.

My answer would be to never lie because the world they wake up to is one that will never trust their government to tell the truth if it means sparing their feelings or is a calculated equation to do the less of harm and that will eventually rot the whole system.

They are rescued, but now the public knows the president lied. If they lied once, maybe 9/ was an inside job, maybe the earth is flat.

I joke about it but the true reason you don't even white lie to your is that you let that same rot in them. If they said Santa is real then why cant the monster under my bed be too? If we live in a world where the devil roams influencing you and stealing away for being bad then go and tell a person with schizophrenia the voices arent, you don't have much of a leg to stand on and you are at fault when they believe the stars affect their love life or they have special powers for feeling other peoples pain.

So in short, I think you can pretty much package the law of universalizability, with the law on non-contradiction with the need to hear any oppositions side of an argument and get pretty well in life bucking the programming and environment that pulls you to and fro but you have to process all the past bullshit you have been told and see if it holds up today or you will be operating at half capacity with a few things right but a few lies rotting you from the true answers to life and the world's problems.

This is the proof of determinism. We know that being poor causes stress, prolonged stress causes mental disorders, mental disorders cause substance , substance can lead to long-term damage and predatory behaviors and environments for the person and their family creating a vicious cycle. This is only one part of how poverty damages humanity so if we were to take that evidence and do nothing with it, nothing will change. If we do understand the reasons why things are the way they are we can use this lack of choice to understand bigotry as not being an IQ issue. That if you change nothing in your life but expect to become healthy and fit it will never happen unless you change something that data can correlate to the change. It isn't a bad thing as long as we don't into us not being able to change the future once we have an understanding of it as a law of sorts.

Nothing will change unless something changes.

sorry in advance, I am not proofreading this right now after typing all this
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looking forward to the weekend
Posted:Oct 10, 2018 11:23 am
Last Updated:Jun 3, 2020 1:43 pm
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I got some new palettes coming, I have a few dresses and blouses that I am hoping will all work out, and I even got some new underwear. The weather is cool enough to go out so I may even head out to Cruisin on Saturday.

Anywho I am super psyched







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Consistency, Why it is one of the most important attributes and why we can never trust without it:
Posted:Jul 17, 2020 3:42 pm
Last Updated:Dec 11, 2020 12:20 pm
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Anyone that knows me will know that I work every day(or at least tell them i do) to be the exact same person every minute of my life, whether you see that as a good thing or not depends on the person. Even shitty food made exactly the same way every time will garner loyal fans of it eventually but great food without consistency will leave a business closed in a few months.

When it comes to people, we make excuses for a persons uncharacteristic actions as bad days and not the true representation of themselves and I would agree to a certain extent. Most people dont see the overall long term damage that "having a bad day" has on a relationship. Predictability and setting your watch to someone sounds uninteresting and boring to the outsider, taking for granted the monumental effort to be fair and measured every waking moment by discounting its value.

I view inconsistency as hell, and a nightmare of shaky ground. I think of it as the same way that you could never be sure if someone is telling you the truth if they have a habit of lying, is the same way I dont know what person to expect if they are inconsistent depending on the weather.

When it comes to toxic relationships it is easy to see that these inconsistencies are way worse. The rules that apply in one moment can be rewritten and changed to justify a person behavior. This usually manifests itself in contradiction or hypocrisy but it is no less inconsistent since both apply. If you have a person that goes by the golden rule 80% of the time but the other 20% they are irrational, unfair, or dont follow their own axioms then you dont have a stable relationship, you have something that seems like it can get to a point it can be but in a flash tomorrow's hopes or goals for that first home or having can be flipped at a moments notice. On top of that is that most people dont actually strive to not lie as much, attempt treat their loved ones less unfairly, or most importantly, set aside some time daily to introspectively recount their interactions and see if they were unfair, dishonest, or being hypocrite to those people. If a person is 80/20 and not actively trying to be more consistent then there is no evidence that it will get better but more so that it will get worse.

Another issue with being 80/20 is that you could be the greatest person to someone only to have all the karmatic goodness thrown out the window by just a few dick moves. The exchange rate on shitty things isnt a 1 to 1 but more like 100 good deeds to one bad deed. For example, a man that only punches his wife once each year but is the best partner outside of that doesnt negate the terribleness of that action. It also is no solace to a wife waiting for an inevitable punch throughout the year knowing it is coming some day would leave her in a constant state of fear or stress when signs start to show it may happen soon again. This can be applied to lesser violent examples but the point still stands. If you cannot guarantee a bad flip out or argument wont spiral into some disaster you dont have a solid foundation.

We justify these actions by compartmentalizing them. We say we will never let a girlfriend or boyfriend do A or B but then let our family walk all over us or vice versa. We say they are good people but you just dont want to work with them. The latter meaning this, they are decent people unless they have any stress or worries, then they become a cutthroat asshole who would eat you if it came down to it on a deserted island.

Another thing we seem to do is assume people being cheerful or positive are charlatans of sorts. Putting on one face to the public and behind closed doors another. I know these people exist and that hypocrisy over a long enough timeline will be exposed. There are plenty of ways to find them out but I think these people are easily found out by how much contradicting they do over time. I used to work with the king of contradiction, this person would tell his employees to do two different things and then depending on the mood lambaste them for not choosing the other. That guy would also put on a mask to the public but it wasn't long(still too long) before everyone realized he was a fraud.

Outside of that instance you have earnest people trying to become consistent, putting in effort to be more positive and less cynical and it is misconstrued or cancelled because they slip up once or twice. I used to judge too quickly on these people who wanted nothing other than to put forward the person they truly wanted to be but just couldnt nail it most of the time. I dont think these people are equipped or focusing on the right paths to get there but they are trying and that does count for something.

Redemption:

Say you were a dead beat father or a shitty friend you need a path to get back to an ideal person you would like to be but you need the tools and work to do so. This requires effort on consistently not being the person of old and all the people you burned till you got to this point will assume you are once again lying or one week away from the next train wreck. Consistency is even more important here because you have to distance yourself so far from the asshole you were that the people in your life dont remember it every time they are around you. That is the penance of changing, that you could change your whole life but it will take evidence for anyone to trust you. Not because of some grudge or ill will, but because the evidence of the past still never being debunked with time and proof.

Most people dont know how to start that process but I see it as very easy. Treat your friends, family, and partners like gold and demand they do the same. Set aside an hour to reflect on the day and judge yourself for your actions with others that day. Analyze and make sure you were a good friend or person and apologize and admit youre wrong to the person if you werent. Be afraid of being on the wrong side of any argument. This isnt turn the other cheek, I would never suggest you put up with anyones bullshit but if you want to get to a place where you know you deserve to not deal with someone being an asshole to you, you have to get to a place where you are consistently not in the wrong. This takes a long time to train your brain to not react out of jealousy or ego from something you take the wrong way. It is a muscle you work on to make sure whatever interaction you have you didnt contradict yourself and you stuck to your own rules.

