Final Smile by ThePoetic1
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Posted:Mar 23, 2014 4:51 pm
Last Updated:Mar 26, 2014 8:42 am
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Final Smile
How can you fix a heart-
That was made to be broken
How can I hear the words of your love
If they are never spoken
How can I continue to run
If I don't have the strength to walk
I want to whisper how much I love you
But I am cursed and I cannot talk
Here I am standing all alone
Waiting for the darkness to fall
I am yearning to come home
But I do not hear your call
It appears I am trapped
No way out
Can't untangle the ropes that bound me
Because I am full of fear and doubt
Can't cross the bridge that will lead me home
The bridge is burning bright
Can't find my way out of the darkness
Because I do not see a guiding light
My soul is doomed
I made a deal with the Devil a long time ago
Since I am banned from the gates of Heaven's
I guess there is only one place left to go
I don't care if I burn for all eternity
I only want to hear you say goodbye
Don't you understand that I see your face
In every star of the night sky
I've made my choices
I've made my bed
I know why-
Everyone has left me for dead
I was a sinner
I thought I had it all
But now there is no one to catch me
When I stumble and fall
Before I am cast down to the eternal flames
Before I am doomed to a life of misery
Make me smile for the last time
And tell me that you forgive me
Before I am damned
Just sit and talk to me for awhile
Look into my eyes and forgive me
And I will give you my last and final smile
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DeadWood by ThePoetic1
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Posted:Mar 21, 2014 3:18 pm
Last Updated:Mar 21, 2014 4:41 pm
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DeadWood
I can't make you happy anymore
So I won't stop you when you walk out the door
We can't seem to move forward or get ahead
Our love is like a rose that is wilted and dead
Whenever I stand you knock me down
Why do you call me a fool and a clown?
I can't make you see that I still care
Because you are blinded and you refuse to hear
You treat me like a pile of stinkin' trash
Our love is merely a smoldering pile of ash
Is it because I never bought you a diamond ring
That you attack me and wound me like a scorpion's sting
I won't let you lean on me anymore
I am not your crutch that helps you get up from the floor
You're always down and crying tears of sorrow and pain
Our love is a sad story and I you are driving me insane
Its over babe because you cause me too much grief
Leave me be; I desperately yearn for some relief
Find someone else to put up with your stupid shit
I'm tired of feeling like I'm trapped in a dark pit
Our love used to be a heavenly vacation
Now here we are both on psychiatric medication
We are riddled with guilt and overwhelmed with problems
I don't have faith that we can possibly solve them
Go! Get out of my house and hitch a ride
I don't want to know what happens when you get to the other side
Go ahead and scream at me if it makes you feel good
But you're so crazy and angry that your brain is merely deadwood
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Call Me Insane by ThePoetic1
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Posted:Mar 21, 2014 2:53 pm
Last Updated:Mar 21, 2014 2:53 pm
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Call Me Insane
I am tired and cold
I am unable to sleep
Dwelling on my dark past
And the evil secrets I keep
Feel the blood
Coursing through my veins
Feel the insects
Eating away my brain
Summon the Grim Reaper I give up and I am ready to die
Everyone I know is tired of the tears that I cry
I can’t find happiness
I cannot climb over the stone
My guardian angel has abandoned me
Now I face life alone
The hunger in my gut
Feels like a dagger in my heart
The confusion in my mind
Causes my soul to crumble apart
Go ahead; walk by and ignore me as I lay twisted and torn
Spit on my naked body and scream at me that I am scorned
I’m no stranger to pain for I’ve felt it from the moment I was born
I will crawl to the watering hole
Get the fuck out of my way
I will seek my revenge when I quench my thirst
I swear to you there’ll be hell to pay
I will nourish myself from the rotten carcass
Left by a herd of hungry lions
The maggots I ingest from a dead Zebra’s bowels
Will fill my blood with protein and iron
Once I gain my strength I am coming for you because you are to blame
After you feel the lash of my whip I swear you’ll remember my name
You thought I was a fool and that I was a loser of the game
When I bite your flesh and suck your blood you will call me insane
Evil demons that dwell within
Possess my soul and fill me with rage
Beware for I am ready to attack
I’m bounded but ready to break out of my cage
I know I was a left for dead and I know I wanted to die
But I don't want to be remembered because of the tears I cry
Am I dreaming?
