590 posts 2/9/2015 6:23 pm
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The Curious Case of Lorelei
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When I think of Lorelei, my head turns all around
As gentle as a butterfly, she moves without a sound
I call her on the telephone, she says be there by eight
Tonight's the night she's movin' in and I can hardly wait
The way she moves, ooh-ooh-ooh, I gotta say
Lorelei, let's live together
Brighter than the stars, forever
Lorelei, let's live together
Brighter than the stars, forever
Oh baby, forever
Her eyes become a paradise, she softly speaks my name
She brightens every lonely night, no one's quite the same
She calls me on the telephone, she says be there by eight
Tonight's the night she's movin' in, it's time to celebrate
The way she moves, ooh-ooh-ooh, I gotta say
Lorelei, let's live together
Brighter than the stars, forever
Lorelei, let's live together
Brighter than the stars, forever
Baby, baby, forever
Lorelei, let's live together
Brighter than the stars, forever
Lorelei, let's live together
Brighter than the stars, forever
Lorelei, let's live together
Brighter than the stars, forever
Lorelei, let's live together
Brighter than the stars, forever
Lorelei, let's live together
Brighter than the stars, forever
Okay, I met this girl I call Lorelei,  not her real name. She has been an enigma to me from the first moment I first saw her until now. Currently, we are not seeing one another, but that doesn't mean it's over. I'm just waiting for the next act in this weird drama to unfold. I met her at work, and from the first moment i saw her I was smitten with her. The picture I have on this post is not her, but the closest I could find. She does look almost exactly like this girl in the picture though. She's very pretty, or terminally pretty, and she has blonde dred locked hair. I don't know how old she is, I'm a poor judge of womens ages, unless they look obviously very young or very old. I was going to guess that she was in her mid to late twenties, but then I realized something. When i was standing close to her, I noticed she has very nice skin. And only women who are younger have skin like that. So, if i had to guess her age, I'd say it would have to be late teens or early twenties, like twenty one or two. she also so has a bunch of tattoos on her body. From what I saw, she has something on her chest, leading up to her neck. I also noticed when she was handing me something once, that she has more on her arms. That alone would seem strange, that such a pretty girl would have such bizarre body art on her body. But that doesn't even begin to explain the mystery. When I first saw her, I thought she was cute, but I always notice cute girls, and it usually ends there. I thought I was too old for her, so I wasnt' thinking about dating her or anything like that. A few more things I learned about her, from another woman friend who spoke to her directly, and she told my friend that she was a lesbian and/or in a lesbian relationship with another woman. That I could understand, because she used to wear the lesbian uniform. By that I mean, she always wore flannel shirts, jeans and boots. And with her hair and tattoos, I'm sure she made quite an impression on the other women at the<b> dyke </font></b>bar! So, you might be wondering, " okay she's a dyke, what's that got to do with you, you're a guy "? And my reply, " Exactly "! Why would an obviously flaming lesbian attempting to be butch<b> dyke </font></b>be interested in you, a man old enough to be her father? That's what I've been wondering ever since. Okay, like I said, my female friend told me about the conversation she had with Lorelie, but then she told me something else she said. She asked my friend " if I liked her " Her exact words were, " Does XXXXXX (my real name) like me, I saw him looking at me in the break room "? My friend replied, " oh yeah, but as a friend ". When my friend told me of this exchange I found it a little curious, but not too alarming or anything. But, before this even happend something else did. Like i said, we worked together, but everytime I turned around I would see her. She was not looking at me, or at least I never caught her looking at me. But i noticed she always seemed to be in the genearl area to where ever I was. I later , watched a video on you tube, by some female dating expert, and she did a video on how to tell when a woman likes you. First of all, I don't need a video to know when a woman likes me, It's usually apparent, but with this girl Lorelei, I could never figure her out, or get a handle on her ideas or motives, because everything she was doing, was counter to who she was and the type of person she was presenting herself as. Anyway, in the video, all the things that this dating expert and another woman talked about, was exactly everything Lorelei was doing in relation to me. So, at least I know I had that part figured, then she did something that for me, still seems a little bizarre and unusual. She gave me something, but she also took something from me. It was not supposed to be an equal exchange like it sounds, but it worked out that way. But for my part, I had no problem giving her what she asked me for, because it was mainly work related. But