Still Here, Still Alone
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Posted:Feb 13, 2022 1:06 pm
Last Updated:Feb 13, 2022 1:07 pm
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It's been at least a year since I first took this place seriously (though it feels more like half a decade), and in that whole time, I haven't had much luck reaching out to people (or more specifically, them reaching back to my handcrafted attempts at starting a conversation). Once or twice in a rare while, there'd be something in my inbox. But usually, it'd have one or two yellow flags (asking for email right off the bat, the robot automated responder would get activated, that sort of thing), plus it would never really go beyond one or two messages.
At this point, I don't really care about those who are just "checking you out" because I know it's not going to go anywhere.
Funny since there's this one D&S lady who keeps visiting me in the shadows, probably wishing I weren't so laser-focused on the S&M part. Ah well, hardwired personality traits are a thing, so take it or leave it. ?*
In the spirit of an early Singles Awareness Day, I had a dream about my ex. I wonder how she's doing. Now, don't worry, she's dead to me (sadly), which is a shame because she was cute. She was a disappointing dud, though, so being the human-sized A-Bomb that I am, I completely understand why that didn't work out.
There was also some weird email that threatened to expose me, and the good thing about not having ANY friends is that I've got nothing to lose from that. On top of that, the evil robots are getting more persistent and determined, since GMail is filtering out automated contacts from legitimate sources, and starting to fail its filtering of the actual spam.
For the other fronts on the web, I've been creating quite a bit on Youtube, from hour long videos showing the unabridged frustrations of gaming's hardest challenges, to a SUPER ROUGH animated "theme song" for one of my franchises. No love over there, broadly speaking.
I'd like to hear back from you, the reader, but I won't count on it.
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It's Been a While
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Posted:Nov 22, 2021 12:51 pm
Last Updated:Nov 22, 2021 2:07 pm
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Almost half a year since the last post, to be precise. And wow, the previous posts got 3 or 4 digits of views?! That's absurd! All my other social media sites COMBINED would be lucky to see a PERCENT of that traffic! (Interactivity is still at its normal low, but the webcam performers can somewhat change that...even if that's just a short spurt of fun.)
The most important point, I'm still here...still single, too, particularly struggling to find "natural beauty and inner strength". All I for Christmas is SEX! I even made a song about that! I am not sure if it's any *GOOD*, but A for effort! Not sure if I can link stuff in these blogs, but if anyone knows of me on Twitter (or asks nicely), I'd share the stuff I've made.
ALSO, I made a proof-of-concept for a video game! Zero dollar budget, put it together all by myself to learn new skills and pretend I had a 3-month long part-time job! So that sets the expectation: it's unofficially the gaming equivalent of a student film. It's called "The Way of the Badass", about this going through a satire of a near-future world where humanity has lost its toughness and she needs to restore that trait to our species. Again, I'd be more than excited to share that if I can, though take caution: it is NOT for the faint of heart! But for those who flick off the mainstream "trigger warning", YOU are my target audience!
What else, what else...
Just lots and lots and LOTS of video games behind-the-scenes! Unless any of you sexy people a buddy on Steam, I won't go into too much detail. If I'm WRONG (or you really to prove you're "willing to try new things"), send me a message through any means necessary.
Still unemployable while COVID is at large and in . People continuing to move about society like we're not in any imminent danger, meaning I predict the germ is going to float around FOREVER! The difference between that and your flu or other common bugs is that it's more consistently devastating. Vaccines and other protective measures are said to help, but so long as absolute quarantine is impossible, nothing's idiot-proof.
Work from home is about as mythical as the "Glory Hole". In all my years, and the few places I've seen, not once have any of these concepts ever manifested themselves to me in-person. Though that reminds me, OnlyFans had some time ago given friction to sexy ladies on their platform. Why they have not decided to move to Senior Sizzle, I am not sure. Maybe ignorance, or maybe they already did. I don't know.
So yeah, seriously, if you see this, please send help! Or at least a generic message of "Wish I could help" (though in advance, as cute as that is, thanks for nothing).
Semper Bellum!
Jay
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Today's My Birthday!