Why am I overwhelmed with hate?
Is this an illusion?
Have I been poisoned by the fangs of the snake?
I feel the need to kill
I feel the need to start a fire
I want the world to burn
Only because I have a flaming, evil desire
Here me as I stand in dirty rags that are bloody and torn
I must fight to survive even though I’ve been cursed and scorned
Left for dead at birth because I was labeled a bastard when I was born
My mind is going in ten different directions
I feel the need to make everyone squeal
For every drop of your blood that trickles to my lips
I turn from a lifeless fool into a man of steel
Someone out there is evil – someone out there is to blame
But you haven’t broken me so hear me call out my name
I will come out the victor of this evil, wicked game
Hear me rant and rave because I don’t care if you call me insane
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Better Beware by ThePoetic1
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Posted:Mar 18, 2014 3:08 pm
Last Updated:Mar 19, 2014 3:02 pm
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Better Beware
Don't mess with me
I'm wearing my dark sunglasses
Are you looking for a fight
Because I'm ready to kick some asses
I may be small in spirit but I have a big heart
Mess with me dude and I'll tear you apart
Watch where you stick that blade you've got in your hand
If you're looking for blood then you've come to the right man
Get ready for me to strike
I'm a cobra and your will feel my bite
Put up your dukes and get read to go toe to toe
In case you didn't know - I was born to fight
Are you showing me signs of fear? Are you afraid?
Time to go to sleep in the death bed you've made
They don't call me Superman for nothing big shot
Don't worry, I left my cape at home so give it your best shot
One strike to the rib cage
One blow to the face
And your blood will spill
All over the place
I'm not a bully but I am not one of your friends
Last man standing is the victor when the battle ends
Are you thinking about running away into the night
Then why the hell did you start this fight?
I can see that your quivering
I can see that your scared
I'll let you off the hook for tonight dude
But in the future you better beware
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Watch You Fall by ThePoetic1
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Posted:Mar 17, 2014 3:00 pm
Last Updated:Mar 19, 2014 3:03 pm
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Watch You Fall
I'm tired of your uncontrollable rants
You need to take psychiatric medication
How long must I hear your screaming profanity
How long must I listen to your verbal defecation
All you do is talk about politics
All you worry about is gun control
You need to worry about repenting
Ask for forgiveness of your sinful soul
Stop screaming about the Mexicans
Its no secret why you cant find work
The illegal immigrants aren't taking your job
No one will hire you because you're a fucking jerk
Why do you complain about the homeless people?
Why are you so concerned about welfare?
You haven't paid taxes in over 50 years
What the hell do you care?
Take all your automatic weapons
Lock yourself behind a steel door
Sit there surrounded by your bombs of destruction
And wait silently for your imaginary race war
If war doesn't come knocking
Fight the war that is inside your head
If you lose the battle of your demented mind
You are going to wind up bloody and dead
Stop trying to kill the monster of your past
Stop trying to destroy the phantom beneath your skin
I know that you are in pain in misery
But you need to realize that these are battles you can't win
Where will you go?
What will you do?
After the lights of your worthless life
Go out on you
Sorry, my confused and perplexed friend
But I simply don't care anymore
Besides, according to your demented delusions
Everyone in this world is evil to the core
So, hide out in the darkness of you wicked fantasies
Stay secluded and scream at the shadows on the wall
But I won't be around to watch you burn in flames
You've lost your grip and I refuse to watch you fall
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Monkey in your Mouth by ThePoetic1
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Posted:Mar 10, 2014 4:51 pm
Last Updated:May 17, 2024 6:6 pm
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Monkey in your Mouth
Don’t tell me your high again
Or else I'm gonna knock you out
Take a sip of mouthwash motherfucker
Smells like a monkeys been living in your mouth
Everyday its the same ol' story
When are you gonna learn?