From that comes the demand for others to do the same. Why should I work so hard to be a good friend when none of mine are? Why should I be the one to work so hard on this relationship when the other side isnt. Why should I respect my family over blood alone when they consider me only as a tool or something to use. Whatever case comes up I dont think you get to self respect without becoming a person that deserves it. Contradiction and inconsistency are easy ways to know you arent there yet. Hypocrisy and lies are an easy way to detect a terrible human being and I could point to many people but Trump and his ilk stand out like a shiny beacon of fuckery.

Anywho, im done for now, dont think being consistent is an easy task and take for granted the people that are, some may be gifted by a good upbringing with little or no trauma but others had to remove so many demons and bad rules that got them through life till now but are stunting them from the next progression. I spent my life from 19 up trying to undo all the bullshit I was taught along the way but I wish I would have been given this tid bit of a toolset among others way earlier in life cause it would have been a shit ton easier.
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WIP make up post
Posted:Dec 9, 2016 12:52 pm
Last Updated:Oct 10, 2018 11:45 am
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Some people hit me up about tips, I dont think I am anyone to talk about it but since people asked I figure I would give as much info as I have on the matter and hope it helps.

Here is my regiment:

Shaving or Waxing:


shower and shave everything but my chest and face with soap and hot water
coconut oil at 72 or below works like vaseline and gives the arms and legs a good shine.

for face either use a heated towel before shaving or wax if you can stand the utter pain for the smoothest face. I only do the upper lip and goatie area but the first time is tear inducing. If you do the whole face it sucks for time but you get like 2 weeks of smooth baby skin, The wax I use after trying various ones and even just bleaching is called:
wax warmer hair removal kit
https://www.amazon.com/gp/product/B074MR2BJZ/ref=oh_aui_search_detailpage?ie=UTF8&psc=1

This helps the pain a bit and this wax is the least painless one I have tried:
https://www.amazon.com/Clean-Easy-Anesthetic-Solution-Ounce/dp/B007R58WI8/ref=lp_3022545011_1_16_a_it?srs=3022545011&ie=UTF8&qid=1519334719&sr=8-16

Face:

Most people know about the red or orange lipstick over the bearded areas but also use it under the eyes as well before you apply any foundation. here is an example:
feminizationsecrets has tons of tips, i cant link it here but it was helpful for me for many tips.

anything red but better if its matte,example:

https://www.amazon.com/Revlon-Matte-Lipstick-Really-Ounces/dp/B01AVF225Y/ref=sr_1_3_s_it?s=beauty&ie=UTF8&qid=1481322653&sr=1-3&keywords=revlon%2Bred%2Blipstick&th=1

I cover up the orange concealer with Boiing concealer:
https://www.amazon.com/gp/product/B00VDKZ55G/ref=oh_aui_search_detailpage?ie=UTF8&psc=1


https://www.amazon.com/Benefit-Cosmetics-Boi-ing-Medium-0-1/dp/B0075JGGZW/ref=sr_1_1_s_it?s=beauty&ie=UTF8&qid=1481322597&sr=1-1&keywords=boiing+concealer+03

I used number 2 but my gf uses number 3 and even though she is darker than I it works better for me.

For foundation I cover up my whole face with revlon air brush my color is this, use a sponge like 2nd or 6th to press into skin over and over:

sponge:
https://www.amazon.com/pin/341358846736397582/
(note: for some reason it changes my links from pinterest to www.amazon.com/ change the amazon to pinterest please

foundation:
https://www.amazon.com/dp/B00V6DT2F4/ref=twister_B016IQJ5AA?_encoding=UTF8&th=1

Contouring:

Contouring is the way you can shape your face with shadows and bringing light to different areas. I use these three on and off, you can get any brand but just get a dark and a light one and some form a blush but here are mine:

https://www.amazon.com/ANASTASIA-Beverly-Hills-Contour-Light/dp/B014TX560W/ref=sr_1_1_s_it?s=beauty&ie=UTF8&qid=1481322904&sr=1-1&keywords=anastasia+beverly+hills+contour+kit

https://www.amazon.com/LORAC-Contour-Palette-Plus-Brush/dp/B00ZZ8XNWE/ref=sr_1_1_s_it?s=beauty&ie=UTF8&qid=1481322926&sr=1-1&keywords=lorac+contour+palette

https://www.amazon.com/Beauty-Treats-Matte-Blush-Palette/dp/B00GJ32YXI/ref=sr_1_sc_1_s_it?s=beauty&ie=UTF8&qid=1481323018&sr=1-1-spell&keywords=beautytreats+matteblush+palette

If you have oily skin only use the latter two, if you dont, use the Anastasia one.
I use the darker tone around the chin and cheek, the yellow or white go under the eye, cheeks, nose, and forehead, I do the chin in an angle since my face is round but here is an example:
https://www.amazon.com/236x/4d/62/e0/4d62e05b29dc502781524fad12822408.jpg

https://www.amazon.com/pin/341358846734476315/
(note: for some reason it changes my links from pinterest to www.amazon.com/

the beautytreats one I use the dark brown for the chin and cheek line then red for the cheek line. If you note the nose part in the pic it is a way to thin the nose.

lorac tutorial, the shimmer is nice for the cheek, over brow, and cupids bow but bad elsewhere:
https://www.amazon.com/pin/341358846736671839/
(note: for some reason it changes my links from pinterest to www.amazon.com/

here is why you should try strobing:
https://www.amazon.com/pin/341358846734284617/
(note: for some reason it changes my links from pinterest to www.amazon.com/

anastatia tutorial, yellow on cheek, brown, on chin, outside of nose line, and around face,white on forehead,chin, and nose bridge:
https://www.amazon.com/pin/341358846736671795/
(note: for some reason it changes my links from pinterest to www.amazon.com/


Setting Powder:


I use dermablend, tarte or in a pinch ELF setting powder. Dermablend is superior but more expensive. ELF works for setting lipstick and concealer but it also cakes if used too much unlike the others which are finer grains.

https://www.amazon.com/Dermablend-Loose-Setting-Powder-Original/dp/B0002RI2PG/ref=sr_1_2_s_it?s=beauty&ie=UTF8&qid=1481324680&sr=1-2&keywords=dermablend

https://www.amazon.com/e-l-f-Studio-definition-powder-translucent-Ounce/dp/B004DIXYUI/ref=sr_1_1_s_it?s=beauty&ie=UTF8&qid=1481324699&sr=1-1&keywords=elf+setting+powder

Here is an example:
https://www.amazon.com/pin/341358846736613838/

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Lips:

I use a dark lip liner to trace my lip line all the way around my lips the fill in the sides of my mouth and make the line double in size. You can easily expand your lips by tracing the lip line even wider using this method, just make sure you use a dark one or it will just look like you smeared it:
https://www.amazon.com/pin/28710516349259510/
(note: for some reason it changes my links from pinterest to www.amazon.com/

base lipstick can be anything just blend it, I use these two as of late:
lipliner:
https://www.amazon.com/Jordana-Easyliner-Lips-Plush-Plum/dp/B005DFLFS8/ref=sr_1_3_s_it?s=beauty&ie=UTF8&qid=1481325415&sr=1-3&keywords=jordana+easy+lip+plum

lipstick:
https://www.amazon.com/COVERGIRL-Colorlicious-Color-Lipstick-Coffee/dp/B00ON1HJDS/ref=sr_1_1_s_it?s=beauty&ie=UTF8&qid=1481325468&sr=1-1&keywords=covergirl+coffee

Once applied I use a make up brush(like one you use for blush) and setting powder all over the lips to set it.

