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a fantasy about a bdsm lifestyle
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a fantasy about a bdsm lifestyle this is a fantasy but maybe parts of this fantasy are a possible way for me to try out homosexuality. i'm still pretty confused about my feelings for the same sex & it's clear to me i gotta have my 1st time with a guy who understands this. a guy who will be able to show me new things. maybe that guy should be my master. my same sex fantasies usually have me submissive anyways. nothing would happen right away of course. we would both know the ultimate goal is a dom/sub relationship. we would spend sometime getting to know each other, not just sexually though that would be the focus. we would get comfortable with each other. slowly i would trust him & he would start to seduce me. he would intrigue me. make me wonder what he is like in another light. as my trust in him would grow, i would let him control me more. the sex wouldn't start right away. maybe he would tie me up & make me watch him walk around in his underwear. maybe he would make me walk around all day on my hands & knees bringing him food & drinks. there are alot of things i could do to show my commitment to my master without it being sexual. slowly he would take control over me until 1 day, the day i've been waiting for for years, the day i have my 1st gay sex. but this is also the day i let my master possess me. he tells me to take off all of my cloths except my underwear. do u wanna go on? yes, master. take off ur underwear. i let them drop to the floor. lay down on the bed, face up. he gets on top of me, pins my arms down. he gazes deeply into my eyes. are u sure u wanna go on? yes, master. are u ready to give urself up? yes, master. do u agree to be my property? yes, master. do u give up ur whole will to me? yes, master. do u desire to give ur whole self completely to me? yes, master. will u live no longer for urself but ony for me? yes, master. will u do every little thing i tell u to do to the best of ur ability? yes, master. as a sign of ur loyalty to me will u turn completely homosexual for me? yes, master. ru in love with me? yes, master. say it. i'm in love with u, master & i wanna belong to u for the rest of my life! i'm in love with u too, pet, i will cherish u as my most prized possession. for the rest of the nite my master takes his time passionately & tenderly making love to me. i have never felt happier in all of my life. i'm finally crossing off the big item on my bucket list, i'm finally doing it with a guy! and it's with my master, a man i have given myself to, a man i wish to please, a man i love with all my heart. a man! i'm still in a bit of disbelief over living such a strictly enforced heteronormative live & rejecting it all for the love of a man. not even my willingness to experement sexually completely prepared me for this. but it doesn't make this nite any less special. it is all the pleasure i have hoped for & much more. the next morning we go to the courthouse, because it's the us & same sex marriage is fortunately legal  so not only do we declare our love to each other in the privacy of master's bed, we make it official by declaring it to the state. we spend our honeymoon on a secluded beach, alot of it with me tied up or gagged. over the years master continuously challenges me & my assumptions. he openly has romantic & sexual relationships with members of both sexes but he makes me understand i'm his only true love. he's also very generous. he shares his most prized possession with his friends. he lets them use me as they wish & he instructs me to do whatever they tell me to do. it pleases master to show his friends what a loyal, faithfull loving pet he owns, & he wishes to share the joy he has with me, with others. i love that about him so much! i'm only eager to see to his happiness. plus to be honest it's a special thrill. giving up control of myself to 1 special man is a joy in itself, giving up control of myself to more than 1 man adds that much more excitement. plus it needs that much more self confidence to be shared among multiple men. which master has instilled in me & i love him for that. also master is considerate of me because he's allways trying to expand my enjoyment, & he knows i have grown to like the attention of being a sex object for multiple men who are treating my body & my soul as a fucktoy. sometimes when 1 of master's friends is having a hard time in life he loans me out to him. but master treats me very well. he gets me the best medical care & the best education. and he also cares about me deeply. he talks to me, really talks to me. asks me questions about my life & helps me get over problems. sometimes i even dare to bring up problems of his he might not realize he's having & he appreciates that too. but sometimes I also just act bratty just so he can punish me. i enjoy his corrective force over me, which is never vengefull or vindictive. he knows I do too. it's really a game but he humors me. we spend a lifetime pleasing each other in our own way & it is blissfull. but the day comes when master passes away. i spend his last minutes by his side, naked of course because it allways pleased him to look at my body & i wanted very much to give him the pleasure of his most prized possession during his last breaths. his<b> death </font></b>saddens me immensely. but u know that confidence master instilled in me? it has grown so much & it allows me to move on in life & enjoy it, even though there is a big void in it now. and the friends who had me for there pleasure? some of them are there to take care of me. they know how much i meant to master, so they have taken the task to look on after me. of course they take care of me sexually, as bittersweet as it is. but they also look after my wellbeing. after years of knowing me & fucking me they have grown to love me too. so master is looking on after me through his good friends. he has given me a good life to the end & even after his own end. i love u master & i can't wait to join u in heaven & be with u again in joy. untill then i will remember u with fondness & still be open to happiness as u have allways encouraged me.
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