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A Sears Catalogue... And Secret Lives of Spurned Lovers... 😮❤️  

Paulxx001 67M
8732 posts
10/15/2020 11:47 am

Last Read:
11/20/2020 7:58 am

A Sears Catalogue... And Secret Lives of Spurned Lovers... 😮❤️

I used to enjoy browsing the Sears catalogue. I'd glance at the pages and wonder which coffee table would define me? Could only one represent all of me?

Friends who'd visit would frown, but it was MY space, and I ignored their snotty appraisals. My style was more conformist when I'd go to work. I'd always make sure my belt matched my shoes, and my tie endorsed the shirt and suit I wore. That's a distinction we all share, isn't it?

Your public self isn't always your private you unless you decide to make it so.

Nobody at work knew that on weekends, I was committed to losing a portion of my hearing. Who'd guess that I was slamming a set of drums on a stage with three other crazies while building an ear-bleeding wall of sound?

Those good times and late nights wove themselves into a rhythmic expression of who I am. The hours near midnight? Now they were the most intriguing. People would inevitably morph into various shades of themselves.

She did.

We were playing a wedding in a hotel ballroom. They'd just rolled out the roast pig and buffet spread, and guests were having a great time. Others, already too drunk to dance, were slumped at their tables. Then there were the few who cried at every ballad we played. She was one of those - wrapped in a purple polyester dress and flowing tears.

Her long-time boyfriend had recently dumped her, and she was wallowing in self-pity. She wept her entire life story to me - in between sets. At one point, she leaned towards me and whispered;

"Let's go to my room and fuck."

Before I could reply, she excused herself and dashed into the bathroom to puke. Later, as the band packed up, she staggered out of the hall with a friend in hand and waved goodbye.

On the following Monday, I was shocked to see her again.

She was strutting up the hallway of the office tower I worked in. I did a double-take, and she stopped. She was wearing a designer business suit and carried herself as if she had a position with a title - and a private parking spot. She turned white as we shared an awkward silence. Finally, we traded a few words, and she continued walking to wherever she was going.

It's bizarre when someone's public image smacks into their private one, isn't it? Ever have one of those bumps? I never saw her after that.

Oh, and my eclectic coffee table? My wife got rid of it when she moved in. She said it was, 'A bohemian piece of shit.'

I thought it was a great place to keep my Sears catalogues. Someone still prints them, don't they?

.................................



Paulxx001 67M
22642 posts
10/15/2020 11:54 am

Are your two worlds transparent or is your public you, completely different from your private you? 🤔

Well, most people know that I played in a band. They don't know all the details and I don't share them. I think folks get, that I have a wild side to me.
But I stay pretty private with many parts of my life, including the one on THIS site. 😎


Paulxx001 67M
22642 posts
10/15/2020 11:55 am

Do you miss those huge glossy paged catalogues?

I enjoyed flipping through all sorts of catalogues when I was younger. These days it's all on line, isn't it?
It's not as much fun. 🤔


mufdiver69er2 63M  
1953 posts
10/15/2020 12:07 pm

way back it was the christmas wishbook that was the shit..

woop woop


positively4you 74F  
4605 posts
10/15/2020 12:28 pm

I am not transparent. BC.....before covid, I had a lot more fun that my circle of friends, family and co workers know nothing of and they never will.
Now, I am the homebody working girl with no fun. It sucks.


