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Today  

secret_lade 49F
14127 posts
6/7/2021 6:19 am
Today

I am neither funny nor witty.....

I am broken.

I have cried to the point that my eyes are gritty and raw.

My mind races with thoughts of everything that I've read and seen on the Marine Parents website. Pictures of drill sergeants screaming into the ears of recruits as they fumble with bedding and lace tying.

My phone is at my side as I know that at some point tonight or early tomorrow morning he will be calling me to scream into my ear as he reads from a script to tell me he made it safely. I am unprepared to hear his screaming voice while his drill sergeant yells at him from behind.

I know this will be happening as the recruiter was kind enough to prepare me.

But as much as I am dreading this call, I am also desperately, anxiously awaiting this call as this will be the last time I hear his voice until September 17th, the day he graduates basic.

Until that point, he is merely a recruit, less than human, not deserving of civility or decorum. Same goes for me, apparently, as I am merely a recruit parent. I must refer to my as Recruit [name] on all correspondence I send him and it must be upbeat and motivational to keep him inspired.

I could not bring myself to go home last night, so The Spawn and I went on a spur of the moment road<b> trip. </font></b>We drove for hours around spots in the UP just seeing stuff we had not yet seen.

Big fish at the bottom of Kitchipee....

The sand dunes on US 2....

We climbed t the bottom of the Cut River bridge and waded in Lake Michigan....

And we took pictures from the top of Castle Rock....

More than anything I needed that day to be more than just the day I lost my . Now it is also the day that The Spawn and I set out to explore the world and see the sights....

As a family of two.









secret_lade 49F
9227 posts
6/8/2021 11:41 am

    Quoting citizen4722:
    It must be agony for you not being able to even here your son's voice until September.
    He went in as a boy but will return as a man.
It is so fucking painful I want to die. I'm not even joking....


citizen4722 66M  
74582 posts
6/8/2021 8:51 am

It must be agony for you not being able to even here your son's voice until September.
He went in as a boy but will return as a man.


secret_lade 49F
9227 posts
6/8/2021 5:17 am

    Quoting pagancountrygirl:
    Lovely pictures! Glad to hear the Spawn went with you. I'm sure she needs you as much right now as you need her. Hugs...
She has been amazing through all this. There were many moments when she was supportive of me and I am so eternally thankful.


secret_lade 49F
9227 posts
6/8/2021 5:12 am

    Quoting 57FredFred:
    Sending hugs and good thoughts.
Thank you!


secret_lade 49F
9227 posts
6/8/2021 5:12 am

    Quoting Paulxx001:
    Sounds like a spiritual trip that you and your daughter needed. I understand where you're coming from....
    Nice pics! ❗❗😎
It was definitely what I needed. Even in my saddened state, I still managed to do all the embarrassing "mom" things I always do... So that did give me some measure of normalcy to the experience.


pagancountrygirl 66F
6466 posts
6/7/2021 4:47 pm

Lovely pictures! Glad to hear the Spawn went with you. I'm sure she needs you as much right now as you need her. Hugs...

Pagan
Hmmmm....I know I left that wand around here somewhere!


57FredFred 66M  
752 posts
6/7/2021 4:46 pm

Sending hugs and good thoughts.


Paulxx001 66M
22642 posts
6/7/2021 4:18 pm

Sounds like a spiritual trip that you and your daughter needed. I understand where you're coming from....
Nice pics! ❗❗😎


secret_lade 49F
9227 posts
6/7/2021 4:17 pm

Testing..... Are we fixed?


secret_lade replies on 6/7/2021 4:17 pm:
Holy shit! I think we are!

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