590 posts 12/28/2017 4:15 pm
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The love line is never straight and narrow
Unless your love is tried and true
We take a chance with new beginnings
Still we try win or lose
Take the highs with the blues
Always more
You're never satisfied
Share for all with you
It's only for me
Ah, why draw the line
And meet you half the way
And you don't know
What the means, oh yeah
I feel like a running politician, oh
Just trying to please you all the time
I've given you myself with no conditions
Going wide, running long
Feeling lost but not for long
Always more
You're never satisfied
Share for all with you
It's only for me
So why draw the line
Meet you half the way
When you don't know
What that means, oh yeah
Always more
You're never satisfied
Share for all with you
It's only for me
So why draw the line
And meet you half the way
When you don't know
What that means
I'll meet you half the way
Whoa yeah
I'll meet you half the way
Whoa yeah
Well this will be a short . I'm pretty sure the princess and I are d! I have mixed feelings about it of course. On the hand I really liked her, but on the other, she has way to many issues and baggage to deal with. And not just her drug habit which she apparently has licked, for the moment. She's way too selfish and self centered. She's really quick minded, unfortunately, she's not very wise or experienced in certain matters. So she tends to jump to conclusions, and they're usually wrong. She's also probably tired of waiting for me to get this project I've been alluding to off the ground. It would have gotten d sor if she was working with me. Instead, she just expect me to do everything and then she'll just step in and out here and there after I get everything running. But getting to that point is the hard part. Also, I'm a little hesitant to start working with this new thing. I think I'm afraid of success.  I know it sounds strange, but I'll get over it. I have to get things going again here. So, that's the way they are heading I suppose. 
For Christmas, I sent her a nice Christmas and gift card with it. She ed me and thanked me and apologized because she didn't get me anything, not even a card. That's okay, I didn't expect she would. I sent her a the other day and she didn't respond. So, that's it as far as I'm concerned. I think she has a new boyfriend and doesn't want me to know about it. I'm relieved she found some closer to her own age and isn't bothering me anymore. Now, I'm sure you think I'm just sitting around pulling my pud? But no, actually I've been very busy. I had sex with a girl younger and prettier than the princess recently!   So, I don't really need her or her bullshit. Yeah, she initiated it, believe it or not! I don't usually turn down sex from attractive girls, so we had a nice time. The only thing was, she really sucked my dick good. I'm not used to girls with that much energy and technique. She hit all the right spots and she was like a hoover!  LOL! I thought I was going to have a heart attack she was so goddamn good! 
But anyway, the point of this post is the van halen song 5150. I've been practicing it and I may do it as a video?  Here's the thing about this song and probably why, even if you do guitar you haven't attempted to it. First, it's a really hard fucking metal song to rip on the guitar. But mainly it's the tuning. It's tuned down half a step and the low E is tuned down a whole step or a step and a half in this case. I've had trouble ing it over the and I just diovered why. I have several Van Halen guitars and even have the same model Eddie uses in the videos. But, when I try to tune down it sounds like a muddled mess. The reason for that is, with the Floyd rose locking tremolo you have to have it set up for half step tuning down. I can do it myself of course or take it to my tech and have him do it. But it's only for freaking song. I don't want to have to go through all of that just to goddamn song!  So I ran through just about all of my guitars and they all came out sounding like shit. So, this time when I ed it, I finally did something different. I thought about it, and an idea occurred to me. "Hey, what about that new Les Paul thing I got a while ago, that might work "? Turns out, it was perfect!  It doesn't have a tremolo, but that's not important. I was able to tune it down and it didn't get all messy and shitty sounding. It held up on the intonation and sounded great. I just ed along with the record and it sounded fine. The reason is, it just has to be tuned and doesn't need the intonation adjusted because the bridge is standard and doesn't move. When it comes to reproducing the whammy bar sounds, I can do that, but just in an alternative way, like turning the machine heads or bending the strings behind my pressing fingers. It's a little more involved but any pro like me can handle it.
So now that I have that problem settled. I guess I have to finish setting things up with my Lawyer and then I'm rich again. Yeah, whoop dee doo!
Well, if anything, this experience with the princess, gave me insight to what it would have been like if I had gotten involved with the Jewish princess Anya Erica! I can now see, that would have never worked either. Oh well.
