That's messed up
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Posted:May 10, 2007 2:15 pm
Last Updated:May 11, 2007 1:20 pm
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Now with this entry you might have to go back to a previous blog. But anyway the man with the big car sent for me again. I didn't even go, why you ask, I was not in the mood and I suffer from working too hard and staying on the internet when I should be sleeping syndrome. I took my to the bus stop and came back home and got in the bed. I bet 30 minutes hadn't passed before I heard the door bell ring. Thinking it was the man next door coming to get paid for mowing the yard, I looked and it was him. Heck I didn't even know he could drive, didn't know he knew where I lived he always sent his driver. If you could have seen that look on his face when I opened the door. I looked like a train wreck. I have no hair so what little I have was matted to my head and if looks could kill I would be in jail today. He is a sweet man and I know his time is limited and I guess I should be grateful he thinks of me as a friend for he is a somewhat popular person in the business world and he could have any woman in Nashville but he came to see my big butt. Oh well he came in looked around told me how I could fix my house up and I was leading him to my door I was in no mood for that I clean when I want to. Well he apologized and wanted to talk. Sure he did.................... anyway I went in the kitchen and when I got back he was in my bed butt ass naked patting my bed telling me to get in. Oh I got in with my flannel pj's on and my back turned. I was not in the mood to play or was I playing hard to get? He was hard to get in my hunny hole and I was squeezing it so tight so he couldn't in. I wanted him gone so I gave in trying not to enjoy it but I keep forgetting he is the Bomb. He was better than a lullaby best sleep I have had in a week. Damn I was just so not in the mood, I knew if I had some I would want more and knowing the men on this site that was not happening. So a word to the wise do not do what I did giving in to sex is bad for the outcome of the weekend. Just having fun. I had a blast but just don't show up at my door uninvited. I make bad company and I look like a train wreck.............
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Found this on AOL
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Posted:May 8, 2007 6:05 am
Last Updated:May 28, 2021 8:56 pm
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Things you should know about me
I am 5'2 a full figured gal with a zest for living and a laugh that makes you want to join in or see what it's all about. Haunting brown eyes and short salt and pepper hair. I was in an interracial relationship so I know how it is on both sides. So for those who don't approve I am sorry and for those that understand, thank you. I am looking for a white man that has an open mind and a open heart and would like to be friends. One thing you should know. I will not sacrifice my for a man. I have lost out many a date due to men not realizing a single parent's main concern is the welfare of her . And don't ask if she can go somewhere, if I want her to go somewhere, that will be my decision.
That was 1998 when I wrote that, how things have changed. I still will not sacrifice my 's welfare for a roll in the hay. If you are to cheap to take me to a motel then we are at a dead end. I have gotten my butt chewed out about my previous blog. You know depression can be a dangerous thing. I know my late husband is sending sharp barbs at me from wherever. He didn't marry me because I was wimpy he married me because I was a Murphy. He showed me that in adversity you have to tackle things head on and with faith and determination. And not let anyone stand in your way and in order to achieve you have to belief. Belief in yourself, belief in what you can and will do and belief that all things are possible. I may not get a date this year but I had a wonderful husband that loved me for me. He looked past my outside and saw the inside. I may not be rich and famous, I may not be pretty but I have what it takes to be a good mother, a good employee and a good friend. The rest will come in time. I know now I have to wait and be patient. That last part................. I am not to sure about. But of course that's my opinion and I know I am right.........this time.