I did feel a little uncomfortable when she gave me something. It was nothing really, between people who are friends or know each other, but at that point I didn't know her at all, we had only spoken like two times to one another prior. I even felt strange when she handed it to me. My feelings were, " I really shouldn't be accepting this from her ". But, I took it with the determined intention of returning it to her as quickly as possible, And believe me I did. The very next time I saw her, I gave it back to her. I will describe the exchange, because at this, and everytime we spoke to one another would go pretty much the same way. I saw her approaching me, and when ever she did, it was weird, like she was approaching someone she wasn't sure about, or the situation. Which was strange because we have no history with one another. But, my female friend also told me, when she was talking to her. That Lorelei was in an abusive relationship with some guy, I suppose prior to her decision to become a lesbian. I did notice a certain codependant behavior in her, or it's a personality trait that women who have been abused by men in the past exhibit when encountering other men. I don't think for a second that she was afraid of me, or thought I would harm her in any way. But, it's just something she probably does with all men, without even realizing it. But, I could be totally wrong about that, because I later learned she had some sort of crush on me. So, I think her behavior was more of a woman, who was just nervous about being near a guy she liked. Anyway, she ambles towards me and says, " I have something here for you '. And I replied, " And I have something for you as well ". She sits down, and gets out her papers from a folder or something. The fact that she sat down when speaking to me, I would later realize was a pattern with her for some reason. Why she did that, I have no idea, just like a lot of things about her made no sense to me. We exchanged our documents, then I asked her, " why did you give me this "? She said some sort of flaky hippie dippie reason like " oh I was just paying it forward ". I thought, " okay, she's one of those people ". And at the time, I didn't give it a lot of significance. By her sitting down, it forced me to bow to her to return her property. I later found out, from my friend and more of the conversation she had with Lorelei, that she told her, her father put her through college and paid all of her expenses. Which is very nice, and lucky if you are fortunate enough. But, at the time I didn't know that, and what Lorelei told me was a different story. She alluded to going through some hard times. At the time, I didn't think anything of it, because I hadn't known about the conversation my friend had with her, and she was bragging about having all her education taken care of by her old man. So, when I found out that detail, I figured, what might have happened was something like this. Her father put her through school, but when she came out as a lesbian, he disowned her, or cut her off financially. That is only total speculation on my part, If I ever find out the exact circumstances of her situation, I'll come back here and revise this post.
So, then I think it was at that point, I started to see some anomalies with her behavior. On the one hand, she was acting like a butch dyke, but on the other, she was still a princess and a Daddies girl! Yeah, I saw both personalities first hand. I used to watch her walk, and she adopted the same swager as a guy does. And with her tats and her flannel shirts, I used to roll my eyes and shake my head, in wonderment. But, when I was close to her, or spoke to her, she reverted back into the pretty blonde princess Daddys girl that she also was. A little more about that. She would act, like she wasn't interested in me, or that I wasn't there when ever we were in the same area. But, I noticed she would glance at me out of the corner of her eye when she passed in front of me. By this time, I was aware that she liked me, or had a crush on me or something. And I wasn't trying to play games with her or anything, I was thinking, " okay, this girl likes me, I'll just let things develop naturally, and she and I will eventually find each other and come together at some point. That was my feeling and attitude at that point. But, it didn't work out that way, instead, it just got more and more bizarre, then things on her side went totally crazy. I'm still trying to figure out what was going on with her. Did she like me, was she just playing a game with me, or is she one of these confused messed up bitches who don't know what the fuck they want? Now, I'm beleiving it was closer to the last one. So, I thought I would try something, just to see how interested she was with me. The next time she was around, i totally ignored her. Just to see what she would do. So, then she litterally stands in front of me and does a little dance, while interacting with someone else, to get my attention. But she wasn't finished, apparently, it upset her, that I wasn't giving her total attention when she was near me. So, the next day when we were in the same situation, I went up to her and said " hi '. She ignored me, or pretended like she didn't hear me, even though I was