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Medical Freak
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Medical Freak So have come 2 realize what a medical freak i am. Found out i had a med prob that really didnt allow me 2 ever develop as a male. Never got body hair, muscles or even got over 125 pds my whole life. Short effemiant weak skinny and attracted to guys is no way 2 go thru puburty. Complete disaster. So i ofc focused on just education since it was my only edge in the rat race of life. But still i always felt more female than male and when i presented as female was almost always accepted as such. This is a really rare thing. Lots of trans have developed as a male and converted after. So in one way im blessed but in lots of others it was a curse. Never quite being accepted socially is really hard no matter what. Ppl see me as an experiment or just too odd 2 have a meaniful friendship or relationship with. So it pains me when i talk 2 other Ts that freak out or are jellly of how well i have transitioned. Dont they understand i went thru lots of the same they have n can still relate. Am still cursed w med probs they will never have. The overwhelming desire 2 be on the outside what they are on the inside clouds perception i guess. Still went thru surguries 2 be the way i am 2 day. Still realize that my looks will not last n my days r numbered. Cant drink alcohol or eat they way most ppl do. So yes i get it. Look as good or better than most females. Am who i n am lucky for now. This is only one part of me n am lucky 2 have ppl that luv me now. It will be a few short years of bein pretty n it will be gone. Then it will be all really bad health after that no matter what my lifestyle. So is the price worth it? Dont know since was never given the choice. Should i have just stayed male and miserable? Am happy for now just tryin 2 give as much love 2 those that really luv me 4 me and not just my looks. K long ramble bout nothin. Back 2 cats Muah Jessi |
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Very insightful.... very open and honest. I think we all can get something from that. I don't know you (yet), so it's really not my place to give advice, but my $.02 ? Don't give up on your health or resign yourself to those issues. I've seen amazing things being turned around just through diet.... eat well... think well. Hopefully some day we get to chat about it face to face. I'd love to know you. M
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Very Happy you have found a great place in your life.. Don't dwell on the past look forward happiness will find you..Mike
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3/10/2018 10:52 pm |
Enjoy being a feminine as you can for as long as you can young lady.
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