Needs and Wants
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Posted:Sep 24, 2011 12:13 pm
Last Updated:Sep 2, 2013 6:02 am
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I look to my phone every day in anticipation of my Master’s texts. “G’Morning,” he says. My pussy immediately gets wet and a smile appears on my face. “Did you sleep well?” He is checking to see if I was a good girl and slept my required seven hours. I do not know how to properly take care of myself so he needs to be very strict with me in this department. I seem to overextend myself, put everyone else before me and in turn, I look tired and used. He does not like this at all. He wants me looking fresh, young, and beautiful for all the people he will present me too. I have failed miserably in the past with this task and still do today. Secretly, I think I am holding a grudge.
When we first started dating, he had strict rules with me. I was to get in shape. I had thirty days to train myself for the Army Physical Fitness Test. I pushed myself so hard to achieve this task. I wanted to prove to him I was worthy of pleasing. I was never given the chance to take this test. All my hard work was taken away with humiliation because my master felt he did not miss me and dismissed me. I was crushed. I didn’t understand. I changed my whole life for my Master. I started taking the pill, had all sorts of tests done so he didn’t have to wear a condom, and started trusting him with my desires. How could he humiliate me like that make me bend to his will but take away the reward. I should of walked away let him go but I couldn’t I wanted my reward for working so hard, I wanted my Master.
I am learning though when my Master is needed but not wanted we r the happiest but when I want him but don’t need him we r the unhappiest. I am still learning how to not want him. My desires are very strong and why he punishes me with playing with other woman and not claiming me. I wish he would give me more guidance in this department because I no longer want him I need him. He has put a spell on me. He has trained me to his will. I will satisfy his needs and help him achieve his desires. We need each other, as we are both capable of great things when put together.
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Trust
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Posted:Sep 24, 2011 12:12 pm
Last Updated:Apr 19, 2024 4:23 pm
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How can I be wonderful and irreplaceable but still not be loved? My Master has humiliated me again. But it is my fault, I trusted him and I shouldn’t. I wanted to believe he changed and he would not hurt me, that he believed in our chemistry and gave in to its lust but he will not take that chance. He will not try to mend his broken heart. He is too afraid of losing things so he does not attach. I however, wear my heart on my sleeve, take chances and am brave. I am afraid to get hurt but I don’t let that stop me from loving. The pain from his rejection makes me feel I am still alive inside. Even though I am depressed, sad, confused, and more, I will be brave, tackle these feelings, and know I am beautiful, kind, and loving and maybe someday My Master will truly see how irreplaceable and wonderful I am as a person and a Pet and take me back for his own.
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Feelings
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Posted:Sep 24, 2011 12:12 pm
Last Updated:Apr 19, 2024 4:23 pm
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I have so many emotions going through my mind right now and I don’t understand any of them. I am so mad at my Master. I begged him not to release me that night that he would come back and it was pointless to fight our chemistry. He seemed to feel he would be strong enough to fight our chemistry. He was wrong again. He has a need to help, guide, and protect me. He wants to be proud of his wonderful Pet, watch her in action. Have people fall head over heels for her willingness to please and enjoy.
However, I don’t think he understand how to control me, I scare him. But, truth be told I don’t know how to control myself and why I need his discipline and understanding. That day we kissed oh so long ago was a perfect moment in time, it was the day he let me into his heart and why he will always remember me and why he says, “I will always be his Pet”. I think that is why he never kisses me, as he is afraid of letting me in again. He is not ready to understand love, he does try and without words, he showed me everyday his feelings for me.
Nevertheless, I challenge him he is better than what he is doing right now and that gets him very frustrated. I want him to use his talents and be proud of himself. I am. He is smart, creative, strong, funny, caring, and a oh so much more and why I didn’t want to let him go. I tried for two month to become friends like he wanted. I started doing my exercises, moved my business by myself, and started the process of playing with others again. I was so excited and proud of myself that I let go but it was all taken away when Master claimed his Pet again.
I tried to fight him when he said Pet but he laughed and said five more. I accepted my fate, even though it was against my judgment, I went with my heart. I started my blog, got two out of four people to agree on the gangbang, and didn’t talk back. “I am a wonderful Pet,” he says but Master told me he was sorry for reclaiming me and hurting me again and released me. I cried today because I really didn’t understand. Can anyone explain?
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Thoughts
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Posted:Sep 24, 2011 12:11 pm
Last Updated:Apr 19, 2024 4:23 pm
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My pussy got all wet today in anticipation of meeting my Mistress but alas, it did not work out and we have a meeting for Monday. I have never had a Mistress or submitted myself to a girl without my Master. This will be a completely new experience. I am so curious to see if she can control me and guide me to meet all our desires. I will gladly submit to her. She has a beautiful body. Her breasts seem perfect; to have the chance to suck on them while her husband fucks her pussy is getting me all wet. I want to please her so I can play again, have a friend to talk to about the lifestyle, and feed my own desires.
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Intro into BDSM
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Posted:Sep 24, 2011 12:10 pm
Last Updated:Aug 31, 2013 4:20 am
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Master has requested I write an Introduction to how I was introducted to BDSM. Please, correct all mistakes. I get one spanking for each mistake. Enjoy
I have always loved sex but the BDSM world fascinates me. I was first introduced to BDSM in my late teens early twenty’s when a friend gave me the book Beauty by Anne Rice. I always admired Beauty and felt at some level I would like to be her, experience what she felt, and increase my sexual awareness of my body. I went to a Catholic School so sex was always repressed and taboo to talk about with others. Probably why, I find it more and more fascinating as I get older.
My first memorable experience in BDSM was in San Francisco with my friend Margaret (Maggie). I have known her since sixth grade. We met in Catholic School so she has an imagination like mine when it comes to sex. I lived up North so I was coming down for a little vacation and she invited me to come to her BDSM club and experience a few things or two.
We both went shopping for an outfit. I bought a pair of skin tight black pants and an Indian chain linked bra that my nipples could clearly be seen in for the night. I wasn’t really sure what to except but it was San Francisco so I knew I would enjoy myself. We arrived and entered a dark dungeon like place with a bar to the right and a stage with two sets of cuffs hanging on the wall. We walked through another door and enter into a room with lots of various play everywhere. My favorite was watching this man get his ass spanked. It was so red but he asked for more. Why I thought?
I got my chance when Maggie and I went on the stage by the bar. I was so nervous walking on stage. I watched as Maggie was shackled to the wall and exposed to everyone. Then he took my hands lifted them over my head and shackled them to the wall. My bra came off and I watched and smiled as people watched as he sucked on my breasts. I was so self conscious, I did not enjoy the experience as much as I should have. I think I enjoyed watching Maggie onstage more than watching people watch me perform. Her legs spread open vibrator pushed hard on her clit, whip cracking on her back, her eyes closed enjoying her moment on stage. I was not ready to let go like she did, I needed a little more time. It took me ten years to unleash my inner desires.
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Welcome
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Posted:Sep 24, 2011 12:09 pm
Last Updated:Oct 17, 2014 4:45 am
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My Blog will highlight my adventures with my Master. My Master is kind enough to allow me to play with others so please do not get offended if you read about how I am pleasing others without him. He is fully aware and encourages me to play but I do have rules so be kind to make sure you follow or I will be punished for your bad behavior.
Please enjoy and comment.
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