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Down The Rabbit Hole
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Down The Rabbit Hole Before signing the contract She asked me if i had any concerns or anything that was causing me to give this type of relationship a chance. i said there was one thing that scared me. She asked me if it was about the cock and ball torture? i said not, but that was a concern. i said the thing that scared me the most was the “normal” part of the relationship. i said i was afraid i would be miserable and not be able to experience this part...not be able to order a pepperoni pizza and enjoy a ball game, not ever be able to go to a ball game, not be allowed to have a mocha, not just go out to dinner and talk, or spend an afternoon at the amusement together. i said these are the things i love to do and enjoy sharing with Her. i said i know this statement means that i would never be a complete and true slave, that i do want to be treated as a slave but still enjoy spending time with Her and enjoying life and activities. i re-stated that i understood, and wanted to still be controlled at these times, but i was scared as to how it would work...or if it would work. She assured me that there are Mistresses that only want a slave, but this was our relationship and we could make it whatever we wanted it to be...we just always had to be honest and want to make it work. She the key was WANTING to make it work and if we wanted it to work out it will work out...we just have to put in the time and effort. She said that She would be the complete Bitch, the Dominatrix, i desired but could also be the Girlfriend at the times a Girlfriend was required and needed. She told me not to worry, that She would make sure i was happy and we still had a “normal” relationship as well. That She wanted Her slave to also be Her “girlfriend” but liked the thought of Her still always being in control by having the final say and me asking permission for everything...She said the fact i had to ask Her was what really turned Her on. She didn’t want to keep me from doing things i wanted to...She just wanted to control what i did and have the say if i could do them...and make sure She i did them with Her. She said even though She was in control it was still ultimately a 2 way street with me giving up control and allowing Her to take control and She could do this while still allowing me to be happy or do things i enjoyed...it wasn’t all about punishment and denial of everything i liked and wanted...more about Her control of these things. After this conversation i felt better, that we would still be able to talk and communicate, so my attention then shifted to the cock and ball torture. Why did She think this was a point of concern, and what exactly was She planning to do...and wanting to do? This was what filled my mind until the day of signing the contract. We all gathered at my house where i had been equipping my basement into a dungeon (Her dungeon now).Once the contract was signed and we all had our copies of the contract She (which is my Mistress and She asked me to refer to Her as Princess so in public it seems like a term of affection rather than a term of ownership) excused Herself to go into the other room and ordered me to stand there and not move with my hands held behind my back holding my elbows. Upon returning She was wearing sexy lingerie which consisted of<b> fishnets </font></b>and high heels, extreme dark eye liner, which She knew drove me wild, and a bag with something in it. She sat the bag down at my feet and said that was for later. She ordered me to strip, right there in front of Her friends and i did as i was told, feeling humiliated and embarrassed the whole time. Standing there naked She looked at my cock and said how tiny and pathetic it was! It was throbbing looking at Her and She said She guessed i was glad to see Her but it was hard to tell as She couldn’t even hardly see my cock. She said She guessed She would have to buy me a dildo and harness so i could use that to please Her...as my cock could never please Her. She said that each time we had sex up to that point, She had faked it! She said i was so small and pathetic i should be on my knees thanking Her for even wanting to own a worthless slut like me. She said i wasn’t even a man, as how could any man allow a Girl to do to them what She was about to do to me? She degraded and emasculated me in front of Her friends until i almost wanted to cry in shame and embarrassment. She also spit on me and spit in my mouth and made me swallow...She wanted to know what was the matter as i didn’t have a problem swallowing Her spit while we were kissing? At this point She made sure i got a good eye full of Her Body, of Her Breasts and then She turned around and bent down with Her Ass in the air. When She turned around my cock was hard again and She dropped to Her knees and began licking my balls, then my cock and then She started giving me head and taking my cock all the way down Her throat until i came in Her mouth. She stood up without spitting or swallowing, stood in front of me, held my nose until i opened my mouth at which time She spit my own cum into my mouth and made me swallow my own pleasure. She said good little slut, i might make a good little girl after all. She asked if i liked the taste of my own cum? i said no Princess. She said too bad, i would be tasting it quite often so i needed to get used to it! She said eventually i would come to love the taste as She planned to make me a cum loving who would crave the taste of cum, need the taste of cum and beg Her to taste my own cum! She said that every time She gave me head i would have to drink my own cum. Every time i got milked i would have to lick up my own cum. Every time i was allowed to masturbate, which would only be in front of Her, i would have to lick up my own cum. Every time i was allowed to cum in Her Pussy i would have to clean my own cum out of Her Pussy. Every time i was allowed to cum in Her Ass i would have to clean my own cum out of Her Ass. She asked if i got the picture? i said yes Princess. She then got a wet nap and cleaned my cock, then took out a device from the bag at my feet. It was a chastity device, the CB7000, which She showed me as my eyes got wide with horror. She said She loved the fear in my eyes as She put my chastity device on me and locked it! She held on to a key and gave one to Her friend for safe keeping. She patted me on my caged cock and said it would remain caged at all times i was not in Her presence, that the only time it was to be removed was in Her presence so She could supervise me. She said no one could touch Her cock , Her property without Her permission and without Her knowing and Her approval, and that included me. She said i did not have any rights anymore and i was not even allowed to touch myself without Her authorizing it! She wanted to know if i finally realized just how much control i had given up to Her? i said yes Princess. She asked if Her Pussy was truly that good that i would allow Her to do this to me? i said yes Princess, Your Pussy is that good! She laughed and asked if Her Pussy was really that good that i was willing to give up my manhood for? i said yes Princess, Your Pussy is that good! She asked if Her Pussy was really good enough to give up control to and be ruled by? i said yes Princess, Your Pussy is that good! i am controlled