Swimming..
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Posted:Jun 7, 2012 3:22 am
Last Updated:Jun 30, 2012 12:19 pm
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Went swimming over the weekend. Made the journey all the way to the east for a swim. I love swimming in relatively empty pools. The joy of having own lane and no screaming jumping into the water, splashing around or swimming breadth-wise instead of length-wise.
The weather was good, there was some sun and a brief light drizzle towards the end of the swim. It been so long since my last swim. This is proper swimming as compared to the non-standard size or odd shape hotel pool. Good to say, I wasn't out of breath when I reached the other end.
What is 1 lap though? I had insisted that to and fro means 1 lap while my friends debated that one length means 1 lap. By my definition, normally I did 5 laps for free and easy relaxing swim and workout by 10-20 laps. That seems too excessive laps now.
The toilets are clean, bright and airy. Public pools are often crowded, tons of learning to swim and people swimming in all directions etc. Toilets are often dark and wet. It was madness that I stopped going since then.
So many exercise that I want to do or keep to it. Gym. My company has gym facilities thus I foresee myself going there once a week if the gym looks ok. Martial arts. Tad unmotivated after missing for 4 weeks in a row but try to get it back on track again. Swim. To keep to it once a week as well if possible. Yoga. To sign up again though it is more relaxing than sweat-inducing workout. But in the end, everything is still based on my mood most of the time. 
I still wish to add one more 'exercise' to my plans but not sure if that is possible. It is pole dancing. I attended trial classes and it was fun despite my inability to move well to the rhythm. Though SS finds it pointless since we have no pole in the house to exercise on my own. Oh well, hope it is possible.
Actually I have a lot of things that I wish to learn and now age is catching up. Thus some things have to be let go. One of them was gymnastic. It look so amazing, displaying flexibility and nimbleness of the body. Sad that high school only started offering the sport when I graduated. After which, studies and martial arts took most of part of my tertiary life. Then work life took over that I stop thinking about the things I wish to learn.
Of late, my skin is acting up again.  Not on my face but on my body. Bouts of itchy rashes and red spots popped out more widespread than the past and after trips to doctor, TCM, medicine and food restriction to finally get it controlled and waiting for the marks to fade off. It started again.  While I try not to scratch on them. Rashes and spots still appeared on top of existing ones. My body is so spotted and even more spotted now. 
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Jobless no more..
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Posted:May 31, 2012 11:09 am
Last Updated:Jun 11, 2012 10:18 pm
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First thing first, I finally found a job after so many months. Yeeeaaah, it is a good feeling to have a job and income soon.  Of course I do not look forward to waking up early, peak hours and squeezy packed trains.
Was browsing around online, checking out some long-lost friends pictures and I was so horrified to see some of them have changed so much over the years. The sparkle in their eyes were gone, tiredness shows on their faces. Pretty faces or handsome faces replaced with double chins, big arms, round cheeks and bodies. Some of them are known from martial arts club back in school. Maybe I have change too but I don't have much photos to look back on. I guess I kind of expect them to maintain how they look like in the past till now but I suppose things changes, situations do not allow them to be as active as before or they simply let go and enjoy life to its fullness. Fullness indeed.
Or probably because they exercise in the past and assumed that they will not put on weight but the weight add on instead of melting away. Unlike non-active people who are consistent in their daily life thus the changes are not that drastic. I don't know.
Most of the time, I do not exercise very regularly as well. I try to whenever I can but sometimes the weather or the feeling are simply not compatible at that point of time. Hundred and one reasons to justify for not being able to exercise and lots of explanations that I should laze around instead. Glad to say I did not have much changes over the years. I still able to wear the jeans from so long ago, probably more than 10 years when I was still studying till now. That pair of jeans was so worn that the color faded from black to dark grey,  the seams are showing signs of wear and tear but I can't seem to put it away to wear the new ones that I bought. So yea, the 'new' pair of jeans is still brand new with tag on for at least 2 years, sitting in the drawer waiting for the daylight to come one day. But that also means I did not grow much, some areas are still small...
SS said I am a fuel guzzler as I eat more than him, grumble about being hungry or peckish after few hours of giving me something to eat and called me a rice bucket. So probably explain why I didn't change much over the years as the food burns up when it hits the stomach.