standing right in front of her. So then I said it again louder and making sure she couldn't ignore me. So then she acknowledges me and say's " hi " back to me. So, at that point I'm thinking, " whoa, she gets pissed off easily ". But then, something even stranger happened. I forget when it was, but it must have been around this time. I came into work early one morning, and Lorelei was standing at the front desk, leaning over the counter writing something. At the time, I thought it was just a chance encounter. I'd never seen her there before or since like that. But then later, she surprised me again, and I could tell the second time she was waiting for me. So, she probably planned this encounter to, but at the time I wasn't suspecting anything. Here's what happened. LIke I said, she was leaning over the counter writing something, then she stood up slightly and looked right at me. It wasn't a casual glance or anything, when she looked at me, it was when a woman looks at you, and is asking you in effect, with her body language, " do you like me " or " are you interested in me ". I smiled back at her, or gave her an affirmative answer to her quiry. It all happened very quickly, not more then a moment had passed. As soon as she saw my reaction, she turned back to what she was doing again, and I continued past her, without saying anything. That was it, but, it was a very significant exchange. I thought, that at that point, she was asking me, if I was interested in her, and i gave her a positive response. Also, it was very feminine, none of that<b> dyke </font></b>behavior she usually displays. Like I said before, it was like I was dealing with someone with a split personality. Well, after that, she was overtly friendly to me, and she would just appear out of no where and start talking to me, and be very helpful if she could. And as I said, I thought, " oh okay, we're going along with getting to know one another, and eventually we'll be seeing each other outside of work "? Everytime I saw her, she would act really excited to see me. I mean it was obvious, like a gets excited everytime you come home again from somewhere. Her eyes would light up and she always seemed so glad to see me. I thought it was nice, and I was always glad to see her as well. Like I said, she's very pretty. When she was standing close to me, when we were talking, I would study her features. Beleive me, that girl didn't have an ugly bone in her body! If she wouldn't have had those tats and the dred locks, she would have been just a typical pretty blonde girl. But with that stuff, it made her look kind of exotic. Oh I forgot to mention she has these beautiful blue eyes. Her eyes were the first thing you noticed about her, because they were so mesmerizing. Every time I think about her now, the first thing I think about are her eyes. She had kind of like a dark tint to her skin, like she had a tan or something. Some women, like her do have that tone to their skin. She was white, but just had a darker tint to her skin. Or at least it seemed that way to me, I could be wrong about that. Then as I said, things progressive got strange. Because it was the holidays, they have prize give aways. These things are like everywhere else, and I don't know about you, but my attitude is I'm never going to win, so why bother to participate. Everyone is acting like they were expecting to win a new sixty inch plasma flat screen or something. I just looked at them like they were nuts. So, it just so happens that Lorelei was partly in charge of running this holiday contest. At the time, I didn't think anything of it. I thought, so what, somebody has to do it, and I'm certainly not going to be involved in the fucking thing. So, like all contest, you have to fill out a slip and put your name and number on it, and drop it in the box. That was Lorelei's job, to man the contest box during lunch time. There was a little tabe with three boxes on it and she used to stand behind it. I used it as an excuse just to go over and talk to her. I didn't give a shit about some stupid contest I was never going to win. So one time, i filled out my slip, and I headed over to the pretty dred locked little lesbian. I handed it to her, and asked her to choose a prize box to enter for me. My attitude was, I wasn't taking this seriously and I only wanted for an excuse to stand there and talk to her. She took the slip from me and examined it very carefully. I thought at the time, " what the fuck is she looking at, it's just a slip " Then she placed it in the center box. I would later realize the significance of all of that. At the time, it didn't appear to be anything special, but it was actually a very calculated move on her part I would learn later on. So this went on for a while. Every time we encountered one another, she was always so glad to see me. I took it as a sign that she liked me, and that I would be fucking her soon! Then one morning as I came to work. I parked my car and was heading towards the building entrance. As I got closer there was a row of cars in front of the entrance. I heard a door open and out popped Lorelei, and she started walking towards me. I said " Good Morning " to her and continued walking towards the entrance. She was heading the same way so