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Mom ... RIP ...
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Mom ... RIP ... On Monday, 11/17/15, @ 11:30 pm, my mom passed away. She took her last breaths - died in my arms ... It was a precious blessing to have her living here for the past year. She accepted my lifestyle - the way I live my life with slim to nil considerations. She luved my D/s family and friends - they luved her. I am ever so blessed that she was okies with me being "different", more than "different". That my life choices weren't looked down upon by her. It couldn't have been easy for her being so old skool. She did her best to understand, never judged. We used to joke that maybe one day I will actually find someone to date. And, that's a HUGE maybe. If this ever happens, I will be sharing my happiness with her, as her spirit will forever be with me. And, she adored my D/s Mommy, who happens to be in a relationship with my hubby. It a bittersweet time in my life, and, somewhat difficult. So thankful I am for a great support system. She is now in peace, sleeping with the angels. No more fears, no more suffering. After my brother overdosed from Heroin several years ago, she just wasn't the same. It's "unnatural" for a parent to bury a . Most of her last years were spend wondering where she went wrong. The thingy is, she didn't. There comes a point where a person, no matter their upbringing, needs to accept responsibility for their decisions. Live by them - die by them. I do feel a little angry at him for taking the easy way out. Leaving me to deal with the ramifications of his actions forever thereafter. However, had it not been for his death, among other life events, I wouldn't have left a horrible marriage, I wouldn't have found a new life in which I am thriving. My mom was buried in what she wore to my wedding - she adored my hubby to no end. He was adamant that she wouldn't go into a home as long as we were capable of taking care of her. How blessed am I that my hubby WANTED his mother-in-law here, that he didn't have her here out of obligation?! As she makes a new life with the angels, she has my 4 page letter to read. I could have actually wrote a version of "War & Piece" - my profile is evidence that I am capable of this. I put a pic of my brother in with her before he got really bad and LOOKED like a junkie - only cause she would want this. I didn't do this cause I wanted to. A few of my doggie's hair in a plastic baggie. Her favorite pic of me and my hubby at our wedding, and a pic of her with her 3 sisters. Of course, I picked a casket in a shade of blue, my favorite color. I find myself talking to my mom. Not all the time, but a lot. Like today, when I got home from having my car inspected, telling her that somehow, I got a coupon, and saved like 25 bucks. Or, when I pass a level in Candy Crush. And, tons of other times and for the silliest things, or the more serious. I decided to keep like a journal for her - go to her place of rest and read to her. Yeppers - I need to block out a whole day for this!!!!!! My mother was so strong. She always said that I am, very much, my mother's ... She always told me that I have to get on with my life after she was gone. That I need to move on and not dwell. Instead, know she is eternally at rest ...  In Luv, Lite, Laffter ... |
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Condolences to you and your family When the going gets weird, the weird turn pro. The only thing we have to fear is fear itself.
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Trix  I am so sorry my friend my sincerest condolences..Seduce the mind and see what a wonderful adventure the body will take you on.. 
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my most sincere condolences on your loss. I was close to my mom too. she held my hand as she took her last breath
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so sorry for your loss
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My condolences my friend. A daughter's mourning never ends, but make it a celibration of her life and yours. So when the tears come, and they will, they are happy ones. God bless. ..
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I do feel totally blessed! Thank you - I appreciate you thoughts ...  In Luv, Lite, Laffter ...
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My Sympathy! In Luv, Lite, Laffter ...
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It took me a long time to accept being luved and to luv - my version of this was skewed for a long time. I appreciate your thoughts, thank you ever so kindly ... In Luv, Lite, Laffter ...
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Condolences to you and your family In Luv, Lite, Laffter ...
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Trix I am so sorry my friend my sincerest condolences..In Luv, Lite, Laffter ...
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So sorry for your loss. She has obviously left a very strong mark on you and you will be better for what she meant to you. My condolences to you and your family! In Luv, Lite, Laffter ...
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my most sincere condolences on your loss. I was close to my mom too. she held my hand as she took her last breath In Luv, Lite, Laffter ...
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so sorry for your loss In Luv, Lite, Laffter ...
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My condolences my friend. A daughter's mourning never ends, but make it a celibration of her life and yours. So when the tears come, and they will, they are happy ones. God bless. .. In Luv, Lite, Laffter ...
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My condolences
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My condolences In Luv, Lite, Laffter ...
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Sorry for your loss. Easy to forget on a sex site that we are real people and have real feelings. Chuck
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Sorry for your loss. Easy to forget on a sex site that we are real people and have real feelings. Chuck In Luv, Lite, Laffter ...
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Just saw this on your blog.. Please accept my condolences... May she rest in heaven with all the other angels...
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Aaawww, thanks for your kind thoughts. Angels look down upon us, help guide us. They are always with us ... In Luv, Lite, Laffter ...
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