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A lot of Nothing here... Jeeez...ive been a bad blogger this month i see..lol.I usually try to make a post during the weekdays,but i just looked at my list and i think ive only made 7 posts the whole month of January,lol. And while im on the subject of blogs--when in the hell are they going to fix the main blog page???Everytime i try to see if there is a new post,it just takes me to the most commented on posts.Now if i wanted to see them,id have them on my watched blogs,lol.Cant find about half of your blogs and im getting pissed off at that too.Now i know im only a 'standard' member and all,and honesty i would NEVER pay to be here...but still its been messed up for sooo long and i dont think that its my standardness thats makeing me not be able to see them.Shit,ive been here so long at this site,i can do most things that a paying member can do,so i dont really have a reason to upgrade if i even wanted too.But its making it hard to get to some of your blogs and its irritating as all hell. I was thinking today...hehe...i dont remember when i was pregnant with the .I mean i DO remember but i dont remember ever even looking pregnant.With my oldest i understand because he was born so early,i wasnt even 7 months pregnant when my water broke with him.So i really only showed a tiny bit.And yet when i had my youngest 18 months or so after...he was full term and i still dont remember looking pregnant.And it wasnt that i was heavy or anythin g like that...i just dont remember looking pregnant.Have no idea where that thought came from,God knows my mind works in weirdass ways.. My mom...aghhhhh.....how can i be incredibly pissed off at her and yet at the same time worry about her surgery this weekend??I love her,im not saying that i dont...but she pissed me off this week big time...here it was HER idea to have the Dr give my grandma the Ativan!And kept her pretty much<b> stoned </font></b>for the last week or so.I finally found that out and told my grandma and she flipped out and told the DR that she didnt want any more,that maybe one at bedtime to sleep,but not to keep her doped up all day.Talked to my grandma today and she sounded really really good.I wish to hell she'd be coming home soon.I wont even be able to see her on my Birthday on Tuesday,and thats shitty as hell too.God i sound like a whiny ass baby...hehe..i want my grammy..... But my mom is having her gall bladder surgery Saturday,its not a terribly tough thing anymore,in fact they said that she'd be home Sunday more than likely.So its like i feel a lil guilty about bein pissed off at her,but i cant help it.Of course ill worry about her and go see her,least the hospital is less than half a mile from where i live,i was just jacked at what she did to my grandma i guess.. Ive been feeling incredibly anxious lately and i think its that Matt is still not better and it scares me.His BP is better,he's still been having a little chest pain though...i tried to tell him that when we were at Childrens Hospital in Pgh,which is a very good hospital-they did all kinds of tests on him and found nothing wrong with his heart or chest.He's like me sometimes though..when he gets upset or anxious he holds the feelings inside and im not so sure that hes not getting an ulcer.At his next Dr appt i think that ill ask about that,i didnt even think about that til yesterday.But they seemed to think that his having high blood pressure is from stress and anxiety.So while i was trying to get him calmed down...inside i was freaking out because i was worried and i didnt want to let him see it.I just went to my room and i cried and then i prayed for him.He seems a little better,just not back to his normal self.My grandma said one of the funniest things ever when i talked to her shortly thereafter...she could tell that id been crying and upset and she asked me if i had any green to smoke.(Thats how i KNEW that she wasnt thinking clear,lol)And i said well,i might have a tiny bit that was left in my backpack from a long long time ago--but that i dont smoke it,and the only thing i could do would be to look at it,hehe.And i didnt wanna get back into drinking after being sober for so long..thank God that i think things are a little better.Im not a good handler of stress,i never have been,thats probably the reason for my drinking and most definitely for my cutting...but i just rode it out and prayed and ill keep doing that. Omg...i was in the philly room last night and saw a few buddies that i havent seen in forever and that was pretty cool..including the first person i ever spoke to here,back when i joined all those years ago--hes such a sweetie.Course i was only there to brag on my Steelers--but everyone in the room were Steelers fans cept for one Giants fan,lol.But jeez,i happened to see a guy id not had the chance to talk to before...and man if i werent taken,he had a lot of the qualities that i like in a guy..lol.Long hair,hes a musicia n...into a lot of the same bands and all that i like,damn.I had to leave the room to get ready as i was running late,but i didnt want to..lol.I think i needed to talk to someone and i