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Desire, sex and validation  

ahappychickiam 56T
4 posts
10/7/2021 1:00 pm
Desire, sex and validation

Always having project confidence, tinnacity, and strength... The world will eat me alive if I let it.

It's too much sometimes though, I fall to the ground and get maulled.
I am deeply scarred inside and outside, I just hide it well. Some of the people that smile the most hurt the deepest.

I don't think it's sex that I desire the most. That would be easy. I have this absolute fear of being completely vulnerable, exposed, naked in front of another human being. What I mean by that is to let someone inside and say, you're safe with me. I wonder if other trans women feel these things so deeply too?
Yeah, life's a bitch. Feeling rejection, like a freak or fetish, misunderstood and misgendered, a fantasy, plaything, something to try out, a dirty secret, sexual deviant.. I just want to be human, feel human and have another genuine feminine soul that can embrace that feeling of comfort. I'm clinging on tightly for fear of falling when I really wish to let go.

Dianne Katherine Slawson

13129 posts
10/7/2021 4:23 pm

" Some of the people that smile the most hurt the deepest. "

All the great comedians were like that

Fish8623 36M

10/7/2021 6:12 pm

Good post. I'm sure you will always find a way through with the attitude and mind set you have.

agelesssexylegs 79F
1145 posts
10/22/2021 7:22 am

Oh i feel for you,just be yourself and not fear what others think,i been taken for a fool many times in past and yes i have made the same mistakes many times over,falling for the wrong sort,get too involved way too quickly,becoming besotted by charm rather than waiting for true love,some of us ladies are also taken for granted,i have been taken for granted,used as a secret sex object by some real bad boys i have fallen for

tina_w8296 39F
48 posts
12/10/2021 9:32 am

I have been reading your blogs and fully understand how you feel Dianna...most guys treat cis women badly and I can only imagine how you feel...I was married at one time but never again...I went from very straight to only wanting women after my first experience...since that time I now have found trans girls can be also be hot...a line from a song I like is broke is just word broke is just a word that the weaker folks say!
kisses, Tina

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