Was out for dinner earlier and I wrote the post halfway. SS had dinner plans with friend and I didn't want to eat at home so I went out to a nearby mall for dinner alone instead. It is interesting to people-watch and listening to next table neighbours conversations. Ah, it was not my fault to listen as the guy was talking quite loudly and the tables were very near. The young pair of friends were talking about MILF, insecure partners, caught glances at attractive people when with their partners etc. It was quite amusing when the girl didn't understand what MILF means and the guy was trying hard to explain without saying the full term but in the end he said it out loud and clear for her to understand. It was loud and clear for me too and maybe the table next to me. 
After which, a stroll up and down the mall checking out sale stuff before going off. Looking at shoes most of the time as I need black covered shoes for work. Instead of taking the train back home, I decided to walk home as SS was still out with friend and I didn't want to squeeze with people in the train. Thus took a slow long walk in the cooling night. This urban hiking took me almost 1.5hrs and about 6km to get home. But I did enjoy it; walking alone, listening to my music, maybe some accidental crushing of snails in my path and looking things that I hardly get to see when I in the car. If I am the passenger, the car will be too fast to see anything or I am the driver which is not possible for me to be looking around.
I have another thing I want to write about but shall keep it till next time. This post getting a little too long. To update soon.
Happy weekend!! 
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Grudges and resentment.
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Posted:May 27, 2012 8:49 am
Last Updated:Jan 26, 2014 8:33 am
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Not a person who likes to bear grudges. While temper can be displayed at times but forgets just as fast. People who can get onto my grudge list are commendable.
Resentment is one that gets to me often. Often enough as I am pushover or easily taken advantage of, for somehow as a friend I try not to refuse requests if it is not too far fetch except money. money is too sensitive topic for me. So out of obligation, I would do the request even though I do not like it. Over time, I resent my friends and their actions. When the resentment reaches to breaking point, I would wish for my friend not to contact me anymore but feel powerless to say it out.
I do not like resentment as well. It is as equally harmful as grudges. My ex-bf for one is on my resentment list for a long time. The things that he did over the years was bad enough for me to wish that he never to contact me again. My wish came true, he gave up after failing to establish contact for his hidden motives.
Another friend of mine, she is not mean, but she was just a little too manipulative for my liking. While we are still in contact, we do not talk much.
So much ramblings to get it off my chest. On to other better things. Had a mini adventure last week in my somewhat boring daily life; making three guys cum on different occasions within the same day.
The first was at his place, pleasure touching him till he blew his load. The other was after dinner in his car at some secluded carpark, giving him a handjob till he came, and the last was with SS at home, pleasuring him with my touches and mouth while telling him my eventful day. As it is rare for me to do such things, it was fun and exciting for me to play with the three guys within a day.
While I do not actively seek guys out to play, as I prefer to meet the handful of people that I comfortable with for extra bit of occasion fun once in a while.
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Was at Brix..
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Posted:May 17, 2012 10:56 am
Last Updated:Sep 2, 2012 10:51 am
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Still jobless at the moment but thought to drop a post here.
Was at Brix earlier with my friend, hanging out listening to the band. Actually I rarely to almost never do such things before; going clubbing or pub listening to band. So today it was the first. What an eye opening experience.
Watching the working girls doing their things was interesting and very curious at how they are doing it. The dressing, the flirting, the dancing. Amusing as well when one girl was dancing with a customer and another girl promptly sneaked between them, hoping the guy will notice and want her instead. But no luck for her that night.
And the first time getting a feel of how bitchy-ness ladies are. Had our table shoved towards us by one lady customer (not ) when she walked away from her table. I thought nothing about it, adjusted the table back to its position and continued sit back, enjoy the band and watching people having a good time dancing the nightaway.
On our way to carpark, apparently I was stared at by another lady walking past. I glanced at her for a while as well. Noting her whole appearance and her face looking at us but that was it. I looked away and continued walking. However according to my friend, she was staring at me with distaste instead. And he started explaining to me the things that had happened in the club and storytelling.
It was because I was pretty and dressed sexily to their standard. Thus the ladies kind of dislike / jealous me and so such strange funny acts happened.
I have totally no idea until much later when my friend explain to me. I gave like a big HUH... DUH.. to him. I really thought the table incident was an accident. But the force of the push was clearly not unintentional according to him. The stare from the other lady didn't felt malicious until much later when i think about it. So yeah, first time to everything.
I kept wondering though. Is there a need to do that? Apparently some ladies who are so driven by their envy or jealousy that they become destructive. Stories of ladies pretending to stumble and splash their drinks on a lady they deemed pretty and sexy. Anything that they can do and make it look like an accident so that they can ruin the night for the poor lady. Guess it was lucky that our drinks didn't topple on us when the table was shoved.
