Feel violated..
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Posted:Sep 19, 2009 6:59 am
Last Updated:Oct 13, 2009 7:22 am
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Happened a few days back. A colleague came over with pretext of chatting and catching up plus borrowing the bath salts from me.
But in the end, he tried to get fresh with me. Purposely squeezed himself into the tight space between wall and bed where I was sitting and he was sitting on the bed initially. Other things that he did; pressing his body on me from behind, tried pulling me to the toilet to bubble bath with him, tried to sneak a sudden kiss, wanted a departing hug when all attempts failed..
I was so upset by him and his actions. In the past, he tried but not as obvious and gave up when I rejected him. This time he was more persistant.  My sleep-over colleague had a hard time trying to pacify me.
Keeping my distance from him from now on.
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Look Look. My new corset!! Nice?
Still contemplating on posting the bedroom activity pics of me and special-someone. He wanted it but I thinking about it.
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Quick notes..
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Posted:Sep 17, 2009 10:39 am
Last Updated:Oct 19, 2009 9:26 am
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My colleague still sleep over when he is back to pg. For me, it is more to curb my loneliness.
He did manage to get the connecting room when he was back few days back. When other colleagues question him on why that specific room. He replied because he like it. hahah.. 
I told special-someone about it. Confessed to him. He got a little upset. Upset that I was lonely and I didn't tell him. Upset that I am doing things behind his back. Now we come to an agreement to be truthful to each other.
Some other things that we talked about include his decision to choose me over the other girl. We managed to spend some time together in mid Sept because I sneaked back to sg myself to be with him. Then I will be going back to sg again on 25th then back to pg on 28th. Sigh. So short duration again.
Contemplating on leaving again. One of my colleague got fired for a small issue in the past. Told to go in 24hrs. So sudden. So shocking. So saddening. Lost of a great colleague and a great friend. The company is intolerant to mistakes.
Need to get some sleep. Probably will update again. No pics lately. Though special-someone wanted me to post the pics of our bedroom activity. He insisted on wanting my account ID and password some time back. So he can actually login to see what I am doing. If there is anything that don't seem my style, that might be him. Be beware if you suddenly get a message or reply from 'me'. 
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Guilty..
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Posted:Sep 8, 2009 7:44 am
Last Updated:Jan 21, 2010 8:37 am
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I did something naughty. 
My colleague was here in pg with me. One sunday night while out for dinner. We got a call that there was problem at work. The problem started at 9pm ended at 3am.
When we dragged ourselves back to hotel, somehow we dared each other to sleep over in either room. He accepted the dare and said he will be back once he washed up.
I already had this thought in mind earlier in the day but don't think it is appropriate. However maybe I got desperate. Maybe I craved to have someone to sleep beside me at night. Maybe because special-someone haven't been contacting me lately. Nevertheless, I wanted a warm body and he fitted the bill.
He came over. We slept. Really slept. Nothing sexual. After a while he did pull me to him and hugged me to sleep. I was trying to sleep yet to remain conscious because he is not special-someone and I am nervous to what he might do to me. He did give me a peck on the lips. I didn't respond.
Morning came. Our bodies entwined. He still hugging me to sleep and I was sleeping on his shoulder. He kissed me again and again. Commenting that I was beautiful last night, nice to hug and my voice sounded so soft when I woke up. I asked him why and he replied that it may be my hair plus my dark eye circles. 
He tried to french kiss with me but I refused. Only cuddling and light kisses in bed. He was also tracing my ear outline and jawline and stroking my back as we laid there silently.
Remembered that it should be Monday right? We should be at work. But because of the late night problem. We had the green light to go to work late. And we decided to go to work late.. very late; 3pm.
We skipped breakfast and went back to doze and cuddled in bed until 1pm. Lunch at 2pm. Work at 3pm. Knocked off at 6pm. And we didn't really do much work, we were chatting away instead.
Evening, we went for dinner and a long walk to the mall before taking a cab back to hotel. After dinner, he tried to hold my hand but I don't allow it. Too risky to be seen.
Monday night, he came over to sleep over again as well. Nothing happened. I would not allow it. Only light kisses and hugs. We watched some tv, had some drinks before sleep to sleep better later. Woke up the next morning, wishing to sleep more but we managed to get up for work.
He went back to sg tonight (Tue). I told him not to sleep over when the rest of the guys are here. Too risky. He said it is ok as long as he didn't get spotted at night and in the morning. I outright refused. He said he will try to get the connecting room.
I know I should not do this. Furthermore he is married. Newly married of about a year I think. My friends chided at me for my actions. I couldn't help myself. Now I know why being overseas is so damaging to relationships and to self. Nights are really lonely. 
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Back to Penang..
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Posted:Sep 1, 2009 7:24 am
Last Updated:Jan 21, 2010 8:37 am
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As above. I still have my job for now. Euro woman will be back tomorrow. Peaceful days are coming to an end.
Was feeling pretty ok until now. Knowing special-someone is up to no good lately. Yet I can't stop him from doing what he want because we are not in exclusive relationship.
What we have is complicated to understand by my friends and frown upon by them. Currently he has two girls in his life. One is me, other is another girl. All are not in any exclusive relationship.
His family members know about this strange 'triangle' because we stayed over at his place on separate days. Now that I am in Penang, she stay over almost everyday which I am not too happy about.
He is keeping her around because he felt that she need protection from this harsh world as she is quite gullible and 'mountain turtle' and I believe to manipulate her for his pleasures as well. I would said toss her out, she need to grow up. Furthermore, she is older than me.
