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I'm on a byway to heck
I'm on a byway to heck Growing up is in large part about adjusting to a narrowing of possibilities . Which each year we surrender what could have been . When you’re little you can become a spaceman as easily as you can become a fireman . When you’re a liberal arts major you’re still holding open the door to being a novelist . When you’ve reached adulthood your choice have narrowed to private sector wageslave (good pay) or public sector wageslave (ability to not hate yourself) . Time accelerates as you grow up as well . A fly can avoid your crushing hand because it perceives the world 12 times faster . At twelve a<b> trip </font></b>to the dentist can seem like an never-ending quest . At forty life can feel like a series of waves crashing one after another – each existing for only a few seconds . Gaining knowledge is wonderful . I can change a tire , throw a perfect outside breaking ball , and do basic functions in Excel . I couldn’t do any of those things when I was a . But what you don’t know is just as wonderful as what you do , sometimes moreso . When I was 7 I could open a book and just look at the names and places . When you’re just learning about buttoning your shirts and walking without getting run over every shred of information is pregnant with the potential to give birth to something extraordinary . I could look at the name Van Lingle Mungo in the encyclopedia and instantly build a world around it . And then another . And another . Dozens of worlds all spinning at once . I remember being afraid as a . When my mom went to work or my dad went to a meeting I had to fill my mind with something because the sheer possibilities surrounding me were overwhelming . As much as it is exhilarating to have the universe stretch out before you it’s terrifying as well . How will you manage ? Every time you pick up one thing you’re letting go of something else . I miss that overwhelming potential though . I have a car , a house , a computer , books , collections , kitchen appliances , battery powered sexual devices – and I find myself wishing I had nothing . The resonance of the images in comic books come from that sense of possibility . They promise us a chance to play with that possibility and to conquer the fear that comes with its immensity . The comic book is a direct expression of possibility . What if the fears in our lives became powers ? And what if the powers we read about could become real ? I order things online all the time . I’ve become inured to the wait . When I was a though the weeks between one comic and the next were interminable . They were a journey of possibility – time when you’re allowed to believe what you bought was everything you hoped that it would be . Or course it was all just a metaphor . We all have to grow up and we all do . We find our own way . Inevitably we get stronger and tougher . Some challenges , even when overcome , disappoint us . Only a few of us grow up to be spacemen . With each choice we make and each hill we climb we lose possibility . Why are we drawn back to that world again and again ? Whatever power we may have as adults it will never match the horizon that was before us as . It’s a little scar and we poke that scar once in a while and remember the feeling we had as . When anything could happen . Putting first by putting employees first, immediately after prioritizing fiscal responsibilities and leveraging profitability towards exceeding by empowering our employees to put (and themselves) first, in a diverse and respectful environment of only those that come first, first. |
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I try not to dwell on the loss of potential and embrace what I can of a second childhood. Opportunity may knock only once, but temptation bangs on the door forever!
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