Eyebrows:

I cant trim mine the way I would like so I just pluck a few strays then use a brow pencil and brush to fill them in, I ten to go more dark which looks weird until I put a shit ton of make up on then it all fits. Here is an example:
https://www.amazon.com/pin/5136987053098307/
(note: for some reason it changes my links from pinterest to www.amazon.com/

I use this pomade as of late but their pencils are good as well, here is my two go to's:

https://www.amazon.com/Anastasia-Beverly-Hills-Dipbrow-Medium/dp/B0158WAR98/ref=sr_1_3_s_it?s=beauty&ie=UTF8&qid=1519335082&sr=1-3&keywords=anastasia+brow+pomade

https://www.amazon.com/ANASTASIA-Beverly-Hills-Taupe-0-085/dp/B00JDTJNXE

get any cheap kind as well in the same style. The pomade is a must though.

Eyes:

primer:
Use eye shadow primer, dont splurge the cheap is sometimes better in this case. I love this one way more than urban decay for example, you apply it user your eye and on the lid and pretty much anywhere you are planning to put eye shadow:
https://www.amazon.com/store/c/maybelline-master-prime-long-lasting-eyeshadow-base/ID=prod6301960-product

new alternative:
I prefer this one as of late:

https://www.amazon.com/gp/product/B001JBC4FI/ref=oh_aui_detailpage_o01_s04?ie=UTF8&psc=1


Eye Shadow:


get a good palette, kat von d shade and light, anastatia modern renaissance, urban decay gwen stefani, or whatever colors you like when you look.
Here is some tutorials on shade and light, I have more there for others:
https://www.amazon.com/damngina39/makeup-eyes-katvond-shade-light-palette/
(note: for some reason it changes my links from pinterest to www.amazon.com/ change it to pinterest

Too faced come with little cards to show you how to do each look, instagram is a gold mine as well but here ya go:
https://www.amazon.com/damngina39/makeup-eyes-too-faced-chocolate-palette/
(note: for some reason it changes my links from pinterest to www.amazon.com/

Eyeliner to make lashes bolder:
nyx makes nice mechanical ones:
https://www.amazon.com/NYX-Mechanical-Eye-Pencil-Black/dp/B005G9E9AW/ref=sr_1_1_s_it?s=beauty&ie=UTF8&qid=1481326589&sr=1-1&keywords=nyx+black+mechanical

tutorial on where to use black:
https://www.amazon.com/pin/317503842463326591/
(note: for some reason it changes my links from pinterest to www.amazon.com/

tutorial on where to use white, basically use it on the bottom water line:
https://www.amazon.com/pin/573927546241272504/
(note: for some reason it changes my links from pinterest to www.amazon.com/

For cat eye part I use the liquid kind, clay is nice as well but this is the one, tip, keep the eye closed long enough for it to dry:
https://www.amazon.com/Jordana-Cat-Liner-Black-Leather/dp/B00S0NSMXQ/ref=sr_1_1_s_it?s=beauty&ie=UTF8&qid=1481327296&sr=1-1&keywords=jordana+cat

Here is an example:
https://www.amazon.com/pin/AT4820p7DJpWeG15X4VlvLR0Uq6ZJNRBkDDomSJtHZXeMzyGJl86Keg/
(note: for some reason it changes my links from pinterest to www.amazon.com/


Mascara:


Better than sex pink one is the most boldest:
https://www.amazon.com/Faced-Better-Than-Mascara-0-27/dp/B00P0Q0T28/ref=sr_1_2_s_it?s=beauty&ie=UTF8&qid=1481327178&sr=1-2&keywords=better+than+sex+mascara

current fav:

pur fully charge for cleanest:
https://www.amazon.com/s/ref=nb_sb_ss_i_1_8?url=search-alias%3Dbeauty&field-keywords=pur+fully+charged+mascara&sprefix=pur+full%2Cbeauty%2C476&crid=X4I7CTKDLOSD

I do about 20 strokes up and outward towards brow, and on the bottom I do mini strokes straight down.

Makeup setting:

If youre like me I have cakey make up but some how have oily skin. Once you are done with eye shadow, foundation,contour,etc you can spray your face (eyes closed)with this and sit in front of a fan and it will help keep things in place. I put on more than I should but I am sure you can find a tutorial out there. anywho this is the one I use:
https://www.amazon.com/NYX-Cosmetics-Setting-Finish-Lasting/dp/B00B4YVU4G

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Clean up:


nails:
rounded textured pads seem to work the best couple with nail polish removed, I tried various techniques but dousing a couple pads full of remover then focusing on each finger like you are moving a ring in circles works the best for me.


face:


baby oil is the best, some say castor oil,olive oil, castor but baby oil is the only one that takes my mascara off without being a chore. I couple the oil with neutrogena make up remover wipes(below) I put about a teaspoon in the wipe and put it right on the mascara on one eye then do the same with the other so it starts to soak, then i rub all over. It takes me two of these then I just wash my face with soap to get rid of the shine.

https://www.amazon.com/Neutrogena-Remover-Cleansing-Towelettes-Refills/dp/B00PJ29NXE/ref=sr_1_14_s_it?s=beauty&ie=UTF8&qid=1481482643&sr=1-14&keywords=neutrogena+makeup+remover

TBC


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I want to talk about biases, the media's reputation, and how people don't trust the government.
Posted:Dec 12, 2020 9:59 am
Last Updated:Mar 28, 2024 3:14 pm
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I want talk about biases, the media's reputation, and how people don't trust the government. I won't defend any point outside of is used as some argument ender, by saying that this person or this organization once lied that this is some "own" that people drop that is equivalent saying "wake up sheeple!" and its fucking cringe.

I also want out a few other trends that seem be prevalent in people that buy bullshit so easily from sources they liken , versus ignoring mountains of evidence from sources they don't because, well... them and they were wrong once and therefor forever wrong! I have already mentioned the poison of false equivalencies so I will not mention again in this one but that is not a debate winner either point out terrible shit on both sides when the debate is which one is the least worse of the options.

numerology, iconography, hidden symbolism, pattern recognition:

I was listening Jordan Peterson try explain this idea of genetic spirituality by what he thought was the existence of the double helix in ancient artifacts as proof of it. I thought what I usually thought when listening him. He is a charlatan and full of shit but then I thought about it a bit more and realized he was just like any other Qanon nutter seeing symbolism and patterns where were none. Correlations that stretched fit some point he would never come it.