Now I am feeling all pissed by him and her. ARGGHH..
Finally, here is my own birthday present. Sorry, I using a new lappy and not sure how to resize it to smaller.
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Whining again..
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Posted:Aug 26, 2009 11:20 am
Last Updated:Sep 4, 2011 10:24 pm
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About wanting to quit, run back home for good.
My peaceful days are coming to an end as the euro woman is coming back. Was hoping that she will never come back, but my wish wasn't granted.
After all the whining and getting depressive over it. The only thing I can do now is to secure a job back in SG then I can throw the letter. Seems hard to get a decent pay job lately.
My antennas are up at full alert and highly sensitive of late. *Highly suspecious*
My negative side kept thinking that they want to kick me out which is also what I hoping partially so that I don't have to deal with the euro women anymore. Kept wanting to pack up my big luggage, and slowly bringing back things that I don't need to make space in the big luggage. Trying to use up my skin and body products that I brought over. Trying to eat up and drink finish my alcohol as well. But I keep adding more food to my food stash.
Special-someone wanted me to fight back and explain my side of story. However I just want to walk away from all without a fight. I'm not one who fight and argue back, too bochap, too timid for that.
Sent an message to manager but he didn't reply me. *Warning bells sound again*
So tired. So depressing and negative.
To look on the bright side; I am going back to SG on 27th evening! But back again on 30th if HR give me the flight details. 
I took some pics of my own birthday present already, will post up soon. There is another pic which I am contemplating if I should post it up. A pic of night of passion with special-someone when he came over to visit. It can be annoying as he keep pausing and taking pics when I want to enjoy. I ended up with an achy lower back the next morning and for next two days. 
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Happy Birthday to me..
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Posted:Aug 11, 2009 7:55 pm
Last Updated:Sep 10, 2009 6:49 am
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Hanging out with special someone now. Wishing he don't have to work today. But oh well, going to do some strolling and shopping by myself since no one is free during working hours.
Bought something for myself yesterday. Will post up when I back in Penang..
Cheers people!!! 
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Aimless elf..
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Posted:Aug 4, 2009 7:52 am
Last Updated:Sep 10, 2009 6:51 am
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Searching, pursuing interests, aims, goals, targets and direction..
Update:
Not going Malacca anymore. He couldn't change his off days. So I be hanging around, doing things and finding people to meet up while he is away at work.
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Want to post something but nothing in mind..
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Posted:Aug 1, 2009 6:56 am
Last Updated:Aug 6, 2009 9:29 am
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Couldn't think of anything to write about. Nothing that is too serious or too mind bogging. Something lighthearted.
No one will be keen on my boring routine except stalkers. No new photos yet to keep you guys drooling over me.
Happy to report back that my weight reached 48kg. There is no changes to my physique though
Enduring one more week of working days before able to go back SG again. Probably going to drive up to Malacca with special someone to spend my birthday with. Somehow I am not feeling excited about coming back for this trip.
Absence make hearts fonder, but it make me drift away as well.
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Back in SG..
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Posted:Jul 26, 2009 10:53 am
Last Updated:Jul 31, 2009 9:33 am
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Was back in SG since 24th and going off on 28th.
Here for 4 days for this trip but still feel time is too short..
Managed to spend some time with special-someone but wishing for more time to be with him.
Should be able to catch up with a few friends tomorrow before leaving again.
It is getting harder to leave SG each time I am back.
However I am counting down to two more weeks then I will be back in SG again through my own pocket so that I can spend my birthday with him and catching up with few more friends.
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No posts for the past few days as I was too tired with afternoon shifts and no inspirations to write about anything.
I did tried to take some photos but didn't turn out the way I wanted. Probably the image that I want to portray need extra pair of hands to help me with it.
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Off for past two days..
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Posted:Jul 9, 2009 1:20 am
Last Updated:Apr 24, 2010 4:04 am
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Was lounging around in my room since yesterday and today because it is my off days!
Though usually I have my off days one day at a time but they shifted it so I had to work slightly longer and then off for 2 days. Back to work tomorrow, dreading it. 
Yesterday was an emotional wreck due to something going on in special-someone's life. Today feeling better already. Didn't go anywhere except to the mall to grab lunch, stock up some fruits and water.
Spent the rest of the day surfing around and looking at gutteruncensored for gossip news. One picture caught my eye and I tried to imitate the pose. I think I failed badly.
Do you like it? Personally I like it very much. I have a few more shots but not sure if able to post multiple pics in one post.
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Wishing for a red bikini..
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Posted:Jul 4, 2009 9:24 am
Last Updated:Sep 4, 2011 11:29 pm
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This is my favourite bikini but it was thrown out because it was so worn out by then. In this pic, i have mod the bikini to fit me better as it was getting loose..
Now I wishing for something similar in red again. It was taken back in year 2007 I think.
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I am 1kg heavier now! And I think my breasts seems to have some improvement as well! Now tipping the scales at mid to high 47kg.. Should I go for one more kg?
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Upset..
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Posted:Jul 3, 2009 4:21 am
Last Updated:Aug 9, 2009 7:20 am
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I want a change of job. I don't want to take her shit anymore. Anyone want to hire me?  I promised to work hard and smart..
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For the butt lovers?
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Posted:Jun 24, 2009 6:35 am
Last Updated:Oct 19, 2009 9:21 am
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Kind of upset today. But trying not to think about it. Hope you like my pic! 
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