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The Art of Driving Your EX... Crazy ๐Ÿ˜ฎโ—  

Paulxx001 64M
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3/23/2021 10:15 am

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The Art of Driving Your EX... Crazy ๐Ÿ˜ฎโ—

I'm in a contemplative mood, slouched in my darkened living room, wondering โ€” trapped with my obsessive clocks as they all tap *variant beats. I can feel myself drifting towards a desert, filled with parched and faded memories: Where is that oasis? Where is that vivid recollection, the one I can taste and touch, as if I'm there? I found one of those... the other day, in of ALL places โ€” an old and weathered cardboard box.

My mother had proudly kept the inventory of everything I'd ever produced in school and shoved it in a box. I opened that crinkled corrugated cube for the first time the other night and stumbled upon a story I'd written in grade 11. Holding that yellowed parchment โ€” penned in legible handwriting that was supposedly mine โ€” brought me back to the VERY moment I was asked to stand up in class and read it.

That English course bored me. I'd been wallowing through it, dosing off during the lecture, when Mrs. Robinson (no relation to the real one) called my name, asked me to stand and commanded me to read my assignment; 300 words on โ€” 'Emotions.' I presumed she wanted to embarrass me, thinking I hadn't completed it.

I hemmed and hawed, not because I hadn't done it, but because I wasn't sure if it was 'cool' or appropriate to share with my classmates. I protested she requested, I objected, she insisted โ€” she won. I cleared my throat and began to read.

***********

I had a dream about you last night. I was walking through the door when I saw you standing next to him. He was taller than me; his hands clutched your waist tighter than I would have. Was he already afraid to lose you?

I didn't think you'd notice me โ€” I was draped beneath black shadows. You stared back and smiled, the way you do when you're about to prove something.

I knew, as your fingers gently ruffled through his hair, it was a performance. When your lips parted, at first, I thought it was to say a word; stupid me. It was to meet his hungry mouth.

You never kiss with your eyes wide open. You made sure I fell into them as they slowly closed while he pressed himself against you.

I could smell your scent from where I stood. I would have asked him how you tasted; I'd forgotten. I shouldn't have walked into that place. I watched as you wiped your glistening lips with the tip of a finger; a silver thread from his tongue had lingered.

Was there a word you were hiding, one you wanted to share, a secret we could hold? Then why were you glaring? Should I call you later? Was that a sign? I should never have stayed in that space.

Your friends told me that you'd be there. I took a chance and hoped I wouldn't find you; then I prayed I would. Why didn't they save us from ourselves? My stomach was a twisted knot; you were deep inside my head.

I had a dream about you last night. It felt so real. My sheets still smell of you, barely now. Damn, I hate you, but I fucking miss you more than ever.


***********

I looked up at the class and shyly sat down.

I had written that story for a girl I was dating or should say โ€” had dated. Diane was sitting up front, near the windows, by then, covering her mouth with her hands in shock. All her friends turned and looked at me. The whole class knew. High school drama; whatcha gonna do, huh?

Mrs. Robinson NEVER asked me to read ANY of my assignments out loud again.

That memory still resonates. I imagine all of us have nicks and scrapes from a bruised heart. I looked at my yellowed paper, folded it, then placed it in the box and pushed that box back under my bed. Why would I continue to relive my cryptic past? I'm devoted to managing my tangled present.

And here I am now... slouched in my darkened living room, wondering โ€” if it's possible to synchronize my untamed clocks, so they ALL 'TICK-tok' at the same fucking time.

...........................
*Variant: Although the clocks were all ticking in an asynchronous manner, each one had a different tone and sound; hence โ€” 'variant'.
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Paulxx001 64M
19325 posts
3/23/2021 10:19 am

What was the best or most lasting advice you EVER got from your high school teacher? ๐Ÿค”


Paulxx001 64M
19325 posts
3/23/2021 10:21 am

Mrs. Robinson (my English teacher) was an elderly lady from England โ€” a real 'prim and proper' sweet woman โ€” and she suggested I go into English or Journalism at University. ๐Ÿ˜ถ

I ignored her advice and went into Business. I think about her words once in a blue moon. ๐Ÿค”
My life would have been COMPLETELY different.โ—๐Ÿ˜Ž


GhostofH 62M
21472 posts
3/23/2021 11:21 am

Part of this reminds me of something I have hanging in my office. It's a 'Motivational' pic that shows a skier about to jump off a piste and it says; 'You always miss 100% of the opportunities you don't take'.

How did that poet once say it: "Tis better to have loved and lost than to never have loved at all".


smartasswoman 63F  
34359 posts
3/23/2021 12:18 pm

Funny, I have zero memories of my high school teachers dispensing advice.

