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A day in the life....
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A day in the life.... The work facade is crumbling today.... It started in the parking lot when Slow Moe Joe waited for me to get out of my car and start to walk into the building so he could walk in with me. Everything about him is slow... Even the way he enunciates his words makes me want to scream in his face to speed up. "Well.... Talk about this weather, huh.... I wasn't expecting snow or anything....." "They said on the news it was supposed to snow," I replied, walking a little faster. "Really.... I hadn't heard that....... This is just such a surprise to me...." OMG! God help me, I'm not going to make it through the day. I finally ditched him as I was walking much faster than he was only to be confronted at my office door by an employee who needed help requesting time off. I shut my office door right after I walked through as I could hear her calling my name. Turning my back to the window, I could see her staring at me as I set my coat on my desk and reached into my purse to pull out my name badge. Come on people..... I'm not even on the fucking clock yet. The moment I opened my office door to go punch in she was there, asking me how to request time off and where to go to do so. I told her I had to punch in and kept moving. I did tell her, over my shoulder, she still had to go to the same place as always to request time off and disappeared out the door. This is not a new employee, she has been working here longer than I have. I have enough on my plate with my own job to be doing other peoples shit too. After punching in, I headed back to my office and shut the door. I never work with the door shut.... Did it stop anyone? Fuck no! The next thing I know I've got an angry employee knocking on my door because he "just needs a form." I don't normally work with with this guy as he works an entirely different shift than I do, but he's all disgruntled and angry because he doesn't feel he should have to do anything to get his medical benefit discount for his wife. Again.... All his responsibility to make sure he logs into shit, requests shit, and creates his own accounts. Not mine. Finally his manager shows up as he was the one who was originally supposed to be helping him and I excused myself to do my actual job for a change. Not for long.... Because Meme Guy showed up in my office to tell me he is having a bad day. I genuinely feel for Meme Guy, though, as his is struggling with some identity issues and it has manifested in depression and self harm. Today, though, he is telling me someone close to him has committed suicide and I'm breaking down inside as I hear about it. Emotional issues and depression are prevalent in his 's genetic makeup, and while I don't know his , I feel for her. And worry about her. The work facade has nearly disappeared for today. Most days I have it all together. I NEED to have it all together as my days are filled with hiring, and meetings, and conference calls, and crazy boss antics, and employees who have issues with their pay, their benefits, their EVERYTHING. Some days, like today, I pretend to be ok, but I'm teetering inside, slowly pulling the pieces back into place to form myself once again. It doesn't take much to sway me, one way or the other, and even as I sit here typing this my phone is ringing off the hook and employees are circling my closed office door because I've left a note on the outside that says... Do Not Disturb I just need five fucking minutes.... Five minutes to regroup, get my fucking shit together, slap some stucco on my crumbling facade, and make it through the day. Update..... So, yah. I sat in my office with the door shut and typed this up in an email to myself earlier in the day. I don't normally do that.... When I'm at work, I'm at work and that's my focus. Today, however, was a particularly bad emotional day for me and I whole heartedly needed an opportunity to vent, which I did not have. It's amazing the impact your environment can have on you. One of my coworkers asked me today, while we were waiting in line for the restroom, if I felt like I'd earned my psychology degree today. She may have been kidding, but she wasn't far from the truth. I know more about the people I work with than I do about my own family. And now I am here, at home, digesting the shit show of a day I had today. My has just spilled my coffee all over myself, the couch, and the floor and I'm still replaying the argument I just got into with my ex husband over and over in my mind. Fucking fantastic. |
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I used to have days like that all the time. Nobody knows how to do their job and they would meander to me and ask how to do this and how to do that. I had the same job as them but they didn't know anything. The worst part of it was that I wouldn't get my job done and I got paid for what I did.
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I used to have days like that all the time. Nobody knows how to do their job and they would meander to me and ask how to do this and how to do that. I had the same job as them but they didn't know anything. The worst part of it was that I wouldn't get my job done and I got paid for what I did.