just couldnt get into the blog frame of mind yesterday. Ok..so everyone and their brother knows that i adore David Cook,lol...but for some reason im having a hard time watching Idol this year.I knew that months ago-that since i finally had someone win that i actually loved,that id probably not be able to get into it as much and im right i think.Course i still watched it,and i'll more than likely watch a few more episodes,but its just not the same.Ahh...im an idiot...hehe The bf asked me what kind of cake that i wanted for my birthday.. and i didnt have the heart to tell him that i really dont like cake..lol.Actually i wanted a DairyQueen Strawberry ice cream one but i didnt tell him that.My grandma promised me that she'd get me one when she came home so thats good enough.But he has these heart shaped pans and i think he's gonna make me a heart cake so i have to love that...im such a terribly hopeless romantic its unreal.. Good lord im getting old...i was talking with my friend Bill today and i didnt wanna tell him how old i was,,,and he said something that put things into perspective...that the alternative would be much worse,so that stopped me in my tracks.Course then he wanted to take me outside and give me 40+ something or other..hehe,he's such a perv. Shit there isnt any football this weekend...guess ill have to get into something else.Have some Earl dvds to watch,and its sposed to be cold,so ill end up doing that.And looking into doing the bfs taxes.I swear i was online looking at the new tax laws and all that shit and it made my head spin.Methinks that i should reconsid er my wanting to do taxes on the side,lol.But i told him..hell,he paid a couple hundred bucks last year and i would have done them free...so i cant back down,lol. People are fucking nuts anymore.I know,thats nothing new...but i swear my neighbors take the cake for the most fucked up.I dont know what the hell they were doing last night but it sounded like they had a chainsaw running inside the house..God... Saw today that Heath Ledger was nominated for an Oscar for his Joker portrayal and that was pretty cool.And on the anniversary of his death no less.I thought he was incredible in that role,in fact i couldnt stand fucking Batman,i was rooting for the Joker the whole movie...even though he was the bad guy,he was just so awesomely crazy.I dont think that i even watched the Oscars but once in the last 10 years or so,i may have to tune into this years maybe.Or else just find out online,as i do with most of the things that i wanna see.Finally got to see U2 at youtube from Washington and that was just so so special...makes me rememeber why i adore Bono as i do. Ah...i saw this on more than a few blogs so i figured what the hell,might as well do it my own self...lol 1. When was the last time you shaved your legs?..few hours ago 2. What were you doing this morning at 8 am?..not 8 yet,lol 3. What were you doing 15 minutes ago?..blogging 4. What are you wearing?..green sleep shirt 5. Are you mad at anyone right now?..not really 6. Last person to say they loved you?..the bf last night 7. Last time you kissed someone?..bf wednesday afternoon 8. Have you ever had sexual interaction with someone your own sex? yes i have actually but limited..lol 9. Favorite lingerie color?..pink or black 11. Have you ever had sex in a public place?..hehe,yes yes and yes 12. Have you ever been searched by the cops?..no 13. How long is your hair?..halfway down my back 14. How many different drinks have you had today?..milk and mt dew 15. What have you eaten today?..piece of pizza and crackers 16. Are you any good at math?..very good at math 17. Do you have plans for Saturday night?...yes 18. Do you like Sex On The Beach?..hehe sex yes,the drink no 19. Do you prefer beer/wine/liquor or none?..vodka before i quit 20. Have you ever been awake for 48 hours straight?..not that long 21. Do you like the ocean?..i love the ocean 22. Do you stay friends with your ex/exes?..never 23. What are you excited about?..STEELERS!! 24. What did you do last night?..hung out with my gf a lil 25. What is your real age?..i feel OLD 26. Where do you keep your change?..in a jar on my bed shelf 27. Do you remember the most naughty night of your life?..yes and it was weird and not gonna go into it right now,lol 28. Would you rather sleep with someone else, or alone?..not alone 29. Have you ever had a one night stand?...yes a few 30. Have you slept with anyone in your network?..no but im sure that theres probably a few that im attracted to.. Ah..i gotta get moving...todays my busy day of the week.I hope that you all have a great great weekend and be warm and safe... Pic...dont hate me but i had tooooo..hehe love ya guys..  She's Dangerous cause she's Honest-(U2) |
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1/23/2009 4:29 am |
Great post...remember it is your style and why we all come back. So many story lines!  Yeah, one football game left (pro bowl doesn't count). I used to be really into college basketball, but not so much anymore. I use the winter to get ready for baseball. By the way, do you "Who" and do I already have your UN? I think I do but am not sure.
