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Blogs > rm_travelguyoh > From Me To Infinity

Memories  

rm_travelguyoh 63M
7254 posts
4/9/2012 10:33 pm

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4/10/2012 11:04 pm
Memories

I had read a couple of blogs over the last few days that triggered some memories that I just wasn’t ready to face yet. I’m past the point of hurting anymore, and yeah, I’m really pissed off at some of the things that happened. The sad part is “I don’t even know what’s true anymore” except dreams were destroyed, the lives of eight were affected and the life of the family who took “two of them in” will forever be changed as well the families they were taken from.

I don’t mind losing to a better man, hell I’ve been married three times, but as I look back at all this “I lost to a friggin lie” how jacked up is that. It doesn’t really matter if that lie was a booty call, a get even for all the nasty things done to her in the past before me, or maybe I’m just a screwed up human being myself; who knows. One thing is for sure, sometimes I just can't hide from the memories.

Oddly enough it was the good memories that were triggered in reading the blogs and seeing the over the weekend. They say “if you can truly forgive the wrong, you’ll learn to accept the good and begin to love yourself and the people around you”. They also say “if you want to know where your heart is, follow it to where your mind wonders too”. Yeah; these memories are going to be an unforgiving bitch, but damn- it was a beautiful disaster. I will never regret the good things and there were far more than there were bad ones, but I will hate the lies and not knowing what the real truth was.
some times the things that comes from between my ears makes me pause for reflection


rm_travelguyoh 63M
12264 posts
4/10/2012 11:04 pm
    Quoting oneladybrijit:
    I wasn't gone, not from your blog, as I always read all of it, if not immediately, as soon as I get back here. I just don't always comment, because you felt that as pressure at one stage. Often, I just read all of them, smile, laugh or care, and go over to my blog, and decide what I might want to write there.

    I have found a few of the men don't like too many comments from me, so I just keep my distance from them. I think you have made more contact with me, so I don't feel as bad commenting on your blogs as I might on others.

    I only feel comfy with one other man in blogland, and he comments on my blogs regularly.
I'm happy and honored that you find my writing is worth reading and you get what I'm trying to say sometimes...it does mean a lot to me...thank you
some times the things that comes from between my ears makes me pause for reflection


oneladybrijit 66F
420 posts
4/10/2012 10:35 pm

 I wasn't gone, not from your blog, as I always read all of it, if not immediately, as soon as I get back here. I just don't always comment, because you felt that as pressure at one stage. Often, I just read all of them, smile, laugh or care, and go over to my blog, and decide what I might want to write there.

I have found a few of the men don't like too many comments from me, so I just keep my distance from them. I think you have made more contact with me, so I don't feel as bad commenting on your blogs as I might on others.

I only feel comfy with one other man in blogland, and he comments on my blogs regularly.


rm_travelguyoh 63M
12264 posts
4/10/2012 9:50 pm
    Quoting oneladybrijit:
    I just read your latest blogs including Friendship. I wasn't prepared for your Easter rituals. I had the impression you were no longer religious. Even so, sometimes we still want to stay with what we have learned because it sometimes feels secure. Everything relating to religion is personal, and if someone else has a problem with it, I think they need to walk away or respect our beliefs. It should not affect friendships anyway, unless we try to impose our beliefs on others. Sharing is not imposing. It's good, as it allows others to understand us better.

    I always have an empathetic spot for you, as you have been through your own dramas, and are still going through them. It takes a strong person, to let go of the other's behaviour, and start their own new behaviours. Sometimes it can be so easy to get dragged back into past behaviours, if one is not determined.

    I do wish you the best as always.

I am a mut when it comes to my religion, I was raised with christan beliefs, married to two jewish women, and i find comfort in my pagan beliefs and spirituality. I am, who I am, plain and simple, I don't have all the answers. As far as the rest of my life goes "it's been a long and winding road" but the view on the journey has been great
some times the things that comes from between my ears makes me pause for reflection


rm_travelguyoh 63M
12264 posts
4/10/2012 9:41 pm
    Quoting Ready4change12:
    Sometimes I've learned there are no truths to be found..Just follow Your Heart..
that's a mouth full of truth there...it's nice to see you back again
some times the things that comes from between my ears makes me pause for reflection


oneladybrijit 66F
420 posts
4/10/2012 8:08 pm

 I just read your latest blogs including Friendship. I wasn't prepared for your Easter rituals. I had the impression you were no longer religious. Even so, sometimes we still want to stay with what we have learned because it sometimes feels secure. Everything relating to religion is personal, and if someone else has a problem with it, I think they need to walk away or respect our beliefs. It should not affect friendships anyway, unless we try to impose our beliefs on others. Sharing is not imposing. It's good, as it allows others to understand us better.

I always have an empathetic spot for you, as you have been through your own dramas, and are still going through them. It takes a strong person, to let go of the other's behaviour, and start their own new behaviours. Sometimes it can be so easy to get dragged back into past behaviours, if one is not determined.

I do wish you the best as always.


Ready4change12 84F
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4/10/2012 7:22 pm

 Sometimes I've learned there are no truths to be found..Just follow Your Heart..
So


rm_travelguyoh 63M
12264 posts
4/10/2012 7:12 pm
    Quoting sonic_n_sideshow:
    You seem to be working through some heavy duty life stuff. The person though that has the attitude as you do in your last sentence about counting the good memories over the regrets, always seems to come out on top to me. All the best to you.
thank you...that was very sweet of you
some times the things that comes from between my ears makes me pause for reflection


sonic_n_sideshow 51M/53F
15101 posts
4/10/2012 6:02 pm

 You seem to be working through some heavy duty life stuff. The person though that has the attitude as you do in your last sentence about counting the good memories over the regrets, always seems to come out on top to me. All the best to you.
I am a celebration of willful chaos and a hugger.


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