There were a couple of them who were fantastic teachers who I remember to this day. I'm afraid that the rest were hardly what you'd call thought-provoking.


author51 58F
114445 posts
3/23/2021 12:50 pm

    Quoting Paulxx001:
    What was the best or most lasting advice you EVER got from your high school teacher? ๐Ÿค”
Mine was: "You have a great mind.Do not waste it." That was from my English Lit. teacher on essays and stories I had written. Here we are now after all these years, writing stories and memories about high school, past loves, teenage angst and sharing it to others who can relate to it all.. Well done my friend..I can so relate to you and this post...xoxo

You can never have too much JOY in your life..xoxo

TITS UP TUESDAY KEEPING ABREAST OR TWO


BeccaLuvs 59F  
19761 posts
3/23/2021 1:01 pm

Pity Paul, you should have taken her advice - hey, you're a great writer! (Um .... and forgive me if I have it wrong, but sure you are writing about you this time)? Anyway, whatever - I burst out laughing when you said, "Mrs Robinson never asked me to read any of my assignment out loud again"!

..... And always 'hold onto all those sexy thoughts'!
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scoupe42 57M  
11089 posts
3/23/2021 1:11 pm

The best advice I was given, was to finish what I started! Too bad, i didn't listen. Dude, you should share more blogs with us, you damn good in expression yourself through words. You have a talent! PS, you should be creative and create a character and make a sit-com abouth the character.++++


backpocket13 47M
8996 posts
3/23/2021 1:30 pm

Hey Paul,
........Ahhhhhh Memories!.........Sometimes Iโ€™m glad that thereโ€™s ones I Canโ€™t remember!..........
Sinfully Yours, backpocket13


Paulxx001 64M
19325 posts
3/23/2021 1:36 pm

    Quoting  :

Thanks. Happy to oblige. โ—โ—๐Ÿ˜Ž


Paulxx001 64M
19325 posts
3/23/2021 1:38 pm

    Quoting GhostofH:
    Part of this reminds me of something I have hanging in my office. It's a 'Motivational' pic that shows a skier about to jump off a piste and it says; 'You always miss 100% of the opportunities you don't take'.

    How did that poet once say it: "Tis better to have loved and lost than to never have loved at all".
True... and in high school, you lept with your eyes closed. ๐Ÿ˜ฎโ—โ—
I don't know about you but I did a lot of losing, back in the day. lol ๐Ÿ˜‚ ๐Ÿ˜ฎ Didn't we all? Or was that just me? ๐Ÿค”


Paulxx001 64M
19325 posts
3/23/2021 1:44 pm

    Quoting smartasswoman:
    Funny, I have zero memories of my high school teachers dispensing advice.

    There were a couple of them who were fantastic teachers who I remember to this day. I'm afraid that the rest were hardly what you'd call thought-provoking.
My English and history teachers always seemed to be the ones who shared the most wisdom.
But there was this one wood shop professor who's advice I'll never forget: Watch your fingers, the saw doesn't give a shit if it's cutting bone or wood; it's on a mission! ๐Ÿ‘ ๐Ÿ˜Š
Whenever I power up a saw, I recall his playful grin as he spoke.


Paulxx001 64M
19325 posts
3/23/2021 1:47 pm

    Quoting author51:
    Mine was: "You have a great mind.Do not waste it." That was from my English Lit. teacher on essays and stories I had written. Here we are now after all these years, writing stories and memories about high school, past loves, teenage angst and sharing it to others who can relate to it all.. Well done my friend..I can so relate to you and this post...xoxo
Hmmm... Good advice to follow.
And it's true, all these years later โ€” who knew? ๐Ÿค” lol ๐Ÿ˜‚
You musta been a spunky gal, back in the day ; always getting into trouble, or quiet and thoughtful? ๐Ÿค” โ—โ—๐Ÿ˜Ž


Paulxx001 64M
19325 posts
3/23/2021 1:52 pm

    Quoting BeccaLuvs:
    Pity Paul, you should have taken her advice - hey, you're a great writer! (Um .... and forgive me if I have it wrong, but sure you are writing about you this time)? Anyway, whatever - I burst out laughing when you said, "Mrs Robinson never asked me to read any of my assignment out loud again"!
I was influenced by my father, a chemist, who suggested I seek a career where they pay you a decent wage. I managed to get the most outta THAT choice.
Writing about moi? Ya recognized that kid with the curly hair? ๐Ÿค” lol ๐Ÿ˜‚ ๐Ÿ˜ฎ
Yep...
Were you getting into trouble in highschool or were you keeping your blouse buttoned? โ—โ—๐Ÿ˜Ž


Paulxx001 64M
19325 posts
3/23/2021 1:57 pm

    Quoting scoupe42:
    The best advice I was given, was to finish what I started! Too bad, i didn't listen. Dude, you should share more blogs with us, you damn good in expression yourself through words. You have a talent! PS, you should be creative and create a character and make a sit-com abouth the character.++++
Ooo, THAT'S a good one. I should follow that one.
I'm filing and piling them up
Who knows โ€” one day? ๐Ÿค” lol ๐Ÿ˜‚
You, musta been a handful, back in the day! ๐Ÿ˜ฎโ—โ—


Paulxx001 64M
19325 posts
3/23/2021 2:00 pm

    Quoting backpocket13:
    Hey Paul,
    ........Ahhhhhh Memories!.........Sometimes Iโ€™m glad that thereโ€™s ones I Canโ€™t remember!..........
    Sinfully Yours, backpocket13
Eee... and ooops! I can relate.
I had no fear of ANY consequences. I imagine you'd be hanging out with the kids at the 'side door'. ๐Ÿ˜ถ
Yep... Some recollections should just stay blurred, right? ๐Ÿ˜ฎ ๐Ÿ˜Žโ—โ—


anastasia666 43F  
2210 posts
3/23/2021 11:50 pm

Hello Paul,

Thank you for this awesome blog post..I can just see you standing there in all your teenage glory reading this sexy class assignment..How could the lovely Diane resist you ??