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It finally happened
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Posted:May 4, 2007 9:29 pm
Last Updated:May 5, 2007 5:08 pm
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I never thought I would say this but I am about ready to give up Senior Sizzle. The men are picky, but that is in all walks of life, the women are far more beautiful than I ever will be and it's so hard to compete with them. Maybe it's a sign for me to do something more meaningful with my life but hey I am a weak minded person when it comes to some things like my looks. See I even type correctly when I am upset. Really I got the sign the other day when I was talking to some friends and all of them got dates for the weekend and I was still sitting there. I went to the local Swingers club last weekend almost butt ass naked and no one even looked my way and I have lost 10 pounds. By no one I mean the black men was looking at the white women and the white men was looking at the white women but there were several couples that was white male / black woman but the women were gorgeous, plus size and taller than me. Damn I am whining again aren't I and I promised not to do this. For some reason I have lost all my pride. I use to be proud of the black woman I had become but I have lost my winkie and my spunk. Men talk a good game and then they lie to you. Of course there are some that really want to fuck you silly but they live in Alaska. I know my friends are going to come down on me for being silly but I felt hurt, you sit at a dance and watch everyone else get asked to dance and all you get asked to do is watch a purse or a coat. Don't mind me I am just letting out my frustration. It's not anyone's fault, you are entitled to be with who you want and maybe I need to give up this foolish dream of being happy in an interracial relationship. So I am giving up, I surrender, I give up. I am through bugging white men for a date, I see your point. Took me 11 years to get it but I see the big picture. If it was meant for all races to live in harmony there would be no wars. As for this site, I just renewed my subscription so I will be on but I won't be looking. For those who have read my profile and went yuckkkkkkkkkkkk sorry I wasn't what you thought I was going to be or what you were looking for. I still feel I am a good catch. I don't ask for anything,I am a good listener, I am not a gold digger, I work and I work hard. My have a father so I wasn't looking for any out of pocket money from you, I can buy my own dinner and I am not going around the country to get fucked. Since winky has died again I don't think I have to worry about sexual fanstasies or getting horny. Now that the tears have stopped I feel better. Whether you read all of this or not this was for MY benefit. I needed to sound this out somewhere other than in my head. As in closing this is MY opinion I might be wrong but this time I really doubt it. Thanks for holding my hand through the writing of my blog. It helps to write things out and have friends( yes you are my friends whether you like me or not, it takes all to make the world go round)tell you how big a fool you are.
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Older Men
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Posted:May 1, 2007 1:13 pm
Last Updated:Mar 6, 2010 4:10 pm
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I have been asked to explain my views on older men. Well it's just that younger men are still looking for Barbie. Come to think of it so are older men. Now look at the average older man, and by older I mean my age 53 and older. The are settled in their ways may or may not have let the looks slip but I love that about a man. he can be healthy and still be a little full in all the right places. Now I call myself comfortable. I am plus size short but i am every bit a woman as all those that are height, weight proportionate. I am healthy, really I am more healthy than I have been in years. I know my meds have added a few pounds on me but hey I would rather be fat and healthy than ...................dead. But my views on older men is that I love a man that is comfortable in his looks and whether he is fat and short or tall an slim just be happy we all can get together and have a good time. Sex is what you make it. And I know a lot of plus size women that can do a split( I can't I can barely get up from a chair if i am tired) can dance on a pole and look good doing it. So all i am saying, men give us all a chance. But older men get with the program stick with what you know. Women your own age (especially a plus size black woman like myself)are looking for you. And we will find you.........
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Hello good peeps
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Posted:Apr 22, 2007 1:08 am
Last Updated:Apr 26, 2007 1:02 pm
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It's me again whining about life and how I don't have one. Y'all know I am full of shit most times. I work so much I can't have a life and then when I do get to partake in it I feel like I have been cheated. I have always had a weakness for an older man. They are so lovable, kind, and just want someone to be a friend. It doesn't matter it they get it up or not I love the attention they give you. They like walking, talking going out to eat and having a woman give them a little attention. So when I go out I look at older men. Especially at the club, they come to the club to have fun and find a kind woman. Now ( here comes the whining) I am not a great beauty I am over weight(trying to do something about that for me not you picky ass men) short salt and pepper hair, and not much else going on. But I try to be nice I speak and see if they would like to talk or dance. I have gotten a lot more confidance in myself I have to get out there and make it known I am a proud black woman, with a lot going on. So if any local older men just need a good friend to talk to or someone to go walking in the park or a breakfast, lunch or dinner partner. Or you just want to get your freak on, but I do DEMAND safe fun so you bring yours or I can bring mine. I am beginning to have fun and not be so worried about not having a man in my life. I know where to go and not to go so I don't feel like I don't belong, now that I can control. So that's my whining for the Week ending April 21, now back to your regularly scheduled reading. Oh yes in parting I know I might be wrong about some things (but this is MY opinion)but I doubt it. Later.................
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I got lucky today
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Posted:Apr 20, 2007 4:23 pm
Last Updated:Apr 26, 2007 3:13 am
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If you have been keeping up with my ramblings I had a date today well it was fun I had a good time. I have never been in such a state of sexual bliss. He was loving and so much fun. I have been sworn to secrecy but I don't care he promised another romp in the hay next week so I think I will sneak him in my house. That big car pulling up in my drive way had a lot of people looking. I can go get him in my car make him less noticeable. I didn't know anyone could eat a pussy like that for so long. You would have thought he was actually muff diving with the sounds he was making. The girls( tits) got the best action. They haven't had that much attention in a long, long time. Just to day made me see that not all men are looking for Barbie. Here is a man that saw me as a cool woman with a strong sexual appetite just looking to have fun and we did have fun with more to come I hope.