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Posted:Jun 9, 2021 1:27 pm
Last Updated:Apr 20, 2024 12:46 am
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In fantasy, I should be feeling like the God-Emperor of Mankind! But in reality, it's more like solitary confinement. It's honestly sad, where work is more important than family and half the day is spent sleeping like any other normal day. The fun and games don't get on because I don't have those kinds of friends, plus other complications around the house.
At least I have these couple of cute plush dolls to help keep me sane. They're in the likeness of a few different cartoon characters I adore...including one or two from my own franchises (namely Violet and Scarlet of Short Bus obscurity).
Yesterday, I was nudged to watch this cult classic of a TV show called "The Critic", and I relate a lot to the main character Jay Sherman. The story is so sad and so cynical, and yet, with everything I've been through over the past decade, that's exactly what made it hit home for me. It's aged well in that respect, like a fine wine.
So yeah, why am I writing HERE? Why keep trying to shout in a vacuum? Because the whole point is in the hopes that maybe some cute lady would overhear, want to give a hug or a rub (or maybe even let me play with her girl-parts), and that'd cheer me up. Though as the aforementioned cynicism implies, hard-won life experience has taught me, "ALWAYS Bet on Disappointment!"
Not exactly a "happy birthday" with the fun and games I was hoping for - unless I were to go completely mad and pretend to run a tabletop RPG with my plush dolls as the players (my GOD, what manly-man does what's not too far from the mark of an ACTUAL TEA PARTY like the little girls do). President Coronavirus has had a hand in this, though it did not single-handedly inflict my condition of eternal loneliness. I had similar problems even BEFORE the pandemic, it's just been amplified over the course of the past year when I wasn't enjoying the downtime while trying to not be scared stiff over getting sick.
Point is, come show me some love for my birthday. (Ideally let me give you some spice with that sugar; I do fancy myself a rough lover!)
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NPCs and IM
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Posted:May 27, 2021 10:21 am
Last Updated:Apr 20, 2024 12:46 am
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NPCs - video game shorthand for "Non-Player Characters", those are the human-shaped characters used populate the worlds and try make the space more lived-in. Problem is, in most games, they're just set dressing and don't exactly come across as "human" or "alive" any more than the automated solicitor phonecalls that harass people on a daily basis.
's just one uncanny problem I've noticed. This kind of "NPC" with paper-thin personalities...that seems exist in REAL LIFE, as well! No joke. You've all seen ...the masses barely send a or two, blank profiles, and no I'm not talking about the accounts intended specifically act as spam. I mean how so many blank when thinking about themselves, like they don't have that much coded in. I'm just stupid or being too barbed as I normally am.
That said, if 's any "good news" through all the cookie-cutter peasants, 's that at least 's a bit more action when searching for people by "On IM". The "Instant Messaging" thing, digging through profiles - even if they're hundreds of miles away - at least garners some slightly more consistent responsiveness outcomes. That doesn't mean always ends nicely (particularly when people don't appreciate a fighter or "action hero" personality type), but at least it's more entertaining than skimming through the plethora of blank profiles or retching at all the people think 's artistic mutilate themselves or lather on grotesque paints and ink.
So, y'know, I don't blame you if you're not attracted my biting assessment (and biting fetish). All you need know is, I'm trying find a good match, even if nothing's come up so far.
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Weeding out the Riff-Raff
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Posted:Apr 23, 2021 7:21 pm
Last Updated:Apr 20, 2024 12:46 am
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Once in a very rare while, someone actually takes the time to talk to me. Most of the profiles I see here just stay completely quiet. Now, admittedly, my search for a playmate is not held to the same standard as a hypothetical girlfriend, but there are a few key points looking for...like cisgender and actually willing to take some time with me (eventually meeting in-person, even if one or both of us aren't ready immediately at the time of first contact).
But, of the two people who recently reached to , the first one I guess didn't like my opinions on gun rights. And the second, while lasting a couple days longer of tiny messages, dropped off the of the Earth when asked about testing for STDs. , knowing what's at stake, and how easy it is to lie about that sort of thing, afraid I can't just take your word for it.
For personally, it's still on my to-do list, but since a virgin who's never had penis in a vagina before, that's mostly just for a formality and to have the proof from a doctor so that whatever lady actually does pass my "Test of Time" will be more able to take my word for it that I am clean and I aim to stay that way.
