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From Purgatory to Hell!
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From Purgatory to Hell! From Purgatory to Hell I thought when I got back into his arms everything would be ok. That is how it has always worked before but not this time and I’m very afraid not anymore. The last 2 days we’ve had the most horrific fights in our entire time together. At one point last night I was so upset I was throwing pillows, my phone and wound up in the fetal position on the bathroom floor balling my eyes out in a desperate attempt to get away from the pain. I never imagined that I could ever feel this awful in my marriage with the Viking. I got up here and he tells me they are planning 7-14 days in August together, she wants time in Oct and her being with him for the week of NYE despite him having promised me that this holiday was ours since it is the first time in our relationship we’ve had the opportunity to be free and spend the entire holiday break together. It was one of the last things we talked about before she got here. He’s still in his “I want what I want and will have it my way no matter what”. He basically told me last night I can either let him do what he wants or he’ll just hide it from me. I told him that there was obviously nothing I could do to stop him from making that decision but that wasn’t something that was good for any of us. He doesn’t understand why I need more time to adjust to him being alone with the GF for more than 3-4 days at a time. He doesn’t understand the kind of pain I’m in trying to deal with this. Or maybe deep down he just doesn’t care anymore. He says I’m being needy and I know he hates that. I feel like I’ve lost my safe place. He doesn’t seem to care what I need if it interferes with what he wants which is as much time alone with the GF as possible. His wants are paramount. He says he’s my guard but he can’t be when he won’t compromise to reduce some of the pain I’m in. I don’t know what to do anymore. I’ve sent him resources on C-PTSD to read so he can understand better what I’m trying to cope with. I’ve bought all the recommended poly books. I’ve compromised on how often he sees her and for how long. I even offered to share the holidays with her but I’m not giving that up without a fight. I’ve given and compromised all I’m going to at this point. I just can’t give anymore or compromise anymore with being in this excruciating pain. I need time to adjust to the idea of sharing his heart and apparently that just isn’t something he’s willing to give me. Please keep sending positive energy and prayers our way for things to work themselves out. Thank you all for your love and support. Take care and love each other well. Kisses, L  Kisses, LA    |
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Hope things get better. Kisses
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GOOD
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Next time he comes to "visit" you..make sure he leaves with a thermos full of piping hot coffee...laced with some salt-peter. That might put a wrench in the works. And it will wear off right as he comes home to roost. Healing thoughts mixed with a little revenge topper. Smooches
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I was hoping that all things had magically righted themselves...I'm so sorry. More hugs from afar. From what I know of poly, this isn't anything resembling it. It sounds like your needs and wants aren't a consideration. It's so hard when something we've built our life around turns out not to be what we thought or changes into something we don't recognize. I wish you for you clarity and peace. And more hugs. Always more hugs. xoxo Always tell the truth Use kind words Keep your promises Giggle and laugh Be positive Love one another Always be grateful Forgiveness is mandatory Try new things Say please and thank you Say your prayers Smile ~Author unknown
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Some tough, painful decisions are up the road... hope you make the right ones darling.  Thoughts from the Garden...
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4/7/2015 8:41 pm |
PurplePeach, Man, this post broke my hart reading it and I wished I could help in some one. I can't give advise because I don't know the pain you are going through. Please know my thoughts and prayers are with you. Hugs!!
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There is a reason he has been married so many times ... this is not going to end well for you or your little one. Get out before the damage becomes worse. Do you have any Primal Urges ... I do, please CUMHANDLEME and explore some of my naughty and nice Primal ... Urges with me !!!
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My sexy...pretty one...Don't drive your self crazy, I know it hurts..it's now how you fall...it's how you pick yourself back up!! You are a very pretty woman and I must say you have a sweeet..sexy body!!!! Try to move on. If any time you would like to chat..email me here on Senior Sizzle!!
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