Happy Wed Hugs,

Ana6

I done made the devil a deal
He made me pretty
He made me smart


PonyGirl1965 55F
15803 posts
3/24/2021 12:27 am

I would love to have been sitting in that classroom while you read.
The clocks need to tick tock together.


Paulxx001 64M
19325 posts
3/24/2021 3:03 am

    Quoting anastasia666:
    Hello Paul,

    Thank you for this awesome blog post..I can just see you standing there in all your teenage glory reading this sexy class assignment..How could the lovely Diane resist you ??

    Happy Wed Hugs,

    Ana6
Thanks for popping in.
How? Easy, she went for the quarterback of the football ๐Ÿˆ team. She was hot though. I wonder how she looks today and how her life is turning out. ๐Ÿค”โ—โ—


Paulxx001 64M
19325 posts
3/24/2021 3:08 am

    Quoting PonyGirl1965:
    I would love to have been sitting in that classroom while you read.
    The clocks need to tick tock together.
You would have enjoyed the reading. lol ๐Ÿ˜‚
I have WAY too many clocks, spread out throughout my home and if I sit in the right spot - I can hear many of them ticking at different beats. It's like listening to a drummer trying out a wild rhythm. ๐Ÿ˜ฎโ—โ—โ—๐Ÿ˜Ž


mc_justmc 61M  
6597 posts
3/24/2021 3:42 am

I have a loud ticking clock, I turn on a fan at bedtime to cover that, and other small noises.


Paulxx001 64M
19325 posts
3/24/2021 7:06 am

    Quoting mc_justmc:
    I have a loud ticking clock, I turn on a fan at bedtime to cover that, and other small noises.
Good trick. I do the same thing. I go nuts if there's a power failure and all I hear is dead silence... and those clocks. ๐Ÿ˜ถโ—


secret_lade 47F
7147 posts
3/25/2021 2:45 pm

The best advice.... Came from my high school principal. He said it doesn't matter what I come from, I can spend the rest of my life making it better.


Paulxx001 64M
19325 posts
3/25/2021 3:56 pm

    Quoting secret_lade:
    The best advice.... Came from my high school principal. He said it doesn't matter what I come from, I can spend the rest of my life making it better.
Hmmm... and Wow.
I don't know if what to make of that โ€” if he'd shared that with me.
I guess, ya did, right? You're smiling and you're bubbly and making it. โ—โ—โ—

Am I wrong, or were his words rather harsh? Hey, it's what it was. I can only imagine YOU in high school.
TROUBLE! ๐Ÿ˜Ž๐Ÿท๐Ÿท


secret_lade 47F
7147 posts
3/26/2021 1:51 am

    Quoting Paulxx001:
    Hmmm... and Wow.
    I don't know if what to make of that โ€” if he'd shared that with me.
    I guess, ya did, right? You're smiling and you're bubbly and making it. โ—โ—โ—

    Am I wrong, or were his words rather harsh? Hey, it's what it was. I can only imagine YOU in high school.
    TROUBLE! ๐Ÿ˜Ž๐Ÿท๐Ÿท
It's a long story.... But I'd finally revealed to the school that my mom hadn't been home in over a week and my brother and I were struggling. We were both in his office, he'd called my grandparents and asked them if they could drive up north and remove us from a bad situation. It was either that or foster care.


Paulxx001 64M
19325 posts
3/26/2021 4:36 am

    Quoting secret_lade:
    It's a long story.... But I'd finally revealed to the school that my mom hadn't been home in over a week and my brother and I were struggling. We were both in his office, he'd called my grandparents and asked them if they could drive up north and remove us from a bad situation. It was either that or foster care.
I wish I could say that I understand - but I can't. The only thing I can do, is imagine.
Actually, I can't even imagine. My brother and I could manage a week or two without our parents, but THAT was all fun and games.
Well, ya turned out ok; or at least you're faking it pretty good! ๐Ÿ˜Š ๐Ÿ‘ โ—โ—๐ŸŒน


agelesssexylegs 77F
530 posts
4/1/2021 7:20 am

The nuns that taught me was always dishing out advice and discipline,maybe why i rebelled when i was young


Paulxx001 64M
19325 posts
4/1/2021 7:41 am

    Quoting agelesssexylegs:
    The nuns that taught me was always dishing out advice and discipline,maybe why i rebelled when i was young
Hmmm... THAT, makes a lot of sense. Many people don't like authority! ๐Ÿ˜Žโ—โ—


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