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March Madness
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March Madness Well ....not in the traditional sense. I have a personal March Madness. On this day 5 years ago, i lost my only sibling, my big brother. Three yrs prior to that we both lost our mom....also in March. Thirty years before that, dad died....yup you guessed it..... in March. Then just a year ago, my last surviving paternal aunt and a maternal cousin passed within 2 days of each other and were buried on the same day....in March. Thank goodness it was a sunny day and i was able to travel /drive the distance to both services. I enter this month will loads and loads of great memories, sadness that there is noone left to share those memories and lots of trepidation, with knowledge of what has happened in March of the previous years. Then..in the midst of it all...this morning a man that i have been communicating with for a couple of months and enjoying our getting to know each other times, texted that he had to stop our conversations due to his " strong connections with a woman in his area ". A woman who had not been aforementioned in his emails or texts. I believe that people enter into our sphere for a reason or for a season. I dont know what his reasons are and i dont have time nor energy to spend on it further. It just confirms what La La said to me in a previous blog.....to take everything someone says with a HUGE grain of salt. I also said to myself, " you must lower your expectations " I like to think that these are all a part of life's lessons, and i must learn from them. Yes....even at this age, i am still open to learning. I told myself, " , if this is the most significant loss that i experience in March, I will count my Blessings ! " Praying that March moves along smoothly, for us ALL ~~ ........Bring on those April showers.... |
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3/2/2019 7:49 pm |
I can sympathize; November is a particularly crappy month for me. And your lesson was the same one I learned. It's a small planet.
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omg i didnt know this part of the story so sorry
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March isn't my favourite month to be honest. I lost my mum in March 2017 and my pooch last March.
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In every life some rain will fall. However it is up to us to ensure that it does not become a flood which overwhelms us. We should dwell instead on the times when the sun shone brightly, in time it will shine again.
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"It just confirms what La La said to me in a previous blog.....to take everything someone says with a HUGE grain of salt. I also said to myself, " you must lower your expectations " , I'm sorry to hear March sucks for you also. but please, don't lower your expectations, it's ok to relax them though from time to time, on your terms. 4 years tomorrow for me since my husband passed, in retrospect, some aspects of my life are much better than I expected, and in some ways, not so much. But it's life, and I'm living, and sometimes that's the only expectation i require of myself.
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"It just confirms what La La said to me in a previous blog.....to take everything someone says with a HUGE grain of salt. I also said to myself, " you must lower your expectations " , I'm sorry to hear March sucks for you also. but please, don't lower your expectations, it's ok to relax them though from time to time, on your terms. 4 years tomorrow for me since my husband passed, in retrospect, some aspects of my life are much better than I expected, and in some ways, not so much. But it's life, and I'm living, and sometimes that's the only expectation i require of myself. I find with lowered expectations, there is less disappointment. I would love to be pleasantly surprised at some point. Thanks for your thoughts ~~
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