Reset Password
Reset Link Sent
| Blogs > rm_loveslilies > a Garden of Temptation |
something Has SNAPPED inside of me....
|
something Has SNAPPED inside of me....
|
|||||
|
If you are regular follower of my blog you know there has been some friction between my husband and I. Most also know the last couple of years have been very rough on our marriage. I am sad to say things have only gotten worse over the last week or so. I was trying to make light of it on here and with him so it was more approachable to fix. I was being honest about being a brat.I am BEING such a B Though now, I think the better term would be bitch. I hate when people or events push me till I put on my bitch hat !! Thing is he is not doing his part of fixing, never has been very good in that department, but I loved him anyways.. But ya know, there comes a point when one goes beyond fed up.. I don't think there is even a word I could you use to describe where I am at, because I have only been here once in my lifetime. It was during a time of trouble in my marriage when something was said and something inside of me snapped.. This has happened again. Even though he is not here for me in the way most would want I did realize while he was away in China last time that in fact he was there for me in away I just didn't recognize till then..I thought this would help things. I gotta say this, people don't push your luck in any kind of relationships to the point of fed up ! Because once you do, you are taking chances with that relationship, they may very well go where I am right now.. and last time I was here, I felt this way for over 2 years.. This sucks so bad guys.. this withdrawing emotionally out of my marriage. I think this is what I have been doing slowly over the last few months.. Trust me, I was looking for a reason any reason to stop, but it never happened, in fact more crap just got piled upon the crap that started this in the first place.. Remember when I wrote that blog about why I stay well..no NAUGHTY lingerie still working on it D This is the first time I have worried that he won't be able to, that I wont be able to fall in love with him once again.. This sucks.. can any of you relate ?? any of you have a word,term that describes where I am at emotionally in my marriage right now ?? Thanks for listening. much love {=} OMG I bummed myself out even more writing this dang thing, but I'm gonna post it anyways ! Now I'm gonna cheer myself up !! and possibly anybody else I brought down with me  sorry if I have. and we all know what cheers me up ! sex jokes sex talk, writing about sex etc etc etc 
| ||||
|
Just write it out like you did, it might help you to deal with it. Difficult for me relate, I must say, as my life is so different. Divorced already for about 13 years, and happy about it. but we are all different, no standard solutions. You just have to find out your way.  Only universal or also in Scotland Where to start my day or is it month Of course I39ll change I39ll do whatever you like Heatseeking missiles  Squirter's life
| ||||
|
I've never been married, so I've no idea what term it is that you're in right now.  Harry is reading a newspaper story about a successful, but dim, football player who is marrying a beautiful model. He calls out to his wife, "I'll never understand how the biggest morons end up with the best-looking wives!" His wife calls back, "Why, thank you, dear!" 
| ||||
|
you're so sweet to wanna help 
| ||||
|
hum..maybe
| ||||
|
Just write it out like you did, it might help you to deal with it. Difficult for me relate, I must say, as my life is so different. Divorced already for about 13 years, and happy about it. but we are all different, no standard solutions. You just have to find out your way.
| ||||
|
I've never been married, so I've no idea what term it is that you're in right now. Harry is reading a newspaper story about a successful, but dim, football player who is marrying a beautiful model. He calls out to his wife, "I'll never understand how the biggest morons end up with the best-looking wives!" His wife calls back, "Why, thank you, dear!"
| ||||
|
I thought you meant being honest with myself on my way !
| ||||
11/12/2011 5:22 pm |
I can relate to almost everything you said, been there too several years ago.
| ||||
|
| ||||
|
well... no, i don't think i've been where you are right now. but i think i know what you are talking about. i've seen my share of marriages fail... what i can tell you is this: as bad as a divorce can be, it is preferable to a bad marriage. but only you get to determine whether it has actually gotten to that point. hugs. and kisses.  how do you feel about... confidence versus arrogance come and tell me about it.
| ||||
|
I can relate to almost everything you said, been there too several years ago.
| ||||
11/14/2011 7:00 am |
I,m kind of in the middle of the same type of thing myself, I don't want to just give up and let it all go, but I'm also not sure it's worth puting much more effort into it eirher. Sorry I know that this is no help at all other that to let you know that you are not alone in this experience.
| ||||
|
I,m kind of in the middle of the same type of thing myself, I don't want to just give up and let it all go, but I'm also not sure it's worth puting much more effort into it eirher. Sorry I know that this is no help at all other that to let you know that you are not alone in this experience.
| ||||
|
I am so sorry you felt the pain of someone hurting you like that, but I believe, well know, that it can be they way it use to be it takes time and work. I hope things work out for you and me both
|
Become a member to create a blog