So it is a crime to look pretty and sexy for it will induce hatred and jealousy in ladies who will try ways and means to break the lady and hope she can be in the center of attraction instead of some pretty ladies.
I enjoyed the band and people-watching though but I did not enjoy experiencing the cattiness of some ladies. I see no need to do that. I just want to enjoy the night as with everybody else but someone had to do something to make dents in it.
Friend told me that he will bring me to listen to bands in other clubs and see more working girls in action. I look forward to that but if more cattiness was displayed, guess I will just put out table and chair at home by the window or balcony and play some music to enjoy by myself instead.
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Down and out..
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Posted:Mar 15, 2012 7:29 am
Last Updated:Jun 11, 2012 10:22 pm
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Life is full of ups and downs. I am having more downs than ups.
No calls for interview after countless applications and weeks to months of waiting. Silence was indeed disheartening and depressing. Even a rejection email can lift my spirits up a little, at least someone/system bothered to send a rejection email instead of waiting for something that never arrive.
Applied for jobs that are suitable, hoping for a call the next day but with no calls as usual and seeing those jobs ads being posted up again and again truly cracked my core.
Reading news and surfing around ended up discovering that a couple of recent job ads were carelessly placed, wanting to hire specific FT groups which angered the citizens. Ads were edited but we all knew those particular companies are still not going to hire the locals.
Learnt from SS friend who managed a small team and within are three Koreans FT whom are degree holders, despite with poor spoken English skills and are being hired for S$1.5K a month. I can never compete with such salary range, I might have to eat grass to make ends meet with that amount.
Then with new realization that my previous company were left with all FTs and I was the only local left in the company at the end of the journey. The other locals left before the company closed. And of course, they had since been found new jobs way earlier.
Getting smacked with all these negativity is so hard to handle. Funds are running low. Daily life still have to go on albeit rather restricted.
Time out till further notice.
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Rambling updates..
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Posted:Feb 16, 2012 9:17 am
Last Updated:Feb 20, 2012 7:50 am
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Now where do I start. I have so much things I wish to write. First up, I am still jobless and taking the time to sort out all my pictures and songs. The songs are to load into the MP3 player for me to start my jogging exercise and it been dragging for too long. I took a long time to edit almost all the files names and properties information and now when I hooked up to the MP3 player, somehow it is giving me problems not displaying all the songs!  Pfft. Shall get started on my pictures sorting soon.
I get moody and upset from time to time when there was no interview calls. I had one strange sales call though. Received the call one afternoon and I think the guy called before though I can't remember. When I picked up, the guy on the other end was saying things like have I found a job, what type of job I am looking for etc.
Whenever I received calls that I do not know, I am very guarded and usually give 1-2 words answers so that the caller has nothing to talk about since I was not participating. So the call lasted about 3 mins which feel much longer and the guy ended by asking if I have any questions for him or his company. Which in my mind, he did not present anything about the product that he is selling. I said no and he replied that he will contact me again if he has any information or updates in future.  ..okay...
My bad sleeping habits had worsen instead of improving. I could only feel sleepy at 4+am and wake up about 1+pm. It is so bad. I tried waking up at 10am today despite the late sleeping but couldn't stay awake and ran back to nap till 2pm.
I had a serious bout of chocolate craving these days. I blaming on PMS. Rarely I had so much chocolate over the past few days; munching on chocolate squares, seeking out more chocolates, constantly thinking of brownie. I love chocolates, I would like to eat a lot but I control. I love fruits too. Recently SS mum bought some peaches and I absolutely like touching, stroking the velvety soft peach skin and strangely somehow it felt like the skin of the scrotum to me. Soft and smooth texture
Need to stop now and get some sleep as I need to wake up real early next day. To write second part soon.
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Post CNY update..
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Posted:Jan 28, 2012 11:02 pm
Last Updated:Feb 15, 2012 10:41 pm
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Chinese New Year was great and very tiring. Had tummy-bursting dinners three days in a row. All the rowdiness caused by all ages of SS family generations that lasted late into the night. So different from my own family past cny experiences where we just sit around at home, watching TV and to grandma house for visiting. Sometimes I am still overwhelmed by all the activities and happenings going on in his family.
I don't think I overeat, heck I did not even touch more than 5 pineapple tarts or love letters rolls because I was down with bad cough, sore throat and stomach discomfort most of the time. And SS's mum made the nicest pineapple tarts!