A sane person walks into a room and sees it as a living area, a schizophrenic walks into the room and thinks 's an "escape room" with hidden puzzles and iconography put by people smarter than them hoping they will crack the code. Quit doing this shit!!! Your life isn't the plot of the film National Treasure, it is boring and you have no bigger purpose. I know it is way more exciting think you can take down a pedophile network or crack a riddle that proves Biden is a reptilian inter-dimensional traveler, but an exercise in pattern recognition isn't the answer most people, and a cloud isn't a bunny. is my guess that won't be helpful a fragile mind with no tools to decipher if something is bullshit or not in the end and really not a good exercise for someone in full control of their faculties either.

So let's start with an example, the science world globally agrees that Covid is an issue, that masks will help mitigate the spread, and that a vaccine is on the way. Just because MSNBC has a neoliberal bias or the US at one point did inject black people with Syphilis(seriously wtf US Health!), pointing it out does not invalidate facts or the truth of now. It is a dumb argument to say we can invalidate a whole country for their actions of today if it was ever ok with slavery, native genocides, etc, it doesn't work that way. All it shows it that a media organization or governmental wing should not be trusted blindly and on faith, I would say this goes for your Cheeto leader as well.

You still have to prove your crazy ass theories outside of that and no amount of yelling FAKE NEWS does that. It makes sense that you could see a lying failure as beneficial when is no real evidence of Trump doing anything take credit for what he did. Another example is how the right will say he helped the economy when no policies or legislation can actually be shown have the effects did. I don't even want point out what they are bragging about is no longer true because of the pandemic but even before, not one policy or legislative action can be linked the uptick outside of what we already know, kept going up from when Obama was in office through no action of his own.

Well, what about the leftists? They are in the boat, right? If the Gulf of Tonkin was a false flag, if the CIA has a history of being involved in coups, then everything I can imagine is possible. 9/ was an inside job, the sandy hook shootings were staged actors, chemtrails, the fires in California were death rays being tested by HAARP or whatever fucking dumb shit you believe. All the points you have that are true, stop blind trust and faith, you still have to show evidence for your claims and you don't get to hopscotch jumping conclusions with no evidence and some janky correlations. This is a graph of how dumb linking shit is without causation: (pic below)

The answer is this, anything that you believe should be questioned way more than another person's belief. Actually, get deep into it, see how stupid it sounds to defend the idea of the vaccine chipping Americans. Come to the conclusion that most people do after pondering it for more than 3 seconds, that they don't need to chip you if you carry one in your phone, and that if they ever did chip you all it would take is one person being checked for a chip to blow the whole thing wide open. Quit shutting off your brain because you trust some people but not others.

I also have met people who can never admit the follies of our institutions and the outright malicious and deadly things they do, they will bury their head in the sand when you mention that the reason the GOP passes laws is for their donors are the reason democrats do the and that this is a bad thing. These people suck too and I have no respect for a person that can't out their side because of the fear that will hurt their reputation. I think the CIA should be not be trusted. I think that people should understand the biases of the news they watch and make sure they are not duped into an echo chamber of one side. All the media failed us with the second Iraq invasion, most of our politicians did as well. I will say is a difference between CNN bungling the news and Fox news working directly with the white house make happen but if Fox reported the sky was clear and I looked outside and was, I would believe them on that. The past shows us history but does not prove that someone will always lie and what needs to change is that you need to get better and sifting through .

What needs happen is not avoid sources with biases but understand them and having a toolset to sift through the biases and bullshit. That you should seek out the opposing arguments as well to make sure you are not being sold a bunch of bullshit. If you are the person thinks your side is infallible, you are far too gone. If you think you shouldn't criticize your own side because so much is at stake, you are not far behind the first fuckers. Most of the left is viewed as a mess of infighting, to which I say we don't fight enough when we see the vanilla self-serving shit that was trying to pass as a stimulus bill. No logical right-winger would see the GOPs offerings as helpful to the common worker, that the exclusion of the stimulus shows how much they don't give a about you. On the other side, the establishment Dems that wanted sign don't give a either and both sides need admit it.

We don't get the truth by using argument derailing tactics win a debate. That is not a quest for the truth, is a quest win and those aren't the thing. Using Fake News as a comeback is shit level arguing and provides nothing because if you had use fair arguments you would have none. That is why the right resort but is not exempt from the left. People will attempt dismiss my arguments because I am not a cis woman(never claimed be and know the experience is different), I am white(which I'm tri-racial fuckers), because of my assumed class or privilege( i grew up poor long into adulthood, and no longer am), and the reason they do so is that they cant attack my real arguments so they have to attempt to cheat, just like the right. The argument that I ain't black or disabled isn't an argument, it is a pussy ass cop-out, just like saying the media is lying to you, my point is that you have to prove it on a case by case bitches and your fucking an unoriginal disingenuous piece of shit if you pull out these gems to supposedly own someone on a contested opinion.
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I want to talk about biases, the media's reputation, and how people don't trust the government.
Posted:Dec 12, 2020 9:55 am
Last Updated:Mar 28, 2024 3:14 pm
4943 Views

I won't defend any point outside of is used as some argument ender, by saying that this person or this organization once lied that this is some "own" that people drop that is equivalent saying "wake up sheeple!" and its fucking cringe.

I also want out a few other trends that seem be prevalent in people that buy bullshit so easily from sources they liken , versus ignoring mountains of evidence from sources they don't because, well... them and they were wrong once and therefor forever wrong! I have already mentioned the poison of false equivalencies so I will not mention again in this one but that is not a debate winner either point out terrible shit on both sides when the debate is which one is the least worse of the options.

numerology, iconography, hidden symbolism, pattern recognition:

I was listening Jordan Peterson try explain this idea of genetic spirituality by what he thought was the existence of the double helix in ancient artifacts as proof of it. I thought what I usually thought when listening him. He is a charlatan and full of shit but then I thought about it a bit more and realized he was just like any other Qanon nutter seeing symbolism and patterns where were none. Correlations that stretched fit some point he would never come it.

A sane person walks into a room and sees it as a living area, a schizophrenic walks into the room and thinks 's an "escape room" with hidden puzzles and iconography put by people smarter than them hoping they will crack the code. Quit doing this shit!!! Your life isn't the plot of the film National Treasure, it is boring and you have no bigger purpose. I know it is way more exciting think you can take down a pedophile network or crack a riddle that proves Biden is a reptilian inter-dimensional traveler, but an exercise in pattern recognition isn't the answer most people, and a cloud isn't a bunny. is my guess that won't be helpful a fragile mind with no tools to decipher if something is bullshit or not in the end and really not a good exercise for someone in full control of their faculties either.