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Just another manic Monday
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Posted:Apr 17, 2007 2:07 pm
Last Updated:Apr 20, 2007 3:04 am
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OHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH wish it was Tuesday,,,,, oh wait it is tuesday and the week is nearly over for me. I finally got a chance to get out Saturday with some of my other chat room friends and I had a real good time. I met some people I have chatted with but never met. After dinner most when their separate ways but a lot wound up at TSC. I finally had some time off to go back to TSC and even though I didn't stay long I had a good time. I didn't think I would be missed but it was nice to see I was missed. And i was missed by several male friends. I will talk about them later, I am still a bit confused about the weird conversation we had. I think I know what is wrong with winkie. She misses her special TSC friend. He called me Monday and she sort of perked up. Another new friend is sending for me Friday. He is actually sending a car to pick me up. He is...................well he has an important job and TSC is his way to get out without being noticed. But I saw him as I was leaving and we got to talking and he asked if I would meet him for lunch, then under his breath he said he wanted me to be his lunch.........thought I didn't hear him....yea right. Well we will see maybe I will have a good meal and be a good meal and winkie will get a good check up. I know I can ramble on and on but I really do appreciate your comments and you just stopping by to read. Makes you smile I know and it makes me happy to see you here......................
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Me being pitiful again
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Posted:Apr 14, 2007 6:37 am
Last Updated:Apr 16, 2007 2:01 am
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I went out with a group of friends and I realized I have been out of the loop to long. Everyone was happy but me. I also relized I don't need to go out alone anymore. I felt so left out I should have left but I had not seen my friends in such a long time I wanted to hang out. But now I know I need to keep my big butt home next time or take a friend with me so I won't be alone or feel insecure. Thing is I don't have any friends that I could take with me. Another thing if I can get men to look past my race and my size and just over all looks I think I wouldn't be so insecure. I used to be a proud black woman but after my last surgery and the fact my meds have caused me to gain weight I have lost all my spirit. Don't get me wrong I am proud to be in the land of the upright but just trying to fit in is a bitch. And I don't want to be a bitch or do I???????????? Oh well that's all I have to say for today. I use this blog as a diary and as a sounding board. I know someone is going to be all negative and piss me off but that's what this is for and that's what delete and ban is for too...................lolol But of course in parting this is MY opinion I might be wrong but I doubt it.
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I apologize
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Posted:Apr 5, 2007 1:15 pm
Last Updated:May 21, 2024 11:41 pm
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I used spell check and I still bombed on the spelling in my last post. Just over look my typing you all know my intentions.......................
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My Winky don't work
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Posted:Apr 3, 2007 12:34 pm
Last Updated:Apr 10, 2007 1:07 am
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As many of you know I have been working a number of part time and full time jobs preparing for my life while my is in college. Well this has caused me to not have a love life because I am not at home much and to honest I don't think men think I am a good catch , sexually or otherwise but hey it's their lost. Anyway the opportunity to go on a date with a long time friend popped up and of course I went. Well things got intimate the timing was right and my winky would not respond. Now here is a guy I have adored for about 4 years and he has a tool to well I can just look at it and get wet. No that day, I laid there, I closed my eyes and I waited for something to happen. NOTHING. I didn't get wet, I didn't get that loving feeling,no twitching, nothing. I was in shock, I remember back in the day I could have worked 36 hours straight and I would still have time for sex. He gives the best head, takes his time and just loves to munch, but I was laying there wondering when winky was going to get excited. Well after about 30 minutes of that he got my trusted friend the silver bullet out, Oh hell yea I knew it was on now, my silver bullet has never let me down.He when up and down my clit, in and out of my pussy played with my ass,NOTHING.That was so wrong my winky has completely shut down. I told a girl friend and she said I was tired working all these jobs and not getting a lot of sleep winky is just in need of special attention. Well the next day I took a long bath lotioned up and got all my toys out and I was going to work on winky. I laid there had some soft music playing had all my playmates humming waiting to take me to paradise. All I did was put myself to sleep.That was so wrong but I am nt going to give up on winky. I know a date may not come for another long while but maybe but that time winky will be alive again. So if any of my extended family have any solutions let me know. I don't want to lose winky but I don't want to get old before my time and dry up.......................