I thought we would walk together. I started talking, thinking she was next to me as I was heading in. Then i looked and no one was there. i turned to look back and I saw Lorelei standing way back behind me. I thought it was odd, and it looked like she was deliberately trying to avoid walking with me. I thought, " hmmm, that's strange, a moment ago she was running right towards me, now she's acting like she's trying to avoid me ". I still don't understand why she did that or acted that way. Then her behavior became even stranger. Then later in the day, we encountered one another again, and i said " hi " to her and she seemed okay, and said " hi " back to me but walked past me. So, I was thinking," well maybe she's on her period or something "? This would go on for a while. Something else significant was happening, although i didn't realize it at the time. It seemed like everytime I turned around, she would be there or in the area I was at. Usually she was too far away for me to address her or talk to her, but she always seemed to be hovering around me. I thought at the time, " oh, she has a crush on me and just wants to see me that's all ". I would later realized it was actually another calculated move on her part towards me. For what reason, I still don't know. Then after a while I noticed something, when there were other people around she would ignore and avoid me. I figured, she didn't want people knowing her business and being hassled about liking some guy at work. So I gave her, her space and didn't bother her. I would only go up to talk to her to put a slip in the prize box at lunch. There I had an excuse to talk to her, so no one would get suspicious about us. I thought at the time, we were going to evolve into a clandestine couple, pretend we don't know one another at work, but afterward go home and fuck like rabbits! But, that didn't happen. Then, the prize drawing day arrived. The day before was the last day to submit your slip to enter for the prizes. I didn't take it seriously and had no interest in it anyway. As I was leaving, I saw Lorelei standing in front of the prize box table, so anyone leaving would have to pass by her. Usually she stood behind the table. I didn't think anything of it and went to the bathroom. I came out and she was still standing there. She was engaged in conversation with several other people. I just casually walked past, but as soon as I got near her, she reached out and handed me a slip. She looked right at me and said " you have to get this in today, all right ". I just looked at her, a little perplexed. I didn't say anything, but as I reach out to take the slip from her, using my two fingers I tried to brush them against her fingers. She instantly recoiled at my touch. I thought that was kind of strange, considering she was always keeping me in her sight, and acting so excited to see me all time. I took the slip from her and continued on my way out never submitting the slip. At the time I didn't understand what was going on, or why it was so important to her, for me to submit that slip. She never said anything to me prior of gave me any indication that something was happening there with it.
The next day, was the prize drawing. We were all assembled together, everybody who worked there was standing around. I figured about a hundred people. I was looking for Lorelei, but I didn't see her. I thought, " surely she would be here for this "? So, then a few moments later, I saw her, dred locks, flannel shirt and all, and she came through the crowd and ambled towards me. It was obvious she wanted to approach me, but was trying to act like she wasn't. By now, I was used to this behavior, so I just waited until she got close enough to me, and then said, as a joke " Hey Lorelei, ( I called her by her real name by the way) they just called your name as the winner "! She just said, " yeah right ". and continued on past me. I thought that would be the end of it, they would name someone as the winner, and then we could all get back to work. Well, they did, they called me!   I was fucking stunned! I couldn't believe it, I still can't! I can honestly tell you, there is no fucking way, I won that contest without someone rigging it somehow. Then, at that moment, all Lorelei's strange behavior started to make sense. Even up until the moment before when she approached me through the crowd. She was avoiding me, so no one would suspect that she was favoring me for something later. She kept herself in my line of sight, to remind me, that she was still interested in me and was planning something. And that's why she wanted me to submit that slip the day before. I didn't submit it, so, she went into the prize box where I had her drop the slip in that day. And she fished around, and found it, and then gave it to her boss and told him, " here's the winning ticket "! I know this, because later when she gave me my prize envelop, she gave me back the same ticket, and it even has her hand writing on the back of it. Well I knew instantly that this was wrong and she could get in trouble for it. But, of course I wasn't going to say anything. It's the same thing you do, when someone you care about does something wrong, you automatically try to cover for them, thinking you'll work out the