Had dinner recently with SOC as well. Probably I have to rename him as ex-SOC since we no longer work together. Then popping over to his place to watch TV and some fun under the sheets before going home to be ravish by SS. Rather sore after that. 
A yearly visit to another ex-colleague often made me reflect on my past choices and regret on the actions made. If I had not quit out of frustration, I might probably be at where I like to be now. Instead of having to try so hard to get back into the industry where standards had rose, higher qualifications matters more now that my diploma was being scorned upon.
I always believed experiences and skills supersede education as one matured. It is a piece of paper that take years to obtain. I not willing to fry my brains for another piece of paper when I can learn real relevant skills of the industry. Not too long ago, I rejected a job offer because they kept basing on my qualifications on only able to command this certain pay range that was way below my last drawn pay. Furthermore the interviewer wasn't that polite either; making me wait for hours because she was late and there was no apology given. If she has no respect for other people time, she is probably hard to work with too.
Hope I get some good news soon.
On to lighter note, SS was thinking of a trip to Turkey. It is winter now and he likes cold weather. I never been to countries in winter and pretty excited to have a feel of it. Planning and contemplating about it as it will take a chunk of savings out of it. Any nice things to do/eat/buy that anyone can share more on Turkey? Very much appreciated.
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Happy Chinese New Year..
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Posted:Jan 20, 2012 8:45 am
Last Updated:Jan 28, 2012 11:06 pm
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Happy Chinese New Year greetings to all! 
The weather is finally bringing in some rain. It was so hot out there, a mere short walk could almost drenched my tee. There was a funny moment where SS and I were walking home after a heavy downpour and we spotted a drenched cat sunning herself. We called out to her and she stared at us with a pissed look. It was so funny thinking about how could the cat got herself drenched in the heavy rain. SS believed the cat simply ran into a drain for shelter at the start of rain, not knowing the rain would get heavier and turning drain into flood tunnels.
Few days ago, in mid morning where I was still sleeping. Hehe, I usually wake up about noon. Anyway I was woken up by a call. A sales call from insurance company. But this time, the voice on the opposite end was so so delightful to listen.
Normally I don't like to entertain such calls, in fact I don't really like to talk on the phone much. I like to keep phone calls short and sweet. Even with my mum calling me, I find ways to cut it short.
But this voice.. Oooh, it woke me up, made me paid attention to his voice (not so much on the contents). I could almost pictured a good looking guy with that voice on the other end. This is the first time I can ever recall hearing such captivating voice. Aahhh.. If I hear his voice any longer, I would probably melt.
But in the end, he got nothing out from the call. I wasn't interested in getting insurance and financial advisor job as he tried to convince me to take up a career with his company. I missed his voice though.  
Not much pictures lately as I am too lazy to upload and sort out the pictures, some need to be converted as well. Shall sit on it for a while till the mood kicks in.
Have an fun-filled CNY!
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Belated Happy New Year.
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Posted:Jan 7, 2012 10:58 pm
Last Updated:Jan 20, 2012 8:56 am
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Belated Happy New Year.
Hope everyone had fun on Xmas and New Year.
For me, Xmas was spent having dinner with SS, family and relatives. It was nice. New Year was spent with SS and his friends gathering for BBQ. Good as well, ushering in year 2012.
And things went downhill from there.
Before the end of 2011, I went back to see doctor for pimples again. It is creeping back and affecting my looks and confidence.
First thing in 2012 that happened was I dropped my toothbrush into the toilet not long after getting back from his friend's place. Next up, I got bitten by his while trying to do jogging. Because the collar slipped off and afraid that the ran off, I grabbed hold of its neck. he didn't like it and fought with me, injuring my hand in process.
Prior to that, the was in unhappy mood as SS stepped on its paws and I nudged him with my foot, causing him to clamp its mouth around my ankle. Then the was being stubborn in wanting to go his way, so there was much resisting, pulling and me nudging him that he snapped and we struggled until the collar slipped off.
Blood was dripping from fingers onto the road. We were stunned, the finally calmed down and sat there. SS quickly leashed back the and led the home while I followed behind slowly. Trying to stay composed and resisted the nauseous feeling and seeing stars. Tried to wash the wounds and bandage it up the best we could before going to sleep. Thinking it just need better bandage at the clinic and let it heal.
But at the clinic the next day, the doctor advised us to go to the hospital as one of the wounds was infected with pus developing. I ended up being admitted to the hospital, wheeling into the op room to clean up the wounds and wheel in again two days later to stitch up.