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Wow not looking pregnant. Lucky you. I was so big with my first that I looked like a house with a 2 car garage attached. The doctor thought for sure I was having twins because I was so big. My daughter ended up being 5lbs. 14 oz. A tiny little thing. Cheryl        
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Hey!!! Try to find a reflexoligist to take Mat to. Anxiety can give you Phantom pains which then leads to a higher anxiety more pain. they may be able to relax him and the pain will subside. they use pressure points in the feet. Good stuff. I could not resist doing this. Just me!!! Ha Ha!!! 1. When was the last time you shaved your legs? Never Shaved and trimmed my goatee yesterday. 2. What were you doing this morning at 8 am?Blogging and working on a computer. 3. What were you doing 15 minutes ago?..blogging 4. What are you wearing?Faded red sleeveless T shirt and Kiski area wrestling gym shorts. 5. Are you mad at anyone right now? I don't get mad. . Last person to say they loved you? MJ... 7. Last time you kissed someone? this afternoon MJ 8. Have you ever had sexual interaction with someone your own sex? Yes but not my own choice! 9. Favorite lingerie color?Red and black 11. Have you ever had sex in a public place?..hehe,yes yes and yes Me too!!! 12. Have you ever been searched by the cops? Yes 13. How long is your hair? medium length 14. How many different drinks have you had today?Coffee and water 15. What have you eaten today? Serial and blueberry yogurt. Home made spicy chicken stir fry. 16. Are you any good at math?..very good at math 17. Do you have plans for Saturday night?...yes 18. Do you like Sex On The Beach?..hehe sex yes,My favorite place 19. Do you prefer beer/wine/liquor or none?dry 20 days. prefer beer when I drink 20. Have you ever been awake for 48 hours straight?72 hours when I was in the service 21. Do you like the ocean?..i love the ocean....See answer to question 18 22. Do you stay friends with your ex/exes?Both 23. What are you excited about?..STEELERS!! 24. What did you do last night?Blog 25. What is your real age? 50 and I feel 25 26. Where do you keep your change?A top from a bundle of blank CD's 27. Do you remember the most naughty night of your life?..yes and it was weird and not gonna go into it right now,lol 28. Would you rather sleep with someone else, or alone?..not alone 29. Have you ever had a one night stand?Tons in my younger day it was cool 30. Have you slept with anyone in your network?..no but im sure that theres probably a few that im attracted to.. How is it you relate with that special someone!!! We are Relational Beings and How to Communicate A moment of lust does not equal The eternity of true LOVE Keep your heart true and pure Get it RIGHT Or get LEFT        
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Great post...remember it is your style and why we all come back. So many story lines! Yeah, one football game left (pro bowl doesn't count). I used to be really into college basketball, but not so much anymore. I use the winter to get ready for baseball. By the way, do you "Who" and do I already have your UN? I think I do but am not sure.doesnt seem to happen with me...lol If the Pirates would ever get their shit together,id watch baseball all over again,i used to be a huge baseball fan..but yea i cant wait til Sunday! I think you do have my hoo'...but if not ill get it to ya..lol Hope you had a great weekend hon.. She's Dangerous cause she's Honest-(U2)
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She's Dangerous cause she's Honest-(U2)
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Wow not looking pregnant. Lucky you. I was so big with my first that I looked like a house with a 2 car garage attached. The doctor thought for sure I was having twins because I was so big. My daughter ended up being 5lbs. 14 oz. A tiny little thing. so he was too little.But Matt was on time and he was 7-6..i just dont really remember looking pregnant,lol. Thanks darlin.. She's Dangerous cause she's Honest-(U2)