As for my type, I like "natural beauty and inner strength", someone "smart, cute, and tough". That hasn't changed, as I still dream of becoming an action hero. I myself a Knight, for crying loud. I don't want a peasant to bear my ! But, if she's gonna spread her legs and undress to nudity in front of , then unless she's got Herpes or HIV or something, not normally going to say no.
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Weird Turn-Offs
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Posted:Apr 6, 2021 5:18 pm
Last Updated:Apr 20, 2024 12:46 am
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Everyone has some kinds of kinks and fetishes. But how much do we think about the anti-kinks? You know, the sorts of things that totally suck you out of "the mood". Not to be confused for your "limits", because it's not like someone making you uncomfortable or legitimately threatening...just, killing "the mood". To show still around, let's pick my brain for opinions and glare into my heart of steel! I refuse to apologize for accidentally offending any of my viewers.
Weird foreign languages. Few things frustrate more than language barrier, not because of the "What the Fuck are you Saying" angle, but also for personally, it's very distracting. Kinda goes a bit more broadly since I see myself more as all bite no bark (contrast to what I observe to be the common trends).
Nail polish and makeup. Don't ask why exactly, just something inside my gut gets itself into a knot like this. I've always emphasized "natural beauty and inner strength", so lumping in tattoos and the like...it's almost like getting scarred by a burning car crash is somehow attractive to the rabble. Yeah, to me, it's all as visually appealing as a burn victim or a mannequin that's somehow come to life (And don't get me started on the "Fetish art" I see that involves some extremely inhuman proportions). Strong personal tastes and opinions, I know, so while that is admittedly surface-deep and a good relationship also needs that personality compatibility (a technical description of that rare "chemistry"). physical attractiveness does actually matter.
Background music. I've been peeking inside a handful of live webcam shows on Senior Sizzle, and surprised how common it is to hear music in the background (or "music" depending on opinions). Plus, most of it is not my tastes. Even assuming it WERE, I don't think heavy metal is the best "mood music". Even in that best-case, it's still extremely distracting to me. I'd mostly want to hear the skin slapping sounds of natural sex along with her feminine moaning (or maybe the odd "OW" here and there, if we're in a rough mood). Although, I did draw a cartoon with the Heroes having explicit sex set to the tune of the Doom Eternal soundtrack (yes, seriously, though that was less in-universe/in-character and more for the audience to get the sense of intensity going into the scene). If you're curious of the specific tune, it's from the "Gladiator" boss fight. it up, it's badass.
What's the quickest and easiest way to make YOU flaccid?
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Hundreds of Views
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Posted:Apr 1, 2021 7:22 am
Last Updated:Apr 20, 2024 12:46 am
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Wow, the blogs I write here get much more visibility than anything I've done on all the other social media sites - from Twitter and Youtube to Deviantart and beyond. And yet, it hasn't exactly changed my life.
I wonder how many of those views are from spam or other automated programs.
Even with the spring holidays, I'm seriously still as horny as ever, looking to hone my craft for what's "the right of spice to add to the ". Not yet sure I'm all fighting-fit, but I'm working on that.
The sad news is I'm still single, needing a cute girl to lay with. Feels like I'm getting less and less picky, even though there are a slew of points I can't bend on.
Most importantly, I'm still alive, and checking in at least once in a while.
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COVID Impact
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Posted:Mar 19, 2021 8:36 pm
Last Updated:Apr 20, 2024 12:46 am
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One question not mentioned on the featured article about me was how the pandemic affects things. In short, a germophobe living in constant fear of getting sick. On the other hand, I've been enjoying the downtime brought by the society-scale sick leave, and if this event means not needing a full-time "wage-slave" occupation to keep food and shelter, I absolutely won't complain.