Addendum
Well, like I said, I'm pretty sure the Princess and I are d now! I was walking around a local pawn shop, nearby to where the princess lives and guess what I saw? Remember I told you she showed me her guitar, and that it needed repair, so I took it to my guitar tech and had them fix it up? I saw that guitar hanging on the wall. It was no mistaking it. I recognized the dents and ratches on it. So, after all that work and expense I did, she just took it to the pawn shop and got like twenty bucks for it.  She has also unfriended me online on of the sites too. These events depressed the shit out of me. I know, it's what I wanted. I wanted her to find some else and stop bothering me. Apparently she has, but I'm still a little bummed about it. I really shouldn't be. The relationship was never going to go anywhere. I didn't want to get involved with her, and she didn't either. But for totally different reasons. Mine of course is the fact that she's a Leo, and for that reason al it never would have worked. Also, if we were dating, it would have been much harder on me right now. I bothers me a little bit, but not that much. But I feel after seeing her pawning her guitar after I did so much to fix it up for her was like a slap in the face. I thought about buying it and giving back to her. But then I realized she was just sell it again. I can't make her act responsible or respectful. But now it's like I'm seeing her true nature. It was there all along, I just chose to ignore it, because I was smitten by her beauty and charm. And the fact she was dating that piece of shit drug dealer while she was extracting favors from me. That says a lot too, that I chose to ignore. All my friends around us at the time saw the situation for what it was, that she was just using me. But I ignored them, and now here we are, LOL! I don't know why she did that or what's going on in her situation at the moment. I do know she's not contacting me. So, if I had to speculate, I'd say she might have g back to drugs. If she did that, she'll also be going back to jail! But I don't know that right now. Last I heard she was still going to meetings, unless she was lying to me. I think she just wanted to cut me out of her life and move on. I hope that's the case. But, she does have a self destructive bent to her personality. So anything's possible. But if she tries to come at me again and run her old game, she'll be in for a big surprise!  I won't be having any of it and she'll be in a world of hurt, of her own making. But, we'll see. If anything new pops up, I'll let you know.
Addendum
Let's try this again!  I had written a long post here, but I click on the wrong item on this stupid fucking page and it deleted everything. No matter, it was mainly me ranting about some asshole I once knew and still hate! Anyhoo! Yeah, I ran into the Princess, on the street. She pulled up next to me and we chatted. She wanted to know if I made any progress with our project. First, she's still clean and she's been working a full time job and is still going meetings! Good news as far as I'm concerned! At the time I still had not made any progress. But that's good because now I'm debating if I want her in on it. She's not interested in me unless I can do something for her. I still see her guitar, the I fixed up for her, hanging in the pawn shop. It broke my heart!  I'm still upset about it!  Well, anyway, as is usually the case with things like this and me. I started to do thing, and I ended up doing something else, or getting what I originally wanted! I went to cancel everything and figured I re-sign up to it later or when I got the shit sorted out better. I was bleeding to much , it had to stop. In the process, I got in a conversation with a tech at of the websites, I was telling him what I was trying to do. He looks up my account and then tells me "Oh, you have all that already " I said "WHAT!!! Yeah, turns out I got side tracked with a bunch of bullshit I didn't really need! So, I just finished setting everything up and now I'm in business. Or in other words, "I'm rich, bitch" ! LOL!  Yeah, there's nothing stopping me now. But here is the thing. I haven't told the princess or any else, and I don't plan to. I have a feeling Erica or her associates are still checking in on me here to see what I'm up to. So, Erica now knows something the Princess or her doppelganger doesn't know! Isn't that interesting? I was inserting Erica in my dreams that I later realized were about the Princess, because they are so similar to another, or soul sisters. I also found out the reason the Doors didn't the Monterey Pop festival in 1967 is because they would NOT be paid. All the artist donated their s. And Ray was a grubbing bastard who lacked foresight. So that's why they didn't that historic gig. I know this because that's what Jim said about Ray once when he tried to sell the Light my fire song to Buick to sell cars. See, it's all relevant! 