You can't make a livin' by robbing people
You've got to get out and earn
You always look for the easy road
You always look for the easy way out
Do me a favor and breathe towards New Jersey
Smells like a monkeys been living in your mouth
Clean up your act
Get sober and stop getting high
Stop spending your welfare money on cheap wine
Otherwise you ain't gonna make it out alive
You never listen to me, brother
Even though I scream and shout
Don't talk back to me because your breath stinks
Smells like a monkeys been living in your mouth
You will never be able to get a woman
You will never be able to get a job
You use to be a fancy Wall Street wizard
But ever since the market crashed you're nothin' but a slob
Do you even know what it all means?
Do you even know what your life is about?
Don't sing the blues to me stinky breath
Smells like a monkeys been living in your mouth
I know that its a cruel world
I know that life is unfair
Maybe it wouldn't itch so much
If you changed you shit stained underwear
You're wasting a way
You used to be chubby and stout
But you can't get any food in your gut
Because there's a monkey living in your mouth
I know you're freezing
I know you're cold
But I'm taking back my over coat
Because your excuses are getting old
Take a bath and get a shave
Get rid of your fear and doubt
But don't expect me to give you respect
Until you get rid of that monkey in your mouth
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Only the Strong Survive by ThePoetic1
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Posted:Mar 5, 2014 2:25 pm
Last Updated:Mar 5, 2014 2:27 pm
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Only the Strong Survive
Go to battle
Win the war
Never be afraid to conquer
Always strive for more
Hold your head up
Keep it high
Wipe away the tears
No more shall you cry
Rise and shine
Let out a morning roar
Today you are a mighty tiger
When you walk out the door
Be confident
Feel the energy of the afternoon sun
Realize you are a champion
Fire your mighty guns
When the sun sets
In the horizon sky
Don’t dwell on the past and move forward
Spread your wings and fly
Rest your head
Under the moon and stars
Tomorrow is a new day
Remember who and what you are
Dream of being a king
Ruler of the land
Stay in control
You’re in command
If you are stricken-
With disease
Don’t let your illness-
Dictate who you want to be
When obstacles are ahead
Knock them down
When you feel you’re sinking
Fight hard to stand on solid ground
When you fall out of the saddle
Climb up and get back in
Do whatever you need to do-
To be a leader and win
You are NOT a loser
You are NOT a zero
Put on your cape and soar
Like a mighty superhero
If you feel like you’re in a cage
Fight hard to set yourself free
Once you acquire freedom
Be the best you can be
Treat each day
As if it were your last
Work hard to gain a better future
Forget your troubled past
Treat each day like a precious gift
Wake up feeling elated you’re alive
Never give up the fight because-
Only the strong survive
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The Sadness I Feel by ThePoetic1
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Posted:Feb 26, 2014 11:44 am
Last Updated:May 17, 2024 6:6 pm
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The Sadness I Feel
How do I keep from suffocating?
When the foul air takes my breath away
I scream at the shadows on the wall-
Because no one can hear the words I say
The world is constantly turning
The sun will shine tomorrow
Someday I hope to find happiness
But for today I must overcome my sorrow
How can I give love to others?
When people take it and throw it away
How can I learn to trust again?
And look forward to brighter days
There is no joy inside of me
Somehow it disappeared
I knew it would happen someday-
And it’s something I've always feared
Each day I grow a little wiser
But yet I have so much to learn
I try to walk in the light of day
Only to find darkness around every turn
If there is an easier way to deal with life
I would like to travel down that road
But the cross I carry upon my shoulders
Is much to bear and is a heavy load
People tell me to pray and I will be heard
But I don’t know if I believe in the Lord above
It seems like every time I turn around
I am faced with hatred and reaching out for love
The tears that stream down my face-
Are never wiped away by a kind hand
Every time I search for an answer
I wind up lost and in a foreign land
I tried to climb a mountain
I tried to reach the mountain top
But as I got closer to the peak
The fear that exists within me made me stop
I try to look ahead to the future
I try not to dwell on the past
But every time I experience elation
It is a feeling that doesn't last
I try to conceal my tears
I try hard to spread love and smile
But the love that is deep within me
Hides away like a frightened
If the Lord granted me one wish
I’d be an eagle that soars through the sky
Mighty wings please do not fail me now
For I do not wish to plummet and die
Somewhere out there I will find a light
To guide me through the darkness of my mind
No matter what I will keep searching
There are so many answers that I must find
Though my heart is burdened with sadness
I will try my best to succeed
They say that love will conquer all
They say that love is all I need
But how can I believe in love
I feel it’s something I've never received
So many times I've been the victim
So many times I've been deceived
Many times I've stood among a crowd
Yet I can't help but feel lonely
Is there someone out there who will love me?
