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its that time of year
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its that time of year well my friends its that time of year where we all want to feel that wonderful feeling of love and passion of course we want to feel that all the time but its the spring that brings out the best and the worst in us. again i find myself being played by the hubby. i really tried not to nag him about the drinking but when he pushes the "I KNOW IT ALL" attitude, i have to just blow my stack. i am not perfect but for god sakes at least i know I'm not and i never pretend to be either. and i admit when I'm wrong. but yesterday i was just so proud of myself for getting all the stuff we needed for the plumbing and once again I'm distracted by his drinking and telling me what to do that i cut the pipe too short. it cost 5 dollars but he acted like it was 50. so i reminded him of all the mistakes that he had made that has cost us about a thousand dollars because he drinking and thought he knew it all. but did i keep pushing the issue and make him feel like a shit? no. he apologized for it when he sobered up but you can never take away what you say or the feelings that are left raw afterwords. i just wish i could teach all the alcoholics out there that if they would just stop drinking for one month, they would see things alto differently. but getting back to the point i was trying to make. i have wanted so much to get him on the right track for so long that i have gotten lost in the midts of it all. you can only help someone for so long till you finally realize that they are the only ones that can do it. i love making love and the spring weather just brings it out of me more. the smell of the air remindes me of my younger days of laying in a field and having my first boyfriend and husband later, show me what sex was about. lots of kissing and touching and slowly unbuttining and unzipping, sucking and nibbling. it was great. and love was all in our heads. we always remember the first time. and you know sometimes it a nice reminder to get the fire going again. not for me and my marriage of course but for all of you. iknow that there are a lot of you chomping at the bit to see if im real or if im just displaying a fantasy of mine. for those that i have met, you know im real and iput my heart into the time we spend together. and i know the word LOVE is used too loosely now days but you know that i love with my whole heart and soul when im with you. the way we kiss and the feel of your body against mine. i remember our fist time, and our second, i want to make all our times like its the first time. life is way too short to waste it on depression and loneliness. the only way i feel young is when im making love. oh and lets not forget the after glow, the cuddleing, the kissing that ignights the fire again. oooooooooooo baby i also want to take the time to thank all of you readers out there for reading my blogs and for your comments. it makes me feel alot better about writing so feely about all of this. and when you get a chance please leave me a comment i enjoy reading your opinoin and your blogs.... keeps safe everyone and wish me luck on the plumbing lol my love to all mystic |
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2/28/2009 7:39 am |
Why dont we get together on a nice spring day with love in the air and forget all about plumbing.........kasper
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It's amazing how much we want the same thing. And at the same time sad that we can't work out our differences and get together.
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