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Born a This was suggested as a way communicate, since I have been effectively silenced here. Anyway just had a big breakthrough in therapy. It turns that Dad wasn't first time a man had r***d me. I had suppressed this memory and as of last week I remember everything. I was reaaaally young and was lured into a mans apartment walking home from school. He was (maybe in his 60s...I thought every adult was ). He was friendly and showed some toys he collected (real toys not sex toys). He asked me to sit down then he left a few minutes. On his coffee table were hardcore porn magazines...lots of them. I think he waited me to pick one of them up before he came back in the room, because I did open one of them. I don't remember the words that were said but he started talking to me about how beautiful it was and if I had questions. Sex never entered mind in life nor did I have any sexual feelings about anything up to that . He started showing me some of his favorites, most of which were hardcore penetration of a young small woman and an older man... and asked if I wanted to feel what it is like. I was scared but I didn't think he would let me leave so I said yes. He unzipped his pants and pulled out his cock which was hard. He told me I should try kissing it and pushed it close to mouth. I was so scared I kissed it...then he told me to lick it, which led to him putting his cock between lips. He said I should start to suck it, just like the girls in the magazines, so I did. He was naked before I knew what was going on, still pushing his cock in mouth. I was gagging choking then I felt shirt being taken off, then was pulled up and he took the rest of clothes off. He pulled me in and started kissing me , hard while moaning, forcing his sloppy tongue all over mouth and down throat, violating mouth...I just let him...I was terrified, his hands all over body running his tongue over neck and chest. He was saying things and moaning all sorts of sounds. Then he told me to get on hands and knees. I remember that so clearly...and he got behind me. I felt something wet being poured onto anus (im sure it was lube) his hands all over ass and body. He forced his tongue inside mouth again then I felt his cock begin to enter me . It felt like a baseball bat was being forced into body. I screamed in pain as he pushed most of his shaft into small body then he pulled out and pushed inside me again. He did that over and over again, his full length thrusting, feeling like it was hitting ribcage. He may have thought screams were pleasure, because he increased his speed with full thrusts of his cock inside me . All I could do is grunt while he seemed do this what seemed like would never end. Then all I recall after that was his hands all over me and the sound of his slapping skin against me as he fucked me licking back, pulling hair, grunting and groaning with his vicious pleasure. He came inside me, because when he finally pulled out his seeming gallons of hot spilled out of body like a faucet. I thought it was blood. He kissed me again, told me to get dressed...I was paralyzed and in pain but I did, underwear soaking up the semen that was spilling from ass. Finally I was going to be able to leave and he gave me a model car kit as a gift (of all things that was truly weird) and said that I should visit again tomorrow. I got out of there and ran home. Showered and tried to cleanse his from body...and somehow...I don't know...pretended it didn't happen. Never went bac I did not remember any of that until last wee It explains a lot about why I am a nymphomaniac and have sex with literally anything with a pulse, why I have a r**e fetish, maybe why favorite position is doggie, why about a year after that happened I started doing strange but overtly sexual things, and literally every moment I am thinking about what happened so many decades ago and just cannot believe that remembering that trauma makes me disgustingly horny. This was something that happened and alone, and I do not wish this scenario happen any person or their loved ones. This is purely own personal and experience, traumatizing as it was, It appears have set in directions I never would have gone had it not happened, good or ill it is part of I am now, and I am thankful that I remember. |
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Well Jennywantsagain1 That doesn't sound like a very good experience at all and it makes me fell kinda bad that I love your profile and pics and attitude about sex. I think your beautiful and love your fire....
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Let me know what you need to be able to participate in all this sites stuff...I might be able to help...
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I am thankful for that experience...it made me who I am. In recalling it it makes me furiously horny and gives me understanding of who I am and why I do the things I do. Basically I just need to be in "gold" again so I can respond to emails and comments. You don't need to sugar daddy me tho...I can do this
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ok, I guess that is kinda sugar daddy ish but would really be NSA....just wanna let see you express freely....
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So how do I do this..?
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we can communicate here honey. This is a start
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Yep sounds good! so of all the sexual things that are possible for you what is your Favorite?
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10/9/2019 2:18 pm |
I feel sad for you having to go through that when you were young. Hopefully therapy is helping you to grow and become the beautiful person that you are.
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Hii Jennywantsagain! A bit buzzed ...seeing if you might be around tonight ? Would love to chat about all things sex, you really intrigue me. Lets talk and get to know each other....
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To answer your previous question, I love being gangbanged. Love being DPd while having a cock shoved into my mouth. My husband has given me several new years gangbangs that I look forward to every year
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That's pretty hot! Now that you can be DPed huh? Does your husband participate? You only get your special treat once a year huh? And most importantly, how does one get lucky enough to be part of this gangbang
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I sent you a friend request, if you accept that cant we chat that way? Not really sure just thought that might work
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I have had more than one gangbang in a year, but my husband's are special, and last several days. He is relentless, controls everything, and I love that. He usually gets on several social media sites, Craigslist, dating sites, and the men show. Aside from the sex, it just makes me feel so good when so many men are part of it. I feel...desired
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Accepted your friend request btw. Don't think it will allow me to communicate any easier, but worth a shot
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I am not above having a sugar daddy, not saying you should be that, just that I am a whore who has no morals anymore. RE this post, Frankly I should have gone back the next day, and every day after that, swallowed his cum, be destroyed by his cock....Ive made up for that regret since then, but im so sad I didn't let him get another chance at me. After remembering this, I really wish I would have gone further.
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Yep..Doesn't seem like that helps does it...still figuring this site out. In any case upgrading you to gold would hardly make me a sugardaddy but for me would be soo worth it to message you privately, and anyone else you would like! Going to be up all night tonight playing.....if you wanna reach out! About the good stuff...Now that you have a pussy and an ass do you still lioke anal sex? Do you prefer either over the other? You should feel desired, what cant you offer that any man would want?
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By the way..have I seen a profile for you on USA? Maybe I could find you there and see what happens....
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Hii sexy! Going to be back on here around 11:30 would love to further this convo! United Sex Addicts by the way...?
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Have to check out USA, have not been there but will now.
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Hello! Up and playing again....seeing if you might be around...
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so which do you preferBeautiful? would love to hear about it! Will gladly correspond with you any way possible...still open to upgrading you...no strings...just sexy tals and chat and....
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10/23/2019 7:18 am |
I had a similar experience when I was 13 or 14, but it was a group of late teens/early 20s guys ... I think that's when my femme persona began to develop. Now I find myself more comfortable with going out and meeting new partners and especially groups. Maybe its stockholm syndrome ?
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I am sorry to hear about your experience, yet strangely aroused by it also. It is too bad it was not a good enough experience for you to look forward to returning. A wonderful recurring encounter like that would be/have been wonderful. I would like to think that if he had you to do over again, he would be just as lustful, just as dominant, just as passionate, but a bit more considerate. Hey, it's my fantasy, it can go however I want it right?  I have enjoyed your photos. Thanks for sharing them. I was lured into your profile by your beauty, and captivated by your profile description. What a journey you have been on! I wish you the very best, Mike
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Don't be sorry...I have thought about what could have been often of the last few weeks, and I am crazy horny . He did what he did, and I just regret not letting him do so much more to me, every day
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I should have gone back the next day and let him fuck the shit out of me. I was reaaaly young and scared so I didn't. I wish I did. I made up for it in depravity, but I regret not letting this man own me.
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