Best part, I had a scheduled interview and not wanting to miss the interview. I attended the interview in my patient clothes. How memorable. But wasn't selected in the end and smacked with a hospital gift bill from the dog.
So now I am typing with one hand, resting at home and trying to look for jobs at the same time..
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Annoyed.
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Posted:Dec 15, 2011 9:06 am
Last Updated:Jan 11, 2012 9:24 am
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I slip more into the relaxed mode as days goes by. Still slowly looking for jobs and waiting for response though still non yet but not as panicky as before where I felt anxious and restless wasting my time and money away. Been out a few times; to run errands, catch up with friends and simply to stroll the malls checking out any new shops or interesting things.
Weekends are too crowded to go out anyway. Weekdays are good for checking out the malls without much crowds. Still left a few more places to check out before I am done mall-strolling.
Anyway, on why I am annoyed. Recently, SS told me that someone we knew from here that his name was not what we know him by. I can't see why the need to tell us a false name for months and only let us know now. I guess he is so used to his false name that he respond promptly even though it is not his real name. A flood of questions in my mind kept popping on what else can be false beside his name.
I can't do that. I prefer honest and straight answers from people that I know. When I am comfortable enough, I tell you my name after you tell me yours.
End of my rant. Moving on. I hope I can find a job that allows me to travel again. Now that I am back, I want to get out of the country as it is crowded here. Comparing Malaysia and here, I prefer to be in Malaysia instead. Wish me luck.
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Memories of Malaysia part 2.
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Posted:Dec 2, 2011 2:46 am
Last Updated:Jan 11, 2012 9:24 am
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Taken one day before leaving. Went to the pool one evening and felt that the sunset was so beautiful that it had to be captured on photos. With that, I went to the pool again the following evening, armed with camera and mini tripod stand to get as many shots as I can before the sunset faded away.
Tried to swim as well but I did not bring my goggles, thus had to swim with head above water for the whole lap. It was torturing. Dark clouds rolled in, threatening to pour but it didn't.
When I got bored of taking pictures of the pool and sunset, I went indoors to the jacuzzi for a quick soak and checking my figure at the mirror. My tummy.
It seems that the tummy is more flabby/bigger now as SS exclaimed rather loudly and rushed over to rub my belly one night in SG. Not funny. Exercise routine is still not a fixed schedule as I like it to be. I missing the hotel gym.
Not that motivated to workout in SG. Only went out to jog twice in the whole 3 weeks that I was back since. The last jog was to bring the out to run with me, draining both our energy and hopefully to train it to walk/run beside me instead of pulling or dragging me around. In the end, the stamina ran out faster than mine. It dropped its weight to the ground, protesting and resisting to run but the moment we start walking back, it would be up and pulling me again. Silly dog.
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Memories of Malaysia.
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Posted:Dec 2, 2011 2:26 am
Last Updated:Jun 11, 2012 10:19 pm
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Taken in Malaysia. Spending my last days by the pool side.
The first two pictures were taken on the last few days before departing where I stayed in the hotel to work and ran off to the pool to soak up some sun and read magazine in the afternoon.
The other pictures were taken with SS on one evening where a brunch of UK soldiers regularly hogged the spot to suntan themselves. The couple of them looks cute. SS was telling me to introduce myself to them but I was too shy.
Then got SS to take pictures of my body in the most flattening angle while sucking in my tummy. This was one of the best out of the lot.
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Heavy heart.
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Posted:Nov 18, 2011 2:38 am
Last Updated:Nov 27, 2011 9:30 pm
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Taken last week when I stayed back a little and managed to see sunset from office.
The second last day of work, sitting here all alone now. The boss is not around today. He is out in another country for reasons unknown, maybe doing last attempts of struggles. Fellow colleague is back to project site for some last things as well. SOC had left early to go back to hometown. Project manager had already surrendered his laptop and things last week.
Sitting here typing out a first and last post from the office. I am still hanging around in the office to take some photos of the surroundings when night falls. It is my last chance to take some photos. Feeling rather sad and restless today. One week flew by so fast and I am out of job so soon. I barely warm the office chair and mark the table with my things and now I have to clear everything on Monday. So difficult.
I was kind of thinking about what to do next apart from the mandatory looking for a new job while on the way to office. Still taking job hunting slow, thinking if I should pursue some personal interest and activities, such as the pole dancing course that I want to learn long ago or some new sports.
I am feeling so upset that I don't wish to do anything at the moment.
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