Addendum
Holy shit it did it again! I just started to write the post and the fucking thing erased it! Okay, lets try this again! I must be wearing orthopedic shoes because I stand corrected! I stopped by to visit the Princess yesterday and had a chat with her. Everything I had been assuming about her and her behavior has been wrong!  I'll tell you more about that in a moment but first I want to talk about my Nostradamus prophecy concerning the Eagles winning the super bowl against the invincible Patriots led by the golden boy Tom Brady. I could have and should have written this the day before because every detail I'd been telling everyone about the event came true! I've always had a little precognition ability with things now and then. But this time I was right on the money ! I can't control it, or will it to work for me, it just comes and goes when every it wants. Okay, here is the situation. I don't follow sports or football in particular. I have other things to occupy my mind and I don't have the time or desire for that stuff. You can make a career out of just following stats if you wanted to. Additionally, I've never watched a super bowl with the Patriots playing, I understand they've played quite a few times and won most if not all of them! Same goes for the Eagles. If I ever saw an Eagles game it was totally random and by accident. The last time I even remember watching an entire super bowl game was thirty years ago because I was visiting a friend in college. His roommate wanted to watch the game and it was the only television so we were stuck watching it. I remember Reagan did a coin toss in the white house for something related to the game like who would do the first kick off! Anyway, everybody lately has been talking about the eagles and the patriots playing in the super bowl. And everybody was expecting the patriots to win, again! Even people who are die hard eagles fans were reluctantly accepting the fact the Pats were going to win! I'm the only one, who not only wasn't a fan or following the game that told them the truth about the matter. And every single thing I said came true. I don't know shit about the game or the teams. Here is what I told everybody, and not only one time, I told several people at different times this prediction. I said, " the Eagles are going to win, and Tom Brady is going to throw the game ". And then I told them why. " Because everyone is expecting the Patriots to win, they've had an incredible winning streak and won how many fucking super bowls already. So, because they're the heavily favored, all the bets from the gambling houses are going to be on them! So, when the suck ass Eagles win they'll all clean up like mother fuckers "! And I was right! Now, I watched the game last night just to see if my predictions were correct? And they were but I notice something else as well. I saw the Eagles quarter backs eyes! Nick Foles, his eyes told the whole story or the one I've just related. As I was watching the game last night, I was thinking the look in his eyes was one of determination, to winning the game. I now realize that wasn't what I was witnessing! He knew, as in, he knew the fix was in and he was going to win! It's the same look you see from anyone who has inside information and then watches themselves win big as a result of it! As for Tom Brady and the rest of the team! Holy shit, it was so obvious he was throwing the game he could be sued in court! First of all, did you see that kicker miss the goal posts? I couldn't believe I actually witnessed that at a super bowl game. Secondly and more egregious, was Tom throwing incompletes all over the fucking place. Hey, I've never watched him play before, and I don't have to. Millions of people have watched him and they know for a fact how good he is! I saw him throw a pass and it went right to the catchers feet! I know he did that on purpose! Another time he held on to the ball until he got sacked by the other teams offense! I'm watching this and I can't fucking believe it! So anyway, I was telling people as recently as yesterday afternoon. I said, " Somebody told Tom he was going to throw the game and by how many points "! And that's exactly what happened! Because somebody or a group of somebodies saw this as a great opportunity to make a lot of money , and they cleaned up! The weird thing was, I felt it and could sense where the trend was going but no else I spoke to could see it. And I talked to some die hard sports fans who know the game and the teams inside and out. I was wondering if my words I spoke to them about this game are haunting them now?
Anyhoo, well, now about the Princess. First, I went to the bank the day before and found out someone was bleeding my account dry! That's partly why I was having trouble getting this project started. The Princess texted me that day and offered to give me money to get things going. I told her thank you, but that's not necessary, I just have to manage the money I already have a little better. And mainly, what's holding us up, is not or lack of it. I'm on a learning curve and I'm still discovering things. I have to get a handle on this whole thing before I can get started. I think I've finally figured out a way. It's a big huge complicated process and a lot to learn and know. Incidentally, I'm working on difficult songs or music on my guitar at the moment too. I figure, by working on complicated stuff, my learning mechanism will kick in and I'll figure out all the other stuff I'm working on too. And yeah, that seems to be the case. See, those guitar lessons pay for themselves sometimes?  Speaking of guitars, while I was there visiting the Princess, I asked her about her guitar? She said it's still there but she doesn't have time to work with it. She's been working ten hours days six days a week. She says she has fifteen hundred dollars saved towards buying a car. So, turns out, the guitar I saw in the pawn shop wasn't' her's after all! And she wouldn't have sold it for money, because she has plenty of it now. So, I guess I assumed incorrectly about the situation. I told her about talking to a tech and getting the other thing straightened out. She replies, " oh, I knew you didn't need that ". I asked her " why she didn't say something sooner "? She says, " because you were being a racist ". Because I called her piece of shit drug dealing felon spic boyfriend a piece of shit drug dealing felon spic! Hey, I call them as I see them! I told her " I'm not a racist ". Which is true, I hate just as many white people as I do minorities and those freaks who don't know what sex they are! Even more probably!  Well, like I said, I finally feel like I'm getting a handle on this whole project thing. There is nothing stopping me. I do feel a little hesitation and fear about it. That's partly why I still haven't acted on it! I don't know how to explain it, but there is this weird illogical part of my mind that wants to hold me back or fears success. I think it's that I fear change more. For now, I'm comfortable and enjoy a predictable existence! If I do this new thing, all this will change. Of course it will change for the better, but I don't necessarily need that now! If I were married, I'd probably have a wife pressuring me to do things quickly. The princess tries to push me a little, but not really. She's not normal or has normal thinking about things. Which works in my favor here, I guess, because I can be a lazy mother fucker about things sometimes. LOL!
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