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Blogs > 80sbaby71 > Life in the Nursery~

Reflections  

80sbaby71 52F
7366 posts
12/27/2011 10:52 pm
Reflections
There are moments where out of the blue...something comes to you. A reflection of sorts. Today I had that.

Driving down the road. I glanced to my right..and I knew that a chapter had closed. A chapter or two of my life. And a month ago...I would have weeped knowing this. But today, not so much. I was okay with this reflection.

What was this chapter? I came to the conclusion that to some people I was not a "reality" I was only a passing moment. This last year (2011) I started my life out getting to know someone...it was nice. It did not last...and I was hurt. Then I fell back into the "rebounder" not once...but three times... And of course the jock. And the one guy that really meant something. But today...these things aren't bothering me so much.

This blog is meant for me. A friend texted me this evening. And when they made a comment...I replied that I learned long ago as a small girl that I wasn't anything special. That continued into my years....and into my marriage. I don't say this to get sympathy or pity. I say this as a fact. And the kicker? I believed it all my life....UNTIL TODAY

It is just another day...but I will start this day in a few minutes...in my bed...alone..and most likely I will cry myself to sleep. I again am not saying this for pity or sympathy...but being honest...I will cry tonight and shed the tears of yesterday. I will start a new chapter. I will trust that if something good is to happen it will happen on it's own time frame.

I am tired of waiting for the phone to ring...a text to be sent... a email to arrive...I will start anew. I will be ok. And if life chooses to make me happy I will be....so for now...I will live vicariously through my dreams...so Aramis....here I come!
rm_jayman31313 35M
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16 posts
12/27/2011 11:09 pm

 this is a downer


PonyGirl1965 58F
22090 posts
12/27/2011 11:13 pm

 You are someone VERY SPECIAL in my life!!!
Happy Birthday Baby!!!


mflater1 73M  
50414 posts
12/28/2011 4:42 am

 Happy Birthday
This is not meant to offend any one in any way.








80sbaby71 52F
5516 posts
12/28/2011 8:21 am

 Sorry you think so...I meant it to be my way of saying goodbye to the bad stuff and starting 2012 off in a positive way.


80sbaby71 52F
5516 posts
12/28/2011 8:21 am
    Quoting  :


80sbaby71 52F
5516 posts
12/28/2011 8:21 am
    Quoting PonyGirl1965:
    You are someone VERY SPECIAL in my life!!!
    Happy Birthday Baby!!!
Thank you Pony!


80sbaby71 52F
5516 posts
12/28/2011 8:22 am
    Quoting  :
That is my thought...wash away all the negative and look towards 2012 with a positive heart.

Thank you!


80sbaby71 52F
5516 posts
12/28/2011 8:22 am

 Thank you!


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