So let's start with an example, the science world globally agrees that Covid is an issue, that masks will help mitigate the spread, and that a vaccine is on the way. Just because MSNBC has a neoliberal bias or the US at one point did inject black people with Syphilis(seriously wtf US Health!), pointing it out does not invalidate facts or the truth of now. It is a dumb argument to say we can invalidate a whole country for their actions of today if it was ever ok with slavery, native genocides, etc, it doesn't work that way. All it shows it that a media organization or governmental wing should not be trusted blindly and on faith, I would say this goes for your Cheeto leader as well.

You still have to prove your crazy ass theories outside of that and no amount of yelling FAKE NEWS does that. It makes sense that you could see a lying failure as beneficial when is no real evidence of Trump doing anything take credit for what he did. Another example is how the right will say he helped the economy when no policies or legislation can actually be shown have the effects did. I don't even want point out what they are bragging about is no longer true because of the pandemic but even before, not one policy or legislative action can be linked the uptick outside of what we already know, kept going up from when Obama was in office through no action of his own.

Well, what about the leftists? They are in the boat, right? If the Gulf of Tonkin was a false flag, if the CIA has a history of being involved in coups, then everything I can imagine is possible. 9/ was an inside job, the sandy hook shootings were staged actors, chemtrails, the fires in California were death rays being tested by HAARP or whatever fucking dumb shit you believe. All the points you have that are true, stop blind trust and faith, you still have to show evidence for your claims and you don't get to hop scotch jumping conclusions with no evidence and some janky correlations. This is a graph of how dumb linking shit is without causation:
://images.techhive./images/idge/imported/article/itw/2014/05/20/computer-science-doctorates-awarded-us_accidental-poisonings-by-nonopioid-analgesics-antipyretics-and-antirheumatics-600_0-0522191-orig.jpg

The answer is this, anything that you believe should be questioned way more than another person's belief. Actually, get deep into , see how stupid sounds defend the idea of the vaccine chipping Americans. Come the conclusion that most people do after pondering for more than 3 seconds, that they don't need chip you if you carry one in your phone, and that if they ever did chip you all would take is one person being checked for a chip blow the whole thing wide open. Quit shutting off your brain because you trust some people but not others.

I also have met people who can never admit the follies of our institutions and the outright malicious and deadly things they do, they will bury their head in the sand when you mention that the reason the GOP passes laws is for their donors are the reason democrats do the and that this is a bad thing. These people suck too and I have no respect for a person that can't out their side because of the fear that will hurt their reputation. I think the CIA should be not be trusted. I think that people should understand the biases of the news they watch and make sure they are not duped into an echo chamber of one side. All the media failed us with the second Iraq invasion, most of our politicians did as well. I will say is a difference between CNN bungling the news and Fox news working directly with the white house make happen but if Fox reported the sky was clear and I looked outside and was, I would believe them on that. The past shows us history but does not prove that someone will always lie and what needs to change is that you need to get better and sifting through .

What needs happen is not avoid sources with biases but understand them and having a toolset to sift through the biases and bullshit. That you should seek out the opposing arguments as well to make sure you are not being sold a bunch of bullshit. If you are the person thinks your side is infallible, you are far too gone. If you think you shouldn't criticize your own side because so much is at stake, you are not far behind the first fuckers. Most of the left is viewed as a mess of infighting, to which I say we don't fight enough when we see the vanilla self-serving shit that was trying to pass as a stimulus bill. No logical right-winger would see the GOPs offerings as helpful to the common worker, that the exclusion of the stimulus shows how much they don't give a about you. On the other side, the establishment Dems that wanted sign don't give a either and both sides need admit it.

We don't get the truth by using argument derailing tactics win a debate. That is not a quest for the truth, is a quest win and those aren't the thing. Using Fake News as a comeback is shit level arguing and provides nothing because if you had use fair arguments you would have none. That is why the right resort but is not exempt from the left. People will attempt dismiss my arguments because I am not a cis woman(never claimed be and know the experience is different), I am white(which I'm tri-racial fuckers), because of my assumed class or privilege( i grew up poor long into adulthood, and no longer am), and the reason they do so is that they cant attack my real arguments so they have to attempt to cheat, just like the right. The argument that I aint black or disabled isnt an argument, it is a pussy ass cop out, just like saying the media is lying to you, my point is that you have prove it on a case by case bitches and your fucking an unoriginal disingenuous piece of shit if you pull out these gems to supposedly own someone on a contested opinion.
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I want to talk about biases, the media's reputation, and how people dont trust the government.
Posted:Dec 11, 2020 12:20 pm
Last Updated:Mar 28, 2024 3:14 pm
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I want to talk about biases, the media's reputation, and how people dont trust the government. I wont defend any point outside of the ones i am writing this post for because it is used as some argument ender, by saying that this person or this organization once lied that this is some "own" that people drop that is equivalent to saying "wake up sheeple!" and its fucking cringe. I also want call out a few other trends that seems to be prevalent in people that buy bullshit so easily from sources they liken to versus ignoring mountains of evidence from sources they dont because, well fuck them and they were wrong once and therefor forever wrong! I have already mentioned the poison of false equivalencies so I will not mention it again in this one.

numerology, iconography, hidden symbolism, pattern recognition:

I was listening to Jordan Peterson try to explain genetic spirituality by what he thought was the existence of the double helix in ancient artifacts as proof of it. I thought what I usually thought when listening to him. He is a charlatan and full of shit but then I thought about it a bit more and realized he was just like any other Qanon nutter seeing symbolism and patterns where there were none. Correlations that were stretches to fit some point he would never come it.

A sane person walks into a room and sees it as a living area, a schizophrenic walks into the same room and thinks its an "escape room" with hidden puzzles and iconography put there by people smarter than them hoping they will crack the code. Quit doing this shit, your life isn't the plot to national treasure, it is boring and you have no bigger purpose. I know it is way more exciting to think you can take down a pedophile network or crack a riddle that proves Biden is a reptilian inter-dimensional traveler, but maybe an exercise in pattern recognition isn't the answer and a cloud isn't a bunny and my guess is it wont be helpful to a fragile mind with no tools to decipher if something is bullshit or not.

So lets start with an example, the science world globally agrees that Covid is an issue, that masks will help mitigate the spread, and that a vaccine is on the way. Just because MSNBC has a neo liberal bias or the US at one point did inject black people with Syphilis(seriously wtf US Health), pointing it out does not invalidate facts or the truth of now. It is a dumb argument to say we can invalidate a whole country for their actions of today if it was ever ok with slavery, native genocides, etc, it doesn't work that way. All it shows it that a media organization or governmental wing should not be trusting blindly and on faith, I would say this goes for your cheeto leader as well.

You still have to prove your crazy ass theories outside of that and no amount of yelling FAKE NEWS does that. It makes sense that you could see a lying failure as beneficial when there is no real evidence of him doing anything to take credit for what he did. Another example is how the right will say he helped the economy, when no policies or legislation can actually be shown to have the effects it did. I don't even want to point out what they are bragging about is no longer true because of the pandemic but even before, not one policy or legislative action can be linked to the uptick outside of what we already know, it kept going up from when Obama was in office through no action of his own.

