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Born a This was suggested as a way communicate, since I have been effectively silenced here. Anyway just had a big breakthrough in therapy. It turns that Dad wasn't first time a man had r***d me. I had suppressed this memory and as of last week I remember everything. I was reaaaally young and was lured into a mans apartment walking home from school. He was (maybe in his 60s...I thought every adult was ). He was friendly and showed some toys he collected (real toys not sex toys). He asked me to sit down then he left a few minutes. On his coffee table were hardcore porn magazines...lots of them. I think he waited me to pick one of them up before he came back in the room, because I did open one of them. I don't remember the words that were said but he started talking to me about how beautiful it was and if I had questions. Sex never entered mind in life nor did I have any sexual feelings about anything up to that . He started showing me some of his favorites, most of which were hardcore penetration of a young small woman and an older man... and asked if I wanted to feel what it is like. I was scared but I didn't think he would let me leave so I said yes. He unzipped his pants and pulled out his cock which was hard. He told me I should try kissing it and pushed it close to mouth. I was so scared I kissed it...then he told me to lick it, which led to him putting his cock between lips. He said I should start to suck it, just like the girls in the magazines, so I did. He was naked before I knew what was going on, still pushing his cock in mouth. I was gagging choking then I felt shirt being taken off, then was pulled up and he took the rest of clothes off. He pulled me in and started kissing me , hard while moaning, forcing his sloppy tongue all over mouth and down throat, violating mouth...I just let him...I was terrified, his hands all over body running his tongue over neck and chest. He was saying things and moaning all sorts of sounds. Then he told me to get on hands and knees. I remember that so clearly...and he got behind me. I felt something wet being poured onto anus (im sure it was lube) his hands all over ass and body. He forced his tongue inside mouth again then I felt his cock begin to enter me . It felt like a baseball bat was being forced into body. I screamed in pain as he pushed most of his shaft into small body then he pulled out and pushed inside me again. He did that over and over again, his full length thrusting, feeling like it was hitting ribcage. He may have thought screams were pleasure, because he increased his speed with full thrusts of his cock inside me . All I could do is grunt while he seemed do this what seemed like would never end. Then all I recall after that was his hands all over me and the sound of his slapping skin against me as he fucked me licking back, pulling hair, grunting and groaning with his vicious pleasure. He came inside me, because when he finally pulled out his seeming gallons of hot spilled out of body like a faucet. I thought it was blood. He kissed me again, told me to get dressed...I was paralyzed and in pain but I did, underwear soaking up the semen that was spilling from ass. Finally I was going to be able to leave and he gave me a model car kit as a gift (of all things that was truly weird) and said that I should visit again tomorrow. I got out of there and ran home. Showered and tried to cleanse his from body...and somehow...I don't know...pretended it didn't happen. Never went bac I did not remember any of that until last wee It explains a lot about why I am a nymphomaniac and have sex with literally anything with a pulse, why I have a r**e fetish, maybe why favorite position is doggie, why about a year after that happened I started doing strange but overtly sexual things, and literally every moment I am thinking about what happened so many decades ago and just cannot believe that remembering that trauma makes me disgustingly horny. This was something that happened and alone, and I do not wish this scenario happen any person or their loved ones. This is purely own personal and experience, traumatizing as it was, It appears have set in directions I never would have gone had it not happened, good or ill it is part of I am now, and I am thankful that I remember. |
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Well Jennywantsagain1 That doesn't sound like a very good experience at all and it makes me fell kinda bad that I love your profile and pics and attitude about sex. I think your beautiful and love your fire....
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Let me know what you need to be able to participate in all this sites stuff...I might be able to help...
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I am thankful for that experience...it made me who I am. In recalling it it makes me furiously horny and gives me understanding of who I am and why I do the things I do. Basically I just need to be in "gold" again so I can respond to emails and comments. You don't need to sugar daddy me tho...I can do this
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ok, I guess that is kinda sugar daddy ish but would really be NSA....just wanna let see you express freely....
