This is Me!!
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Posted:Jun 4, 2017 2:20 am
Last Updated:Sep 26, 2018 8:08 am
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This might be my only post that is not poetry. I have been writing my whole life. Wrote my fist poem at age 8. I have written hundreds of poems and songs and short stories. I have even written a book and have several more in various stages...but poetry comes easiest to me, words just seem to know how to fit together, almost coming to me as narually as speaking. And not everyone is likes or appreciates poetry . It is like a fine cigar or singe malt scoth, to some it is an acquired taste.
When I leave this big beautiful madhouse called earth, I will leave satisfied knowing that some of my written words did reach the minds of others. And even better may have touched another human, inspired deep thought, brought forth a smile, peaked curiosity or encouraged passion! That's all a true writer wants, to touch another human and inspire emotion.
I am a strong woman, a proud mother, a creative soul, a sensualist, a wanna be comedian, and a dedicated friend. I am a Virgo, the Healer. I am adventurous and courageous, with a big heart but maybe just a little bit rough around the edges. I am strong willed. I am intelligent. My exboyfriends friends recommemded that I dumb it down to keep him. It was also recommended I stop wearing sexy clothes, stop cooking amazing meals, stop writing poetry, and stop wanting attention? Really? Giving up all the things I love for the love of a cheating man? No, I was an enigma to him... a mystery,,, something he could not control or reign in...I make no excuses for who I am...I answer to God, I am a lady outside the bedroom, inside the bedroom I free my inhibitions and discover new pleasures. but only in the company of a man that appreciates me and my high spirited, high energy, ever growing, always exploring. quick witted personality. And he has to laugh with me and appreciate my sense of humor ( which has kept the insanity at bay my entire life). I am not everymans dream girl, or even most mens dream girl but somewhere out there is a man who is looking for someone exactly like me, and God willing will find me someday...and I can do what I do best, which is care for his heart, stimulate his mind, be his best friend and never stop engaging him in the bedroom.
I am a unique and complex individual and I am proud of it!
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Just One Need
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Posted:Jun 4, 2017 1:22 am
Last Updated:Jun 27, 2018 11:50 pm
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I'm more than just a pretty face~
Or a hot body to fill a space~
I have a spirit that's quite untamed~
My wit it bites but will not maim~
Sensitive yes but in a good way~
I like to work but love to play~
I don't act my age, I'm young at heart~
There's so many things that sets me apart~
Passion for life runs deep and strong~
I'm not infallible I admit when I'm wrong~
In love with my forever and more~
I will give my whole heart to whom I adore~
My life is blessed but has just one need~
A man who is faithful, and loves only me~
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Dark Heart
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Posted:Jun 2, 2017 6:36 am
Last Updated:Sep 28, 2019 6:10 pm
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As a I suffered at the hand,
Of a nefarius yet highly intelligent man.
Who played with some people as if they were puppets.
He got everthing his insane mind did covet.
The bad things he did, to my body and mind,
Left my soul childless, forever in time.
My pysche he tarnished, my inner hid,
My whole person changed by the things that he did.
I cried and I prayed to a creator unknown,
That he'd never get close to a of my own.
Though at nine I had only begun to reap hate,
I would grow up consumed and destroyed by this fate.
I suffered for years lacking the will,
To move on beyond this dark bitter pill.
And not understanding his ever dark heart,
I slowly but surely through time, fell apart.
With no one to put me together again,
I would self medicate to erase all the pain.
At a very young age I tried and I failed,
To live with the myself in my own private hell.
Years later a doctor would tell me some news.
My cervix had been cautherized, another abuse.
An action forgotten by me to stay sane,
I still cry in the night his dark heart on my brain.
This done at the hands of another dark man,
And for seventeen years I was rendered barren.
Now the passage of time has allowed me great healing,
Erasing from me most the pain I was feeling.
My forgiveness upon him, he died years ago.
But his darkness remains in my pysche and soul!
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For Another Hearts Sake
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Posted:May 30, 2017 8:44 pm
Last Updated:Jun 27, 2018 11:34 pm
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Always I was hungry even tho full
Your eager sex kitten for whom you could rule
With your attentive tongue and your pleasure devices
And hours spent showing how your love suffices
Not paying attention to the strain in your voice
That would expose you would soon make a choice
To leave me hurt and scratching my head
A day I would always subconciously dread
Still aching for you, my need not quite fed
I was the best, that is what you said
Yet I was left standing there looking the fool
Your heart now indifferent, love has no rules
I understand what you felt you must do
Was any thought given to what I'd go through
Cruely ignoring whats left in the wake
Destroying my heart for another hearts sake
We shared something real, love you cant fake
Did I see you smile as you watched my heart break?
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Rent for a Friend
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Posted:May 30, 2017 10:09 am
Last Updated:Jul 23, 2018 12:46 am
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You said I was someone that you did adore
Then called me so I'd hear you fucking that
And it wasn't just once or twice it was more
Please tell me what were you doing that for
Was she tapping her foot with your balls in her hand
Insisting you prove that you were her man
And like a good boy without balls you obeyed
After all we all know that your rent must get paid
I think of all the bullshit you laid in my ear
All the lies you thought I should hear
Without them I still would have fucked you my dear
Did you tell her more of the things that we do
Or leave behind clues so she could catch you
At the park, sharing hotdogs and the model T ford
The pictures we took, we never got bored
That's what you said you were doing it for
We forged a sweet friendship, there was nothing more
Well except for the flowers you put in my hair
And the 2 months of hot sex we did share
Did you enlighten her of the things that we are
And the things that we aren't did you take it that far
She has nothing to lose but I lost in the end
For the price of your rent you gave up a friend
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Not Enough!