Well what about the leftists? They are in the same boat right? If the gulf of Tonkin was a false flag, if the CIA has a history of being involved in coups, then everything I can imagine is possible. 9/11 was an inside job, the sandy hook shootings were staged actors, chemtrails, the fires in california were death rays being tested by HAARP or whatever fucking dumb shit you believe. All the you have that are true, stop blind trust and faith, you still have to show evidence for your claims and you dont get to play hop scotch jumping to conclusions with no evidence and some janky correlations. This is a graph of how dumb linking shit is without causation:

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The answer is this, anything that you believe should be questioned way more than another person's belief. Actually get deep into it, see how stupid it sounds to defend the idea of the vaccine chipping Americans. Come to the conclusion that most people do after pondering it for more than 3 seconds, that they don't need to chip you if you carry one in your phone, and that if they ever did chip you all it would take is one person being checked for a chip to blow the whole thing wide open. Quit shutting off your brain because you trust some people but not others.

I also have met people who can never admit the follies of our institutions and the outright malicious and deadly things they do, they will bury their head in the sand when you mention that the same reason the GOP passes laws is for their donors maybe are the same reason democrats do the same and that this is a bad thing. These people suck too and I have no respect for a person that can't call out their side because the fear that it will hurt their reputation. I think the CIA should be not be trusted. I think that people should understand the biases of the news they watch and make sure they are not duped into an echo chamber of one side. All the media failed us with the second Iraq invasion, most of our politicians did as well. I will say there is a difference between CNN bungling the news and Fox news working directly with the white house to make it happen but if Fox reported the sky was clear and I looked outside and it was, i would believe them on that. The past shows us a history but does not prove that someone will always lie and what needs to change is that you need to get better and sifting through it.

What needs to happen is not to avoid sources with biases but understanding them and having a toolset to sift through the biases and bullshit. That you should seek out the opposing arguments as well to make sure you are not being sold a bunch of bullshit. If you are the person who thinks your side is infallible, you are far too gone. If you think you shouldnt criticize your own side because so much is at stake, you are not far behind the first fuckers. Most of the left is viewed as a mess of infighting, to which I say we don't fight enough when we see the vanilla self serving shit that was trying to pass as a stimulus bill. No logical right winger would see the GOPs offerings as helpful to the common worker, that the exclusion of the stimulus check shows how much they don't give a fuck about you. On the other side, the establishment dems that wanted to sign it don't give a fuck either and both sides need to admit it.
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===MORAL LUCK and why moderates and the left can be just as bad as trump supporters===
Posted:Dec 3, 2020 12:27 pm
Last Updated:Mar 28, 2024 3:14 pm
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This rant was spurred from my unwillingness to welcome any people that support trump:
Too many people take credit for things they did nothing to earn. The left pretend to be more woke but in the end they are just privileged in their environments and circles. The reality is I am privileged to know empathy by growing up in a melting pot of different cultures so I know we are all the same. If I were raised in a conservative environment where it was predominately white and bigotry was an everyday thing I would fall easily to the prey of "othering". This would be the case till new information or logic was given to me, not self taught. This doesnt give you the answers to beliefs as much as tell you to think this way or another. It does not give you the logical tools to see contradiction or hypocrisy in a belief or even why you believe it.
Because of this the left can be on the right side of a problem with the correct answers but couldn't show their work on how they got there. Someone can say why they believe in womens rights but not ground it in any axiom or rule on how they came to that conclusion.
Some so-called progressives and moderates have the same failings but we rarely see them because they had the "moral luck" of their circles being democratic or leftist which in the end is just way more correct by default. You can think I am full of shit but think of trying to prove someone should be given basic respect over being a conservative and trying to prove Trump is intelligent, one is a way harder task. Think of it like choosing a team based on the people you are around and that team actually having almost all the correct answers through no effort of yours. They didnt learn any more than anyone bigoted conservative and they sure as hell dont know how to base their morality to any axiom of logic, they just had the luck of being raised in an urban and more progressive city.
An easy test did come our way in 2016 that can be explained best by a story:
imagine a plane crashes on a deserted island. The survivors all pool the food supplies they find and ration them and this works for 20 days straight. In the middle of the night, the food is completely ravaged. In the morning when it is discovered the food has been eaten, another survivor, shows up on a makeshift raft, dehydrated, nothing but skin and bones. Just then two survivors walk up with chocolate smeared all over their faces, bellies full, and point to the newly arrived as the thief. The people that then chose to blame the stranger and not the two gluttonous thieves are the trump supporters, correct on the descriptive(we no longer have food) but wrong in their prescriptive solutions( blame the immigrant) because of bias or hypocrisy they are ok with never questioning.
So that was a test in 2016 to see if you had the basic human empathy and logic for people that don't look like you and every person that voted for Trump failed because their selfish goals were way more important than a person hurt by the rhetoric of xenophobia, transphobia, anti-immigrant, and anti-muslim. Not that they were all bigots but their apathy and selfishness were why I had to draw the line there.
The left was never given a test to see if they cared more about their ego than their beliefs until this primary. A test to see if they believed in non-contradiction when it came to violence until they started saying it's ok to punch a nazi and eventually people that voted for nazis, then trump supporters, etc. I now know how people called deplorables would double down and vote for a tyrant. The same way a news report that said random bernie supporters on twitter could make a progressive throw their whole belief structure out the window and say never bernie. The left just havent had the test yet or it is in progress and a fuck ton of them are failing because they dont care to not lie to get their way. Because they demand from others that they wont do themselves. Because winning is more than not being factual and the ends justify the means. This is way harder to sift through but moderates and supposed progressives actually are in the middle of a test whether they know it. If they fail they will double down instead of admitting they were wrong. They will respond because of emotion and not what is right.
I love differing opinions, I surround myself with people whom i vehemently disagree with, but I cannot abide with disingenuous fucks who are willing to lie to win an argument. To smear a person because a narrative is out there they can just repeat like Bernie is a misogynist because it may change a mind or two. Say what you want but don't be a purposeful liar, a constant hypocrite, or you are no better than a trump supporter.
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Consistency, Why it is one of the most important attributes and why we can never trust without it:
Posted:Jul 17, 2020 3:40 pm
Last Updated:Dec 3, 2020 12:32 pm
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Anyone that knows me will know that I work every day(or at least tell them i do) to be the exact same person every minute of my life, whether you see that as a good thing or not depends on the person. Even shitty food made exactly the same way every time will garner loyal fans of it eventually but great food without consistency will leave a business closed in a few months.

