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Two Roads
Two Roads The Road Not Taken Two roads diverged in a yellow wood, And sorry I could not travel both And be one traveler, long I stood And looked down one as far as I could To where it bent in the undergrowth; Then took the other, just as fair, And having perhaps the better claim, Because it was grassy and wanted wear; Though as for that the passing there Had worn them really about the same, And both that morning equally lay In leaves, no step had trodden black. Oh, I kept the first for another day! Yet knowing how way leads on to way, I doubted if I should ever come back. I shall be telling this with a sigh Somewhere ages and ages hence: Two roads diverged in a wood, and I— I took the one less<b> traveled </font></b>by, And that has made all the difference. This is the poem that was running through my mind those years ago as I was trying to live the life I was meant to live or ending my life. One evening I was sitting in a grove of trees I had planted when I was 13 years old. My life was lost as I had known since I was 4 years old I was in the wrong body. My disclosure of this had ended a 17 year marriage and alienated me from my best friend. I had a sawed off shotgun in my lap as this poem ran through my mind over and over. It was because of it I decided to allow myself the authentic life I deserved rather than end my life.I started on hormones the next day. Now knowing what I do, with a lost career as I found nobody would hire me in my field, With a loss of every family member in my life to include my , with 2 sexual assaults under my belt, and being fired 4 times from shit jobs just because of who I am, homeless twice, Living in utter solitude as refuse to allow people to feitishize me and use me, I now realize the obvious choice I should have made all those years ago was to pull the trigger. |
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