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To All My Girls ,Single ,Married or Like Me Just Out There
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Posted:Apr 3, 2007 12:13 pm
Last Updated:Apr 4, 2007 1:59 pm
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24 THINGS TO NEVER APOLOGIZE FOR
1. Never apologize for pursuing what makes you happy. Even if you need to quit your job, transfer schools, or move across country, always do what you really want.
2. Never apologize for using proper English. Keeping it real doesn't mean you have to speak Ebonics.
3. Never apologize for giving your best in a relationship that just didn't work out.
4. Never apologize for being successful. Only haters want to keep you at their level.
5. Never apologize for crying. Wear waterproof mascara and express yourself.
6. Never apologize for ten pounds you need to lose. People who truly care about you will accept you as you are.
7. Never apologize for being frugal. Just because you save your money instead of blowing it on the latest fashion emergency doesn't mean you're cheap.
8. Don't apologize for being a single Mom. Babies are a blessing.
9. Never apologize for treating yourself to something special. Sometimes you have to show yourself some appreciation.
10. Never apologize for leaving an abusive relationship. Your safety should always be a priority.
11. Never apologize for keeping the ring even if you did not get married.
12. Never apologize for setting high standards in a relationship. You know what you can tolerate and what simply gets on your nerves.
13. Never apologize for saying NO.
14 Never apologize for wearing a weave or braids. You bought it so it's yours.
15. Never apologize to your new friends about old friends. There's a reason she's been your girl from day one.
16. Never apologize for ordering dessert or more than one dessert.
17. Never apologize for dating outside your race Just because you found Mr. Right across the color line doesn't mean you don't love your brothas. 18. Never apologize for demanding respect. You are to always be treated as a queen.
19. Never apologize for not knowing how to cook. Even if you can't burn like Grandma (or me) you know how to order good take out. (Right Girl!)
20. Never apologize for your taste in clothes. It's your style.
21. Never apologize for changing your mind, it is your prerogative.
22. Never apologize for making a decision from your heart, even if others don't agree. You have to live with the consequences not them.
23. Never apologize for making more money than your man, you work hard and you deserve to get paid.
24. Never apologize for being you!
KEEP YOUR HEAD UP AND KEEP MOVING FORWARD"
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The Bitch I am, Nuff Said
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Posted:Mar 20, 2007 1:44 am
Last Updated:Apr 3, 2007 1:38 am
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BITCHOLOGY
When I stand up for
myself and my beliefs,
they call me a
bitch.
When I stand up for
those I love,
they call me a
bitch.
When I speak my mind, think my own thoughts
or do things my own way, they call me a
bitch.
Being a bitch
means I won't
compromise what's
in my heart.
It means I live my life
MY way.
It means I won't allow anyone to step on me.
When I refuse to
tolerate injustice and
speak against it, I am
defined as a
bitch.
The same thing happens when I take time for
myself instead of being everyone's maid, or when I act a little selfish.
It means I have the courage and strength to allow myself to be who I truly
am and won't become anyone else's idea of what they think I "should" be.
I am outspoken,
opinionated and determined. I want what I want and there is nothing wrong
with that!
So try to stomp on me,
try to douse my inner flame, try to squash every ounce of beauty I hold
within me.
You won't succeed.
And if that makes me a bitch ,
so be it.
I embrace the title and
am proud to bear it.
B - Babe
I - In
T - Total
C - Control of
H - Herself
B = Beautiful
I = Intelligent
T = Talented
C = Charming
H = Hell of a Woman
B = Beautiful
I = Individual
T = That
C = Can
H = Handle anything
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Profiles
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Posted:Mar 15, 2007 2:04 am
Last Updated:Mar 16, 2007 4:17 am
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Hello good people it's me again ............twice in one week I must be feeling kind of good or I have nothing better to do. I been really bitchy at work but hey that's what they expect from me there. I actually got off work early and was supposedly cleaning my room when I stopped to read a few profiles that the Senior Sizzle matchmaker provided for my approval. Those people really have a great sense of humor none of those men would want to be seen with me no less have a round of sex with me. The are good looking,half are married( married men are off my diet for now, just can't trust them) most never been with a woman of color, all want a sex only relationship( that could work for me seeing I have no life anyway). Now there are a couple that want a lifetime love,( I could get a back rub a lot more than I do now. The ones at the mall are just not the same................lolololol. But any way I like reading profiles and now with my temporary membership I can read a lot more and send emails if I so choose which I don't I hate to get hate mail. I think I need to give Senior Sizzle a hint or two about the profiles they send me. Give me a man that is approachable, men that are looking for a real woman not Barbie, Barbie is a myth she doesn't exist, she is a fantasy Mattel made up.................................
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