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Blogs > trixietrixster > trixie's tales ... :)

Kindly, Please Stop Jerking Off ...  

trixietrixster 56F  
3298 posts
8/20/2016 9:06 pm
Kindly, Please Stop Jerking Off ...
I have a limited number of nilla acquaintances - nilla friends even more so. Not having like a traditional type of jobs limits me in this way. The few nilla people that I do consider friends are aware of my lifestyle. Tho, it's not something that comes up in conversation. No reason to go there, as our friendship doesn't involve this side of me at all ...

While at my girlfriends place visiting, something happened which left me pretty fucking pissed off. She was tending to her and I was out smoking on the fire escape with her man. We were engaged in "normal" conversation - nothing out of the ordinary. Out of nowhere, he takes out his cock and starts jerking off. It took a minute or so to process what was going on. Then he tells me to just keep talking so that "J" wouldn't think anything. I asked him to please stop - NICELY. So, yeah, then, I wasn't so nice. "OMFG - REALLY - SERIOUSLY DUDE - WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH YOU?" ...

It was rather disturbing listening to him justify his BAD BEHAVIOR - hearing him explain his reasoning. Apparently, the way that I life my life means that I should EXPECT certain things. I mean, I am, after all, POLYAMOUROUS, KINKY AND EXTREMELY SEXUALLY UNINHITIBITED. You know, anything goes. So, yeah, I am used to this kind of stuff ...

Uuuummm ... NO, actually, I am not. I don't surround myself with those who act in POOR FUCKING TASTE. If he wasn't my girlfriends man, would have kicked him in the fucking balls, punched him in fucking face ...

It didn't totally register until I got back to my car. Had a panic attack, and it took me forever to get out of the parking lot. All the way home, the whole incident played like a video in my head. Do I say something to my girlfriend - do I just blow it off. And, anger set in that someone who was supposed to be my friend put me in this kind of situation. Just a whole influx of different emotions, including wondering if I did something to provoke that, which I already knew wasn't the case. The mind automatically goes to that thought - even when more than unwarranted - even if just for a few minutes ...

I had to think a lot on this - just be still in the moment - remember to breathe. It was definitely an internal struggle with myself. There would be some type of consequence, regardless. We all hope the choices we make are the rite ones. Or, at least the best ones under the circumstances at hand. People would get emotionally hurt. People could get physically hurt. Add in having to live with the "guilt factor" - it doesn't get easier as time goes on ...


In Luv, Lite, Laffter ...
lomileage5 68M
Ask me for a photo
10248 posts
8/21/2016 8:18 am

 I would suggest that he put his LITTLE toy away before you begin laughing uncontrollably. that would likely end any erection


ladyaberlin 47F
Ask me for a photo
49 posts
8/21/2016 4:18 pm

 I would definitely tell his girlfriend. He knew what he was doing was wrong, since he told you not to let on so GF wouldn't find out. Also, being a sexually open person still means that consent should be given. What an asshole.


Tmptrzz 61F  
107039 posts
8/21/2016 5:13 pm

 Trix, omg hun I'm so sorry..you should tell you friend hun..
Seduce the mind and see what a wonderful adventure the body will take you on..


trixietrixster 56F  
3125 posts
8/25/2016 9:05 pm
    Quoting lomileage5:
    I would suggest that he put his LITTLE toy away before you begin laughing uncontrollably. that would likely end any erection
Actually, I know people that actually have this as a fetish. Hence, I wouldn't make lite of it. Tho, having other people point and laff isn't such a bad idea ...
In Luv, Lite, Laffter ...


trixietrixster 56F  
3125 posts
8/26/2016 7:20 pm
    Quoting ladyaberlin:
    I would definitely tell his girlfriend. He knew what he was doing was wrong, since he told you not to let on so GF wouldn't find out. Also, being a sexually open person still means that consent should be given. What an asshole.
Absolutely - he knew exactly what he was doing. Trying to blame bad behavior on someone else is just a cop out. Pisses me off that people don't take accountability for their own actions. I did say something - difficult as it was ...
In Luv, Lite, Laffter ...


trixietrixster 56F  
3125 posts
8/26/2016 7:49 pm
    Quoting Tmptrzz:
    Trix, omg hun I'm so sorry..you should tell you friend hun..
Tmp, aaawww, thank you. His behavior was so inappropriate, on so many levels, for so many reasons. Uuuummm - she hasn't spoken to me since a few days after the incident when I told her. It's a bitter pill for her to swallow and I totally get it. Being an Empath, I both understand and respect her position. I am not mad a her - not at all - just sad that our friendship of many years turned out like this. Perhaps in time she will reach out to me. Like always in everything, I am the forever eternal optimist ...
In Luv, Lite, Laffter ...


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