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Hey!!! Try to find a reflexoligist to take Mat to. Anxiety can give you Phantom pains which then leads to a higher anxiety more pain. they may be able to relax him and the pain will subside. they use pressure points in the feet. Good stuff. I could not resist doing this. Just me!!! Ha Ha!!! 1. When was the last time you shaved your legs? Never Shaved and trimmed my goatee yesterday. 2. What were you doing this morning at 8 am?Blogging and working on a computer. 3. What were you doing 15 minutes ago?..blogging 4. What are you wearing?Faded red sleeveless T shirt and Kiski area wrestling gym shorts. 5. Are you mad at anyone right now? I don't get mad. . Last person to say they loved you? MJ... 7. Last time you kissed someone? this afternoon MJ 8. Have you ever had sexual interaction with someone your own sex? Yes but not my own choice! 9. Favorite lingerie color?Red and black 11. Have you ever had sex in a public place?..hehe,yes yes and yes Me too!!! 12. Have you ever been searched by the cops? Yes 13. How long is your hair? medium length 14. How many different drinks have you had today?Coffee and water 15. What have you eaten today? Serial and blueberry yogurt. Home made spicy chicken stir fry. 16. Are you any good at math?..very good at math 17. Do you have plans for Saturday night?...yes 18. Do you like Sex On The Beach?..hehe sex yes,My favorite place 19. Do you prefer beer/wine/liquor or none?dry 20 days. prefer beer when I drink 20. Have you ever been awake for 48 hours straight?72 hours when I was in the service 21. Do you like the ocean?..i love the ocean....See answer to question 18 22. Do you stay friends with your ex/exes?Both 23. What are you excited about?..STEELERS!! 24. What did you do last night?Blog 25. What is your real age? 50 and I feel 25 26. Where do you keep your change?A top from a bundle of blank CD's 27. Do you remember the most naughty night of your life?..yes and it was weird and not gonna go into it right now,lol 28. Would you rather sleep with someone else, or alone?..not alone 29. Have you ever had a one night stand?Tons in my younger day it was cool 30. Have you slept with anyone in your network?..no but im sure that theres probably a few that im attracted to.. Ive been looking into some things...its hard because he is so shy and uncomfortable with people that he doesnt know..but when he told me that he wanted to go to the ER when this first happen ed,i knew he was worried.Hes ok..just not back to normal yet.Its very hard,and with everything else going on,i think thats getting to him also.Im still praying for him,i try to keep the faith,its just a lil hard sometimes. Thanks for doin the quiz thingie...i didnt really expect anyone to do it,hell its been going around so much i think i might have done it before..lol. Thanks babydoll.. She's Dangerous cause she's Honest-(U2)
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them.Maybe its cause im only a standard member,i dont know...i did see about half of them,so maybe ill get them all back,lol I do love my mom--its just that she made me mad and it was not a nice thing to do to my grandma,thats the main reason i was pissed off at her.Went to see her yesterday after she had her surgery and she's doing well..thats a good thing. thanks for your sweet words hon.. She's Dangerous cause she's Honest-(U2)
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hi babe.. aw,sweetie..thank you for your sweet words.Things are ok right now...hopefully they get a lil better soon,im still stressed out over everything,but getting better i think,lol Love ya back sweetie.. She's Dangerous cause she's Honest-(U2)
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hehe,i hear ya...i could look at him all damn day! Thanks darlin.. She's Dangerous cause she's Honest-(U2)
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hi sweetie... ooooh i know,im getting excited about the game now,the closer that it gets..lol Thanks for the House reminder..i hope that i do remember! thanks sweetie.. She's Dangerous cause she's Honest-(U2)
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aww,sweetie,thank you sooo much. Hehe.im a huge David Cook fan..one of several on this site,lol. Thanks again sweetie.. She's Dangerous cause she's Honest-(U2)
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