Is there a person I can call my one and only?
There seems to be a void in my life
There is emptiness within my heart
I want to find the path to happiness
But I don't know where to start
Each day I grow sadder
With each passing minute I grow weak
I need to feel the power of love
Affection is something I urgently seek
I won't give up hope
One day I hope to find love
If I can't find it here on earth
Perhaps I'll receive it in Heaven above
I hanker to be a strong person
And break through my wall of pain
I will overcome the sadness I feel
And I will discover happiness again
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It’s Time to Say-Goodbye by ThePoetic1
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Posted:Feb 26, 2014 9:59 am
Last Updated:Mar 3, 2014 3:09 pm
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It’s Time to Say-Goodbye
We sat in the house of God
Made our sacred vows
All of those promise’s -
Are empty and useless now
There was a time
When our love mattered
Now my heart is broken
All my dreams are shattered
The taste of your kisses-
Have become bitter and sour
Our love was strong, but now-
Our love has lost its power
We point our fingers and ask-
"Who's to blame?"
Our love was merely-
A complicated game
Tears that fall from your eyes-
No longer fall upon my shoulder
We sat together on a sandy, warm beach
Now the air I breathe is colder
Our love is lost
Trapped in a maze
Our minds are no longer one
I am bewildered and dazed
Love was once powerful
Now it is weak
We ignore each other
We don't speak
Our love is dead
It lies in a shallow grave
No chance of reuniting
Our love cannot be saved
I know I lied to you
I was deceiving
Our love has become-
Something we don’t believe in
You caught me-
In a web of tangled lies
The flame of passion fades
And our love slowly dies
There was a time
We made love all night
Now I will never touch you again
I will never hold you tight
I've come to realize-
I am no longer your lover
It pains me to realize
That you’ve found another
I never thought-
Our love would end
I only hope-
That we can remain friends
I packed my bags and left
Told you I had to leave
Please don’t forget me-
And all of our sweet memories
Perhaps our paths-
Will cross again someday
I’m glad you found love
Though we’ve gone our separate ways
I'm sorry for all the times I hurt you
I'm sorry for all the times I made you cry
Life must go on and I will carry on
But for now it’s time to say- Goodbye
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Comfort The MInd by ThePoetic1
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Posted:Feb 21, 2014 11:19 am
Last Updated:Feb 22, 2014 4:48 pm
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Comfort The Mind
What do you see
When you look up to the sky
Can you see the beauty of the clouds?
Or do you see the pollution and cry
If you feel full of energy
When you bask in the light
Why do you feel weak-?
When it becomes night
When it hurts to rise out of bed
Because your bones ache
Remember the sleeping
That you have to wake
If someone reaches out
Do you take their hand?
Or do you spit in their face
For reasons no one understands
You feel sorry for the homeless
Then you wish they were all dead
A homeless man wouldn’t go hungry
If everyone was willing to share their bread
It’s all falling apart
Because of the evils of addiction
Help your addicted brother-
To take control of his convictions
Do you hate her?
Because she stole your lover
No need to hate her anymore
Because the relationship is over
Now your sister is lonely
She's lost and without a man
Stop the hate
Take hold of your sister’s hand
Are you mad, brother?
Because I cut you with s knife
Did I stab you in the back?
When I slept with your wife
Now your wife has gone away
She can’t be found
Forgive me my brother-
And stand with me on common ground
Old man next store called the cops
in the yard are making too much noise
Stop complaining you old man
Enjoy the laughter of the girls and boys
You scream and shout
Get that damn off my beautiful, green grass
Stop screaming at the animals
Hide within the shadows and let your anger pass
You rise in the morning
You open the shades and greet the sun
Do you still think you’re dreaming?