problem with them later on. So then I had to go up and accept the prize. I had to shake hands with the people in charge and they were taking my picture to display all over the place and the website. I'm standing there thinking, " Lorelei, you fucking bitch "! LOL! Then they told me that the didn't have the prize there, that I would have to come by the office later to pick it up. I told them I would, but, I then came up with my own plan. I wouldn't pick it up, because if everything I was thinking about her, and the situation and the fact that she rigged it was true? She would bring it to me. And that's exactly what happened. Later the next day, I see Lorelei ambling towards me, with her trepidation walk. But this time, she actually did have something to feel guilty about, because she illegally rigged a contest so I would win it. I wasn't angry, but I was intrigued as to why she would even do something like that, considering we've never had a real conversation or talked about anything personal between us. So she comes up to me and hands me the envelop. It was a gift certificate, and she asks me " what are you going to buy "? I replied, " I don't know "? Then I think I said, " how did this happen "? Then, she sits down again, and asks me " what are my plans for the holidays "? I thought, " oh, thank God, finally, she's going to invite me over to her place for some lesbian poon tang "! I told her " I didn't have any real plans ". I did, but I wanted to hear what she would say. Then she tells me that she's going to visit her family in another state for the holidays. I think we exchanged a few more words, then I asked her " Hey, would you like to get together outside of work sometime "? Then she started getting really evasive and making all kinds of excuses saying things like, " It's against the rules, I've never dated people I work with " things like that. By then, I expected her to show some sort of resistance, and not just agree with me. That wasn't her style. I countered with some very good points of my own. As people who know me from here are aware, you can't win an argument with me, on anything. So then, after playing little miss muffet, sitting on her tuffet, relaying her curds and way. She suddenly changed in demeanor and personality and said something like, " well things change, so you never know ". Or something like that, and then she quickly rose up and walked away. As she left I wished her a happy holiday. And I stood there kind of stunned, thinking, " what just happened here ". Up until the last few moments, she was acting all shy and demure, then she suddenly changes into Miss Femdom! At the time, I thought, " okay she's playing hard to get, I know this game, I'll just wait until she's ready and she'll find her way back to me ". I felt confidant about the situation, because she did go to all the trouble to rig a prize contest for me. Someone doesn't normally go to all that trouble unless they are seriously interested in them. But then, once again, she surprised me. After that encounter, she started avoiding me, but really avoiding me this time. I didn't see her hanging around at a distance or otherwise. I still caught glimpses of her here and there, but I could tell she was actively trying to avoid seeing me. I knew that because it was such a contrast to how she was acting prior. Up until I asked her out, everytime I turned around I would see her. Now, she was literally trying to be invisible to me. I even spotted her, going back ways through the halls, delibertly trying not to run into me. I was thinking. " that's strange, she goes to all of this trouble to get my attention, then once she achieves it, she goes the opposite way and tries to avoid me ". She could have saved herself a lot of trouble, by just not buzzing around me, giving me longing looks, and giving me presents. Or did she think I wouldn't have noticed that stuff? Like I've always said, women are crazy, but this chick is the craziest one I've met since my ex wife. So, she kept avoiding me, until almost the end. She was walking past me with her boss, and she turned to look at me. She flashed me those beautiful blue eyes, then turned back and kept walking. I didn't react or even have an expression on my face. I just looked at her wondering what is going on with her. That was the last time i saw her. Now, anything ever develops from this, it will have to be her move. She and I never exchanged contact information. I don't know where she is ,or how to contact her. I don't even know her last name. She has all my information though, she has my phone number and address. Seeing how strange and bizarre her behavior has been. I half expect her to show up on my doorstep. If she does, I won't be surprised of shocked. But, I will want some freaking answers. Going by her past behavior, she'll probably try to shine me on with offering me sex or something. But i'm not having it. I want to know where we stand with one another before I go any further with her. She's obviously playing some sort of game with me. Or, maybe I'll never hear from her again, and this will just be some weird experience I had, with a confused lesbian, who had a crush on me, but couldn't reconcile it, because of her own issues with men, or something? We'll see.