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I had a day like that long ago and I know just what you were feeling. And then a co-worker went to one of the head honchos and complained that I had my door shut and wouldnt talk to anyone. He got it and told her to bug off. Nice when someone sticks up for you. Hey, lady, tomorrow is Friday
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I had a day like that long ago and I know just what you were feeling. And then a co-worker went to one of the head honchos and complained that I had my door shut and wouldnt talk to anyone. He got it and told her to bug off. Nice when someone sticks up for you. Hey, lady, tomorrow is Friday (Virtual Symposium Group) use Virtual Symposium Group
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i want to have a talk with you...your so interesting
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3/12/2020 3:03 am |
i want to have a talk with you...your so interesting
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There are days I walk by my bosses office and tell her I'm going to take up drinking as a hobby. She knows that means it's a shit day when I say that. She also knows I'm lying since I don't drink....and have never been drunk. But it's the thought that counts, right? Hope you have a better day tomorrow. 
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thanks for sharing hope it gets better we don't have offices or doors where we work there are rows of tables where our work areas are we have extra monitors so we can have multiple sessions up we are well paid for what we do but, there is no privacy so, if you want to be alone you either have to go outside, find a small private conference room, or walk the building sometimes, I have to put my headphones on, and tell people I'm on a call, and I can get some "alone" time and, when I do that I can listen to some of my "feel good" songs and "easy going" is back just sayin' Dierks Bentley - "Living" This mornin' I got up at 6:01 I walked out and saw the rising sun And I drank it in like whiskey I saw a tree I've seen a thousand times A bird on a branch and I watched it fly away in the wind And it hit me It's a beautiful world sometimes I don't see so clear Some days you just breath in Just try to break even Sometimes your heart's poundin' out of your chest Sometimes it's just beatin' Some days you just forget What all you've been given Some days you just get back And some days you're just alive Some days you're livin' Some days you're livin' As an introvert, I have a hard time working in those environments. I get peopled out.
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Hope you have a better day tomarrow
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Hope you have a better day tomarrow
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thanks for sharing hope it gets better we don't have offices or doors where we work there are rows of tables where our work areas are we have extra monitors so we can have multiple sessions up we are well paid for what we do but, there is no privacy so, if you want to be alone you either have to go outside, find a small private conference room, or walk the building sometimes, I have to put my headphones on, and tell people I'm on a call, and I can get some "alone" time and, when I do that I can listen to some of my "feel good" songs and "easy going" is back just sayin' Dierks Bentley - "Living" This mornin' I got up at 6:01 I walked out and saw the rising sun And I drank it in like whiskey I saw a tree I've seen a thousand times A bird on a branch and I watched it fly away in the wind And it hit me It's a beautiful world sometimes I don't see so clear Some days you just breath in Just try to break even Sometimes your heart's poundin' out of your chest Sometimes it's just beatin' Some days you just forget What all you've been given Some days you just get back And some days you're just alive Some days you're livin' Some days you're livin' To leave private messages, please use my confidential mailbox at my blog: Good luck!!! 
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There are days I walk by my bosses office and tell her I'm going to take up drinking as a hobby. She knows that means it's a shit day when I say that. She also knows I'm lying since I don't drink....and have never been drunk. But it's the thought that counts, right? Hope you have a better day tomorrow. Pagan  Hmmmm....I know I left that wand around here somewhere!
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Ya know what? Don't fight. The decision should be basses on money, and what it can buy Quality of life... and how it will affect, both of you and your kids. It's a challenge. I understand how BOTH of you feel. Give it some space... ... is there another way to look at it Going Too Fucking Far NEW Blog Features RevealeD O O A Foolproof Method Posted Over on that NEW site O O
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My feeling? Never mind today. You're distracted by your promotion offer. You're thinking about it... and measuring the stuff you have to face here (where you are now) - and comparing it, to what you might face 'there'. What will you see... over there? 🤔
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I had a relaxing day at the dentist. 
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I am sorry you had a bad day I hope tomorrow and the next 2 days go much better Cheer up the weekend is coming  I do hope it is better.
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My feeling? Never mind today. You're distracted by your promotion offer. You're thinking about it... and measuring the stuff you have to face here (where you are now) - and comparing it, to what you might face 'there'. What will you see... over there? 🤔 ... is there another way to look at it Going Too Fucking Far NEW Blog Features RevealeD O O A Foolproof Method Posted Over on that NEW site O O
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3/11/2020 4:57 pm |
I had a relaxing day at the dentist.
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3/11/2020 4:15 pm |
I am sorry you had a bad day I hope tomorrow and the next 2 days go much better Cheer up the weekend is coming
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Spawn - When I call my Mom the B-Word I mean this.... Beautiful Me - Are you saying that because you spilled coffee on my boobs? Spawn - No. I'm saying that because it's in a song. Oh, and, I love you.
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