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So how do I do this..?
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we can communicate here honey. This is a start
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Yep sounds good! so of all the sexual things that are possible for you what is your Favorite?
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10/9/2019 2:18 pm |
I feel sad for you having to go through that when you were young. Hopefully therapy is helping you to grow and become the beautiful person that you are.
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Hii Jennywantsagain! A bit buzzed ...seeing if you might be around tonight ? Would love to chat about all things sex, you really intrigue me. Lets talk and get to know each other....
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To answer your previous question, I love being gangbanged. Love being DPd while having a cock shoved into my mouth. My husband has given me several new years gangbangs that I look forward to every year
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That's pretty hot! Now that you can be DPed huh? Does your husband participate? You only get your special treat once a year huh? And most importantly, how does one get lucky enough to be part of this gangbang
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I sent you a friend request, if you accept that cant we chat that way? Not really sure just thought that might work
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I have had more than one gangbang in a year, but my husband's are special, and last several days. He is relentless, controls everything, and I love that. He usually gets on several social media sites, Craigslist, dating sites, and the men show. Aside from the sex, it just makes me feel so good when so many men are part of it. I feel...desired
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Accepted your friend request btw. Don't think it will allow me to communicate any easier, but worth a shot
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I am not above having a sugar daddy, not saying you should be that, just that I am a whore who has no morals anymore. RE this post, Frankly I should have gone back the next day, and every day after that, swallowed his cum, be destroyed by his cock....Ive made up for that regret since then, but im so sad I didn't let him get another chance at me. After remembering this, I really wish I would have gone further.
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Yep..Doesn't seem like that helps does it...still figuring this site out. In any case upgrading you to gold would hardly make me a sugardaddy but for me would be soo worth it to message you privately, and anyone else you would like! Going to be up all night tonight playing.....if you wanna reach out! About the good stuff...Now that you have a pussy and an ass do you still lioke anal sex? Do you prefer either over the other? You should feel desired, what cant you offer that any man would want?
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By the way..have I seen a profile for you on USA? Maybe I could find you there and see what happens....
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Hii sexy! Going to be back on here around 11:30 would love to further this convo! United Sex Addicts by the way...?
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Have to check out USA, have not been there but will now.
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Hello! Up and playing again....seeing if you might be around...
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so which do you preferBeautiful? would love to hear about it! Will gladly correspond with you any way possible...still open to upgrading you...no strings...just sexy tals and chat and....
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10/23/2019 7:18 am |
I had a similar experience when I was 13 or 14, but it was a group of late teens/early 20s guys ... I think that's when my femme persona began to develop. Now I find myself more comfortable with going out and meeting new partners and especially groups. Maybe its stockholm syndrome ?
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I am sorry to hear about your experience, yet strangely aroused by it also. It is too bad it was not a good enough experience for you to look forward to returning. A wonderful recurring encounter like that would be/have been wonderful. I would like to think that if he had you to do over again, he would be just as lustful, just as dominant, just as passionate, but a bit more considerate. Hey, it's my fantasy, it can go however I want it right?  I have enjoyed your photos. Thanks for sharing them. I was lured into your profile by your beauty, and captivated by your profile description. What a journey you have been on! I wish you the very best, Mike
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Don't be sorry...I have thought about what could have been often of the last few weeks, and I am crazy horny . He did what he did, and I just regret not letting him do so much more to me, every day
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I should have gone back the next day and let him fuck the shit out of me. I was reaaaly young and scared so I didn't. I wish I did. I made up for it in depravity, but I regret not letting this man own me.
