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TOTAL BLOG UPDATE - A Bit Long, but descriptive.  

LisaWelles 62T  
7 posts
12/16/2021 10:41 am
TOTAL BLOG UPDATE - A Bit Long, but descriptive.

I'm going to update things a bit. No holding back and telling it like it is. First of all, I'm NOT seeking a "relationship!" I AM seeking a mentor who is laid back, gentle, patient, and willing to help me learn at my own pace. Someone who could meet evenings, nights, or late nights on a semi-regular to regular basis.

I am a Crossdresser. Unfortunately, not a Tranny or Shemale. Again, unfortunately, I am a man who has a feminine side locked inside that I ABSOLUTELY LOVE to explore. I LOVE dressing as and "becoming" a woman as often as possible in the privacy of my home. I have been a secret "gurl" since I was 13 or 14 but the different feelings started long before that. I used to be tall and very thin which went a long way toward pass-ability except for maybe the "tall" part.

Unfortunately, when I reached about 58, I gained a LOT of weight. I've been working very hard at losing it and, although I know I won't ever return to 150 or 165 Lbs, I'd be very happy with 180 to 200. Right now, I am 230-35, down from 260 pounds. If there is any part of gaining weight that is good, it's the fact that I'm not fat all over. Sure, my body and neck got a bit thicker, but my thighs, legs, arms, ass, and face seemed to have NOT GAINED much if any weight. I do have a big belly though. Almost look more pregnant than "fat" if you know what I mean. I find losing weight is far, far more difficult than gaining once you reach a certain age in your life, but I'm going to lose it and already am!!

With that said, "as a woman" I am VERY, VERY eager, and horny most of the time. I have ALL KINDS of fantasies I would love to explore!! The problem is, I can also be very shy and nervous; especially at first. My old-school Catholic upbringing where expressing my feminine side and desires being so WRONG and I'll BURN IN HELL coupled with a couple of very bad experiences with men have reinforced my shyness and fears which has been holding me back. Not to mention the fact that sexually being with a man is the end of the world! Because of this, even though I have been a somewhat closeted crossdresser for just under 50 years with only a few in public excursions, I have very little experience with men sexually. In that nearly 50 years I have had about 8 to 10 (giving) oral experiences with about the same number of men. Only one man was a "regular" that I'd do " a quickie" oral servicing for a couple of times a month or so for about 6 months. He was the only guy who I ever let cum in my mouth, and it was only once. Well, until recently! (I did let another man, first I'd hooked up with in years, cum in my mouth recently.) I kept dressing in private as often as possible but took a very long, YEARS, hiatus from "hooking up" with anyone until this fall when I met a very nice gentleman for a one-time fling where I orally serviced him and, though wanting a facial, I let him cum in my mouth because I loved his cock being in my mouth so much!

So, here I am at a crossroads once again. I WANT to, no I NEED TO suck and stroke cock "as a woman!" I REALLY LOVE to make a man cum! It really excites me if that man moans, groans, twitches, and/or has an intense orgasm!! I want to learn (at my own pace) to take and love facials and bukkakes as well as to take cum in my mouth, swallow, and REALLY enjoy it. Nothing forced and no surprises! I want to go at my own pace. However, deep down inside, I feel I am a dirty little cum slut that is very eager to come it!

I have NEVER had<b> anal </font></b>sex, but I've craved it for years! About the time I finally got up the guts to try, I had 2 major surgeries on my colon which, I thought, made having<b> anal </font></b>sex impossible. But recently, after consulting with my Drs, I found I can. So, I'm hoping to try this at some point WHEN I AM READY! The only thing that makes me hesitate, the Drs said because of my surgery, I can never be 100% "clean" down there as even if I anally douche or do an enema, there is a possibility of at least some seepage, and I don't think many men would be into that. If and when I do have<b> anal </font></b>sex though, it will be when I'm ready and very gentle at first until we see how it goes.

Last but not least, my male parts" are small and don't work. So, "as a woman," I insist on forgetting my male side and parts I stay in my feminine clothing all the time. I want NO RECIPROCATION other than letting me be and treating me as a woman!!

I prefer men over 50. Over 60 is a plus. Heavyset, ample, and large men a plus! At least 6.5 inches and uncut is a plus! Long cocks are great as long as they aren't thick. Shaved in the pubic area is a huge plus. Uncut is a huge plus! Big, thick loads are a huge plus!! Able to cum more than once is a huge plus. And, of course, I also love and fantasize about sucking black cock and having sex with a black man.
I host if you are super clean, healthy, discreet, laid back/easy going, and able to come over after 6 PM up to about midnight, any evening, during the winter or after 9 PM in the spring, summer, and fall after the sun goes down. Very late-night or overnights may be possible, but you must be gone before sun-up. Blow and go is OK, but I would like a friend and mentor who may stick around a bit. I'd love to learn to be the best oral and deep throat slut, cum slut, and bukkake slut I can be!
NOT into musclebound, attitudes, forced action, pain, B&D/S&M, watersports, or anything nasty.

And just to make it clear, I DO NOT WANT RECIPROCATION other than letting me be a woman. I DO NOT want my cock sucked! FORGET about my male parts of I'll lose interest very fast.

Now, with all that said, BRING ON THE COCKS and the CUM!!

bi1946 76M  
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12/17/2021 7:54 am


chrissy20073 64T
315 posts
12/16/2021 5:59 pm

hello welcome loved your story

13129 posts
12/16/2021 3:04 pm


Welcome to the blogs

LisaWelles replies on 12/20/2021 2:30 pm:
Thank You!

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