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Posted:May 17, 2017 12:47 am
Last Updated:Jun 27, 2018 11:23 pm
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I don't see why?
Though you always satisfy,
I'm still filled with need,
Is it My sexual greed?
My appetite was wetted,
And your hot body vetted.
We gorged on pure desire,
With lust we were afire!
And I walk away filled,
My love places thrilled.
But needing you more,
than I ever did before!!
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Last Kiss
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Posted:May 11, 2017 4:41 am
Last Updated:Jun 27, 2018 11:22 pm
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There was something about our last kiss
something was off, perhaps amiss
it was as if it was to be
the last time you'd lay lips on me
And you carried my things up the stairs
you were looking at me but you weren't there
you were far away in some other place
there was no peace upon your face
And finally at the door when saying goodbye
You would not look me in the eye
I went to hug you but you turned away
my heart it new that we were through
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Mine Tonight
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Posted:Apr 28, 2017 4:13 am
Last Updated:Jun 27, 2018 11:20 pm
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Hot breath on my spine
this night he is mine
Sharing private spaces
Exploring forbidden places
Lips on breast
I hold my breath
Igniting sexual fire
Satisfying my desire
Passion explodes
His primal groans
With delight I moan
Then he goes home
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When It's Real
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Posted:Apr 16, 2017 5:07 pm
Last Updated:Jun 27, 2018 11:18 pm
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My soul you expose when you look in my eyes.
You fill me with warmth much to my surprise.
Skipping a beat, our hearts intertwine,
My mind disarmed, my senses align.
You stimulate my intellectual desire,
Mental foreplay fans my physical fire.
Electricity flows from our warm embrace.
As we join one another in mutual space.
Instinctively knowing how each other feels,
Without words knowing we have something real.
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Wake Up Call
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Posted:Apr 16, 2017 4:54 pm
Last Updated:Jun 27, 2018 11:53 pm
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Imagine my surprise, when I opened my eyes.
And saw his disguise, as a normal nice guy
His demon inside, full of rage and pride,
Just couldn't hide, his cruel hateful side
But I loved him still, my life he did fill.
With fun and with thrill, for him I would kill.
We fit like a glove, but he couldn't love.
I thought we had trust, turns out it was lust.
Before I could blink, he came close to the brink.
He started to think, paranoia his kink.
So I ran very fast, put it all in the past.
Deceit it was vast, felt like I was gassed.
So finally awake, I pray for a break,
My fool loved his fake, oh how my heart aches!
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Two Women
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Posted:Apr 16, 2017 4:23 pm
Last Updated:Jun 27, 2018 11:09 pm
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There are two different women inhabiting me.
One is a prisoner and one is free.
Soft girl is locked up,
Hard girl holds the key.
No malice involved she's just protecting me.
Each a unique personality!
The soft one is lonely no one in her life ,
Hard girl knows many but often makes strife.
Hard girl is only protecting her friend,
She knows Soft girl will be hurt in the end.
I cannot remember when all this began.
Or why Hard girl needed to lock up her friend.
Hard girl didnt plan on being this way.
She longed to be happy, to laugh and to play.
But heart ache and pain, they stole her away.
She hurts and she cries to this very day.
She knows her hard heart will never be free.
She will keep Soft girl prisoner for eternity.
And sadly that Soft girl is dying inside.
She wants to be free, can no longer hide.
She will have to be strong to escape her sad fate.
She will have to take Hard girl before its too late!
(To be continued)
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Almost Too Late
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Posted:Apr 14, 2017 10:30 pm
Last Updated:Jun 27, 2018 11:53 pm
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Today I realize what a fool I am,
I fell in love with a selfish man.
Who only cares to fill his needs,
He breaks my heart to watch it bleed.
More than just a handsome face
It was his heart, there was no chase.
Tho sad, my time was not a waste.
After all, he never said he cared.
In my time of need he was not there.
Problems? He had his own fair share!
Looking back, I should have tried.
To walk away, instead I cried!
My love for him, is destructive to me!
But the power of love is stronger, you see?
Equiped with his Trojans, ready for war.
Viagra his bullets as he hunts for a .
Loving them plenty,but no love for me?
His bad habits should've set me free.
But Love has no rules,
and makes you a fool.
His gift is he can charm (them).
I sure wouldn't want to alarm (them).
But loving him will certainly harm (them).
So I sit here contemplating my fate.
And think about the boy I should hate.
Who I'd prayed would be my mate.
God give me the strength to escape.
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Love Struck Sucker
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Posted:Mar 5, 2017 9:10 am
Last Updated:Jun 27, 2018 11:52 pm
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Love struck sucker
Have you no sight
Love will not find you
You can't make it right
He could not find
You in his heart
The love hate discord
Keeps you apart
Why be blind
To the unmasked hate
You realized
A little too late
That you could not fix
What you didn't break
Now you must leave
For integrity's sake
2/12/16
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