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10/26/2019 10:36 pm |
hi. i enjoyed reading about you and seeing your pics. i would like to chat possibly perhaps elsewhere like kick or skype or hangouts. or email me at bullluvs at geemaale dot com
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Your story explains a lot darlin. I see you on alt and all those lovely depravities I'd love to explore.. as for your photos... Simply delicious
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Jenny, would love to hold a conversation here I will send a friend request and become a fan. Peter
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Hi honey, thank you Peter...I am open to talk here...kinda only here, but into talking
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Jenny, I have to get some sleep so I am going to sign off. When will you be here again and we can chat. Peter
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11/2/2019 2:33 pm |
wow...that is a difficult story to tell. You have courage..
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This isn't courage honey. I regret that I didn't give in and let that man do everything he wanted to do with me. I was weak and afraid. I was a child but Im not that way anymore. Being so young I did not know or understand lust or physical greed. I truly wish I would have gone back the next day, and the day after to be used hard by this man. he had already ra**d me. My education would have started much sooner
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Hello ! Says you are on IM...Guess that's not correct huh..Frickin Senior Sizzle. Find me to get Gold Beautiful!
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I found you but cant contact you honey
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Oh..Yeah..really cant figure out all the intricacies! Tipping you now, hope it helps!
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Honestly I am somehow a negative 24000. I really don't know how that happened, but don't bother tipping me it wont do anything. I love you for trying though, it means so much
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WHAT!! How is that even possible? If I sent you a number or email would You contact me there?
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You know Jenny darlin.. you should post pictures here also for all us non gold folk.. 😁
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You are absolutely gorgeous!! Thank you for sharing your story, your profile and yourself!! I honestly wish you were here on the West Coast vs back East! What trouble WE could get into!! >>! 
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11/11/2019 8:21 am |
Hi, Interesting story of how this abuse at an early age has moved you to be the person that you are now and how you've seemingly adapted.
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11/14/2019 12:12 pm |
Hi Jenny, 35 M in NJ who would love to have some fun with you. IF you are up for it, we can work something out. I think you are so damn sexy and would love to play with you. I have pics and am happy to share with you
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Thank you darlings. Bellatrix and Luv kisses!!!! Luv any chance you will be at HOJO's tomorrow night?
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Another thing I have remembered since my discovery (the main blog): After that happened I used to sneak out of my bedroom through my bedroom window (I was like 9) at 3 or 4 am in the summer following and walk naked to a nearby park. I would just walk on the sidewalk, naked, as a few cars passed me. Nothing ever happened, but I just remembered I did that maybe about 5 times and It was thrilling. Part of the crazy I started to do after the man changed me.
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11/15/2019 11:51 am |
Thank you darlings. Bellatrix and Luv kisses!!!! Luv any chance you will be at HOJO's tomorrow night?
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Hmmm love to reenact that walk to the park. This time though you would get your wish of being used and abused...
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That is so hot Dom...good god. Its obvious to me now that is what I wanted
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I went to high school out that way... Never thought I'd like to go back.. until now lol. I have such a vivid scenario... Kik me same name
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will be trying Kik soon. Been avoiding it because of exposure. I have some kind of obsessive scary people that ive been able to shut down, so sites im not familiar with make me hesitate. Note, I have "fans" here... that freaks me the fuck out. im just a slut, not a celebrity. I still have some peace, but curious and horny enough ill likely open the gates of hell and let 1000 demons r**e me, knowing they will do so
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12/1/2019 4:25 am |
Hi Jenny, you're so pretty and sexy hope we can meet sometime kisses, Gina
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Jenny you have fans because you are that deviant slut we all want to use and abuse, degrade and humiliate. That's your celebrity status here, self proclaimed fuck meat and baby girl you are definitely deserving of an award as well as a reward.. reward being a party in your honor with you as not only the Star but also the party favor and ALL your fans and their guests get to enjoy your talents until you can't take it anymore. Of course you saying stop may not stop it 
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I have so many conflicting feelings about this, thousands. Horny, frustrated, angry, disgusted, delighted, unfulfilled but satisfied I am serving my purpose, used, orgasmic, wanted, whole, willing, immoral, evil, yet want to love and protect those that I am with...I don't even know where to start this puzzle. I cant even figure myself out, much less anything else
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1 post 12/3/2019 7:36 am |
saying hello you sound "all reved up and no place to go"
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Cum to me and let's talk about those feelings baby girl. Always available on Kik
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Told my mom this weekend about everything, the man, dad, my brother, all of the times I was r*ped, streetwalking, dogs, horses, gangbangs, adult theaters, bdsm, being a slave...everything. Even the things I will always keep secret that are even worse. Never told anyone everything til then. I love her so much. She reacted In ways I did not expect at all, including her sweet pussy gushing like a faucet
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Sounds like you got the outcum you wanted darlin.. hopefully you got to gush also
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OMG yes. We have been fucking almost non stop for about 5 days. I called in to work every day this week so far. Yes...I have gushed
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Love to be there to video it until my cock was so hard I just have to join you and show Mom what your mouth was made for..