When it comes to people, we make excuses for a persons uncharacteristic actions as bad days and not the true representation of themselves and I would agree to a certain extent. Most people dont see the overall long term damage that "having a bad day" has on a relationship. Predictability and setting your watch to someone sounds uninteresting and boring to the outsider, taking for granted the monumental effort to be fair and measured every waking moment by discounting its value.

I view inconsistency as hell, and a nightmare of shaky ground. I think of it as the same way that you could never be sure if someone is telling you the truth if they have a habit of lying, is the same way I dont know what person to expect if they are inconsistent depending on the weather.

When it comes to toxic relationships it is easy to see that these inconsistencies are way worse. The rules that apply in one moment can be rewritten and changed to justify a person behavior. This usually manifests itself in contradiction or hypocrisy but it is no less inconsistent since both apply. If you have a person that goes by the golden rule 80% of the time but the other 20% they are irrational, unfair, or dont follow their own axioms then you dont have a stable relationship, you have something that seems like it can get to a point it can be but in a flash tomorrow's hopes or goals for that first home or having can be flipped at a moments notice. On top of that is that most people dont actually strive to not lie as much, attempt treat their loved ones less unfairly, or most importantly, set aside some time daily to introspectively recount their interactions and see if they were unfair, dishonest, or being hypocrite to those people. If a person is 80/20 and not actively trying to be more consistent then there is no evidence that it will get better but more so that it will get worse.

Another issue with being 80/20 is that you could be the greatest person to someone only to have all the karmatic goodness thrown out the window by just a few dick moves. The exchange rate on shitty things isnt a 1 to 1 but more like 100 good deeds to one bad deed. For example, a man that only punches his wife once each year but is the best partner outside of that doesnt negate the terribleness of that action. It also is no solace to a wife waiting for an inevitable punch throughout the year knowing it is coming some day would leave her in a constant state of fear or stress when signs start to show it may happen soon again. This can be applied to lesser violent examples but the point still stands. If you cannot guarantee a bad flip out or argument wont spiral into some disaster you dont have a solid foundation.

We justify these actions by compartmentalizing them. We say we will never let a girlfriend or boyfriend do A or B but then let our family walk all over us or vice versa. We say they are good people but you just dont want to work with them. The latter meaning this, they are decent people unless they have any stress or worries, then they become a cutthroat asshole who would eat you if it came down to it on a deserted island.

Another thing we seem to do is assume people being cheerful or positive are charlatans of sorts. Putting on one face to the public and behind closed doors another. I know these people exist and that hypocrisy over a long enough timeline will be exposed. There are plenty of ways to find them out but I think these people are easily found out by how much contradicting they do over time. I used to work with the king of contradiction, this person would tell his employees to do two different things and then depending on the mood lambaste them for not choosing the other. That guy would also put on a mask to the public but it wasn't long(still too long) before everyone realized he was a fraud.

Outside of that instance you have earnest people trying to become consistent, putting in effort to be more positive and less cynical and it is misconstrued or cancelled because they slip up once or twice. I used to judge too quickly on these people who wanted nothing other than to put forward the person they truly wanted to be but just couldnt nail it most of the time. I dont think these people are equipped or focusing on the right paths to get there but they are trying and that does count for something.

Redemption:

Say you were a dead beat father or a shitty friend you need a path to get back to an ideal person you would like to be but you need the tools and work to do so. This requires effort on consistently not being the person of old and all the people you burned till you got to this point will assume you are once again lying or one week away from the next train wreck. Consistency is even more important here because you have to distance yourself so far from the asshole you were that the people in your life dont remember it every time they are around you. That is the penance of changing, that you could change your whole life but it will take evidence for anyone to trust you. Not because of some grudge or ill will, but because the evidence of the past still never being debunked with time and proof.

Most people dont know how to start that process but I see it as very easy. Treat your friends, family, and partners like gold and demand they do the same. Set aside an hour to reflect on the day and judge yourself for your actions with others that day. Analyze and make sure you were a good friend or person and apologize and admit youre wrong to the person if you werent. Be afraid of being on the wrong side of any argument. This isnt turn the other cheek, I would never suggest you put up with anyones bullshit but if you want to get to a place where you know you deserve to not deal with someone being an asshole to you, you have to get to a place where you are consistently not in the wrong. This takes a long time to train your brain to not react out of jealousy or ego from something you take the wrong way. It is a muscle you work on to make sure whatever interaction you have you didnt contradict yourself and you stuck to your own rules.

From that comes the demand for others to do the same. Why should I work so hard to be a good friend when none of mine are? Why should I be the one to work so hard on this relationship when the other side isnt. Why should I respect my family over blood alone when they consider me only as a tool or something to use. Whatever case comes up I dont think you get to self respect without becoming a person that deserves it. Contradiction and inconsistency are easy ways to know you arent there yet. Hypocrisy and lies are an easy way to detect a terrible human being and I could point to many people but Trump and his ilk stand out like a shiny beacon of fuckery.

Anywho, im done for now, dont think being consistent is an easy task and take for granted the people that are, some may be gifted by a good upbringing with little or no trauma but others had to remove so many demons and bad rules that got them through life till now but are stunting them from the next progression. I spent my life from 19 up trying to undo all the bullshit I was taught along the way but I wish I would have been given this tid bit of a toolset among others way earlier in life cause it would have been a shit ton easier.
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Dysphoria, gender and others
Posted:Aug 18, 2018 11:25 am
Last Updated:Dec 21, 2019 4:39 am
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Gender Dysphoria is a topic I see from time to time and its highly damaging to the individual, there is a ton of counter bullshit argued as well, so here is my thoughts on the matter.

The problem with dysphoria of any kind is that you have a goal that can never be achieved, it is a utopia-like state of dreams because it is a red herring of a totally different issue. Take someone who is overweight and sees themselves as disgustingly fat or at the very least not their ideal, even when they lose all the weight and look great it fixes nothing because it is overwhelmingly external in its origin. That isnt to say that you arent internally struggling with what you want to see and want to be with what you currently are. It is however that when you are comparing yourself to an ideal and it is those ideals that are highly swayed by societal standards that someone besides you define as the holy grail. If it were really the problem that could be fixed with just losing weight you wouldnt have the mountains of disorders like anorexia, bulimia, binge eating,etc. The reason that all these disorders exist is because the goal isnt the issue, its your minds eye of what you desire to see can never be achieved and the only antidote is telling your mind a better lie. Instead of saying you will never be good enough tell yourself you are already there and content and then anything else as far as improvement is icing on the cake.

Now I am sure someone will read this and jump on my for comparing one disorder to theirs but just think about it a bit. I have had people I know who cut themselves, purged, and then achieved losing the weight and rocking a bikini like no ones business. It did not help because even skinny people had body image issues. This is not their fault, it is the whole of society that is and pointing out that the sickness is not you but an externally pushed ideal that can change on a whim that you can never win.