Wake up! For a new day has begun
Turn your screams of pain
Into laughter and song
Are you going to sit and weep all day?
And wonder where you went wrong
Stop worrying and face your fears
Your broken heart will mend in time
Try and learn from your mistakes
Learning a lesson always comforts the mind
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I Believe by ThePoetic1
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Posted:Feb 19, 2014 3:18 pm
Last Updated:Mar 31, 2014 2:57 am
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I Believe
I believe that the sun shines after the rain
I believe if you don't get hurt you'll never gain
I believe in trying to do things the easy way
I believe that being selfish doesn’t pay
I believe in a second chance
I believe in a life long romance
I believe there is life after death
I believe you're forgiven once you confess
I believe in love at first sight
I believe that revenge isn’t right
I believe that first impressions last
And there is nothing better then a good laugh
I believe that dreams do come true
I believe you deserve praise for the good things you do
I believe that good things come to those who wait
I believe love never arrives too late
I believe something good comes from something bad
I believe that for tears of happiness there are tears of sad
I believe everyone has a guardian angel
And the good you do will be rewarded well
I believe sometimes there is no explanation
I believe money can't buy people's affection
I believe you don't know what you've got until it's gone
I believe a new day arrives with every dawn
I believe a smile can be contagious
I believe in being very outrageous
I believe in living with no regrets
I believe that life is as good as it gets
I believe that God watches over us
I believe the little things are worth the fuss
I believe you have each friend for a reason
I believe you will get punished for treason
I believe that what comes first is family
I believe we should all live in harmony
I believe in making the most of a beautiful day
And it's not the end until everything's okay
I believe absence makes the heart grow fonder
I believe you will lose if you sit and wonder
I believe every experience teaches you a lesson
And there is no solution when you have a drinking session
I believe everyone has one true love
I believe sometimes we need a little shove
I believe the whole world is a stage
I believe we only get better with age
I believe that to learn you have to live
I believe that to love someone you have to give
I believe one moment can change your life
And there's still help when you’re in strife
I believe everyone has one true friend
I believe love helps a broken heart mend
I believe in the power of a song
And things will change before too long
I believe living is the best experience
I believe in not laughing at other people’s expense
I believe it’s hard to watch a lover leave
And when they’re gone all you can do is breath
I believe to always look on the bright side
I believe that life is just one big ride
I believe when I die people will grieve
But it’s ok because I believe
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Suicide Cell by ThePoetic1
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Posted:Feb 12, 2014 8:45 am
Last Updated:Feb 21, 2014 11:22 am
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When I was New York City Corrections Officer working at The West Facility on Rikers Island I was placed on ‘The Wheel’ because of taking too much sick leave. ‘The Wheel’ is when you work a different tour every week and it sucks! The worst thing about working The Wheel at The West Facility was that you were constantly pulled off your post, and had to go to different prisons and ‘search’ housing areas. The one jail I hated to go was ‘The House of Detention for Men’ (HDM) which is the oldest prison on Rikers Island. This poem is about the night I was assigned to ‘The Search Team’ and discovered an inmate hanging in his prison cell at HDM on the midnight tour. It was a 20 year-old inmate that just got sentenced to 20 years for armed robbery. I went home in the morning and wrote this poem.
Suicide Cell
Hanging from the metal bars
A look of sorrow on your face
Your soul is no longer caged
It's floating somewhere in space
You didn’t want to pay for your crimes
Instead you took your life
Hang yourself with the sheets of your bed
No access to a ‘shank’ or a knife
You couldn't take the prison walls
You couldn't stand to be caged
You took your life in desperation
Perhaps you were filled with anger and rage
You couldn't handle your sentence
You couldn't pay for your crimes
You’d rather be a dead man
Then stay in jail and do your time
Will you reach Heaven’s gate?
Will your soul be saved?
Did you die and go to Hell already?