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12/23/2019 10:50 am |
Hi Jenny, any interest in a stocky 35 M from Central NJ who would love to ravage all of your holes? I am kinky, dirty minded, enjoy rough sex, and want to have all types of dirty fun with you. Let me know if you are interested.
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I totally get it. I stated sucking my cousins cock at 12. We found some porn, and were watching it together. I was laying on my belly to hide my hard cock. It wanted to stick straight out and hurt from all the blood pumping into it. My cousin, who was a bit older sat there with his dick sticking up through his sweat pants like a flag pole. We were talking about the porn, and he was talking about how he couldn't wait to get blown. He wished he could do it himself... I agreed, if I could suck my own dick I would. When I looked away from the movie I saw his naked cock. He convinced me it wasn't gay because we would suck ourselves if we could, so we will just suck each other. I remembers wrapping my lips around, and swirling my tongue around the tip of his cock. Without warning, cum came gushing in my mouth. I was so hard, I just started cumming too. I wasn't forced, but convinced. But now, I am still incredibly horny, and cum so much harder when I am with strangers. I wish we fucked each other before our moms found out.
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Oh, and I came the first time I read that. Just "came" back again... This time, I had the taste of cum still in my mouth, so I fantasized about being you...
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1/22/2020 9:11 am |
HI Jenny, hope to get to meet up with you one day. I have a roleplay that i think you will like. Remember the inspection convo we had a few months ago? I would love to pick that up and play it out for real if you are interested.
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to let everyone know I was 8 years old when this started.
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Hello Jenny
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nothing like a deep wet kiss swapping cum
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3/2/2020 5:14 am |
Jenny, I would love to do a lot more than just kiss you...
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Sooo after watching each other and liking and flirting and tipping and IMing and....well everything ! Let me know if you want a phone number or email for more real communication....
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6/24/2020 3:22 pm |
Good Lord gorgeous wish you be my first. Craving me some tranny cock and ass pussie
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Jenny, You already know you are a very talented writer. You have a sweet soul. I hope you decide to contact me. I admire you for expressing some of the pain of your childhood. Fred
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Hey jenny, what a story. You have turned a negative to a positive and that is admirable. if you need another local man I am here for you
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It sounds like you had sexual experiences that made you a stronger person. You know what you want and you know what you enjoy. It's sounds like you are in complete control with your life, and that's a good thing!!
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12/10/2020 7:23 am |
Hi Jenny just wanted to say hi. I'm a big fan of yours. I adore you and think your one of the most beautiful woman I have ever seen. I think everybody needs a Jenny in there life. Art
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You have the soul of a woman. Jenny hope one day soon we can become lovers. Fred
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It sounds like you had sexual experiences that made you a stronger person. You know what you want and you know what you enjoy. It's sounds like you are in complete control with your life, and that's a good thing!! i've embraced my trauma, early on. Turned into a perverted deviant, but I embrace it Good for you!! If it makes you feel good, that's what counts.
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