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wondering why I am on here?
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wondering why I am on here? I join this site to find a lover, just a lover. But now I find myself rethinking what I want. I read a lot of blogs on here about sexual encounters and I think to myself is that what I really want, I am not judging anyone but myself. because as long as I have been on here, I still don't know what I want. I think I want no strings or long term relationship. But I think what if I meet that one person who I really connect with, and I want a long term relationship, You can't hide emotion forever, in the heat of the moment words do come out. then what, Yes I know this is a sex site, but it still doesn't stop human emotions. I have had only two encounters with men on here. Both at different times. Both lasted about a year apiece. It felt great to be with someone outside of the bedroom, go to dinner, the park, spend time together. I get messages from men who peak my interest but after texting for so long I loose interest. Maybe I am asking for too much. Maybe getting older change the way you think about your life.. Maybe the thought of being alone until I die scare me. Maybe my upbringing has a lot to do with feeling guilty of having sex with someone you have no feeling for. I know a lot of people who are in my age group know what I am talking about that guilt. The good church person don't do those things. Maybe if I just blog for awhile and think about is this really what I want, I don't want to waste anyone time because I am not sure what I want. I want to know do anyone else feel this way? and if you have felt this way how did you get over it. Thank you for taking the time to read my thoughts and thank you for your input. |
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12/14/2019 11:32 am |
Hi- Enjoy your blogs. This one resonates at the same frequency of a distant tone. While not seeking a relationship would consider the possibility ... possibly.  Have thought it would be nice to be close to some I see and/or read; but, am not so go on. Try posting some face and body pics and deleting the nipple pics as nice as they are. I deleted all my dick pics as imvho who cares. Having slow paced fun with a few other Senior Sizzle members of both genders. Enjoy expanding my contacts beyond my home town as I travel a bit. This new lifestyle is turning out to be fun. Certainly the flip side of my upbringing and life til now.
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This is a fascinating post, and I think a lot of people here would have understood exactly what you were thinking when you wrote it. It certainly described a few feelings I have from time to time, questioning what it is I want, or whether what I feel I want is something I can decide to let myself have! I often think that a great many of us are looking for a partner who understands the attraction of a site like this, who could be tempted by a no strings one nighter, who loves sex, but who, on getting together with us, finds that they only want to be with us! It seems like an unrealistic fantasy, but actually, I have had a couple of girlfriends who felt like that about me over the years, I have felt that way myself about them, and I think when you really click with someone, that is kind of how it always feels. Or ,maybe that's just me...... I particularly liked CynicusMaximus' comment - that if you read people's blogs enough you start to understand what their motives are. Sometimes. I started looking at this site out of pure curiosity about ten years ago, and it filled a gap in my sex life, but now, after making real friends through the blogs, whom I keep in touch with in real life, it gives me a sense of connecting with people all round the world, and sharing new ideas and thoughts about life which I would never have found otherwise.
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I feel for you. I really do,cause I know what the struggle is like. There's a conflict between what you want and what you've been told is wrong. I don't think you have to sacrifice any of your principles or alter your moral compass to find happiness. I won't disclose her identity here, but I just met someone off this site and went out with her. We connected on that level where we won't be losing contact with each other any time soon. We had a great day, followed by a great night. I learned a lot from her, things I'm not sure if she knows that she taught me, but it changed my perspective on the purpose for meeting people here. I was never here to scratch another notch in my bedpost, but I've begun to start seeing the people behind these blogs for who they really are. You can't help it, if take the time to read the context of their words. There are some really beautifully intelligent people here, but there are also some real bitter people here just looking to take out their own insecurities on others. The possibilities are out there, but you have to break a lot of freakin' eggs to find that one person who isn't going to to waste your time with favorite sexual position questions in the first conversation or someone who won't send you a penis shot after simply saying, hello, to you. I wish you the best of luck out here. If not here on this site, I hope some guy sees you in a coffee shop somewhere and introduces himself and sparks a great conversation.
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That is one awesome looking nipple.
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My purpose on this site is to find someone for a long term relationship who just happens to enjoy the same sexual activity as me. I'm not here for FWB or NSA style encounters. I'm too old to play Fonzy anymore. Unfortunately, I'm kind of screwed for the next 2 years with work and school, so I hope to at least start getting to know some people during that time, so when I am able to start meeting people, we won't be complete strangers. So yes, I know how you feel. It's time to find happiness and that life long companion. It's a ADULT dating site, not just a SEX site. Those who are here merely for sex is great, I completely understand, but that isn't my forte. Hang in there, you're not the only one. One on one consult - For all your love and relationship needs. The one question challenge - One free question! Ask me anything!
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