When you got locked up in a cage
You couldn't lead a normal life
You had to lead a life of sorrow
Now you are dead and gone
You'll never face another tomorrow
Your life ended after twenty years
You lived a life of sin
Your life of crime is over
And now death begins
Never had someone to love you
Caged in a cell, no light from the sun
Tried to make a living
With violence and a gun
Why couldn’t you turn your life around?
If you changed your ways, perhaps you’d be free
But instead you were locked in a cage
Convicted of a felony
Now no one knows-
What life had in store for you
You paid for your crimes with death
Killing yourself seemed the right thing to do
Do you believe in the death penalty?
Do you believe a prisoner has rights?
An inmate who decided his own fate
When he hanged himself that night
Will you be remembered?
When you are buried in a shallow grave
Could you have led a better life?
Could your soul be saved?
You made all the wrong choices
Your life was a complete wreck
Now you are lifeless-
As you dangle from your neck
Too bad you had to die in prison
Too bad you couldn't die in a better place
Have you found freedom in death?
I can't tell by the expression of your lifeless face
You couldn't be a man
And carry out your prison term
In twenty years you would’ve been free
Now, your soul will forever burn
I can still smell the odor of the dead body
As several officers cut him down
Now his prison cell will be a coffin
When they bury him underground
Was it worth it?
Remember – don’t commit the crime
If you aren’t man enough-
To do the time
Born to suffer and lead a life of wrongdoing
Cursed as soon as you emerged from the womb
Twenty years later you get arrested
And your prison cell winds up a tomb
I truly hope you found Heaven
I truly hope you were spared from Hell
Wherever you are, I hope you found peace
The night you committed suicide in your prison cell
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The Hounds of Hell (Losing Control) by ThePoetic1
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Posted:Feb 11, 2014 3:38 pm
Last Updated:Feb 11, 2014 3:40 pm
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The Hounds of Hell (Losing Control)
I would like to strongly state that though the following poem may depict otherwise; I am not /nor have I ever been a believer, or associated, or involved with the occult or Satanism. Thank you.
Out on the streets-
The bloody bodies lay rotting in the gutter
The knife pierces my heart
Like a hot blade through butter
The Grim Reaper-
Is breaking down my door
Blood seeps from my veins-
And it drips to the floor
The Queen is dead-
She was murdered by the King
All I see is fire-
As the Devil spreads his wings
The foul stench of death-
Lingers in the air
I hear Satan's voice in my mind-
Telling me to beware
The Dark Demons that haunt me-
Tear into my chest and rip out my heart
Now I lay dying in the hot sun
The vultures gather and feast on my body parts
I feel lost and confused
Nowhere to turn
The Devil sets my body on fire
He cackles wickedly as I burn
Every person I meet becomes an enemy-
And not a friend
Every path I take turns out to be-
Nothing more than a dead end
Every living thing I encounter-
Ends up dead
I have the loaded gun in my hand
It's pointed at my head
I feel trapped in a cage
No way to break out
The Devil has made everything an illusion
I don't know what reality is about
I once had a heart filled with love-
But the love within me has died
My soul is empty-
Drained by the millions of tears that I've cried
My skin is soaking wet
Satan spat upon me his snot
Now I lay in the chambers of hell
Blinded by wicked saliva while I slowly rot
I don’t believe in love
I believe in pain
Lucifer has poisoned my mind
Evil disease of the brain
I’ve been bitten by an evil woman
Scorned by an evil witch
My mother was a rabid hound dog
Tormented offspring of the bitch
Do you want to see my birth mark-?
That bears the number of the beast
The maggots eat away my blackened soul
Scream as the snakes bite my body and feast
God has abandoned me
He was once my savior and lord
But I’ve been stung by the scorpion
Cut down by the fallen one and his sword
Whenever I see someone in the distance
They strike me down
Stabbed in the back because you betrayed me
Now I lay bleeding to death on the ground
You’ve clipped the wings
That make me high
Shot down in cold blood
Left to suffer and die
What sins have I committed?
Have a been found guilty of a crime?
While do I wallow in the waters of Hell?
Trying to stay afloat in the putrid slime
The Hounds of Hell lift their hind legs-
And urinate on my soul
All is lost-All is black-My only way out is death-
Because I'm losing control
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