Politically, my observations over the past whole year say that the COVID (Sars-Cov-2) is specifically against the status quo, so from an American standpoint, that means it won't support the Republican party if the Coronavirus were hypothetically running for office. Problem is, there seem to be a significant population (judging by any publicly available polling data) that many are adamantly resisting the radical changes demanded by the virus. While this is understandable as the changes require a massive upheaval to most peoples' -to- life, this resistance is a bad idea that I feel would best-case be equal to staying inside during your fire drill...and worst-case deserves a mass nomination of a Darwin Award - or as I like to it, a "Darwin Unit Citation". all for protecting sacred freedom, and while there's a quote from an old patriot about "those who sacrifice freedom for security deserve neither", I still think it is suicidally to attempt public and overt defiance of COVID-related safety measures (specifically, staying home at all costs, or if completely unavoidable, wear your mask and wash up fanatically - among the other entire CDC / WHO checklist).
In other words, my opinion says downplaying is for idiots, and all that does is aggravate my nervousness. Juxtaposed by locals who embark daily, and you can imagine why I am constantly worried.
I read a somewhat trendy statement of "We are fighting two pandemics: Coronavirus, and Stupidity." I feel that this is not entirely correct; Coronavirus is battling Stupidity, and we humans are merely the civilians caught in the crossfire. There are smart people there who are trying very hard to fight both these issues, but worried that it's still not good enough. We have to defeat Stupidity first; then can the virus finally rest. Until then, this flip-flopping state of lockdown is the "new normal".
What does this mean for me? And more to the point, what about this site and all the sex needs? Quarantine protocol dictates absolute physical isolation (the most -proof protection against all contagious infections), unless it is truly unavoidable (and even then, very reluctantly). That doesn't mean we can't online or get to know each other for when the time is right. After all, the "test of time" easily shows anyone who's serious. Those who can maintain steady communication for over a couple of weeks are definitely not your average spammer manure. Even without a pandemic, I've noticed it is grimly normal for most people I come into contact with to just "move on" within a matter of days - sometimes hours or even minutes.
COVID adds a layer of complication to the big picture, but given how I wasn't having much luck with my search even before there was a pandemic, I feel that for me personally, it's mostly a moot matter.
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I'm Now a Featured Member!
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Posted:Mar 19, 2021 3:18 pm
Last Updated:Mar 20, 2021 1:50 pm
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OK, this is actually kinda cool. And I appreciate the staff of this website taking the time to validate my existence and help signal-boost my search for playmates.
://blog.Senior Sizzle./feature/Senior Sizzle-featured-member-of-the-month-horizon7/
One other detail I need to point , though, is it's slightly deceptive with the profile picture...because truth is, as of this writing I do have long hair. It's not entirely a must-have (doubly if, for example, I were to enter a military career in some seemingly absurd what-if), but as "The Golden Knight", it's become part of my identity - I specifically wanted some kind of "80s action hero" vibe. I've had it since , honestly.
While on the matter of introducing myself more intimately, I've been active on social media - Twitter, specifically. There, you can see my cartoons I've drawn for a hobby, as well as some of my unpopular opinions. It'll also help further verify I am who I say I am, since trust is crucial for even the most casual of flings (and I've had firsthand experience seeing how easy others can lie online). Should go without saying, given the website here is Senior Sizzle, but I have a fondness for X-rated content. In my maturity, at least I've developed the courtesy of giving a warning label: it's NOT for the faint of heart!
://blog.Senior Sizzle./JayGeisGold
With all that said, looking forward to meeting new people, even if I don't mesh with their criteria (or vice versa, as I definitely know what I like and don't like).
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D/S is Everywhere, but Where's the S&M?
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Posted:Feb 16, 2021 6:27 pm
Last Updated:Mar 19, 2021 12:40 pm
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a sadist. There, I said it. Absolve of the kink-shaming; I can't help it if I get sexually aroused by roughing up a cute lady. I will be the first to say, that there ARE limits here. Specifically, I don't want anyone going to the hospital; heck, I don't want to add any new scars onto my fantasy, hypothetical girlfriend.
But, the point is, I don't want her calling "" or "Master". I'd rather her "OW" with all the biting and/or whipping I'd be doing, among other instruments of acute physical pain. Problem is, having a uniquely hard time finding somebody like that.
I actually made a drawing specifically about this matter, just to show what I mean. And, I mean, I've noticed this trend across the board: from Fetlife to BDSM. (or was it .net), and the rare times I'd find a kinkster on OKCupid.
So there stands my question: Where do I find a compatible partner for what looking for?!
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Why Mobile Phone?
