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Survival of the fittest  

senfully 55F  
618 posts
6/3/2021 4:55 pm
Survival of the fittest

Survival of the fittest
written October th, 2020

Survival of the fittest.
What does that mean?
Fit for what?

Fit for keeping a multitude of shameful secrets?

Fit for being able fill multiple mutually exclusive roles?

Fit for loving the ones who hurt you over and over?

Fit for hiding in plain sight?

So you survive
and you are so good at being invisible
that nobody can see you.

You love passionately
moments from the past
and books from the present.

You are a multitude
but none is complete
or known by the world.

You hold the secrets inside of you
until you are the only one
that remembers them.

None of these skills
help you
in the real world.

Sometimes the result

isn't survival of the fittest

but just survival of those that survive.

______________________
I usually include thoughts about writing the poem, but I think commenting is broken, so here are my thoughts:
I have written myself out of life for so long, and erased myself even from my own poems. Here is another one that has been sitting in my notebook for so long. I don't know if posting it brings some resolution, or if now I will just need write this poem again. I have heard that healing is a spiral. Perhaps the next version of this poem, will be more complete.

kamaruhl3 63M
4985 posts
6/10/2021 6:09 pm

 i agree with your poem for all of us


senfully replies on 6/11/2021 6:55 am:
Yes. We've all experienced such different and difficult and beautiful things. Glad you are here and are a survivor. Hugs.

69ereatwetpussy 61M
6774 posts
6/19/2021 2:05 am

 Fittest strong
To be able to out last
To take care of yourself
With out any ones help
To be along
You can do it I know


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