Paulxx001 67M
22642 posts
10/15/2020 1:37 pm

    Quoting  :

It's great to have friends who understand and accept you on both sides of the planet.
I'm sure EVERY band can share similar tales, right? I'll bet you could actually TASTE that buffet
Lol 😂
Yep... It was a wild reality. Not ALWAYS fun, but it certainly was real! 👍


Paulxx001 67M
22642 posts
10/15/2020 1:38 pm

    Quoting mufdiver69er2:
    way back it was the christmas wishbook that was the shit..
True... That book was something to look forward to. Ahhh... The olden days. ❤️❗


Paulxx001 67M
22642 posts
10/15/2020 1:40 pm

    Quoting  :

So true. The Christmas catalogue!
I used to hope for ALL the games and toys I'd see there. 😊
It was fun to imagine. 🤗


Paulxx001 67M
22642 posts
10/15/2020 1:42 pm

    Quoting positively4you:
    I am not transparent. BC.....before covid, I had a lot more fun that my circle of friends, family and co workers know nothing of and they never will.
    Now, I am the homebody working girl with no fun. It sucks.
I understand 100% what you're talking about.
Things HAVE changed! 🤔😒❗❗❗
Ya think one day thrill) they'll get back to normal? 🤔


pocogato12 71F  
37235 posts
10/15/2020 2:23 pm

When I first read the title I was praying this wasnt a shitty post . Ya know I dont remember the Sears catalog. I might have been the ads in Parent's Magazine or the one with Norma Rockwell paintings on the cover. My private life stays out of this site 99% of the time- why share some goodies with folks you will never know But I was a hell raiser and have some funny tales

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Paulxx001 replies on 10/15/2020 4:18 pm:
I didn't mean to corner you. I understand if you'd want to save your story for your blog.
I was just curious. Very curious. Yep...

japaneseass 56F  
50231 posts
10/15/2020 2:31 pm

i missed the huge catalogues....heavy and thick....you know??? i used to order by mail...from every department stores...they had everything in them....from furniture to food, you name it...it's in there....lol...so i can take a look at them at home...oh wow...i feel for those mail men delivering them to me...lol...i used to know people who worked for the us postal service, they delivered mail by walking on the blocks in the city...oh yah...they all hated christmas season...lol...


Paulxx001 67M
22642 posts
10/15/2020 3:45 pm

    Quoting pocogato12:
    When I first read the title I was praying this wasnt a shitty post . Ya know I dont remember the Sears catalog. I might have been the ads in Parent's Magazine or the one with Norma Rockwell paintings on the cover. My private life stays out of this site 99% of the time- why share some goodies with folks you will never know But I was a hell raiser and have some funny tales
Moi? Shitty post? Hmmm... I guess it's possible. 😊
Those Rockwell covers resonate. So many interesting magazines and catalogues, back in the day. 'Life' , was my favorite. 'Châtelaine' had great pics of women in their underwear. lol 😂 I was a kid.
You were a hell raiser? Pray... do tell.
Or save it for your blog. I'd love to hear an anecdote or two. Ok, tell me one.
Shitty post? lol Reeeelee...


Paulxx001 67M
22642 posts
10/15/2020 3:49 pm

    Quoting japaneseass:
    i missed the huge catalogues....heavy and thick....you know??? i used to order by mail...from every department stores...they had everything in them....from furniture to food, you name it...it's in there....lol...so i can take a look at them at home...oh wow...i feel for those mail men delivering them to me...lol...i used to know people who worked for the us postal service, they delivered mail by walking on the blocks in the city...oh yah...they all hated christmas season...lol...
That is so true. Those mailmen used to haul those filled bags around. And especially at Xmas 🎄 time.
I miss them. The catalogues, not the mailmen. But actually, I miss those guys as well.
Things are changing. They've changed, haven't they?
So you shop online now? 🤔


GhostofH 65M
22788 posts
10/15/2020 4:10 pm

While I do remember the Sears catalogs, I was more of an Eaton's man myself. Just a personal preference.... *grins* I can even remember the odd Bay Store catalog every once in a while......


secret_lade 49F
9227 posts
10/15/2020 4:34 pm

Omg! I totally remember that catalog.... I used to go through the toy section and circle the letters of all that toys I wanted. As for my public self and private self... I keep them as separate as possible because I'm completely different when I'm at work than when I'm on my own time.


mc_justmc 63M

10/15/2020 5:21 pm

Those Sears catalogs were my 1st "porn". I spent a lot of time "shopping" the bra section.


