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what does romance look like to you, mean to you
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what does romance look like to you, mean to you I've been thinking about this thing we call love and romance. I know what my experiences have been concerning this love and romance stuff. Mostly it's been a let down for me, well I don't think those words describe the depth of my heartache my disillusions of it. When we are young don't we all dream of finding love and we picture what its going to be like. We daydream of the perfect love, the perfect kiss, the perfect life. I am one of those girls who had what is called the Cinderella complex. I just knew that my knight in shining armour was gonna show up and save me from all my problems and fulfill all those dreams of Love and romance. Give me the love I never had. I was so disillusioned about it all. It's so funny and ironic that My first boy/girl party was on Valentines Day. There were candles, heart shaped candies and chocolates. This Mother really set a wonderful mood for this party This was also the date of my first kiss and when my first crush started. I tell you when he kissed me something awoke within me it was truly quite an experience for a first kiss. It was also my first romantic moment. Maybe my last one too. For some reason even when all the abuse was going on I still believed in love, that love exists that love can heal and solve just about everything. You know I have my days of doubt, you know days where I wish I could give this type of thinking up. I just can't it's to much of who I am to much of my belief system. However my definition of romance ,love and my belief system has changed greatly over the years. It had to for me to continue to exist to continue to keep my family together. I am sure alot of you have had to do the same. (You all know that my husband and suffers from aspergers if you don't know what that is you can google it and get the jest of it cause if you don't you won't understand me and the decisions I have had to make.) For me to love someone who truly can not express love at least the way I thought it was when I was growing up has been a heartbreaking experience. There have been many times specially on Valentines Day that I have went to bed lonely and heartbroken and feeling so let down. I know there are lots of you here who feel the same way. I know some of you guys already know this stuff but hey not all of us are so quick Anyways I had to find a way to deal with all of this. I had to grow up, allow my definition of love and romance to change. This was and is by no means an easy task, but I found and continue to find away. Here are some of them. These days he loves me enough to give me the space to find my own way. He loves us enough to get up at 3:00 in the morning and drive all that way to do a job he is not given any credit in to provide for us. He loves me enough to space out when I get all mental on him. He loves me enough to not indulge any of my moods. He loves me enough to not criticize how my looks have um changed He loves me enough to stay home most nights instead of hanging with the boys. He loves me enough to not nag me when I just don't wanna scrub the house spic and span even if he has worked all day. He loves me enough to never say he thinks my beliefs are incorrect. He loves me enough to try and learn how to fake romance. Does this make my heart jump with joy, no. Does it satisfy that inner who is still such a romantic at heart no, but when all is said and done I do feel loved. I use to try and just forget that this day even existed but I couldn't being who I am. So I have also changed the way I celebrate this day, it's about the love right, so I give all my loved ones poems, give all my friends valentine cards like we use to give out in school and just plain out celebrate love. So please fellow Bloggers don't let Valentines day get you down, break your hearts like I let for so many years. Accept the love that you are given, the way it is given and let it penetrate your hearts then spread that love around alittle to those you know need it. Now Ive just gotta also say if you have someone in your life and are willing find out what love and romance means to them cant ya just break down and do it one night for them, maybe make one of their dreams come true?? =================================================- WORD OF THE DAY ================================================== romance: is whatever you believe it to be. ================================================== In other words, you have to PUT YOUR ROMANCE GOGGLES ON in order to SEE something as romantic, otherwise even the most romantic gesture from your partner is in vain. Please take a second to think about what has just been said. LET IT SINK IN. It's a very important concept. that is not my defition but from a website I want to give credit to but if I do I am sure this post will be blocked ps: this was just as much for me as anyone else.  4  if love isn't the answer, than I misunderstood the question |
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... I don't know... different reasons... same empty feeling... SHERYL CROW - "My Favorite Mistake" I woke up and called this morning The tone of your voice was a warning That you don't care for me anymore I made up the bed we sleep in I looked at the clock when you creep in It's 6 a.m. and I'm alone [Chorus:] Did you know when you go It's the perfect ending To the bad day I was just beginning When you go all I know is You're my favorite mistake Your friends are sorry for me They watch you pretend to adore me But I'm no fool to this game Now here comes your secret lover She'd be unlike any other Until your guilt goes up in flames [Chorus:] Did you know when you go It's the perfect ending To the bad day I'd gotten used to spending When you go all I know is You're my favorite mistake You're my favorite mistake Well maybe nothin' lasts forever Even when you stay together I don't need forever after It's your laughter won't let me go So I'm holding on this way Did you know, could you tell You were the only one That I ever loved Now everything's so wrong Did you see me walking by? Did it ever make you cry? You're my favorite mistake You're my favorite mistake You're my favorite mistake To leave private messages, please use my confidential mailbox at my blog: Good luck!!! 
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