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Updates So, time with Superman is still FUCKING AMAZING albeit too much time passing between rendezvous. I saw him Monday night after MONTHS. Dude just works too damned much...we are talking 16+ hour days, 7 days per week, 365 days per year. I’d love to see more of him, obviously, but the time apart never seems to really interfere with our time together. We connect warmly and instantly every...single...time. Monday was no exception to this rule. If anything, it was hotter than any time before. I made up with an old friend about 4 months ago after he had flaked on me 2 YEARS AGO. He recently came to town and we then “made up” made up, and well, that is also TOTALLY FUCKING AMAZING. We’ll him Authenticity, because when I met him it was just to be friends and he was looking for authentic connections. It’s more than that, though, because the intensity that he exhibited these times I saw him was something I had not experienced, and he was 100% present in a way that startled me. I really had not expected it. Anyways, while he was here, we got together twice, and then I took him to have some fun with some friends, too. Along with a dear someone I had to move away from about 7 ago (let’s him Timeless, because when we were together, time stood still), and Mr. Sweet Thing, these men take me to another plane of existence when it comes to sex...in ways that are unexpected, and amazing, and I got to have sex with one of them twice and the other one once in the space of 8 days...so just...wow. These men, in fact, have always met me in a very different place than anyone else every time we are together. Of them, only Mr. Sweet Thing is really someone I won’t see anymore. Alcoholism is sad. Even though I haven’t mentioned him before, Mr. TImeless and I will always see each other at whatever level we are available when we are in the same city. The time I spent with him is imprinted in indelible ink on my mind. It’s just that we aren’t often anywhere near one another geographically, so it doesn’t often come up. Superman has become my barometer, because he’s been the most current and consistent of those I see. I know if I am dating someone and if there is no way they could hold a candle to how I feel about him that it’s just going nowhere. The instantaneous connection speaks volumes when compared to my marriage, where I always had to “warm up” to my ex after not seeing him for a patch. And I’m getting some other people in my life who are also fairly great sex partners that I see a little here and a little there. And I go on dates, have sex, and next the vast majority after a time or two around, because I want it to be “right” if I do it again. Then there was a guy who had major potential as a primary relationship, who was such a cool geek. It doesn’t get much geekier than growing up to write and direct your own i-fi film , writing everything in your garage of artifacts that you built for other projects, or picked up along the way. But he had a major divorce-related freak-out, so he wasn’t really ready. I do worry that every time a guy gets close to me, I find myself fairly afraid they will try to possess me, rather than respect me and care for me, so if they come on too strong...buh bye! Like, let me get to know you first, please? I really don’t want to wind up feeling tied to someone out of guilt or obligation. I want to only date someone I know I can feel good about indefinitely. Oh, and I have a kind of girlfriend. I’m not into girls really, but we are friends, and she has had me along on one of her “dates” for some fairly accepting heteroflexible level interactions and another of those is coming up, so...”kind of” girlfriend. So, yeah, I’m sort of figuring out how to at least get a decent amount of sex even though I have not yet found someone that would be right for primary partner. If their availability were right, any of those, sure, I’d love to be with any single of them. The fact that 3 out of 4 are still important in my life isn’t a half bad compromise, though, for the time being. As far as my writing goes? Well, I’m doing a lot of it, and joined a writing group. It doesn’t leave me a lot of energy to write anything here at the end of the day. Of course, I’ll read YOUR comments.  (Just re-read this and I’m certain Senior Sizzle’s system is messing with my text, because while sometimes I’m poor about editing my blog, I have a hard time believing, for instance, that I wrote “some” instead of “someone” SEVERAL times in this post. Anyhow, fixed it, if anyone waltzes through and notices changes.)   MOST of the time I'm well behaved...but if you weren't, and, enjoyed having your ass handed to you, visit my blog and become a subscriber. There you can read all about how I am actively authoring, and rewriting, my life .Trying to get a bigger audience? Here's my .02 Content What Content 8 Things To Consider Towards Better Content {=} |
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Authentic connections... these are rare, but beautiful when found. Thoughts from the Garden...
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You sound like a happy and fun gal, busy too. Wish I was in your circle of friends !
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Steve, if you come back, I screwed up your comment by accident, sorry...It’s an person group. At least half are pro level, as in, they make their money from writing. It’s a great group! We focus on fiction within the group, mostly short exercises, but many of us are also working on larger pieces.MOST of the time I'm well behaved...but if you weren't, and, enjoyed having your ass handed to you, visit my blog and become a subscriber. There you can read all about how I am actively authoring, and rewriting, my life . Trying to get a bigger audience? Here's my .02 Content What Content 8 Things To Consider Towards Better Content {=}
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I am glad that you are writing. If you happen to dabble in fantasy or science fiction, perhaps I will see you at Worldcon this summer. I wish you good writing and happy sexing.  My featured post this week: Pulling Fantasy Sex Out of My Ass.
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Hello you are a wonderful woman elegant attractiv and super sexy all you want as a friend i also you are here the queen 1000 kisses
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Proximity is a key variable so is miracle mile near you?
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Ok dumb me...you are close since you're in hwood.
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