TicklePlease 56F  
13851 posts
10/15/2020 6:14 pm

I used to dogear that catalog to death each christmastime... I want this and this and this and this and this and this!

My public self (who are we kidding, there's no public self at the moment) and my private self are pretty much the same... partly because I work for myself, but really that I'm not wild at all much any more lol!


Paulxx001 67M
22642 posts
10/15/2020 9:56 pm

    Quoting GhostofH:
    While I do remember the Sears catalogs, I was more of an Eaton's man myself. Just a personal preference.... *grins* I can even remember the odd Bay Store catalog every once in a while......
Ooo... True. It was classier, if I recall.
I would always flip to *those* pages. lol 😂
Ahhh... Youth. 😊❗


Paulxx001 67M
22642 posts
10/15/2020 10:01 pm

    Quoting secret_lade:
    Omg! I totally remember that catalog.... I used to go through the toy section and circle the letters of all that toys I wanted. As for my public self and private self... I keep them as separate as possible because I'm completely different when I'm at work than when I'm on my own time.
So true about those toys. I never did get any of those pictures. lol 😂
Completely different? 🤔 Hmmm...
I'm sure parts of you slips out from time to time. 😎❗
Or at least under your mask. 😊
That's an advantage isn't it? Your true expression can linger right in front of the person you're speaking with, and they won't know.


Paulxx001 67M
22642 posts
10/15/2020 10:02 pm

    Quoting mc_justmc:
    Those Sears catalogs were my 1st "porn". I spent a lot of time "shopping" the bra section.
I know EXACTLY what you're talking about! 👍 😎❗


Paulxx001 67M
22642 posts
10/15/2020 10:06 pm

    Quoting TicklePlease:
    I used to dogear that catalog to death each christmastime... I want this and this and this and this and this and this!

    My public self (who are we kidding, there's no public self at the moment) and my private self are pretty much the same... partly because I work for myself, but really that I'm not wild at all much any more lol!
My Xmas wish list was crafted from those pages. It was so much fun to imagine.
True about the public /private self... especially in these times.
Wild any more? Or perhaps - you're not wild, any less! ❗❗😎
So... ya gotta story ta share? 🤔


PonyGirl1965 58F
22090 posts
10/15/2020 11:09 pm

I MISS catalogs! I dreamed my way thru all the Sears and JC Penneys catalogs for years. Oh to be able to have the pretty things pictured in them. My sister would sneer at all of it. Now I shop thrift and if its eclectic, it is going home with me! LOL


lunchandconvo 53F  
4034 posts
10/16/2020 2:56 am

mom must have thrown them away as i kept my dad's books.
but he had some old sears' catalogues.
the ones selling houses.
it was a fascinating read as a child.


flannel_light 61F
4586 posts
10/16/2020 5:51 am

I looked at that Sears catalog as a kid. Now my private life no one knows about. Not many on here know that side of me. When I did work I had two friends who knew about my Submissive side but no one else did. For the most part I was quiet and still am today.

The Light is shinning and she is lonely and waiting in the darkness.


Paulxx001 67M
22642 posts
10/16/2020 6:06 am

    Quoting PonyGirl1965:
    I MISS catalogs! I dreamed my way thru all the Sears and JC Penneys catalogs for years. Oh to be able to have the pretty things pictured in them. My sister would sneer at all of it. Now I shop thrift and if its eclectic, it is going home with me! LOL
True about thrift shops - that's where you'll find interesting stuff.
Ahhh... the dreams those pages held. lol 😂 All so perfectly displayed! 👍😊


Paulxx001 67M
22642 posts
10/16/2020 6:10 am

    Quoting lunchandconvo:
    mom must have thrown them away as i kept my dad's books.
    but he had some old sears' catalogues.
    the ones selling houses.
    it was a fascinating read as a child.
Same here. I don't know where all those catalogues went to. I. would have liked to have kept a few. But back in the day we had too many of them, right?
They were littering the house. lol 😂 😮


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