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Posted:Feb 15, 2021 10:29 pm
Last Updated:Mar 19, 2021 12:39 pm
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I don't get it. Two people have contacted through instant messaging (or whatever the envelope icon is at the top bar of this site), and both wanted to reach with a mobile .
I fail to see why that's important.
Mine is always off, and while there is one physically near my person, it's more "for emergency use" so giving that would be pointless. Especially since there is reliable communication just through this site right here. Maybe if an actual meetup were on the horizon (har har), I'd be reluctant to accept that condition, so we can stay in contact while the two of us are and about looking for each other. But by and large, so long as the Internet physically separates us, I truly do not see the point.
If anyone would like to chime in (more specifically, to those two who have reached out to me recently), I'd like some form of answer.
Then, as I went to look at the messages, I saw a banner at the top, with some information. Upon reading that further, I think I got my answer. To recite that answer to YOU, I have attempted to attach that as a photo to this blog. Well, sheet...
Short answer, I think it's spammer garbage.
That makes a lot more sense, knowing my luck!
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Please No STDs
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Posted:Feb 15, 2021 10:19 pm
Last Updated:Apr 20, 2024 12:46 am
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The short of it is, I want to play with girls who are medically certified to be clean. And I'd go through the same hoops, since trust goes both ways.
Forgive me if I don't take your word for it, because the one thing I do NOT want to happen is that a hypothetical playmate tells me "Oh yeah clean", then we get in bed, and while laying together in reflection she mutters, "Oh by the way, I actually do have Herpes/HIV/whatever."
I did say elsewhere, I am a germophobe...doubly while living through the COVID Crisis. I've been tested for HIV back in college, and that result came back clean. I haven't had any mingling since then, though I am still in need of testing for the other STDs, just to be safe - though as a virgin, I have reason to doubt I possess any.
Now, on the other hand, if hypothetically there were -proof ways to prevent their spread (like by condoms or dry-humping, or a hazmat suit that makes like a human-sized condom), that would mitigate the urgency of the matter, but even then it'd still be on the to-do list if you want to play with your body freely, in full graphic detail, without any fear.
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Singles Awareness Day: Casting the Net
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Posted:Feb 14, 2021 12:50 am
Last Updated:Feb 15, 2021 10:13 pm
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Hello to all those out there in Sexyland, Internet. Yes, I did pretend to act like the Internet is some kind of location (or it's its own country - note that beautiful apostrophe use, by the way).
For Feb 14 (Valentines Day, or as I personally like to call it, Singles Awareness Day), I've finally decided to go full gold on this site...even going so far as to allow free members to visit my profile so that ALL possible matches can have the chance to say hi to me. Yes, seriously, the only reason stopping you now is if you simply feel I'm not your type - and that's fair.
For those of you who've been more fortunate than I have, be sure to give hugs and kisses to your family, your spouses, your playmates, or if you're the D/S type, your masters or slaves. o-o (I'm personally more for S&M, but I digress.) For those NOT so fortunate, on the flip side, you're in luck - I want to truly open myself up as much as realistically possible. Sorry I haven't done so sooner, but the monetary reasons have made me hesitant early on. Just know I'm a straight white male in need of a straight white female.
Now, I understand we are still in the middle of the COVID Crisis - I am an overt germophobe, so STDs are out of the question without an idiot-proof HazMat suit complete with schlong armor, and maybe not even then - meaning I can forgive you all for hesitating to dash for an in-person meetup. That said, there's no hiding the fact that my endgame intention is to eventually meet in-person, face-to-face, and revel in all the juicy goodness of sexual fluids (which, all going well, would lead to marriage and maybe birthing biological ). happyf; happym; You can still talk to me online anyway, despite these plain goals, just know that I won't be satisfied with cybersex alone throughout the rest of my mortal life - even though cybersex is better than masturbating all by myself, doubly if she's digitally masturbating right along with me.
This blog post is particularly important because it signals that I am still single and lonely, in need of a serious female partner and equal in my life. The sticky post would change if by some miracle I actually find someone to cuddle with in the real world, someone who doesn't stink (figuratively or literally). But until then, I'm looking forward to giving Senior Sizzle a fair shake.
Assuming there truly ARE "plenty of fish in the sea", then consider this my fishing net.
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