UPDATE:
I discovered something related to what I was discussing on this post so I thought I would share it with you because it seems relevant. Remember where I talked about a contest slip I filled out, and then handed it to Lorelei and she dropped into the prize box? Then later, I actually won the contest and when she gave me my prize envelop, she also returned the original ticket to me as well. I always wondered about that? Why give me back the original ticket? So, then I took a look at it the other day. Oh, by the way, I still have the gift certificate and I have not cashed that in yet. So, as I was examining the prize ticke, I noticed something unusual about it. It had a crease down the center like it had been folded in half. When I handed it to Lorelei that day, I know it had not been folded. I know this because I had just written my name and information on it, and if there were a crease across the middle, my writing would have been affected by the bumps on the surface. You can see that is not the case, especially where it is folded. I handed it to Lorelei, and she took an unusual amount of time studying it, before she dropped into the box. I realize why, now. It was because she wanted to be sure what she would be looking for later on when she was fishing around for it to make sure I was the winner. The slip itself is very small, so there would be no reason to fold it. There is writing on one side and the other is blank. It was folded in half on the side with the writing on the inside and the blank side facing out. So, if someone noticed it in your pocket, all they would see would be a slim blank peice of paper. Exactly what you would do, if you were doing somthing duplicitous with it. And for anyone who thinks I won that Goddamn contest legitimately? I've entered things like that my entire life, do you know how many of them I have ever won? NONE! I have never won a contest like that, and I shouldn't have won this one either. I wouldn't have really supected anything, except Lorelei way laid me at the exit, telling me it was important for me to enter this slip that day. I didn't so she used her back up plan and retreived the ticked she knew I had submitted before. And lastly, there were different prizes. That's why they had different boxes. The prize I won, was the exact box Lorelei dropped the slip into that day. That's how I know she cheated and rigged it so I would win. But, still the question that bothers me, is why? Why did she do that, why was it so important for me to win. I had never done anything for her like that. So why?
ANOTHER UPDATE:
Well, well, well! I have gained another great insight from the ticket slip I mentioned previously! Wait until you hear this?! This insight comes from my ex. When I knew her, she had taken a graphology course in college, and was always using what she knew to analyze peoples hand writing. Every person I knew, that she analyed with this process turned out to be accurate. Also, on the ticket slip that Lorelei returned to me, is hand writing, not much, but enough to reveal significant personality traits about the author! I figured the writing on the back of the ticker was Lorelei's and after I researched it using handwriting analysis methods, I'm certain it is hers. Unfortunately, she didn't use all of the letters in the alphabet in what she wrote, but what she gave me is still very significant. From the the way the letters are formed, like closed loops and spacing and how the letters a positioned tell a lot about your personality. From what she displayed in her hand writing, it was accurate from what I knew about her. Like for instance, from the way she wrote her letters it tells that she's practical, logical, and has great imagination. I agree with that last discription because of those tattoo's on her body and the way she wore her hair. But, then I discovered something alarming, but it explains or verifies other things I know about her, and partly explains the mystery I've been having about her. Now first of all, for any skeptics out there. I just got the idea to analyze her hand writing the other day. I wrote all of this other stuff prior to discovering what I just learned now about her personality through hand writing analysis. But it's interesting how it confirms largely what I already knew. I was reading the hand writing analysis from different sources. I coudn't find everything I wanted to know, because she doesn't use all of the letters in the alphabet. But then I was reading something on this one site and I found something very disturbing about her handwriting. There is something called a " felons claw " the claw type of curve that curve downward back under the letter like a claw. I examined the writing to make sure I wasn't imagining it. It's there, in fact she wrote several letters with it, in the same word. Now, when I tell you what this means, I assure you everything is from the official definition, but it matches up perfectly with everything I told you about what I knew about Lorelei and her background. Here is the offical definition:People who write with this hallmark feature have deep psychological issues. It indicates someone who feels inferior to the extent that they do not think they are worthy of love. Many people with this claw were abused in early life. This is also a symbol of guilt for something the writer may have done in the past. If that doesn't descibe Lorelei to a T, from everything else I've told you about her, I don't know what would? She told my friend she was abused by a boyfriend. She's young, so it must have happened when she was still much younger herself, probably teenage years. The fact that she went lesbo because of it, may indicate some of her feelings of inferiority? But it actually expains her behavior with me. On the one hand, she gave me the impression that she was interested in me, and then she did an about face, and totally ignored and avoided me, after I officially asked her out on a date. And the fact that she rigged this contest like she did for me, indicates, she's probably done things like this in the past for other people. She probably feels guilty about some of it, or who knows what else shes done? You don't wear hard core tats like that on your neck, unless you did some fucked up shit at some point? Once again, I'm stunned! I got the idea to do the hand writing analysis from something my ex once did. I used it to analyze Lorelei's personality and it came up a hundred percent accurate for everything I know about her. Isn't that some weird wild shit? Just like everything else about this situation with her, I still can't believe it.
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