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Jennifer Hopes I am thankful for the development of the world wide web because i had a dark shameful secret that i alone played alone. A man wanting to dress and emulate a woman in my days was consider a mental sickness and anyone who was caught would face ridicule, judgement, abandonment, and depending on the sobriety and mental state the invasive homo haters capture could possibly end my life. The last possible outcome seems brutal but may have been my choice rather than society branding me as a sick mental case of the worst kind. I had to be very careful in my dress outs and to be ready to spring into Jennifer when an opportunity arose. I thought i was all alone in my feminine desires to feel what a woman feel freely. I sought love, affection, and sense of care to others needs. I was forced to be total masculine and i just went through the motions pretending to be what i was not. I could not explore and reach out to embrace and learn who and what i was. When Bill Clinton became president he kept talking about the new computer technology that would change the world rapidly because information would be readily available to all. He called it the information highway and at the time i under estimated its strength and how it would someday liberate Jennifer and allow her to be released from the chains of darkness and emerge into the light. I soon discovered there were many others, to some extent, felt like me and i could relate and feel comfortable knowing i was not an isolated weirdo who was the worst mental case of any group in existence. At least progress is being made and people are beginning to accept people of different sexual practices and fetishes. I am thrilled when i see youth having the opportunity to chasing their desires and dreams of transforming into female beauty. But we still have a ways to go because society still has a habit of throwing individuals into a labeled groups that describes their behavior and who they are. This site throw crossdressers, transgender, transvestites and transsexuals into a one size fit all classification. This is where the problem arises because when you look around at the billions of people living you will not find two people who look exactly alike. Maybe a close resemblance but not exact. The same follows with feelings and desires of sexual identity. We need to throw away group titles and just accept ;people for being people and learn from each other by showing interest in individual personalities. Everyone that is of human origin should embrace each other with love and compassion. To be legitimate in classifying sexual differences of the Senior Sizzle group i am thrown into it would take hundreds or maybe even thousands of different catagories to correctly place an individual where he belong. To give a short example of what i mean lets take a look at crossdressers. Do all crossdressers dress in full, do all want to be full time women, do all find sexual gratification when dressed, do all want only sex with men, do all dress to be connected to feminine feelings, are all sissies, are all dominant when dressed? The list can go on and on. No two crossdresser are exactly alike in their sexual preferences or how they feel emotionally. The only way to know a specific crossdresser is to remove them from the group and get to know them by accepting who they are and allow them to talk freely about themselves. The point i am trying to make is nice little packaged groups are a convienant way of lumping individuals together whether they fit or not. By golly if you crossdress it is a sexual act. I crossdress and it was and is never an act of sexual gratification. I dress to help me capture and feel of what it is like to be a woman. I have always seen women being the glue and strength keeping our society from destroying itself. I am in know way a sissy, i despise the word and cringe when a man come knocking on my door without reading my profile with his cock in hand want the little sissy to suck his cock and do as he wishes. I have nothing against crossdressing sissies because they have a right to be who they are, just as i have a right to be a strong, secure, loviing and caring woman. I just wanted to mention one other danger in placing people into groups. Some groups are stronger in ;population and other groups are small and this leaves a ;potential danger of one group disregarding and disrespecting a group and label them as less worthy. We need to stop the hatred and label and wad all them up into a giant garbage bag and launch it into space and never see it again. People are people and individuals are individuals. Let's respect people for who they are and stop trying to label them. If you want to know more about an individual get to know them and hopefully you will walk away with new wisdom and a new friend. Just had to get that off my chest. Stay true and be safe, Hugs Jennifer 
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I agree Gina that each persons journey is unique to the individual. A lot of different factors play on the events that surrounds each of us. When someone says i know what you are going through, they are partially correct because some of the causes may be similar but we can never fully understand what a person is going through as they cross certain bridges because each of us handle situations differently. An example is that i am by nature not a risk taker and handle events very cautiously trying to analyze the outcome of each possible action i can take and then try to choose the best choice with the most positive outcome. I have often been called an indecisive person who struggle making up his or her mind and in a way this is true but in reality i sooner or later make the call after i feel comfortable that i have figured out all the possible moves and all the possible ramifications of each decision. Sometimes i overthink and keep rehashing over and over which action is best, while someone else with more confidence makes the same decision i pondered on for a week in a matter of seconds. We never know the mind or mental state of another and it is important for us to lend our support no matter how they decide to handle. People are good at hiding their true selves, i did it my whole life and still am, keeping my Jennifer personality a secret from my macho buddies. It's a shame that i cannot be who i am in front of those buddies but unfortunately if i were to come into work in a skirt and heels there would be no buds no more just me standing alone clutching my Gucci designer handbag. I would go from status of man to status of sissy fag. I can almost assure you that those terms might be thrown around behind my back but deep down they would know better than to present those remarks to my face. That is the beauty of being a half and half and being able to know how to be a man to face a man. I am still learning the other half and sometimes a little slow at knowing how to be a woman to face a woman. Anyway thank you for your input and observation i always appreciate feedback. I did it again and wrote an essay on a thought when a simple thank you would have been sufficient. Thanks again, stay you and be safe, Hugs Jennifer
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4/9/2020 10:11 am |
In the Transgender community which features CD, TV, and TS each one's journey is different due to factors (age, marital status, employment, etc.) of which some might not apply to you. Some paths are long and arduous while others are short and easy. The comfort level is their true desire. We should respect each other's path and only wish happiness in their journeys. Stay home and be safe. Ciao. Gina
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jennifer i love this post, you are so spot on in my book. We need to embrace our differences or at least be tolerant and not judge cause we are not in any position do do that. The haters think they are on top right now and it sickens me but they will eventually be overtaken by the will of good people just like weed is finally being accepted. At the end of the day smart people will override ignorant rednecks and their caterazation of people. Thank you for voicing your opinion i for one loved it. Dani.
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finally, a post worth reading 
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