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I just might be a freak?  

fromtherooftops 49M
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2/27/2015 10:14 am
I just might be a freak?

New to this site, but wow - I don't feel so alone now. There's a lot of perverts, freaks, and sex fiends here.

Though those might be words with negative connotations. Not sure. Don't care.

I was playing doctor when I was 7. I was exploring the neighbor girl (also 7). I don't know how I knew to give oral, but we did it a lot.

My wife thinks I have a repressed memory between 0 - 6 years of age. I'm cool with keeping it repressed.

Then when I was 8 I found my first porn in the woods. It was pretty shredded up, so I don't know what magazine it was. It was my treasure. I kept it hidden from the other .

I'm not sure what it is with woods - seemed every patch of woods in any neighborhood in my suburban town had a porno mag somewhere... and I found it.

As I got older I angled to get as much porn as I could. My friend worked at a video store, so that was pretty awesome. My other friend worked at a 7-11, so no carding there. By the time we were 16, I was driving to NYC to buy porn from the street vendors. They didn't care how old we were.

The internet was the best thing that ever happened. I was already on chat rooms (Telnet) in 1994, flirting with girls. That led to Prodigy, to AOL, to Yahoo, mIRC, etc.

I really got a high. A serious high from the attention and sexuality. I still do.

I married someone who was not like me. It didn't work out. I cheated - a lot. I feel bad about that now. But I've since married a woman who, in the beginning, helped me explore some of the fantasies (she has her own). She totally gets me, even though I haven't totally figured it out yet. We tried some swinger sites and go to some swinger parties, but we don't often participate. I think she does what she can for me.

So this website was always hanging around in the back of my head. I thought it was fake. Certainly didn't know it was a social media site full of people that make me feel normal.

I like that. I like that being unusual is the new normal.

Thanks for reading. I'm looking forward to using this platform more to be "me."

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