by Your sweet Pussy! She turned to Her friends and said, talk about pussy whipped! She then reached into the bag and got out a pink collar and attached it to me, which had a pendant on it that read “slave”. She said i was to wear a collar at all times, and would have different collars for different occasions. She said while at work i would wear a necklace as a collar with a special symbol on it that meant i was owned by Her. She then go out a toe ring and said i was to wear this at all times as a show of ownership by Her. It was etched with the words, property of “Her name”. She slipped it on my toe and said it was to never be removed other than by Her for cleaning. She then attached a leash to my collar, yanked me forcefully to the ground and led me away on all four down to Her basement dungeon as Her 2 friends followed, laughing and making fun of me. Once in Her dungeon She stood me up and slapped me hard across the face and said, welcome to Her world now bitch. She forcefully tied me up, bound me so tightly and painfully i moaned in pain and could barely move at all. She wanted to know what was wrong? She said She thought i loved bondage, that i loved being immobile and not able to move, that the harder and tighter the better? She asked if these were not my words? i said yes Princess they were. She laughed and said, bet i was re-thinking what i wanted now wasn’t i? i said yes Princess. She laughed again and said too bad, get used to it because this is what i wanted and i was going to get it! She said besides, it wasn’t up to me know as She owned me and could do whatever She wanted to me...and She wanted to keep me in tight, hard and restrictive bondage. She said i asked for it, so now i would get it...and She wanted it as well! i kept moaning and She finally said She had enough of the whining and put a gag on me. She said there, that was better and would take care of the pathetic whining. She said i had better get used to this because if i thought this was bad, just wait because this was nothing compared to what She had in store for me in the future! She asked if i had ever been bound this hard before? All i could do was shake my head no. She said She thought so. She said She bet i had been tied up and liked the feeling, but now She was going to teach me what true bondage was...and i wasn’t going to be fun and exciting but painful torture, but who knows i might actually come to like it. She laughed and said She was going to attend to Her guests and show them out. She turned to leave, walked up the stairs and turned the lights out on me, closed the door and locked it from the outside. All i could do was scream uselessly into my gag. There i was left all alone in the dark, tied up, unable to move or scream and at Her mercy. i truly had no control, i had no say in anything and i had no rights at this point. Whatever She wanted to do to me She could. However long She wanted to keep me here She could and no one would know, i was taken out of the public eye and in Her dungeon and my friend, no Her friend, witnessed me give myself over to Her and would do nothing as i said this is what i wanted and desired. i was Her slave and could only obey Her now and accept what She did to me. i was so scared and frightened, and in pain and agony. At that point i realized how hard my cock was throbbing against its cage. i was so horny. i realized how pathetic i was and how depraved i must actually be to allow Her to do this to me and want Her to do this to me. i hated this and loved it at the same time, i was so messed up. But this is what She loved about me and wanted me to be. i had no idea how long She was gone and left me like that, but she finally returned and mercifully untied me and took my gag off. She asked if i was ready to listen and obey Her every command? i said yes Princess. She said good answer! She went over all of Her commands, all of the slave positions i needed to know and would be required to learn. She went over all of her rules and how i was to act in public and in front of other people. She also went over when i would be allowed to speak freely and how things would work when we went out on dates and had “normal” activities...which i realized would still be as Mistress/slave. She went over how punishments would work as well as rewards. After everything had been explained to me She began training me by testing my limits and finding out how far She could push me, what i needed training in and how much training i would actually require. After a long night She leashed me and led me to my spare room (Her spare room now) and put me to bed as She was taking the Mistress Bedroom which was Hers now. She said a slave was to have her own room and would only be allowed to sleep with Her on special occasions or when She desired. She attached a chain to my collar which was attached to the ceiling. It gave me enough freedom to roll around in bed but not get out of bed. She said i would be remained bound or chained in some form at all times, until i proved my servitude and loyalty to Her at which time i may have more freedoms. But She would still enjoy keeping me bound at most times for Her amusement and to remind me of my place and how i really did not have any freedoms anymore. She laughed and said if i had to use the bathroom through the night to ring the bell and She would me. She laughed and got in my face and said, see how little rights i actually had and how much i needed and relied on Her? That i could not even go to the bathroom without Her! And She said She would watch as i relieved myself as i was not to be left unsupervised and had no right of privacy. She asked me if Her Pussy was really so good as to allow myself to be treated this way by Her? i said yes Princess it was that good! She laughed and smacked my caged cock and said who knew, maybe i would even be able to use this again one day if She allowed! She turned the lights out and left me there for the night. There was also a baby monitor left on the night stand so She could hear everything that went on and so i could yell for Her if something was wrong or i did need Her. She did want to make sure i was safe and cared for even if She did not show it to me...as this was all part of the game, part of the lifestyle and part of the roles we wanted to play and agreed to. i just wondered if the roles we played would soon become reality and would cease to be roles played and actually become our true selves? The thought sent shivers through me...and my cock started throbbing again. i really was messed up! i eventually went to sleep dreaming of things to come. Eventually She wanted Her slave to sleep in the same bed as Her most of the time after being trained, but She still enjoyed a bed to Herself often. i was required to sleep in my room unless otherwise instructed. She had Her bed to Herself on nights i slept in my room, or when She kept me in my cage or bound on a table or other device or fixture. She could be cruel at times. She had a cruel dominatrix side and then a sweet, cute Girl next door side which made me completely insane in love with Her as She could be both...and i never knew which one She might be as She could change in a second when She wanted to. She always kept me on my toes and guessing and at times i wondered if She was truly insane. Of course looking at me and my situation, i was probably insane as well! |
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