For example, big asses are in season, so people disfigure their bodies to look like bugs life characters. It is a choice I would never stand in the way of but does get extreme. Women remove ribs to get more hour glass figures and by the time they achieve that goal the fad will change. If you know in your heart of hearts that by getting to that goal you will have fixed your bad self image that could have led to your death I applaud you but I am just saying once you get there it may not be the club soda fix all you thought it would.

People bring up suicide rates in pre and post op transitions as it points to a bad decision and one of regret but we know that isnt true. We know that if you can pass you are ten times more likely to not attempt suicide just like we know gay men suicide rates changed ten fold as well when society stopped condemning them as a mental illness in a major way.

The reason that it is easy for someone to not want to die when they pass isnt because they achieved their ideal. It is that society is fooled in a sense to treating you equally, thats right, someone tricked you into treating them like a human being and you all fell for it! So what does that mean? It means if every asshole didnt shit on a trans person throughout their day, if structures of conformity where not trying to push us out of existence, we would be less inclined to feel like shit.

Think about that for a bit and then tell me it is vanity that is the answer and not just a better lie you could tell yourself. You could and should do what you want, transition or dont, but wherever you're at right now is positive and it should be enough to hang your hat on for the moment. I am a good person right now, I will continue to work on improving to be a better person but that doesnt mean since I havent made it to perfect that I should hate myself in the interim.

The reason I wont transition is because I know that society and structures will make it difficult for me to live comfortably. It has nothing to do with coming out, it has nothing to do with friends or family acceptance. I have great progressive family and friends because I am not a hypocrite and hate bigots. But if i did transition I would lose my job and have a hard time making the same amount of money friends and family rely on from me to have. Now if I won the lottery or if something more even less plausible like trans people were excepted by society, I would have done it long ago. So I know that the decision to transition now is a hard one for people to choose. I am just saying it isnt the way you look that is the issue, it is the way the current society looks at you that is the real issue, one that could never be solved by an ideal pushed on you from magazines and advertisements who already tell you black people are unattractive compared to white skinned people.

We should just own who we are and walk around like we have our own theme songs and thinking that everyone thinks im hot. Its a better lie than telling yourself you arent good enough and confidence has a way of actually proving that if you think you are the cats pajamas, everyone else will too.
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Insignificant events leading to larger effects
Posted:Apr 22, 2018 2:51 pm
Last Updated:Dec 22, 2018 12:55 pm
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Reason i didnt cam on Saturday/Sunday

The other day on Wednesday I was trying to take a mid afternoon nap after a long night the day before. I kept hearing a sound I couldn't recognize but tried to ignore it. I thought it was construction but it ended up being a bird hitting the window. The frequent infrequency was so off putting in its randomness and how loud the bird would tap the window that I couldnt get any rest and just got up instead.

This goes on for two more days starting a 4-5am and going all day. I spray the fucker with water. I throw pebbles at the damn thing like a cavewoman but he keeps coming back. My wife on Friday was tapped between the bird and our fat barreling through the doggy door ten times that night for some reason, we both had a shit sleep. By Saturday morning I have a sleep debt of a few days. I dont sleep well anyway, not sure why but I have a hard time getting sleep and when I do I dont get much.

This little fucking retard of a robin is nesting and thinks it has competition it its reflection and fights with the windows creating a loud band sporadically through my house. The window in question(see pic) is not easy to get to with 25 ft vaulted ceilings in the main house it requires a huge scary ladder to every dust the fuckers. So the proposed solutions are to soap up the window so it doesnt reflect during it's nesting season or use white blinds so the window doesnt reflect. I end up cutting a white foam board the size of the window sill and putting it in the window he keeps hitting. The next morning he is still doing it. I get up and soap the windows, I doubt it work but it sucks when one little pest can ruin your weekend like that.

My wife offered to go wig and clothing shopping and all I wanted to do was rest with a headache from lack of sleep, instead I am fighting with a 7 inch menace. I usually dont want to hurt anything, even insects unless they are pests like flies and mosquitoes, I didnt even want to set up mouse traps in my house till the fucker cause a 400$ water leak by chewing through some water hoses. Right now though, I want to go buy a pellet gun and murder this bird's whole fucking family in front of him.
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Any time banning transgender people comes up in the news about the military
Posted:Apr 6, 2018 2:19 pm
Last Updated:Jun 12, 2018 7:49 am
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Any time some news about transgender in the military comes up its a rough day for many trans people. For me it was the incendiary responses to FB posts, I could give a shit about restricting places that don't want me there, hence I only go where I know I am welcome, which is a very small amount of places really. The headlines are more of an excuse to bully and shit on trans people in general and all these assholes come out of the woodwork to quote Tomi and her social experiment rhetoric cause the dicks never had an original thought in their head. Regurgitate Tomi with her social experiment, regurgitate Milo by calling us a mental disorder, etc.

The stats don't add up though. I could argue that point and will if some asshole responds but the point here is there is no other group that every one comes to join in to bash than that of the trans community. It is so easy to pull the wings off a fly or beat a small and to be the % who either lets people shit on us or take time out of their day to blast people for just living their lives. You are not brave for shitting on the marginalized, when has going along with the mob made you special or brave?

Think about being obese and some one yelling you're a disgusting fat from across the street. Think about not being the most handsome person and masses of people mumbling how ugly you are as you walk by. No one does that because we know that isn't free speech, that is just being an dickhead. That common courtesy does not extend to the trans community, and it was sobering to see how so many people could not be happy unless they ed us around like puppies to get through the day, and it wasn't even a Monday.

I am not a psychological disorder. A society that wants, or the parents that do try beat the gay out of you is the violent mental disorder. The people who f*g bashed in the 90s were the disorder, not the Matthew Sheppard's of the world. The nuts that thought gay marriage would effect them are the psychos. The people who go to bed angry cause somewhere in their city men are kissing are the weirdos. Don't put the whole of mental issues on .03 when suicides are ten out of every hundred thousand or mental disorders are 18% of all Americans. You assholes do the math here before pinning crazy on us cause it seems like many people are suffering. I'll tell you what might have some factor in some feeling depressed or suicidal though, a huge percentage of people you know and never met calling you names every morning and during the day nullifying your right to exist. You people get depressed because work isn't going right, try adding on some calling you an abomination on your way to dutch brothers you pussies.

This "social experiment" isn't growing because it is easy, in some places it is still a death sentence and they still try and risk it just to live their individual life as true for just day at least. You think parents should not condone or listen to their and beat them into submission, that social experiment we have plenty of data on. We know people will kill themselves, they will be depressed, and suffer from other disorders so quit pushing ideas that are known not to work. You may as well try pushing gay conversion camps since they worked so well.

God forbid some family member in a rare instance support their . The minute they do the external psychosis of society has to form up to bully them for loving their enough not to want them dead. I have never seen trump nuts, black people, hispanic people, young people, and mothers, team up to bully some till that news. For me it is not about the headline, it is just sad the only commonality that could bridge so many cultures and ethnicity had to be the bashing of the .03 percent of fellow humans that required so little for you to write us off as deserving to exist.
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